I'm not sure if it's worth mentioning really, but there are people here who have been following me for a LONG time that may want to know-- my pronouns are now he/him.

I'm transgender and have been lying to myself for over 30 years.

I talk about this issue in length on my twitter, and its vaguely TMI but... idk, it seems important to be public and honest about this, because it's been extremely hard. And there's clearly not enough people talking about it, if doctors can hear me say "I want to transition and be on testosterone" and then respond by reiterating in the very next sentence that I'm "a female" in our good year of 2021.

https://twitter.com/filthy_animal/s.....14004352266240

All else I really have to say is, if you might be silently sitting there and struggling with thoughts of transitioning, and not feeling "trans enough" to go through with it, ask yourself why. Ask yourself what's preventing you from going through with it, and criticize those thoughts and beat them into the earth.

I promise that loving yourself enough to be honest with what you need is worth way more than any love another person could offer you. And I say this as someone who's engaged and in a healthy relationship. /Nothing/ compares to the euphoria of listening to yourself when you're suffering and begging to be heard.

I've had multiple male partners tell me that they weren't sure they could love me if I transitioned, because they weren't attracted to men. I was honest to them about my gender dysphoria and I was basically told I couldn't be loved anymore if I went through with it. It made me second-guess and deny that I was "trans enough" because I couldn't choose transitioning over being loved. It made me feel broken, and it nearly killed me. Don't do this to someone. And if you have, or feel like it's true that you couldn't deal with their transition, please be honest with yourself about what you want from the other person. Do you love them? Do you want them to be happy?

I'm willing to answer questions anyone may have about any of this, so please don't feel afraid to reach out.

Apologies! I need to push my current adopts a little extra hard right now since we got slammed with vet bills this month. Everyone is fine, but it's been very stressful!

I hope everyone has a much better 2021! ;w;

I haven't been pushing these guys as much as I should since this year has sucked a fat one. But I wanna make room for fresher adopts, so these guys are all priced to move so I can list newer ones without feeling so silly that these few are still hanging on, lol

https://www.thedealersden.com/other...../filthy/123369
https://www.thedealersden.com/other...../filthy/123369
https://www.thedealersden.com/other...../filthy/123369

Thanks so much for your interest! :D

More soon!!

My previous unsold adoptables are up on Dealers Den now! Just to keep them in one nice, neat place. I'll be making more soon! Let me know if you have any species in mind. n_n

https://www.thedealersden.com/other...../filthy/123369

Heading to MFF tomorrow! Feel free to say hi but do know I'm very shy IRL XD;;

Any adoptables left up in my FA are now 50% off!! I want to get more of them homes before uploading new ones n_n So whatever price they're listed as, you get for half off! :D

Please make sure to comment on the posts they're in, or DM me with a link to the post, either here or on Twitter! <3

https://twitter.com/filthy_animal

In case you were looking for my recent activity, I'm mostly posting to twitter now!

https://twitter.com/filthy_animal

Can't say I've had any actual art recently, so sorry about that! But if you want pictures of my pets that's a thing, lol. I'm jumping into adoptables finally as a way to maybe get back into art again. :x If you have any particular things you'd like to see adoptable-wise let me know and I'll see what I can do!

Details are here:

http://www.twitch.tv/versusvices

https://twitter.com/CaeliaMer/statu.....38265612476416

https://twitter.com/filthy_animal/s.....77080175644673

tl;dr if you donate more than $50 to my friends during their stream, send me proof either on twitter DM or email and I'll get back to you to work out details. :3

Had a great time and it was neat to see so many people I've admired for so long in person finally! I actually feel pretty bad for being so inactive in the fandom, but life has been a little wild for the last couple of years. I hope to participate more soon and hopefully with fresh art. In fact, I'm actually considering giving this page a makeover soon, so if I still have anything in gallery/scraps you'd like to save, please do so! I won't be offended! I'm still deciding what to do but I make take everything down to start fresh. I could use something fresh here, you know?

If we talked at MFF feel free to chat me up here whenever! Ya'll were seriously cool people and I'm so happy with how well the furry community has grown.

Here's to next year!

<3

Hoo boy it's been a year since I posted here? Wild.

ANYWAYS I'll be at MFF Friday and Saturday! If you see me feel free to say hi! Just know I'll be shy as hell c_c;;

Guess who's lurkin'?

I guess I should explain. The last few years have been wild. I moved to Illinois to live with my girlfriend, which is amazing in itself. As a native Floridian I have now endured two winters in the midwest. The oddest thing that has come out of this is how much everyone assumes that the winters here will freeze me into moving back to sunny ol' Floridurr. Also the corn. There is so much corn.

About this time a year ago, my dad passed away. We didn't exactly get along so it's been an emotional roller coaster. I hadn't talked to him in three years after a huge argument, and suddenly he was gone. This experience has easily been the hardest thing I've ever had to deal with, and I wish it on nobody. My dad left no Will, which meant I had to get a lawyer and claim control of the estate. It was a nightmare, I tell you. People really show their truest colors when these things happen. There's not much I can say publicly, but people are vultures. It's at times like these that you really know who wants to be your friend and who only wants what you have.

So, that's been hard. I'm trying not to let it make me bitter and quiet, but I'm kind of that lately. I don't often have the emotional energy to deal with people, no matter how much I like them.

I probably won't have any art for a while. I'd like to draw again, but I barely have in years. But in the meantime, you can follow my tumblr for useless reblogs and etc:
http://thatfilthyanimal.tumblr.com/

I'm also interested in refunding the few people I owe commissions to. I'd like to make it up to you guys. I offered before, but nobody spoke up. Maybe someone will see this?

Anyways, I'll be around but not doing much myself. Take care, you guys!