Really only thing good about bringing me to theme parks is you sometimes don't need to rent a locker, I can hold the bags since I am too fat to ride some rides.

My friend Wolfymewmew's friend  shiorifujikaze needs help with bills http://www.furaffinity.net/journal/7776059/ they need about 2k for mortgage and 8k for all bills

I got to go to MegaPlex this past weekend and when you mix socially anxious person and large crowds stuff happens. Bathrooms have to be entered or friends have to be near to help calm you down, tears are shed over small stuff. Well it happened to me and it got me thinking. I don't share this deep of myself on a usual basis because I put up this front that is completely different. Stronger. Can take anything, when deep down, I am not as strong as I put forth, I put up a wall to keep people out and while it has cracked many people who know me don't know a darker secret I keep hidden. Sometimes the memories of when I was that weird loner who ate lunch then went to the school library in high school (by my last year there I cut lunch and just went to the library) still hurt me to this day. Shaped me into a person who is socially anxious in large groups, apologizes for being an annoyance even when people say he isn't, and am constantly putting myself down to save those who used to do it the time and effort. I try to cheer up and put on a smile but I think it is usually just a mask to hide what I am really feeling. Sometimes it gets so bad that in my dreams I will be somewhere and there will be a group of people having fun but I can't join them or if I was part of the group and something fun starts happening I am pulled away and have to watch from a distance. I don't like being a whiny little bitch like this but it really is how I feel sometimes, and I hate it but I am just lost in the dark trying to find a way to change it.

Where are you coming from?

Florida

Means of transportation:

driving

Hotel you're staying at:

Season's Florida Resort right around the corner

What day are you getting there?

Friday Evening since I have to do something in the morning to noon

What days are you going to be at the con?

All three days. 5th, 6th, and 7th

Who will you be rooming with?

Nobody

Who will you be with throughout the con?

Don't know who is going

And I hope to meet/see again/potentially hang out with as well, depending how things pan out:

Dunno who exactly is going. Yeh.

What suit(s) will you be bringing?

Don't have one

What do you look like?

I’m nearly 6 feet tall with Blonde hair


What panels will you be attending?

Dunno yet.

Are you in any panels?

No.

What is your gender?

Male

Taken?

By a dude in Australia

Can I talk to you?

Yeh. I'm really shy though. Don't be scared to come talk to me.

Can I touch you?

Please don't without asking. I don't mind if you poke me or ask for a hug but please do not touch me other then that. And if you poke me, make sure you only poke my arm.

How can I find you?

Note me on furaffinity. Dunno if I will be checking fa (most likely will) but just note me...yeh

Will you be at the bowling event Thursday night?

Nope

Will you be dressed for the Megaplex theme?

Nope.

Will you have a Megaplex-themed badge?

Probably a button.

Best way to reach me:

Note me on furaffinity.

Main reason for going:

To go to a furry con.

I just feel down and like nothing in this world matters. Like I want to cry and just get lost from this world.

http://www.furaffinity.net/journal/7432715/
I don't have money to do it myself or donate but I can pass the message along.

http://www.furaffinity.net/journal/7418078/
http://www.furaffinity.net/journal/7418078/
http://www.furaffinity.net/journal/7418078/
http://www.furaffinity.net/journal/7418078/

http://www.customerssuck.com/board/.....d.php?t=113951 We have 5 new members of our meowing family

They're so upset and sad. They're giving up on their dream of being an artist because no one cares to commission them. QAQ
http://www.furaffinity.net/journal/7413031/

They have cute art though! p~p

Prices and Examples:
http://www.furaffinity.net/journal/7239838/

Please boost or commission if you can.
*gives you guys all deh coffee beans*

http://www.furaffinity.net/journal/7369016

http://www.furaffinity.net/journal/7263272/ go there

Stole this from a friend.



Natural Hair Color

[] Black - $100
[X] Blonde - $50
[] Red - $75
[] Brown - $15
[] Other - $10

Total So Far: $50




Eye Color


[X] Blue - $50
[] Hazel - $100
[] Brown - $15
[X] Green - $200
[] Other - $10

Total So Far: $100



Height


[] Over 7' - $200
[] 6'8" to 7' - $175
[] 6'0" to 6'7" - $150
[X] 5'5" to 5'11" - $75
[] 4'9" to 5'4" - $50
[] Under 4'9 - $105

Total so far: $175



Birth Order


[] Twins (or more) - $300
[] First Born - $300
[] Only Child - $250
[] Second Born - $150
[] Middle Child - $100
[x] Last Born - $200
[] Third Born - $100
[] Fourth Born - $100
[] Fifth Born - $375

Total so far: $375


Drink?


[] No - $400
[] Only holidays - $250
[X] Sometimes - $215
[] YES - $200
[] Only weekends - $300
[] Every other day - $50
[] Once a day - $15
[] I live from the bottle - $10

Total so far: $590



Vision


[] Perfect vision - $300
[X] Have glasses/contacts but don't wear them - $200
[] No correction - $100
[] Glasses - $50
[] Contacts - $25
[] Surgical correction - $100

Total so far: $790


Family's Car Color(s)

[] White - $2,000
[] Maroon - $800
[] Gold - $700
[] Grey - $600
[X] Blue - $900
[] Pink - $475
[] Black - $450
[] Red - $400
[] Green- $350
[] Silver $300
[] Purple- $250
[] Metallic - $200
[] Yellow - $100
[] Primer - $75
[] Tan- $20
[] Rusted - $15
[] No Car - $0

Total so far: $1,690


Shoe Size


[X] Over 13 - $300
[] 12 1/2 to 13 - $250
[] 11 to 12 - $700
[] 10.5 - $650
[] 7 to 10 - $600
[X] Under 7 - $550

Total so far: $1,990


Favorite Colors


[X] Green - $750
[x] Black - $600
[x] Red - $800
[] Yellow - $415
[] Brown - $50
[] Purple - $225
[] White - $400
[] Aqua - $350
[] Orange - $300
[] Blue - $300
[] Pink - $100
[] Other - $50

Total so far: $4,040

Did you use a calculator to add it all up?


