It’s been a struggle to get into my late husbands account.

It’s with a heavy heart that he passed away on August 8th 2021. He suffered from a heart attack related to complications from his kidney failure. He was laid to rest a few weeks later. His birthday would have been the month after.

Dantee aka Raymond Joseph George Lavoie Jr , was born September 8th 1979, he passed away August 8th 2021. He was survived by his wife, husky Senya and cat thexan.

If anyone has any question please feel free to reach out I’ve had to make a new account. ( MysticalPagan ) My fur name is Ashtale Bluewolf.

Thank you everyone who was a friend and family to him. You all meant the world to him.

So its been a long while since I updated this.

Couple of things have happened since my last post.
Lets get to the bad news and go from there.
I have been in and out of the hospital and i have now become end stage renal failure.
yes this means i need a new kidney mine are pretty shot.
I am legally disabled not just from my mental conditions but i am disabled from my health condition.
No this is not all cause of my habits and things like that.. It was brought on from my mental condition which spurred my physical conditions out of control.

now to the good news
I am going thru the process of getting on to a transplant list.
Going thru Jackson memorial hospital and the university of miami.


If you are looking to help right now they are testing for a new kidney for me and if you are interested i have a form i caan email you to see if you are compatabile..

if aall goes the way i hope it is i will make a go fund me to fly the person out here for the surgery round trip.. this way they dont have to pay for anything.. if you are working the fmla covers you for any down time for donating.

well i am going to rest now.. doing things drains me super fast nowa days.

So once again i am going into the hospital... Yay so much fun... i love being woken up at 8:30 in the morning to betold by my doctor i need to go into the hospital right away... Sad thing is they dont take Mental Health into consideration. I am pretty messed in the head with my PTSD and my Bi polar disorder and having anxiety on top of that that is a coctail that will kill anyone..

here is the weird thing i feel pretty good and lost 10lbs but here is the bad rapid weight loss is not a good thing... so i need to get that checked out..

I have no idea how all of this will get paid for.. but i got to go... so lets hope a miracle happens...

I will keep people up to date with what is going on.

if you have me on messanger go ahead and send me messages... i will try to check here on my phone but cant do much as the hospital prevents access to this site...

i am going to get telegraph and keep intouch with those in SEFF maybe people will come visit me... take care all

So I am typing this from my hospital bed.. I was admitted to the hospital on the observation floor.. I have been having seizures.. one which caused me to have convulsions on of which bruised a rib.. I am going to be here all night while they observe me

So I am typing this from my hospital bed.. I was admitted to the hospital on the observation floor.. I have been having seizures.. one which caused me to have convulsions on of which bruised a rib.. I am going to be here all night while they observe me

Due to living a range men's they are short money to live.. she is doing awesome arts for extremely low prices and it's worth every penny and then some


http://www.furaffinity.net/journal/7085087/
This her journal explaining what is going on.. please if you can buy some of her art. Thanks.

So once again my friend is being harassed by someone who disappeared from the fandom a few years ago. the moment she makes a new account she starts drama again..

We all moved on. but she keeps wanting to start stuff. so here here is some evidence i will post for those to see and you can make your own decessions about this..

I am not calling them out but i am posting videos..

the first video was created in 2011 showing 2 identical suits.
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=p-_nsGSzMbo

this one was made most recently
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=l6wW8IDGU1U

the second suit was sold off and a new head was made.. but since the body suit looks pretty much the same my friend is harassed.. also art of the second suit was sold to my friend when she bought the suit back 4+ years ago.

I think the childish needs to stop.
not all of the art she has been posting is hers.. she has been altering it for herself and claiming she paid for it.. she has been posted to artist beware.. I dont like art thieves. and just cause twin suit was sold off doesnt mean you can harass the new owner.. that is being like a 2 yr old.. well i am done..

