Feeling better. Throwing up black stuff stopped. I think it has passed. Working as normal. But have no appetite. Eat once a day. But so it goes. Saves me money in end.

Been sick last few days with nasty cough. Lungs hurt. Feel weak light headed and every time cough got metalic taste in mouth no mater how much i drink water. Crackling sounds in lung like that candy that pops and crackles in mouth. Just dont feel well. Will take break for a bit.

Update

Was throwing up some black stuff on empty stomach. But seems ok now.

Got in conversation with lady other day. She was offended i willing to be stay at home dad if get married and wife makes more then me. Asked me if i would feel shame. I said no.

She said it not socially acceptable i should feel shame. Social norms in my oppinion like fashion. It changes constantly. Looking back in life i remember when being gay was frowned on and not considered socially acceptable. But it is now.

Like when cant get job with face tattoos. That change. Social norms stupid. Dont bend to what society eants you to be. It changes on wim like fashion.

I remember days were i had to hide my autism when asked about any existing mental conditions during job interviews. Would not get job if told truth. Social norms change. I no longer need to feel shame about it or hide it. It not something held against me any more over years.

I spent most of life hiding it. Socially isolating self. But after talking to friebd i learned being a aspie not something to be ashamed of anymore.

Thoughts on social norms and how it changes over time?