if there is a serial number from a game you bought or have extra, keep it at hand, who knows someone may want for a commission

then again, don't be too hasty in paying with said serial key, can't trust online strangers too much (unless for a friend at least)

so i got myself an icon made from a friend in Twitter by participating in a art raffale

and holy shit! it looks amazing!

I LOVE IT!!!

I always remembered this game at first in one of those demo CD games from the dreamcast

i was a child at the time and for what i played i LOVED what i played, but parents weren't as in much awe as i was

it was either different games (which i enjoyed), or they weren't putting any effort into searching it, or maybe we weren;'t finding a hard copy at all

at least it came to PS2, but luck was even more insulting

even finding a copy of said game in piracy was in a way rare, yet more common

thing is; after you fight the big purple sugar daddy, or heck, even mid fight, the game would freeze and no longer be able to play the rest

years pass and now here i am, at least i was able to play with the original graphics in a PS2 emulator (i was thinking Dreamcast, but hey), playing the game was a lil demanding on the keyboard mapping i did, even though simple, for certain quick reaction moments, you'd be as fast as playing far Cry 4 in a Windows XP computer

and regardless of which, when i should've done more reading, i found out a 2011 HD remake of the game was available on steam (and with a discount too!) which i was able to get one since the local supermarket was selling only 50$ steam gift cards, but it was a take it or leave it

oh well, personally i think the Dreamcast Demo of said game had a much stronger score imo

but i do miss shooting up aliens

especially the ones that look like like tailless lizards that have half an arm as a blaster, wearing some sorta boot sandal hybrid and a gold swimsuit with a hood that looks like a peacock's tail (sounds so goddamn gay the way how i remember it)

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=HnD9ujcbZrs

a moment of silence of the lives lost to the genocidal totalitarian empire of the USSR

this is exactly a very reason why i enjoy reading history a lot (apart from filling up what some details some history teachers may choose to ignore)

it may seem that the Nazis may have been responsible for the holocaust against Hebrews and etc (and with very good reason why i use "etc")

the concept of the concentration camp was originally made by the soviets and then appropriated by the nazis;

the nazis used the concentration camps for their ethno purposes as anyone would say. the statistics say up to 6 millions death were jews; Soviet civilians: around 7 million (including 1.3 Soviet Jewish civilians, who are included in the 6 million figure for Jews); Soviet prisoners of war: around 3 million (including about 50,000 Jewish soldiers); Non-Jewish Polish civilians: around 1.8 million (including between 50,000 and 100,000 members of the Polish elites); Serb civilians (on the territory of Croatia, Bosnia and Herzegovina): 312,000; People with disabilities living in institutions: up to 250,000; Roma (Gypsies): 196,000–220,000; Jehovah's Witnesses: around 1,900; Repeat criminal offenders and so-called asocials: at least 70,000; German political opponents and resistance activists in Axis-occupied territory: undetermined; Homosexuals: hundreds, possibly thousands (possibly also counted in part under the 70,000 repeat criminal offenders and so-called asocials noted above)

in short, Hebrews did make up to 6 millions on the death toll among the death of others for it's different reasons

site of information: https://www.ushmm.org/wlc/en/articl.....uleId=10008193

and keep in mind that the term nazi stands for "Nationalist-SOCIALIST"

now for the statistics for the USSR, which it's political purposes for death camps (among other genocidal forms) were highly similar to the nazis, with the exception of religious persecution (the soviet union was a atheist state, religion was highly restrictive and still is in the territories it still reigns)

according to http://necrometrics.com/20c5m.htm ; Adler, N., Victims of Soviet Terror, 1993 cites these: Chistyakovoy, V. (Neva, no.10): 20 million killed during the 1930s. Dyadkin, I.G. (Demograficheskaya statistika neyestestvennoy smertnosti v SSSR 1918-1956 ): 56 to 62 million "unnatural deaths" for the USSR overall, with 34 to 49 million under Stalin (a reminder that Stalin was JUST a leader of the heart of the Soviet Union, among others such as Lenin and etc, also a fraction of the Soviet union as well that also had genocidal such as Pol Pot and Mao Zedong by which had also many of their own killed, starved to death and exposed to diseases)

although it may not be necessarily clear how many were killed during the rise of the soviet union throughout the cold war due to champagne socialists nowadays and related manipulating, erasing and also censoring not just historical data, but also individuals who express different political opinions (shinning examples such as Facebook, Twitter, Facebook, Google and etc, enforcing said political views on everyone)

even though the Soviet Union/USSR may have collapsed nowadays, the scars and influences it left still persist, both good and bad.

