If so I need you to buy me something, ill send you money to cover all the costs

Consider this

https://youtu.be/zi8ShAosqzI

<i'm not begging or asking for money or begging for help, i just need to let you all know how im feeling>


I'm not well, not emotionally/mentally.

I've become very suicidal recently, not really caring about life or myself and just thinking it would be easier to just kill myself then keep dragging on.

I'm not really sure what to do guys, i feel stuck.

I still can't get my ID, so i can't go get a working job, so i have to keep grinding on with artwork, which is whats making me take a long walk off a short pier ifyouknowwhatimean.

this time of year my bank account is at $10 and my workload is 12345543242 so i feel like even tho i work day in and day out i'm just fucking useless.


and now i've got this fucking con to go to that i paid for MONTHS back and then some concert the month after with the same issue meaning i feel RIDDLED WITH GUILT for going out and having fun, and i dont know if youve felt that way before but omg it's horrible

here i am with 30 fucking notes and just so overwhelmed it's not even funny and i'm out having fun? damn i'm a horrible person

so like

even on my fucking days off i work

which like i said is just fucking killing me

you know that mental heath week i took? LMAO no. i worked every day though that

and then i get shit for drawing for myself, the only joy i still have.

like some of you guys are just killing me :(




i'm stressin man, im fucking one step away from eating a bullet



what should i even do? like im serious

WHAT THE FUCK DO I DO

cause i cant just say fuck it and bail


cause i owe people shit


and i cant do refunds because fuck i dont have money man


i cant go get help cause i dont have $200 for a prescription and an hour on the couch every month


i dont know what to do


i feel helpless


i just want to be happy man

i just want to stop feeling dead inside


im crying fam

i'm so scared...

I've been asked about art slaves and stuff, and i really dont want to take any on ever again since i still have to work on one..

But

the question still pops up every other week

so

if you want to buy a large chunk of my time, i do offer private streams, ive done these every so often for frequent commissioners but i guess it's not fair that i dont offer them publicly at all


so heres how they work, you contact me, give me a date you want to "buy me for"


give me all the refs of the characters you'd use, i'll either approve them or turn them down (im kinda picky with these since i'll be spending 8-13 hours working with them)


tell me all that you would like during the stream (sketches, colored sketches, full color, lines, all that shit, give me an idea of how much work you want done)

and i give you a price quote

these "bulk" commissions are discounted slightly, just since i dont have to work as hard to get the money/commissions, so i'll give you a price ranging from $100-$300 , i've yet to do one that costs more than that but theres no promise that your quote wont go past $300


these are open most of the time, since i use my "days off" to do them.

so yeah, if you would ever like one, just hit me up. It's a great way to get to know me too since we'll be talking the whole time, either though voice calls or text haha

whos going?

i wanna draw some bright colors

$35 single char

comment with a ref so i can get on this

BECAUSE IM CLEARLY INSANE NOW WE HAVE 100 OPEN SLOTS


theses will be done over time, and payment will only be accepted once i'm ready to do yours, meaning you could wait for a solid month before it's your turn in line!!

examples

http://imgur.com/a/aSoCR

ONE CHARACTER ONLY


NSFW OR SFW

NOTHING SUPER COMPLEX IM ONLY SPENDING 10 MINUTES ON THESE THINGS

ANTHRO OR FERAL

THESE WONT HAVE COLOR, LOOK AT THE EXAMPLES BEFORE YOU COMMENT

i will be working down the list, so please comment with a ref and what you would like and i'll start working down it

these will be my iron artists // snicker

anyways, feel free (if at any point in time) to come back and hide your comment if you can no longer afford it/ dont want it anymore.



FEEL FREE TO COLOR THESE YOURSELF, JUST LET ME KNOW IF YOU WANT TO SO I CAN GIVE YOU A FILE WITHOUT A TONED BG

this time of the year is the worst,i may as well just drop art for the next 4 months and go get a job at a store

all these cons packed together, plus people just buying stuff for real life makes it mega hard to stay afloat

(not blaming you guys for not commissioning me, trust me, i need money to go out and do the shit everyone else is doing LMAO)

shit's just disheartening

BECAUSE OM CLEARLY INSANE

examples

http://imgur.com/a/ZFMwa


COMMENT TO CLAIM, AFTER PAYMENT HAS BEEN RECEIVED ILL START A TIMER ON YOUR SKETCH

I JUST REALIZED CAPS WERE ON BUT NOW ITS TOO LATE


IM DEDICATED

SINGLE CHARACTER ONLY

IM OPEN FOR 10 OF THESE

will probably look like this
http://www.furaffinity.net/view/19523874/

BECAUSE OM CLEARLY INSANE
I HAVE NO CLUE WHAT THESE WILL LOOK LIKE BUT I WORK SUPER FASTSO THEYLL PROBABLY BE PRETTY OK LOOKING , JUST A TAD ROUGH

COMMENT TO CLAIM, AFTER PAYMENT HAS BEEN RECIVED ILL START A TIMER ON YOUR SKETCH

I JUST RELIZED CAPS WERE ON BUT NOW ITS TOO LATE


IM DEDICATED

SINGLE CHARATER ONLY

IM OPEN FOR 10 OF THESE

will probably look like this
http://www.furaffinity.net/view/19523874/

this will be a week where i dont check note, work on past owed, or fret over stuff.

i'll still be streaming everyday, but i'll be more relaxed, i'll be doodling with 2 slots open each stream.

i'm just gunna sit back and read, i really need this before the next two months roll around because theyre going to be hell for me.


thank you.

