By now most of you are in the loop know what I have been dealing with for the past several weeks now. Two weeks ago I sustained a foot injury that advanced into a cellulitis episode then a full blown bone infection called Osteomyelitis. I was hospitalized for the bone infection on Friday and have been in the hospital since. I have endured a surgery and had a PICC line installed in my arm that runs a line to close proximity of my heart for infusions for the next several weeks. I am tethered to a vac therapy device and looking at three to five weeks with one of my own as well.

So what does this mean? Well it means I am down and out for the foreseeable future. With a very real inability to do my job and for a long, long time I will not be able to even live independently as I will need a home nurse to help me manage my medical routine and eventually finish my recovery. Bone infections are incredibly dangerous and may even still prove fatal to me, and in my current situation I may not be able to do much in terms of 3D work and will need to delay those projects until I no longer have 24/7 devices attached/implanted in my body.

I got resources I can use to keep food on the table and that should be enough for me for now. As for bills I may have to take the L and let some of them fall off as I focus on what is more important, me.

Take care of yourselves, as you age you become more and more fragile and especially if you have conditions like diabetes you can end up like myself. I hope to see you all after a full recovery.

That's right, I was inches from death when I had called 911. A big injury in my stomach made me lose a ton of blood. I couldn't stand, couldn't walk far, and blood was coming out both ends.

The day I was rescued I was immediately taken to a bigger hospital whereas I was on the same day put under for an endoscopy. They didn't find anything more than a large mass of blood. No food or water for me as my veins aret only source of food and water to come..

I'm here until at least Thursday or Friday, longer of the incident is more severe. But so far I have been pulling through. I got my energy back and can stand and walk on my own feet again. Thanks to the incredible staff at both hospitals I went to, I am alive today. This was a very close brush with death. I did my best to stay conscious because I felt a tired that I have never felt and felt that if I nodded off I would have not made it.

Now after some tests and new blood, I got more spring in my step and more to come when I get out. I'm not sure how much I will recover, but already so far I feel better than when I was let in.

I am finally admitting it, after countless days of living in absolute madness I am launching the flare and hoping for an answer.

Over the last several months, things have become increasingly harder and harder to control, I won't bore you with a wall of text of exactly what's going on, but I am a mess. I really need this help and feel like seeking therapy is the right call for me. My situation as been on a decline for a good several years now and while it may be a bit obvious from my lower rates of uploading I have a massive wall of tasks that need to be done, and I can't seem to muster the ability to even start. So with that detail I am temporarily lowering prices to start affording much needed therapy and medications. Flat colored pictures will be 35$ and Shaded pictures will be 80$ for a while. I don't know how long I need to keep this discount but the funds are desperately needed in order for me to start therapy. I am not suicidal, or intent on harming myself directly, but these habits I have let slip for years finally need to cease after increasing in severity.

If art is not your goal and you want to chip a tiny portion of help towards the cause, my shinies are always active and I always have other platforms if desired. This is me trying to seek help for myself so I can start providing more and more content for you. I get therapy, possibly meds, you get artwork and a much more happier Monomo. The sooner I can start the better, but please consider helping me out before this becomes catastrophic. Suicide and self harm is a very high ranking cause of death in my area, and I really don't know or want to know how close I am to such a condition. Boost, share, and get it out there that this is my shout for help. I REALLY need this. I have to find out why I can't function. Please?

While an alarming rate of people on here are younger than the site, another thing is my own age. Today is the 35th time I have been around the sun and there are many more laps to go. I got a simple birthday wish and it is to keep a sated tum and if you wish to toss in you can via https://www.ko-fi.com/deusexkittycoon and if not cool I am sure there are few left that read these things anyway.

While here and admittedly not 100% there, I do want to get back to my 3D projects for my last hope right now to save my venture is the audience. I have a few projects and the gold standard to produce them by now, but my big hurdle is motivation really. With ongoing issues like market saturation, AI, and inability to seek govt aid, I am on my own and working with an ever degrading body that puts my future goals at risk. While some things weren't meant to be, this dream is more and more possible thanks to advancements in my creative suite and the few legends that have kept me alive today, but in no way am I in a place to get comfortable.

So with these little updates I have one more thing, I am back in my hometown and I may remain here for several years to come... I have no plans to attend conventions as I have concluded that massive IRL events are extremely dangerous and unsanitary. I don't have any intent to go to Albuquerque for anything unless I am invited in advance, and I definitely do not have any physical merch for other occasions. If I am in the big towns I'm there on my own leisure.

I would like to announce my upcoming birthday celebration at the end of the month. My usual choice for a birthday party is to celebrate it in VR. An 18+ instance will be open on May 30. Since my actual birthday is on Tuesday June 3, I will likely be attending a private event. So I am thinking of having the celebration earlier.