She is currently in need of some help with some finaces and i am sure all of us have been there done that.. she has great art pieces at amazing prices..

so please check her out order some art help her out so she can get back on track..

i have been in her place before so i have placed an order too even with my tight budget cause i know how much it means to help another out..

http://www.furaffinity.net/journal/...../#cid:47394905

there is the journal.. now go and buy some art from her

please help this little pup out..
the link has all the info this poor pup was rescued from what would have been a horrible fate.
please help donate.

http://www.furaffinity.net/journal/...../#cid:43623845

Thats right I am going to lose my house there is nothing I can do about that.

I have setup a GoFundMe to help us with moving exspenses so we can have atleast something.
I know the furry community has a big heart. Please dont let me end up on the streets.

http://www.gofundme.com/cxmm44

RULES :
1. Pick one of your OCs.
2. Fill in the questions/statements as if you were your OC.
3. Tag four people to do this meme!
4. Tell people that they been tagged with a link from your journal

OC CHOSEN:
Dantee Marcus Cryvante

QUESTIONS:

1. What is your name?
Dantee Marcus Cryvante

2. Do you know why you were named that?
it is the name my fasther gave me

3. Single or taken?
I am taken

4. Have any abilities or powers?
I am a heavenly being so i have many abilities and powers mostly white magic and protection based spells


5. Stop being a Mary Sue!
what is a mary sue


6. What's your eye color?
Blue

7. How about hair color?
Brown with black tips

8. Have you any family members?
my wife and pets

9. Oh? How about pets?
yes i have pets..


10. That's cool, I guess. Now tell me something you don't like.
these inssent questions.. they make no sense

11. Do you have any activities/hobbies that you like to do?
Dealing with demons and removing them from the mortal plane of existence


12. Have you ever hurt anyone in any way before?
if we are talking about demons then yes..

13. Ever… killed anyone before?
i have slain thousands of demons in the name of Heaven


14. What kind of animal are you?
I am Half Angel Dragon Half Wolf. I can shift between either form. Lately i prefer my dragon form.


15. Name your worst habits
I know not of these

16. Do you look up to anyone at all?
I always looked up to my father before he was murdered


17. Are you gay, straight, or bisexual?
I am straight

18. Do you go to school?
No

19. Ever want to marry and have kids one day?
I am married


20. Do you have fangirls/fanboys?
I am sure i do..


21. What are you most afraid of?
Failure


22. What do you usually wear?
Lately my tunic greaves boots and my heavenly sword


23. What's one food that tempts you?
sushi.. i love this mortal food.. i must eat more of it


24. Am I annoying you?
yes end this quickly before i remove your head from your shoulders


25. Well, it's still not over!
you are testing my patience


26. What class are you (low class, middle class, high class)?\
I reside in the upper levels of Heaven. I sit above the council of 7 who keep humanity in check. i only respond to the big man at the top


27. How many friends do you have?
why much you be so annoying


28. What are your thoughts on pie?
this would depend.


30. Favorite drink?
not sure


31. What's your favorite place?
The astral plane. It is beautiful


32. Are you interested in anyone~?
I am interested in my wife and our pets


33. That was a stupid question?
You asked it


34. Would you rather swim in a lake or the ocean?
I like lakes

35. What's your type?
My type. rephrase the question to make sense


36. Any fetishes?
Not that i will tell you

37. Seme or uke?
I am a Master.


38. Camping or indoors?

I like the outdoors..

39. Who are you gonna tag?
anyone who wants too

http://www.furaffinity.net/journal/...../#cid:42284374

they are open for commissions

go here if you are looking for an awesome fursuit to be made

http://thegrottocreations.webs.com/

So tomorrow it will be my birthday. I am excited and not at the same time. Certain things in my life have caused me to have a skewed version of life

This awesome artist drew this icon and i say they need to make them commissionable for everyone.. cause who doesnt love five nights at freddys.. we need more awesome icons. so please go and fave this icon.. and watch then and please encourage them to do more icons

here is a link to there page
http://www.furaffinity.net/view/14403826/

When i was in the hospital yesterday found out i need to be on insulin.. went to walmart to have the prescription filled they want $256 for a 30 day supply of the insulin my doctor wants me on... Also cause of my anxiety my sugars are spiking where it is affecting my kidneys.. which means i am most likely going to have kidney failure.

