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Posted 3 years agoSo there has been a lot that's gone down in the past few years.
And I do mean a LOT. So much that I don't really even know where to start.
I suppose starting from my move would be as good a place as any. I found myself in Vegas for a few years, and it was good enough to get back on my feet, reorient myself and really buckle down for getting myself back on track. Well. Mostly anyways, at least in the broad strokes. I was working crazy hours and wound up getting my own studio which was... Well, it was small, cramped and not of much use aside from sleeping, but it was mine, and that counted for a lot for where I was at. It was lonely, and honestly save for my yearly excursions to FC, I never really even spent time with or saw anyone. I was living to work.
Started dating Huttsergreywolf, and honestly as of this we've been together for 4 years. It's been a ride, and then some honestly, and sharing my life with another person has been wonderful. Scary, terrifying, and more then a little harrowing for my own sense of self but I think we've been doing well enough for one another, and that brings me more contentment then I can really put into words.
A little under 3 years ago, things shifted. Substantially.
Mom was diagnosed with cancer. My sister needed me closer, and I had to go back home. I dropped everything that I could as things got worse, and treatment didn't solve anything.
I won't really go into details, but the situation went south very, very fast. Her cancer accelerated.
She died after less then a year.
I really don't remember anything of the weekend after that point, to be honest. The next three days just don't exist in my brain from there.
I moved back to California and moved in with Huttser and Equi, and after a brief stint in San Diego we moved further north, and we're working on finding a place to call a proper home, after all is said and done. Things are different. I moved on from retail work, quitting and I'm focusing on a career now, doing voice acting/voice over, which I will do for folks for a modest fee.
I'm older. More tired, certainly. Life was never about the pursuit of my own pleasure and more about survival, but I've come through with a lot more scars, and more focused on being a better person then I was yesterday, backsteps and failures and all. I'm cutting out a... SUBSTANTIAL amount of information, but I think there's only so much time in the day, and I'd rather not bog folks down.
Twitter is... a Thing. You can find me there CanisTenebris if you really want to keep more apprised of my day to day situation but man... I wouldn't be here if it weren't for the people in my life that care about me. My friends have kept me focused, keep me grounded and believing in a future.
Life just keeps on happening, you know? Gotta keep on moving.
And I do mean a LOT. So much that I don't really even know where to start.
I suppose starting from my move would be as good a place as any. I found myself in Vegas for a few years, and it was good enough to get back on my feet, reorient myself and really buckle down for getting myself back on track. Well. Mostly anyways, at least in the broad strokes. I was working crazy hours and wound up getting my own studio which was... Well, it was small, cramped and not of much use aside from sleeping, but it was mine, and that counted for a lot for where I was at. It was lonely, and honestly save for my yearly excursions to FC, I never really even spent time with or saw anyone. I was living to work.
Started dating Huttsergreywolf, and honestly as of this we've been together for 4 years. It's been a ride, and then some honestly, and sharing my life with another person has been wonderful. Scary, terrifying, and more then a little harrowing for my own sense of self but I think we've been doing well enough for one another, and that brings me more contentment then I can really put into words.
A little under 3 years ago, things shifted. Substantially.
Mom was diagnosed with cancer. My sister needed me closer, and I had to go back home. I dropped everything that I could as things got worse, and treatment didn't solve anything.
I won't really go into details, but the situation went south very, very fast. Her cancer accelerated.
She died after less then a year.
I really don't remember anything of the weekend after that point, to be honest. The next three days just don't exist in my brain from there.
I moved back to California and moved in with Huttser and Equi, and after a brief stint in San Diego we moved further north, and we're working on finding a place to call a proper home, after all is said and done. Things are different. I moved on from retail work, quitting and I'm focusing on a career now, doing voice acting/voice over, which I will do for folks for a modest fee.
I'm older. More tired, certainly. Life was never about the pursuit of my own pleasure and more about survival, but I've come through with a lot more scars, and more focused on being a better person then I was yesterday, backsteps and failures and all. I'm cutting out a... SUBSTANTIAL amount of information, but I think there's only so much time in the day, and I'd rather not bog folks down.
Twitter is... a Thing. You can find me there CanisTenebris if you really want to keep more apprised of my day to day situation but man... I wouldn't be here if it weren't for the people in my life that care about me. My friends have kept me focused, keep me grounded and believing in a future.