If you are reading this, YOU ARE INVITED!

When: Friday May 30
Where: Tiki Tuesdays world in VRChat, my VRC name is Monolith H if you wish to add.
How long: From 08:30 PM MT to the last creature standing. (07:30 PT 10:30 ET)

https://vrchat.com/home/user/usr_60.....-3b29-4bae-bd1...

--Instance Rules---
-The instance will be an 18+ Group+ world, If you are not 18+ you're going to learn fast how much I hate children.

-Nudity in casual form, dancing, and light interaction is ok, if you wish to ERP with someone use the private rooms or the pool room. The beach is available for content creation use only. The inside main area are strictly off limits for ERP to respect sensory sensitive guests. If I see or hear you going at it in these areas you will be kicked and uninvited*

-Do not instigate drama, trauma dump, or draw attention to yourself that disrupts the vibe. If you harsh the vibe you will be removed. You can be removed for ANY reason my volunteers see fit and none of us have to explain why. You are an adult and expected to possess basic social skills.

-Bring your own vice and beverage but don't overdo it!. Know your limits! We reserve the right to remove your loud snoring ass. This is not Kuncave/Bordello. We actually invite adults here.

-Media player will be available for playlisting songs, please keep a maximum length of 10 minutes and music only. We are not in YTS. The world defaults to an auto playlist if no music is selected. If there is a blank queue take turns putting songs on it. No depresso stuff I will remove your butt crack.

-Respect the word NO, respect the relationships of others, and please... respect yourself. I will not hesitate to remove and block you if you disrespect this rule.

*---ART GIVEAWAY x5!---

All attendees will be entered into a random picker for one flat piece of their character drawn by me. Can be SFW or NSFW.

---There are more constests!---*
One winner per category, one prize per person.
All prizes will be flat colored drawings

Melon Game High score

Tetris High Score

Axe Throwing Most Points

"Flappy Bird" high score**

Highest score by 05:00 AM wins. To determine fairness of winnings, only one prize per person. Must be done in attendance of the party instance.

You do not need VR to attend and participate in most of these contests, everyone is welcome so as long as you behave. If you got beef with another attendee take it to Boykisser Waffle House and beat the shit out of each other there.

If you want to contribute to a smol birthday fund for me to stay good on meds, food, and bills, feel free to drop a few at https://www.ko-fi.com/deusexkittycoon and if luck isn't on your side with the arcade contests I am always open to commissions. If you come from the party with some work for me I will happily give a discount.

I don't know what to be more impressed by. The fact that this site is still here and running or the fact that no matter how hard people hope, this site will not go down. Despite it's many inferiorities it has held up to the many, many obstacles pitched at it over the ages. I guess when it really comes to becoming a legend it is hard to kill.

That's right, for the entire spring/summer season I am doing 35$ single character sticker style commissions. (Transparent background white border effect)

These are to be done within 24 hours.

Complex characters may be a bit extra depending on scenario.

BOO! did I scare you? I am 135 unanswered job applications!

Keeping a light hearted approach on this subject as it is a bit of a gritty one.

Above is true, I have applied to about 142 companies nationwide. Not many responses save for a few that were thankfully a short distance from me. While the silence has been unnerving, I have still committed to the freelance and side gig life to keep some money in pocket. I have seen the videos of how the job force in the US is today and how people are struggling in the so called "land of opportunity". So what next? Liquidate everything and move abroad? Go all in or bust on a whole new venture? Seek investors out for a potential product patent and partnership? These are all drastic measures I will not take, because in my years of working, there is no be all end all solution to financial security on one income alone. So while I am hoarding every penny I can grab, I have been studying more into finance and am wondering if there is anyone in my orbit who does financial services. Long gone are the days I want to keep money locked away, I am looking to put my money to work as my aging body slowly loses it's ability to do the things I used to.

However, I will never stop drawing, 3D, or making other things. After all the nuances of life and the struggle to be truly independent, creating something and using my imagination is what I like to do. I want to keep bringing people actual content. Not a flood of YCH's or Adopts. If you are here to sell something then I personally challenge Furaffinity to divide up galleries and storefronts. Repurpose the commission info page to be more on par with other services that can separate portfolios and products and have a separate "fave" system to follow updates and bids on those. I am not here for self promoting advertisements as a whole gallery, I am here to appreciate the creativity and raw talent of the people I have discovered since 2008. While I do have friends who commercially sell YCH and adoptable content, I think this is a better solution than allowing it to saturate the main page. This can give more visibility to people who want to get out there as a content creator and more visibility to people who want to sell assets for content.

We have the tools and tech to make this possible, don't sit there and tell me as the largest platform for furry art that it cannot be afforded.