the good influences i can give examples would be to wake up certain economic methods to their practices (which nowadays would seem highly controversial, such as highly dangerous methods of production, being one children exposed to deadly substances for production, being one matches in the 19th century for one) and so tugging to their "human side" and creating a more fair side for all, rather than high class patrons being all egotistical and letting the poor ones rot, the second class for the citizens were created, gifts and etc to make a more fair sense of a better lifestyle, not either too rich or too poor, more for a economical balance and either to go up or down economically by which are all highly dependent on said individual's choices and efforts

and just as time goes on, power also corrupts, rather than stopping at a healthy society, Marxism/Socialism/Communism (all the same to me) went on towards seeing what else it could make "better" and thus it's totalitarian side grew, being one to eliminate the czar, and a "peaceful" regime, was anything but peaceful at the time, just as Stalin eliminated those who rose him to power, policies by which resulted inumerous cases of starvation among others, being such protests on which were mowed down with the guns the donated to their own regime. Russia at the time was mostly rural than urban, certainly the procedures to do so were beneficial in the result as seen nowadays, regarding a very costly process on human life

the USSR was a modern day empire such as Nazi Germany, and it also had it's needs to expand it's grasp onto more territories, yet with limited funds, their territorial expansion was more effective than the nazis in many aspects, with the aid of certain countries of which became bigger allies with the USSR and it's campaign for global dominance, with this however had also created conflicts that had still persist to this day and past conflicts that scarred nowaday's world, such as the Korean Peninsula that remains split apart to this day as well as the middle eastern's issues, apart from terrorism and political instabilities with a worldwide grasp (and now, things are hotter in Europe, thanks to hardheaded braindead politicians with open boarder policies that got many killed already as a consequence along many). the Middle-Eastern and the African continents were pretty hot as they were in the past and it only got even hotter, even if tribalism/imperialism was the "political" nature of the nature of those places, replacing bow and arrow, sword, spear, horse and etc for AKs, RPGs, attack helicopters and etc only helped in raising the death rate in those areas. even if it not be shown, but the middle east in the past used to be a very beautiful landscape, very modern and prosperous, and nowadays a war torn scenario that documentaries often show

as for coming back on the topic, but what on Africa, by which had also it's "arsenal upgraded"? how would it be if the certain tribes often with superior guns would be when they wipe out all the ones who didn't have the means to fight them back? and what if they conflict with the tribes that also possess the same firepower? certainly the act of overpowering a opponent who is not in terms with the weaponry level would be cowardice, but again, the details shown in our world may not be the same as theirs, often we would see it as barbarism, but one thing that's not to forget, in the medieval years, we all were barbarians before we achieved the point where we are, yet different means from then and now highly differ, and the introduction of firearms in a place which would be considered in the "age or barbarism" would chaotically differ from the era of swords and axes from AKs and RPGs. However i also ponder a lot on the moment if they even did genocide all the ill equipped tribes from the African scenario, what would happen afterwards? would it be seen as a highly exaggerated American civil war? what factions would it be at said time period? and what would be the end result of all these conflicts? And another interesting thing to point out as many movies show already would be personal armies and mercenaries acting on those lands for any reason they were contracted for, despite the chances of that being movie fantasy, the most likely case would be Somalian pirates attacking ships

and to easily summarize it all, these conflicts are mostly the seeds planted by communism in an area which both none of the factions (allies or reds) should've bothered with, reason being as it is one of the main biggest causes of all worldwide conflicts which haunts every country in the globe, being if it was historically affiliated or not, terrorism, one of the worst to ever be unintentionally sowed by the interference by the soviets in the middle east and other areas in the "third world" countries touched by soil boots. evidently enough as the allies retreated from certain areas, the communist lifestyle from where the allies retreated from were as exact as the depictions of the enemy, persecutions, executions... being an example would be Vietnam where the reds had overtaken the country and they weren't too happy with the "allied resistance", and thus they added more skulls and bones to their "outdoor Paris catacombs". also to point out as well, if the allies did win the war, one of the things done i'm betting would be the retrieval of old failed experimental weaponry (such as a landmine dropping bomb that still has some undetonated bombs left in Vietnamese territories that often may injure individuals to this day (being some of them found, would often become a child's highly hazardous toy or being sold on the streets for whatever they can get))