Life just keeps on happening, you know? Gotta keep on moving.
Inbound
Posted 3 years agoSo with Twitter going weird places I think it's time to break off the rust here.
FC Next Month
Posted 6 years agoSooooo yeah I'm goin' to FC who gonna be there
Hmm.
Posted 10 years agoDon't really post up a lot here, mostly because work has sort of been kicking my ass, and if I draw anything new it usually goes up on my Weasyl or Tumblr. I mean I'm still alive obviously, just busy as hell, trying to find work and working on other projects.
Sitting on a few gift pieces, debating if I should share a few with folks, I've already put a few up I mean...
Sitting on a few gift pieces, debating if I should share a few with folks, I've already put a few up I mean...
Weasyl
Posted 10 years agoNot posting hi-rez stuff here, basically putting up sporadic stuff to lure people to look at my proper gallery over on Weasyl.
https://www.weasyl.com/~solitude
https://www.weasyl.com/~solitude
https://www.weasyl.com/~solitude
Not that it's mandatory or nothing I just put more things (read, EVERYTHING) up on there.
As an aside, settled into my new digs more or less. Still just trying to get by but that's standard, really.
https://www.weasyl.com/~solitude
https://www.weasyl.com/~solitude
https://www.weasyl.com/~solitude
Not that it's mandatory or nothing I just put more things (read, EVERYTHING) up on there.
As an aside, settled into my new digs more or less. Still just trying to get by but that's standard, really.
To whomever it might concern
Posted 11 years agoThe lease is up in the middle of October, and pretty much everyone in this apartment is going their separate ways. I'm still waiting to hear back from the apartments I applied for, and best case scenario I hear back from them this week for the apartment to open up on the 25th.
Regardless of how it turns out, either way I'm out of a place for at least two weeks, and still looking for a place. Best case scenario it's just two weeks. Worst case, I'm honestly not sure what's going to happen. Going to keep looking for work, and new place, but I'm not sure where I'll be in the coming weeks or so. Not a cry for help, not a pity party.
Just a statement of things as they are, and for those who care, if I suddenly vanish, don't be terribly surprised. Hopefully it won't happen. But that's just the situation.
Here's hoping it doesn't devolve into that.
Regardless of how it turns out, either way I'm out of a place for at least two weeks, and still looking for a place. Best case scenario it's just two weeks. Worst case, I'm honestly not sure what's going to happen. Going to keep looking for work, and new place, but I'm not sure where I'll be in the coming weeks or so. Not a cry for help, not a pity party.
Just a statement of things as they are, and for those who care, if I suddenly vanish, don't be terribly surprised. Hopefully it won't happen. But that's just the situation.
Here's hoping it doesn't devolve into that.
Yeah I'm done here.
Posted 11 years agoGallery is staying up but no new work is going up here.
I'm not certain who reads my journals but I'm done. Just 100 percent done with this website.
https://www.weasyl.com/~solitude
I'm not certain who reads my journals but I'm done. Just 100 percent done with this website.
https://www.weasyl.com/~solitude
Smiles and Tears
Posted 12 years agoPosting this about because I'm having a bout of holiday feelings.
For those with any interest, I also have a Weasyl
Posted 12 years agoChristmas Wishlist 2013
Posted 12 years agoI don't really want anything. Weird as it sounds, I'm not really the kind of person who makes a big deal of wanting or desiring anything. Not because I don't want for things, I do. Generally speaking though my family tends to skip Christmas especially in the more recent years because we're all so distant and we can't afford it.
In terms of being impractical and what I'd like? Kind of a sparse list.
This is all really just me being unrealistic mind you.
-Effects pedals for my guitar
-A new, bigger amp
-Guitar lessons
-Plane ticket for an out of the country trip
-Coyote kigu this will never happen though because THEY DON'T EXIST 8I
-Christmas eve snuggles
-A second chance
-a new bed
-The remaining books in my Dresden Files collection
-DDR2 Geil Black Dragon 2 Gig Ram x2
-New headset/mic
-Quality headphones
-Some shirts
-Another suit for dress occasions
-New shoes, dress and casual
In some ways it's a lot. It's nice to dream though.