I don't know if there is something going on or maybe it is just the cold but I have been struggling to stay on task with my projects. I am way behind schedule on VR avatars and I am also trying to manage a property for the family. So with a lot on my plate I am doing my best to take things one step at a time. Any progress is good progress but I cannot help but think maybe I am overlooking something or overthinking it. This is a heavily different list of priorities than I had in Houston.

But even after three months I am still struggling to get one proper brain child out there in terms of what paid works have been through.

Needless to say I am super late on everything and I am just asking for patience for the few still here with me.

Considering recent artworks I have been feeling like maybe I am missing a mark or maybe I am just not doing much to really get the engagement I have been getting before. It feels like with over 800 watchers, a lot of them have moved on or just vanished.

I know I am not the best or even a very good artist, but even the silly comments are what I tend to miss.

But here we are, feeling pretty lonely out here.

Wow it's a new year!

But it will be the same me. The only thing changing is my underwear.

btw trunks feel really nice.

But also if you have come this far after trying so hard, believe it or not it does matter. I am happy you are here. There are people who couldn't make it but man. I could not really call 2024 a bad year.

Sure I was not as productive as I wanted to be and missed a lot of deadlines, but I hope things can eventually clear up and we can all revel in the new times.


Now go out there and party responsibly, or not. I am not your dad but you can cure my erectile dysfunction by calling me daddy.

I am struggling with motivation to draw serious arts lately. Though I have been brain rotting the funny furry arpg with doodles I have been struggling to really place myself in a niche or group again. Falling out with friends I held close to realizing my own peers are struggling despite having a much higher business volume makes me just want to go back to the days where I did this for fun and not tried to make it a job, because doing that has turned my hobby into an abusive relationship. I'll make things to post, but it's mostly going back to my own thing.

Or as sane people would call it, lactose intolerance. This is a sudden thump to my lifestyle as cheese used to be a staple in my diet. I have yet to try lactaid and probiotics but the message is clear that my body no longer will process milk by itself. This is not a doom and gloom scenario but still a significant amount of suck is in here. I have spent the last two nights now sleepless and running to the restroom every hour or so.


If you or anybody has experience in dealing with this I am open to tips and suggestions. Though forgoing dairy is an obvious step, it is the fact that we are creatures of habit that I can see myself struggling and paying dearly for a mistake. Even though my reactions are not life threatening, they are still heavily inconveniencing especially when I got plans.

The pay is significantly better, yet this learning journey is quite a rabbit hole. My autistic pattern loving brain is devouring flight charts, traffic patterns, and weather reports like porn. The drone regulations are drilled in my head I just need to focus on weather and chart readings then I will be the best drone Pilot around because I will probably be the only drone Pilot around my town. Btw I am back in so where my pack at? Awoo~

How far does this have to go? How much does this dead hose have to be beaten? Why do People still have to stare down this god damn link when I come to check out any art that I may want to see here?

FurAffinity. Get your shit together.
Get all of your collective shit together, and figure it the fuck out.

No one's final expenses should have ever come this close. Nobody responsible that is. Why are you rewarding laziness? Why are you rewarding complacency? What a crock of shit.

I am so damn tired of the over reaching. This dinosaur of a website should have been taken to the grave. Nobody wants to be here, but they are obligated to for visibility. Here we are on a website that is like "monopoly bad" but then handles a majority of the furry traffic. Fuck off.

There comes a time in life where you have to go back to where it all started, where you were raised, where many memories had been fondly made. This is where I will be going for the next couple months at least. I will then have some time to decide rather I want to live there or in Lubbock but both locations will be near family. Family who I have noticed have reached an age where they are in need of assistance and I am the most capable body to take care of them. Most notably, my adoptive father. Having several skeletal surgeries he has lost a considerable amount of mobility and strength, it will be up to me to do a lot of his heavy lifting both physically and mentally from here out. I want to spend as much time with him as I can while he is still here. Otherwise, I am going to be storing up my home stuff and moving out of Houston come Saturday. No longer will I be residing in the fourth largest city in the country but it will benefit me to live in a more realistic situation where I have many more options to success.

Cool Mono, but what does that mean for us?
Unfortunately, I will not be as online as I would liked to, but it wouldn't be the first time I took a long break from my usual communities I regular. I plan to come back in full force somewhere in November or December, After I have found stability and successfully relocated to my destination. My artwork, community presence, and attendances to events will not be possible until then. So I kindly ask for a bit of patience to those I hold obligations to. If the circumstances present itself unfavorably, I am willing to discuss a resolution via my discord. I will have that user handle listed below.

I will have reliable access to data and still be around. You have nothing to fear of me disappearing. To contact me for any questions, comments, concerns, or just stay connected you may add me as operationmonolith on discord.