as for nowadays, a great example so far would be the Western World... after the 2016 election by which Trump won, rather than Hillary Clinton by still up to this day, we still uncover more and more political corruption scandals among other things such as the forming of violent communist cartels, such as BAMN and Antifa on which have been declared as domestic terrorist groups that rampage through the streets, setting fire to trash, vandalism to the property of others, even physical assault as others with cameras (even their own groups) is enough to document said cases, being the example of a mob against a father and his son beaten up to the ground, or even a trump supporter beaten up unconsciously to the street of which was beaten up by stray black clad criminals? even though these cases were prominently from the USA, the anarcho communist had became more of a global plague, affecting mostly western country, taking in the policies of a failed yet corrupt presidential candidate. but yet the most interesting part, after Clinton's defeat on the 2016 election, many left wing leaders worldwide were apparently corrupted by said defeat, as examples would be Justin Trudeau, Angela Merkel (yet of the bunch, i've seen mr. Trudeau remain more reasonable than others to some extent, as some immigrants acted wrong, he acted immediately, to which i can have the most faith onto, but little to no faith in left wing politics anymore). "no trump, no kkk, no fascist USA" is their usual phrase of shouting out loud on the protests as they march along before escalating to physical violence, "no trump" means that they are against the presidency, despite the good he has done to the country and the world as well, assuming they all want mrs. Clinton in power, despite the allegations against her of political corruptions and also that she's "part of the resistance and a activist citizen". the "fascist USA" as many claim is nothing but a myth, only to discredit president Trump of his good doings, given how the fact we do what's necessary and growing better, rather than doing things to "feel good" and gain little to nothing in return, while also many of said actions would end up morally wrong. the game these zealots play on left wing politicians as they easily dance to their tune on the topics of white guilt, diversity, sexism and etc only so they would get their way and culturally destroy themselves, by importing strangers from culturally incompatible places as we gain the problems on massive rape attack gangs numbers and etc. while they constantly lie about problems they don't exist and creating more problems for everyone so they feel good, certainly humanitarian help is always something correct and to feel good about, however open boarders and uncontrolled immigrations, may help some escaping warzones so they can feel good, but for that, they know it isn't their home, and they WANT to go home with a happy life without the wars and etc, and another important thing to mention about open boarders, it also helps criminals and terrorists of all calibers alike to enter in and cause great harm to the country (a great example is Sweden's no-go zones by only which horror stories come out of places like such. We don't need any mainstream media propaganda ex-journalists choosing our stories for us, as we CAN seek out the stories of the people who do post out important happenings and make it all a small youtube videos rich in information of many happenings that the MSM is a complete slob to cover

and before i let it slip, feminism, invented by utopian socialist Charles Fourier, a movement originally for the equality for the sexes (both male and female) in every society it could reach for and for as much topic in the early days, which it was ideal to pop certain egotistical bubbles to many wake up that a "woman is as human as a man and a man is as human as a woman", misandry and misogyny were both goals at the early days as it did result for a more fair society, even tho many of the issues may still happen, it isn't as it once was before the first feminism movement, (just as much as perfection is always unreachable) (site: http://www.newworldencyclopedia.org/entry/Feminism to this point) however, the second and third waves of feminism became more and more controversial as the years passed on, one of the main topics that stood out of the second wave was it's anti-porn standards (which they weren't the first ones, as there were also (in my words) autists against it as well, and it isn't hard to imagine one, and i can tell you're not against it cause what are you doing in a art site famous for furry yiff?) even though there isn't much to say right now on the second wave, as the topic seems outdated, due to how violent the third wave feminism is going nowadays, being for one, they enforce for highly misandry/sexist/anti-male politics and laws on others (being for one sent to prison for "misgendering" someone verbally from their (fictitious) gender pronoun, which shows the hijacking of the LGBT community to such ideology and also laws such as "preventing HIV/AIDS discrimination" on California, keep in mind that AIDS is an incurable disease, as said law makes it unnecessary to the partner you're about to have sex with to say they are HIV/AIDS positive, by such if you end up HIV/AIDS positive said person would be able to run off guilty free as the government would take care of your infection (that is, IF they even bother to (but in a softer terms as i can put it, governments such as these wouldn't have any impact on their conscience if you were to live or die))) and also implementing certain censorship on certain games because "it does not makes them feel good"

in short, left wing politics are morally bankrupt for feelings and communism only works on the start then it becomes nothing more but a power hungry bogeyman only seeking to create problems for everyone with abhorrent blatant ignorance

personally, left wing politics, I've always had a bad run with certain individuals that were always backstabbing me, among others constantly, i was persistent upon believing it was just those guys, until this political correctness era kicked in, and now i saw everything, as for when i stepped into the right wing, i was welcomed with open arms and also provided a better angle to study it all

however, from all the political info I've gathered, for starters, i can say it's a drug on how it is addictive it is, but not chemically, more on a justice addictive style of all the bad things i've been through to learn and understand it all more and more, you end up becoming highly interested on what happens on the world, such as how insignificant white farmers are in the African continent, what happens in places like Venezuela among others topics on which i said before that the MSM is a complete slob to cover, only adding more to the thirst for more topics beyond the fake media

but most importantly, politics is like a toxic cloud, you can choose to either stick yourself into it and see what you can find (the tinfoil hat stereotype, for instance), or try to stay out of it, but it doesn't matter how much you run or explore into it, it is more of a self conscious toxic cloud, it follows you everywhere no matter where you go with it's nightmares

and also, despite people from both sides hating Richard Spencer, he was right about all this Politically Correct era (which political correctness is only a sugarcoating for power abuse)

and since 7th of November is National Day Of The Victims Of Communism, journal written in November 8th, November 9th is my birthday, and for that, 7th of November is one of the greatest gifts we received, apart from myself that is...