SO yep i am dying... literally a very slow and painful death.. thanks to certain events in my life that caused this to spiral out of control into oblivion.

i dont know what i am going to do anymore.. i dont know if carrying on any further is worth it.. it seems my life only gets worse and worse... this bs with my old job who fired me cause they changed their mind about my accomodations.. i hope they burn in hell.. also i hope that once this comes to an end i will have a decent settlement in which to make sure my loved ones are taken care of and any expenses are dealt with... i dont want to think about dying but after yesterday it was put in front of me.. and its a serious issue and i need to make sure my shit is in order... time to write up my will


If you would like to Donate to help me get my medicine.. my paypal is darklathia[at]hotmail.com

So apparently Citibank is suing me cause of an unpaid balance which i been trying to work with them.. course they dont want to hear it they just want there money. I am having a anxiety attack as i type this and typing this is the only thing from it going on full force and causing me to have to be rushed to the hospital today.. no legal council is open on the weekends and i am freaking out... i just want to die.. I fucking hate my life i want to die i want to die i want to die.. I hate everyone who used me and hasnt paid me back you are all a buch of fucking assholes and i hope you burn in hell.. so i am going to have my wife take me to the hospital now..

if you dont here from me for a while its cause i was admitted..

I am sorry to ask people for help but I desperately need the help. Please go here http://www.gofundme.com/av9u50

This will explain it further.

Bless anyone who takes the time to read it and help

http://www.gofundme.com/aelzs0

please help share this with others

so i got a phone call today from my old job.. you know the one that fired me cause of my disability. well they gave me the offer to going back to work for them to pay me for all the time i was out of work and fixing my pay. now if you know me i hated that place it was horrid i never want to go back to that aweful place.. i came back with a counter offer to that one either they could fire the operations manager and give me all monetary pay they owe me plus a little extra or they can give me a full monetary settlement.. they said they would not fire the ops manager.. so hopefully i will hear from them again this week saying they have a 6 figure settlement for me or i might have to get my lawyer involved. i got the best trial lawyer in america on my side.. hopefully the settlement money comes quick so i can get my life fixed.. like my credit pay off debits and get a new car. my little car is dying slowly.. i have been keeping it together as best i can..

if i get the settlement before metro i will have my new vechile and be going to metro.. if its even more then i am thinking i may even go o brony con.. yeah i like mlp i made sith pony after all.

i plan on going to chibi pa this year and to boycott supercon and animate miami as they are trying to push a small con out of the picture. i dont like that..

also planning on going to disney for my birthday and staying in the parks at one of the resorts.. i got spoiled with my family we would go to disney like 2-3 times a year.

i may finally be able to get a full suit of dantee showing him in his half form.. (half angel dragon/half wolf)

going to spend some money on friends as a way of getting a tax writeoff for next year. yep if you give money to people you can write it off.

also planing on getting a new gaming laptop.. if anyone has any good suggestions i dont want to go to crazy on it.. i want the laptop as i like to be able to be on the go... my needs are it has to have a good battery life and not weigh a million pounds. i think i am going to budget no more then $1300 maybe go a little bit more if need be..

training my dog harper to be a service dog for my wife.. since april i have been working with her and she has become a diabetic alert dog... i am horrible with testing myself.. but she lets me know when i am too high or too low...

continuing on my wall of text.. i have lost weight and i am continuing that trend with my wife.. going to finally get to my ideal weight for the first time in a long time.

last but not least once my wifes suit is done and she gets paid out we are moving over to the tampa area so she will be closer to her dad and she will be closer to the only crps treatment facility on earth...

so yeah big big update going on with me.. if i can go to metrocon i may see some of you there. if i can go to brony con i may see some of you there...

will keep you informed of the outcome.

So I am starting a clean slate in my life. I just need to eliminate Drama especially with dealing the the EEOC Lawyers and doctors. I have currently cut some people out of my life for the moment due to drama. I dont need drama in my life so going to let things cool down and we will see where it goes from there. Maybe in time I can let them back in my life. But for now i need to exclude them.