Few have known this a while but I am a schizophrenia patient. I used to have a good control of this until lately things have been hectic to where the stress has caused me to lose grip of the sanity bubble I have maintained. I was able to source my meds back but unfortunately they are out of affordability for me. I would need around 300$ to be able to get the medications and they are ready and waiting for me to pick up asap. Unfortunately, without any source of income right now I am stuck in a loud screaming hell depriving me of sleep, focus, and peace. I am living a war crime in my own mind and unable to process my senses reliably.

I can do art in exchange, but right now my hands are nearly useless.

I'm not creatively bankrupt or slow but as of lately I been working on several commissions privately and not posting them since they are out of the interests of my audience. If there is to be any left at this point. I have some personal projects in the works but they are not done yet. So if you are still here watching me thanks for being patient. I'm cooking in both art and 3D but you will have to be around elsewhere for a lot of my newer content and I am not talking about X or twitter because let's face it that is a horrible place for creators.

In case you haven't heard there is a little nation called the United States of America and it's three centuries of star spangled saving the motherfucking world multiple times having ass.

Did you know in exactly 42 years we will be celebrating 400 years of bomb pop themed big booby furry women with cyber clitoris to cock transforming action with big tiddy baby bazookas?

I wonder who will make it out alive then. I'd be 86 years old! Might transfer my conscience to a biologically 3D printed body of my fursona and take dick like the man takes taxes.

I want to knock out every old commission I got ongoing this coming month as well as week on new and exciting ideas from you all. I got an assortment of commission types for all budgets and I am ready to work with you immediately. Hit up the sheets and if you got anything you desire you may send a note or message via discord via username operationmonolith.

Though I can use the work I am not limited to these services only. If you want some model work, teexturing, or modification for VRChat my services start at a base fee + hourly. I can do textures for zoichi, deira, maruchi, hashima, and chalo.

I also have my funny triangular ears sold here as an add on asset to any creation.
https://monolithiccs.gumroad.com/l/cytxxu

If you generally want to toss a tiny amount and not trust FA like me you can drop a tiny dono to
https://www.ko-fi.com/deusexkittycoon

If there is something in my gallery you want personalized we can also talk pricing.

Other than all that business mumble aside, I am trying my hardest to find work, but I am experiencing a bit of difficulty so I still gotta lean on my art skills until then. For now, tell me what you like about my art and maybe share a favorite piece. I would like to know what direction I can go with my work.

A mile in my shoes wouldn't be all that much different except for the fact that our feet are mismatched sizes, my shoes have worn into my shape and would be really uncomfortable for anyone else to wear, and you are better off walking a mile in your own. If you were expecting some sentimental statement or other bullshit and you have come this far without hitting the back button... Cool. I don't have a reward to give you for wasting your time with my nonsense.

Dumbass babbling aside, I'm in the saddle again and getting my shit together. These mental episodes are symptomatic of me not having the mindset I needed to in the first place.

So I got a lot of work to do, in the meantime support your local favorite creators by boosting them and getting the word out that people like me are still out there wanting to create their vision. Stop subscribing to the flavor of the month fanart crap you are not a sheep.

Meanwhile I am still going to hustle my commissions because frankly I can't do much on one side hustle so it's back to a few. So art, 3d, and being a vr pornstar it is.

There are plenty of ways you can support me, others, and many more without paying a dime and that is feedback and sharing. Do this, don't just like something, show some people who are like you what you just liked and this will fuel growth that people need.

Btw tag filters when?

That's how many felonies trump has and my favorite rule of the internet.

If you want to support a birthday boy through a rough time feel free to donate a shiny or go to https://www.ko-fi.com/deusexkittycoon if you want.

As always well wishes are also appreciated.


I'll draw something worth posting soon.

I have had way too many bad experiences at conventions and prefer to avoid them. That's if I could afford them in the first place. Sorry to anyone who would have asked me to go.

Despite me not being active here, you a person with capital that I require to sustain my presence in a frankly shitty apartment can change that, get a custom art, and even your own version of any of my existing projects for a 25% discount.

Keeping it short and sweet...

40$ per flat colored character

80$ per shaded character

3d props start at 25$
3d clothing for an existing rigged model starts at 35$

3D work prices will vary on complexity.

If you are interested feel free to send me a note here or message my discord operationmonolith.

That I do commissions. Not ychs, no subscription plans for art (3D only), and not flood your inbox with many reminders of why you should hit the -watch button.

I'm in a big mess right now. I lack basic needs of water and could really use a pick me up. My 2024 prices for flat colors cover two characters and start at 60$. Shaded 120.

Backgrounds are +50% as well as extra characters.

I do not do characters you don't own or have permission to use.

More detailed terms are on my X profile but in this situation I am willing to make reasonable exceptions and expedite the order.

I got 3D work on the backburner as my VR base is delayed for a bit until I can find room in my head to work on it.