he she, it... doesn't seem to be that innocent anymore right?

here's an idea, let's NOT use pronouns anymore, since it's only gonna get us all into trouble, i decided to just avoid pronouns since it's more harmful than ever nowadays

just a random thought out of the blue

i'm always told to listen to both sides as i can already catch a good glimpse of both sides, sure the furries are being dragged onto some extreme left wing politics (as far as i heard) but still, i highly disagree that the fandom is strictly on one detail on which some claim it can't be argued at all, defending such statement with landmines, barbed wire among other closed minded stuff

however, i don't claim that ever left person is a totalitarian communist, given how i wasted more than 10 years in a socialist democracy to ruin my country, but i thank god that it wasn't as bad as Venezuela (yet i also pray for their safety as well) as well as i thank some sociology classes among others in the same field that helped me realize that everyone's who they are instead of individuals which are the same products in a factory of mass production

However, i've had and still have some left wing friends, but when this trend of closed minded bigotry of leftism aka "Political Correctness", it's always sad to see some friends go and leave you away to rot, on the term on remaining a political saint on the eyes of others. in short, value more on political trends than their actual friends (egotism). as for the other left wing friends, who don't agree with all this (being Sargon of Akkad kekistans, not necessarily all being all lefties) we always have a talk about all this with a laugh just like anyone in any political spectrum and a decent tint of common sense

As for the right wing, i always keep hearing how bad they are all the time, but after i decided to rethink myself to the right, i rarely saw any of these "right wing aggressors" but it's no big surprise, given if you're on the right wing, left wing, head of the ass of whatever it is (i bet's a bird) it's always bound to find idiots of all kinds

as for the confederate flag stuff, i can't bother with topics of persons that are already long dead, even so on the dank memes i watch, they are mostly seen as a stereotypical hillbilly (despite reality having it's twists) and all for a good laugh

on the topic of Nazis, Fascists, and others alike, it'd be pretty delusional that this would be the 1930's all over when the only kind of fascists that would roam still would be gangs like skinheads among others (and just because they are bald, doesn't mean they are skinheads ffs). just as blaming every single person they disagree as Nazis among other insults would empower the actual nazis to reign the terror the libs scream so much about, just like "the little boy who cried wolf"

as for the topic on Nazi, Fascist, etc... you don't need to bother onto forming a militia on which it'll be a domestic terrorist group by the end of the day on the bias to fight off the nazi, fascist among other evil doers when we got the army, cops and others forces alike.

as for the topic of cops, nowadays the police force is a mixed bunch, ranging from good cops, to bad cops. especially from some of the spots i've seen on the world, police brutality would turn into a common thing, at least with the bodycam footage, it can be proof if wrongdoing is acted or not. however, in places, countries on which poverty prevents them from having access to these types of tools allow limited visibility onto the case on what happens, being the questionable word of both the suspect or cop including whatever other evidence is obtainable, such as CCTV footage. since i'm no criminology expert, i'm just going by the obvious, also i highly recommend to seek cases and statistics of such happenings in other countries for instance, not one or two, but many to provide as much details as possible

also, not to mention as well, every time on listening to the "fake news" around and how they are quick to pinpoint right wing in any documentary, journalism, to me that is a dead giveaway on the intention on what they mean to portray, sure of course i can see what the intention is, plus the corruption of finger-pointing, thus ruining the validity, making it the "fake news" the orange man say they are

also, like i said before, i once used to be in the left wing, but to see all the political gunk onto the world nowadays, i just prefer to stay away from the left wing at all on my personal preference, i genuinely do not want want to be seen with all the gunk that seeps into the modern society, sure i may be a anti-SJW, anti-feminism and anti anything it's related to, i'm just too tired of being cheated onto during my time in the left wing, and so when i jumped onto the right wing, i've met with many of the most lovable friends i ever met, because we all are tired of being cheated and bashed onto constantly