For the rest of you fuzz butts I will be performing the wedding ceremony for my sister in law and her fiancee. as they are a same sex couple we have found out how to get them legally married and have it recconized here in florida. So will perform small ceremony in the the state that allows it then will have a ceremony here in florida for their families.

So excited as i will finally be using my ministership to marry two of my closest friends.

Stolen from ~Kiki~ & baybay

The ONLY Rule: The owner MUST answer these questions IN CHARACTER.

In-character starts here:

~sits and flails, awaiting the questions~

1.) What is your name?
Dantee Marcus Cryvantee

2.) Do you know why you were named that?
Its my real name. I was given it back thousands of years ago

3.) Are you single or taken?
I currently have a wife but I do take pets as well with my wife.

4.) Have any abilities or powers?
shift from a Dragon to wolf. breath fire, able to travel to the astral plain. some others

5.) Stop being a Mary-Sue!
NO idea what that is

6.) What's your eye color?
Angelic Blue

7.) How about Fur/Scale color?
Brown and Black scales/fur

8.) Have you any family members?
I have a family

9.) Oh? How about pets?
I have pets yes

10.) That's cool, I guess. Now tell me something you don't like...
I hate hypocrates like those in PETA.

11.) Do you have any activities/hobbies that you like to do?
i keep those to myself

12.) Have you ever hurt anyone in any way before?
yes but not going to discuss it

13.) Ever...killed anyone before?
yes

14.) What kind of animal are you?
half angel dragon half wolf

15.) Name your worst habits?
not going to talk about it

16.) Do you look up to anyone at all?
most look up to me and have to look up at me heh heh heh

17.) Are you gay, straight, or bisexual?
Straight

18.) Do you go to school?
Yeah I do.

19.) Ever wanna marry and have kids one day?
I am married already
and yes i will have kids one day

20.) Do you have fangirls/fanboys?
not sure if i do

21.) What are you most afraid of?
not really to afraid of things.

22.) Okay... What do you usually wear?
it depends but when i am in my wolf form its a grey shirt pants and a blue long sleeve over shirt

23.) What's one food that tempts you?
I love Sushi

24.) Am I annoying you?
Maybe

25.) Well, it's still not over!
Let me get the ketchup as you taste delcious with ketchup

26.) What class are you? Low class, middle class, high class?
not answering this

27.) How many friends do you have?
quite a few

28.) What are your thoughts on pie?
delcious pie
29.) Favorite drink?
not telling

30.) What's your favorite place?
my special place

31.) Are you interested in anyone~?
why do you ask

32.) SKIPPING. NOPE. (Yes this is the original question)
Uhhhhh wat.

33.) Would you rather swim in a lake or the ocean?
neither

34.) What's your type?
not telling you

35.) Camping or indoors?
Camping

38.) Are you still wanting the quiz to end?
I need to do things

39.) Well, it's over. Now tag some people!
Nope

40.) Do you want to copy this to your journal pretty please with sugar on top.. you can even have the cherry...?
Go Away

I am sad today. A lot of things have not been going our way lately. This kinda just puts me down further cause i really cared for this person a great deal and hope they stay apart of mine and my wife's life. She was the most warm hearted person i met.. even though she had been through some of the worst things i have ever heard someone having to go thru. I wish them the best in all there journeys and that we love them.

we are hear for you sweety.

Well we had a forever home lined up for our dog logan. we were taking him for a final walk and he was doing his buisness in the swale well some dumb shit turned to close and hit him. He has a punctured lung and a broken hip. We had to put him down. Ash is in tears right now and i am pissed off to no end. ever since Failmart got put in down the street from us. Since then we have had on average of 4-6 accidents a month. before we didnt have any. this street was quiet. i am petitioning the city to do traffic calming in our neighborhood. if i seem a bit off from my cheerfule self understand i am still upset from what happened early this morning

so for those who don't know what's going on. i was in the hospital last month for car bites. my bill so far is to the tune of 31k ashtale messed up her knee right now its 6k but will definitely be higher as It looks like she will need surgery. I am not sure what to do. though we are suing sports authority for the slip n fall.