Heya everyone, so ima be pretty blunt here

i'm super drained

like literally one step from jumping off a cliff. (i dont need coaching on this pl0x, i talk to people, i dont need strangers lecturing me and messaging me saying that "they're here for me, it's not necessary, i do appreciate that you care about me tho)

so i really need you guys to understand and be patient with me.

Two days back i tried to go get medicated and get help, only to have my inssurance turned away and to be rejected from the cheaper clinics, I'd love to ask for help so that i could afford to get medication and help, but, i'm not going to beg for shit, i'd rather just keel over right now.

I'm trying to perk up by doing some personal shit but it's not helping helping that i need to work my ass off for bills, and next month is going to be even more hectic and the month after that EVEN more so.

I'm working on past owed slowly but surely, if you want a refund HMU, i dont need a msg every other day tho, so if some of you keep that up i just wont be able to reply anymore, it's stressing me way the hell out.

i'm not a robot

i'm a poorly planned human.

cut me some slack please

also offering $60 badges finished and shipped to you

and $100 full color single char done in stream, ask for examples

https://picarto.tv/codeine
https://picarto.tv/codeine

i just unwatched 700 people
omfg

so many dead accounts

my paypal card not working.


what makes me happy?


sweet customer call reps.

i think from here on out i'm gunna just take payment after the commission is finished, that way if i cant get to it it's not massively past owed/i have to issue a refund.


i'm going to try this, and i'll be putting a ton of trust in people but i think it's what needs to be done.


imput? opinions?

heya things may slow down a bit, ive just been down in the dumps + i hate drawing

so please be patient, i haven forgotten about everything

$40 for full color per character

I get these done super quick so its great for in between commission work

comment to claim homies

halp, i cant find any good ones

((REPOST, one slot left))
OK so

I'm at TFF and my fucking card bills all cycled though today, even though i paid them in advance i guess the credit companies dont give a shit tho, i will be working this out but like

there's nothing that can do right now since it would take probably a week for the money to be put back in my account

so here i am

with -$38 because credit cards hate me.


so im opening for 5 slots

colored sketches or mono sketches

colored are $50 per char

mono are $30 per char

examples:
http://imgur.com/a/UN8po


the slots can be one or two characters, it'll still count as one slot.

yes you can buy multiple slots

yes you may use my characters



THESE WILL BE STARTED TUESDAY AFTERNOON AND DONE BY THE END OF THAT WEEK



please be ready to pay right away TTvTT send help i havent eaten all day<3


Slots

1) taken

2) taken

3) taken

4) taken

5)


Just need gas money now!~ yay!~

((REPOST))

OK so

I'm at TFF and my fucking card bills all cycled though today, even though i paid them in advance i guess the credit companies dont give a shit tho, i will be working this out but like

there's nothing that can do right now since it would take probably a week for the money to be put back in my account

so here i am

with -$38 because credit cards hate me.


so im opening for 5 slots

colored sketches or mono sketches

colored are $50 per char

mono are $30 per char

examples:
http://imgur.com/a/UN8po


the slots can be one or two characters, it'll still count as one slot.

yes you can buy multiple slots

yes you may use my characters



THESE WILL BE STARTED TUESDAY AFTERNOON AND DONE BY THE END OF THAT WEEK



please be ready to pay right away TTvTT send help i havent eaten all day<3


Slots

1) taken

2) taken

3)

4)

5)

OK so

I'm at TFF and my fucking card bills all cycled though today, even though i paid them in advance i guess the credit companies dont give a shit tho, i will be working this out but like

there's nothing that can do right now since it would take probably a week for the money to be put back in my account

so here i am

with -$38 because credit cards hate me.


so im opening for 5 slots

colored sketches or mono sketches

colored are $50 per char

mono are $30 per char

examples:
http://imgur.com/a/UN8po


the slots can be one or two characters, it'll still count as one slot.

yes you can buy multiple slots

yes you may use my characters



THESE WILL BE STARTED TUESDAY AFTERNOON AND DONE BY THE END OF THAT WEEK



please be ready to pay right away TTvTT send help i havent eaten all day<3


Slots

---

1) taken

2) taken

3)

4)

5)

$80 flat, 2 characters for $140

Comment to claim, or note me.

Can be private or public.

Need to be able to send payment right way, no holds.

Examples : http://www.furaffinity.net/gallery/.....ed-and-colored

Will come with a free bg

If you wanna meet me lemme know, I've got nothing going on.