PS. before coming with me on accusation of me being a highly aggressive nazi/fascist, attacking other content, i've had a talk with FA mods to have a better understanding on the site guides and etc, as i agree with the site rules and conditions, as i'll keep my nose to myself

and on a personal note, the problem is that the person that is a ideological zealot that ruins the fun, it doesn't matter if the OC is a fully dressed SS Waffen Officer, a Templar, or a Spetsnaz or anything, it doesn't matter as long as you wear the costume instead of the costume wearing you

https://www.deviantart.com/art/Femb.....dopt-700850273
https://www.deviantart.com/art/Femb.....dopt-700850273
https://www.deviantart.com/art/Femb.....dopt-700850273
https://www.deviantart.com/art/Femb.....dopt-700850273

https://www.deviantart.com/art/Rose.....OPEN-698363811

have a link to see a doggo for auction from DA

for one, it's a topic i already rambled for quite a long damned time already and i'll do it again cause its fun

so from what i see around, and a topic that died off long ago

but to my surprise, it didn't

the very topic me and the hag of my ex that bled me dry, used to always constantly poke around

so at my starting days on the internet which it was obviously on the sonic fandom, and day after day being poked to laugh at recolors and the artist themselves, but those were the old days, it took quite some time to realize what had altered, except this time i'm not one to haggle onto things anymore

as seeing  Bosssergal 's journal stating that there are some are cardboard cutouts of his sona. but it's quite understandable to some extent, Boss' already a successful fursuitter, well known merp, vilous team member and etc, so obviously some'll try to leech off the success to get attention (PS. Boss is just one of many)

however, pokemon OCs are one of many forms of more open OC creation with little to no problem, unlike series such as Sonic, on which the "artist" makes the main character(s) (and may or may not be pure salt). Pokemon OCs, are more accepting on the basis that they are OCs made on a series of species of all kinds.

as for the equation is rather simple, a form of creating a OC, multiplied to a insufferable amount of repetitions

even if the art itself is bad, presenting the idea is the most important while improving on art is a natural skill improvement

even if a person just copies and pastes one's OC to themselves, i always found it interesting to make it as a starting point, however to maintain originality, quite ALOT of modifications would be required to make something original, even if it doesn't happen at that exact moment, life'll throw its charms at everyone,

it's like growing a plant which takes time and dedication towards, hate and other forms of personal attacks only pushes toward the worse

but as to keep things short, if someone starts off an OC that resembles someone's OC, then now is not the time to shine, grow the bastard to it's initial climax, even if it takes years

as for my OC, guil, i had the hogger ever since 2011 and i been making improvements ever since, of course it's incomplete

as for my ex:

take a good look at the OC in the image: https://i.pinimg.com/236x/ec/c8/40/.....hog-violet.jpg (the blond sonic lady that looks like a furry version of Avril Lavinge)

when i first met her, she was a Mary-sue of that OC at start, but after a relationship of over 3 fucking years down the drain, that i spent to make her become better and better on, it had it's advantages cause she grew to be someone herself

and the lucky thing is: sexy blond and blue eyed hedgehog girl beings were pretty common to where she lived on the internet, so there wasn't much backlash

so i met this fella on DA on which she is a freelance artist herself and she also has quite a few interesting forms of doing requests

https://sylessae.deviantart.com/ (her DA page for extra watches if you wish to do so)
www.patreon.com/sylessae (and her Patreon as well)

she has posed a journal on which states the rules and conditions for every submission form for a request (given that she may reject the request if given said condition)

but it's all well detailed on how it works, however she asks to give everyone a chance as ya can submit multiple free requests (giving 1-3 days to respond) and also i'd recommend posting requests at least once per month (cooldown between art requests)

however, Commissions are of higher quality than requests

here's the link to her DA Journal: https://forum.deviantart.com/commun.....jects/2323441/

UPDATE 1: it takes 3-7 days to finish 1 project

just as the title says

so i got myself recently a fetish toy which is basically cups you put on your body and suck the air out of it for 15 mins as it detoxes ya

just did my first 15 min as it felt great as it was a bit hard to type to friends, but overall it felt great (because it was sucking at my ribs)

even tho i heard some athletes use this style of medicine, it sure sounds appealing to me

UPDATE: just put the sucking cups on my shoulders as they feel amazing on the touch but extremely awkward to type and move arms

then again i'm not familiar with these things at all, i'm just going with what i know by far

even to regain a healthy body as well to prove i'm worth something i've been considering a few things to increase performance in all shapes and forms i can (possibly) achieve at my current limits and so on

ah in case you wander what product i'm using, here's a link: https://images-na.ssl-images-amazon.....2L._SY450_.jpg

since i use a lot of Photoshop and i've been doodling more often with my keyboard and mouse, i've been studying the layers for a bit and seeing the "ultra quality" of other artists on the "shine" and related on what i could do, apart from my actual practice of shading

it also might be a lil bit raw, but with the crude lineart, i've been thinking on other things to tinker with it

also, it may not be on the actual next second because i have my own life to live as i draw whenever i can, but i just have to post it as a journal an idea i had for the time being to remind me over in time