[] Yes - $0
[] On Some - $750
[X] No - $1000

Total: $5,040

Yeah I'm probably gonna be mopey. You would be too if you had a brother you hadn't seen in 5-6 years who was getting married and you couldn't make it to the wedding. *sigh* I just really wish I could make it but lack of funds means no plane ticket for me and another boring summer here. Life sucks.

DEM LEARNED HALF-PERSIAN 3-IN-1
DEM GAINED 5 XP
GAINED NEW CHAIN FOR KEY CHAIN

Now that I have your attention X3 I started a new page to sell chainmaille bracelets  mailewolf Please go check it out and tell your friends.

I'm thinking about creating a new account to sell stuff I make from jump rings but want some feedback. I am currently trying to think of a name.

Ok those of you who read my journals know I set up a pillow store on Etsy. Well it's not doing so great so I propose a bet if I can get $250 in sales by December 31, 2013 I will attend Elliot's Winter Carnival in a skirt [long not a mini, even I don't wanna see me in a mini skirt]. Share this with everyone you know please. As merch sells out I'll replace it ASAP.


https://www.etsy.com/shop/Shadowwolfpillows


well as of yesterday nov 11 my etsy listings expired with a grand total of ZER0 orders totaling a whopping $0.00
all i have left to put my fading hopes on is two ebay listings
http://www.ebay.com/itm/26131803171.....84.m1555.l2649
and
http://www.ebay.com/itm/26132803296.....84.m1555.l2649

Was sitting on the couch around 11:30 when suddenly the door bell rang. Turns out the neighbor saw a van (yes i said van) coast down the hill swerve into and out of someone's yard nearly hitting a tree then came across the road and end in the retention pond next to our house. After calling 911 he went to check on the driver only to find the vehicle empty. About an hour later two guys came to get the van and we learned it belonged to a boyfriend of the niece of one of them (if i heard right) and that the guy's stepson didn't like the boyfriend so he supposedly took the van and tried to total it.

Hey guys and gals I'm making pillows now and would love some business so I can buy more materials and make more pillows thus gaining more business and continuing the circle. So if you know someone who might like a handmade pillow send them here www.etsy.com/shop/Shadowwolfpillows

OK recently I signed up to get a free Charity Car so I can have my own car and not be limited by when I can use my mom's car but I need your help go to this link ----> http://www.freecharitycars.org/user/dem-shadowwolf and vote for me please. I will be grateful to you if you do.

Ok time for me to be all emo again [hurray for being emo and bitchy made me so many friends NOT] I turn 22 next month as a matter of fact this date next month and I decided to take a good hard look at what I've done in my life 4 failed relationships, barely made it out of high school with my sanity [who am i kidding that went away the day i tried to kill myself with a weight set in gym] and im finally in another relationship that im hoping lasts. not a whole lot of good yet and I still dont think too highly of myself which i want to change but dont get many chances to due to being kinda out of the way of everyone. ok if you're still reading this sorry for being all emo and complaining and if you're wondering what brought this on i dreamed of being left out of a furry pool party a couple nights ago. People saw me looking over the fence but none invited me in or even spoke to me, they just saw me and went back to having fun.

Ok the past few days all I've seen on here is drama drama drama well I have two words for that....STOP. IT. Yeah, you know who you are and I don't care if I'm crossing lines here, if you've got a problem I'd love to hear it below and you WILL get a reply. I would just like to say you are acting like children, I'm not going to name names though because the parties at fault know who they are. Grow up.

This will be a list of the things I want in life and what makes me feel down to the point I'm close to ending it all with the help of a passing freight train. If emo ranty BS isn't your thing, well nobody is forcing you to read this. None of the bad content applies to anybody I have met within the last year.

What makes me feel down
Thinking someone was my friend only to learn later they were a two faced asshole
Feeling isolated even when I'm in a crowd
Feeling like no matter how hard I try my life never changes
I'm usually afraid to open myself to others for fear I'll be hurt again

What I want out of my life
Friends who like me for me not for what I am
To find someone to spend my life with

As you can see the lengths of the lists is a tad unbalanced at this point but who knows

Ok some background first, I wrote this story back in high school, well, started then never finished it. I wasn't a furry at the time and don't know why i never finished it.

Deep beneath the Earth's crust lies a world solely inhabited by a race known by few. They were a mixture of wolves and tigers, their bodies reflecting the end of a war long ago between the two species, many sharing qualities of both species. They walked on their hind legs and spoke just as their ancestors learned from humans many centuries ago. Their leader was determined by a contest held once every five years, anyone could enter but if they were the current leader and lost they would be killed in front of the entire race. Jackal Shadowwolf was the current leader and was loved by many but as the years came and went He could feel his time coming to an end. Jackal had a scar on his eye from his last round in the contest and everyday He trained hard determined not to lose anytime soon, but one day a note and a dvd came in the mail for him signed only with a skull and a bloody paw. When Jackal played the dvd He saw only a hooded figure and heard a deep voice, Jackal knew it was changed to protect the figure. The figure swore in the next contest Jackal's reign as leader would be ended.
That night Jackal had a nightmare, He was in the arena fighting the hooded figure. He dreamed He was losing, all his blows countered and before He knew it, Jackal had lost, the crowd booing him and just before the sword, wielded by his foe, struck his neck he awoke, screaming and his brow soaked with sweat.
That was all i really wrote before dropping the story