PS. i also can't really help it, but from time to time, i'm expecting a scrawny wankstain to attack my style of art because it doesn't conform to their standards (of feelings or some shit) among others, as seen in many active art sites such as some wierdos in e621 on which they intentionally gang up to downvote a individual's art piece down to remove it, all on the basis of disliking the individual who made it, just a heads up

simple, i'd make a few investments to gain even more than the current funds given to i can perhaps either make bigger donations and what not

so about 2 days ago, me and a friend of mine wanted to try a attraction toy for donation by simply running at a huge vinyl disk

now, think of this way

most people i see were running on the disk for 30 secs and raising 1 or 2 dollars

while me and my friend we went running as if we were running away from a bombardment, beyond our limit for 30 seconds, we raised about 10-15 dollars on the disk

but the part afterwards, it how sick i became, vomited about 2 times and could barely breath, looking at everything as it there was a TV in front of me

thankfully paramedics helped me and some good water to recover myself from the event, despite i overly exhausted myself, at least i raised a good donation with my friend and that's what makes me happy

just a lil heads up, if you seem to be one of these heavily left leaning individuals, i red pilled myself especially for this rant which was supposed to be a YT comment to a teddy bear known as "Bearing"

if you get triggered or some shit, not my problem, i don't have to conform to your goddamn preferences, asshole

***LONG ASS RANT***
((and trigger warning too))

what i usually think is that some of these unprofessional dimwits usually being sellouts is they opt to go for money all the time, instead of portraying actual news, these media whores sell themselves to some whiney bastards to do whatever some bastard has cash to do so, taking orders like a obedient dog waiting for a treat, no matter what and plus, not just on news outlets being sellouts, but by other many corporations as well, on which instead of having happy jolly days, these wankstains have to ruin it all up, because of some "alt right nazi terrorist" or some other ridiculous made up bullshit to reason the "tolerant" power they have, like rejecting the truth so they can keep their "tentacle porn" into our ears and dance like puppets and clapping like some bastard with some bubble isolation syndrome also, do forgive for continuing, but it's just the need to share my views and for a few years back, i was constantly brainwashed to be in the left constantly, but thankfully over time i was able to break free from it, slowly breaking free from it by watching actual news. Being the biggest factor how my country itself was ruined by socialism bullshit constantly which would take decades to fix all the bullshit those leeches did and mostly because of when i was in the US at a young age, i had to admit that i loved the US way more than my own country, yet how some flaws capitalism may have, but unlike socialism, it gives us all a bigger chance to achieve a better life PS. nowadays the rat bastards want to pollute it all again but less of me and more to the point knowing how this evil has many faces and many ways of nibbling into the minds of many, some more successful than others, turning them into either sheeps or zombies with the justification of political violence, twisting and censoring up facts and etc, like the kill count between Nazi Germany and the USSR (on which is the most iconic topic i can see being toyed around) it's basically simple math and statistics, who lasted longer, territory range, influence and etc on which to me it's obvious that in Germany 1 million lives were costed and for the USSR was about 20 million, but these statistics are mostly blurry due to age and how much it's tinkered with to serve as excuses for all kinds of political violations on inumerous individuals, no matter who they are and so on on the EU, the open border policy to may seem a good idea in theory, but in practice it's rather a catastrophe in many ways, and especially how it's going as well, since countless times i've seen europeans being attacked and yet denied the right for self defense and neglected any help, due to the phrase "terrorism is a part of our daily lives" on which i'd love for these terrorist sympathizers say that to the families on which they have lost a family member due to terrorism attacks. and interestingly enough, these manchilds have the mindset to believe that everyone in the right wing believes that every muslim is a terrorist and so on, which is untrue, and not to forget that even on both wings, there will always be some that are hard to reason with at all times, however, Islam in many ways i find it interesting in many ways, especially the historic background, however, even in history as well, there is always those who wishes to "blasphemize" not just the name of god himself in vain, but among another things as well, so that "leader" may enjoy the wealth and other powers above those who follow him/her without question. In short, manipulating those against a certain goal for personal gains. to summon the outcome up in a nutshell, it would self destruct a religion from within depending how much influence it has, such as "ex muslims" being a result of it with all their reasons. However, since this falls under the claim of "islamophobia", the term "phobia" would derive from fear, such as europeans being afraid of muslims due to terror attacks, and as i've seen many times, especially in Youtube comments of the justification for such would be the Drone attacks on middle eastern cities. attacking individuals of western societies would not reduce the number of drone attacks as it would increase the number of drones dropping bombs on certain locations on certain aspects, but generally would raise the fear of islam for europeans especially, of which being "refugees" they could very well be helping them at the current given situation, but like all of western society, there are some to "comfort it all away" like some caring mother may seem helpful, but it does contribute to the decline of the social stabilities in many ways unfortunately, especially a plan of "diversity" which it's too rushed and unmodertated. however, i decided to leave this one out of the previous paragraph because it's just a small highlight to get a better life it only depends to ourselves and what we can achieve with it, no one's gonna hand it over in a silver platter because we are the ones who can fight for a better life in the correct manner, and it isn't by leaning on a libtard which only is a broken record that "it's all gonna be fine" or going to another country with open boarders on which it's more developed than the current one, due to sudden changes may be harmful. the proper way is achieving it personally, leaning to a side of more personal effort than relying on trends which are certain to be harmful for all but that's just my opinion as for feminism, blm and sjw in general, there's definitively no point of reasoning with them, since sjws are fanatics of their own cult, but here's what i know; for the most part, even if many corporation are shutting down many for "free speech" and etc, part of me believe they are using daddy's money to do what they do best... cheat their way around so that they are the ones that are not being censored, thus shutting down or censoring their opponents. but that's just a theory among others. Also, not to mention that they were the ones who validated political violence, looks to get triggered by things only to start up shit, the iconic fish mouth syndrome, hateful to the core and the ones which made me red pill to the surplus anyways, some of the problems they see and what not are quite easy to solve and/or avoid, like female videogame characters, on which if they look sexy, they have the right to be sexy and so on, just like any woman anywhere, sexy, beautiful, ugly scary, it doesn't matter, they can dress up however the fuck they want and that ain't my problem, nor anyone's. but being the case some guy wants to grope her and so on, that's called a sex offender, and contrary to their popular belief, it's not always white males every single time, it can come from anyone, doesn't matter the sex, ethnicity or anything else, but it doesn't mean we are all animals to be hoggin around nonstop, because we all need at least some decency of common sense. and to mention as well, that some asswipes do tend to scam horny males, not as in anime trap likes and so on, but to once have consensual sex and then bring up the charges as rape and so on. at least one would expect the court to have some decency, but as often portrayed on movies, books, they are often quick to go directly to play by the viper's side, common story. and yes, despite some common story of cases oh fatherless pregnant women and so on, for one solution, condoms are a simple and cheap solution, if not that, abortion is also a solution as well, despite a crap-ton of controversies and etc, but here's a "red pill", you CAN do the abortion, just like many do it, no matter the controversies and all, and you don't also have to conform to what one is comforted to your body and etc because of this or that, along with a lot of many other alternatives as well, but i don't have to name all because i'm no doctor (despite some camera boys and girls may rant on this a lot, telling me i should do my research and so on, but here are 2 simple words which are certain to say that you don't need to conform to their standards, and those 2 magical words are "fuck them" just like that) now, for blm, some protesting methods may be straight up suicide like blocking highways (which some drivers may only have split seconds to react) and so on, but some ways in life aren't by mob mentality, as like i said before, some individuals play other dudes for personal gains and so on, and i know well of the slavery past as i've seen it countless times. but unlike some folks that keep going straight up stupid by crying constantly in chains for photos, believing it may repay some sort of "debt". the folks who owe the actual debt are long dead and long gone, buried in graveyards somewhere in the world, but again, taking a look at this slavery, blacks were more preferred due to higher physical abilities, and so on, plus especially when the american continents were being colonized and so on, especially the need of funds of personal greed and also because of some old fart with alzheimer had more absolutist power than kings and emperors in what was the "western world" at the time, and the darkness of slavery wasn't just for blacks in general as well, but also other ethnicities as well such as latinos, natives, Irish and even other whites who were in debt as their work was mostly exploited by the lords so that they were forgotten to the world as a animal to their debt. however, it also does not end there, at the time especially, factory owners, one of the most contributers to the factor of the "rich" exploited the workers for being poor, and especially at the time there was no worker's rights whatsoever, which allowed them to toy around with their workers especially working without rest for the smallest payment anyone can think of (such as one cent a restless labor week), and especially in age, there was also no limitations as well, such as little kids being sent to the coal mines, mining down deposits of mineral coal, with only the assistence of steam machines and at risks of many factors, such as rats and the deseases brought along with the rodents (which the dog breed known as the westie came from); floods, due to rains and other natural water factors; Given as well how the death rate in the coal mines, along with other jobs (especially if one was to die in a coal mine at the time, no one would bother with it) some of the patrons not just from being demanding was also quite heavily brutal in many ways, such as beating up their workers to death by bare hands or a blank weapon. and even in machines as well, how they were sent to do repairs on functioning machines to do repairs and/or cleaning to be mauled (to death) by gears or to come out with missing limbs. even though the communist movement at it's infancy did bring a lot of worker's rights and so on, but it was to be shortly lived as it would be used for totalitarian purposes later in life, such as the famously known "Gulags" and so on, and it became what it "stereotypically" is due to the strong influence, large number of supporters, however for not being well educated, they were often misled to do horrors, like a peaceful protest in the early USSR being gunned down by soviet troops, with a few backbones to be manipulated and toyed around, such as example given was Pol-Pot in good ol' 'Nam, if you were rich, intelectual, or anything related, your bones would become a part of Mr. Pot's collection. and yes i also hear about the factor of guns and everything. it wasn't always communism, but other ideologies and powers in play that also started quite a few nasty world genocides and they always had the same start "disarm your target" such as a form in communism would be to "supply the soldiers with your guns" on which in good faith many did, only to be shot down afterwards with their own guns. Anyways, enough of the past horrors and so on, for the blm, in short, you don't always need to tackle certain problems head on, as even certain individuals like Lenny Kravitz, Eddy Grant, Snoop Dogg and among others there were nothing at the start before they are what they currently are, a hero and a inspiration for many. a major difference from a baby to a man, is that a baby cries to get what it wants and a man works for it, always best to extend your limits all the more, since if you're still breathing, there's always a chance and avenge those who aren't by always becoming a better person. and always keep in mind, the individuals responsible for slavery and it's horrors are long gond and buried somewhere in the world, on which instead of blaming them, blaming their ethnicity they are always bound to escape their deeds. and yes, also during the colonization of northern america as well they had also a lot lost as well, but why live in the ruins of a society when you can take advantage of it? and so many natives became wealthy and happy such as casino owners for instance social justice may seem like something beautiful and so on, but it's just an illusion to keep you away from your life goals, keeping you always below your minimal potential and once again, sorry for the incredibly long comment/rant/vent or whatsoever, i'm just physically sick of these bastards who think they can always get away and promote their idiotic bullshit constantly over actual facts on how "tolerant" they actually are

this was actually supposed to be a comment on Bearing's video on what he, along with my college teachers and others such as the clothing department mannequin undoomed, the wise golden statue, Sargon of Akkad, the cute little owl, gemineye, and many other more

and yes, years before all this trump drama bullshit, i used to be in the left wing before seeing how monstrous it was, and yes, i red pilled myself to the surplus to cleanse my soul of the sins form the past, struggling to always become a better person (to which i'm doomed to never be good enough)

yup, that's how i'm sitting atm

since one of my chair wheels broke, i decided to remove it all

except for one detail

my chair has the hydraulics bulging down

so i have to sit like a kung fu master on a spear

at least it's fun to play with the wheel holders

so yes, i decided to challenge myself on shittifying the graphics to boost up framerates, which also may be a dead giveaway of how shit my current specs are

however

i can't say how healthy this may be and what not, i usually have a phobia of modding games which i always fuck up in one way or another

but meh, what can i do?

i do like the fallout series, but implementing the most absurd of graphical quality to the lowest framerates ever do tend to get my nerves at this point i'm a performance addict, pushing my knowledge on PC science to boost framerates all the more and so on

but it's quite stressful as well, regarding those i wanna be with in a chat, or college duties and so on to tend at the same time while planning how much more framerates i can squeeze of my PC, no matter how hard i try

plus, these specs i kept them running personally over the years and so on (slowly dying as i heard from the tech, but the health is surprisingly higher than i expected)

however, t'is not only for fallout i take this onto, but every game i play on

and the high quality that chews up the framerate and challenges me on a battle

even the graphical quality may look like shit, but i don't care at this point, as it gives a more nostalgic feeling to it

**strong stomach may be required

some time ago late at night i felt a strange lump on the side of my head

so to the bathroom mirror i went to check

tried popping it but nothing happened

so i got myself a dentist tooth hook like tool (i dunno the name)

i tried having a closer look to see what it was

but i only felt about 5 miniature stabs on it

so why not forget about it before i make it worst and go to sleep right?

it did get smaller, but i'm not poking around any time soon

something i'm asking myself since i fecided to redesign my actual facial features to look hopefully better than my corrent looks

been asking myself that for a bit now

seeing it's effects on NPCs to knock them down which they slowly perish by coughing and breathing in this mysterious gas

now, being the doufus i sometimes can be, i got caught a few times on the could as it liquidates the character's health in seconds

then again, GTA V characters seem kinda flimsy at this moment due to how quick they die easily

however, on the canister

it might be some poisonous gas someone filled it up and labeled it "Tear Gas"

but on a /pol side, i'm betting it's Zyklon B Giftgas aka cyanide

this happened a few moments a go on a pic i posted of NSFW furry art

S/A: do you have any shame in posting this!?

Me: nope :3