ADDENDUM- I don't really expect anyone to go outta their way for any of this it'd be selfish of me to expect it! Just having a bit of fun with this is all!
In terms of being impractical and what I'd like? Kind of a sparse list.
This is all really just me being unrealistic mind you.
-Effects pedals for my guitar
-A new, bigger amp
-Guitar lessons
-Plane ticket for an out of the country trip
-Coyote kigu this will never happen though because THEY DON'T EXIST 8I
-Christmas eve snuggles
-A second chance
-a new bed
-The remaining books in my Dresden Files collection
-DDR2 Geil Black Dragon 2 Gig Ram x2
-New headset/mic
-Quality headphones
-Some shirts
-Another suit for dress occasions
-New shoes, dress and casual
In some ways it's a lot. It's nice to dream though.
ADDENDUM- I don't really expect anyone to go outta their way for any of this it'd be selfish of me to expect it! Just having a bit of fun with this is all!
DEATH COMES RIDING ON A MIDNIGHT TRAIN
Posted 12 years agoHEAVEN OR HELL
DUEL 1
LET'S ROCK!!!
My body is READY.
DUEL 1
LET'S ROCK!!!
My body is READY.
Hylian Skinhead
Posted 12 years agoI can't think of a better use of the selfie feature in Wind Waker HD can you
Dissapearing for a week
Posted 12 years agoI'm not 100 percent on who even reads my journals, but I'm taking off for a week starting on November 1st to tool around SoCal with my fake gay husband 
Cerberus and just try and take my mind off everything.
So yeah. There's that.
Cerberus and just try and take my mind off everything.So yeah. There's that.
Possible Commissions
Posted 12 years agoSo, I want to save up money for various things, including car repairs, possible tickets to look into moving out of the state or even the country, and I'm, well not in a bind, I scrape by I do wanna make things sliiightly easier.
So, putting some feelers out there; would anyone consider some sketches or even colored things or anything to that effect? Examples-
Sketch samples- http://www.furaffinity.net/view/11752837/
http://www.furaffinity.net/view/11554729/
$10-20
Colors- http://www.furaffinity.net/view/11683203/
http://www.furaffinity.net/view/11836161/
$25-40 depending on copmplexity
Just putting it out there would anyone be interested at all?
So, putting some feelers out there; would anyone consider some sketches or even colored things or anything to that effect? Examples-
Sketch samples- http://www.furaffinity.net/view/11752837/
http://www.furaffinity.net/view/11554729/
$10-20
Colors- http://www.furaffinity.net/view/11683203/
http://www.furaffinity.net/view/11836161/
$25-40 depending on copmplexity
Just putting it out there would anyone be interested at all?
You'll thank me later for this I promise
Posted 12 years agoTURTLE POWER
YOU ARE MOST WELCOME
So I was learning art things tonight
Posted 12 years agoAnd I soon found myself slightly overwhelmed by the sheer amount of everything that was barreling my way and I was absorbing as much of it as I could. And it struck me that it's going to be a WHILE before I can really learn any of this, but then it occurred to me
'If you're gonna do anything worth doing, don't do it by halves. Go all the way.'
I ain't stopping. Not here. Not now. Not ever.
'If you're gonna do anything worth doing, don't do it by halves. Go all the way.'
I ain't stopping. Not here. Not now. Not ever.
GOTTA GO FAST
Posted 12 years agoi apologize for nothing
Electronic Music is harder to make than you'd think.
Posted 12 years agoI dare you, DARE YOU to see this and try and say otherwise.
Considering freebies for folks
Posted 12 years agoShow of hands. I need some sort of forced incentive to do art again, and I figure some simple sketches, possibly a basic ink for folks is in order. 2, maybe 3 folks at a time in a stream depending on the time. Who'd be interested?
Is there such a thing as a porn overload
Posted 12 years agoI don't know if there's such a thing as going on a porn bender, but there's just a point where you look at this website and think
'Man that's an awful lot of cock for one vag'
Just
oh god
can't
boobs
cock
TOO MUCH
Seriously I think it can be nice to just step away from the poontang and just read a book or something.
Game of Thrones doesn't count because then you get raging food boner.
'Man that's an awful lot of cock for one vag'
Just
oh god
can't
boobs
cock
TOO MUCH
Seriously I think it can be nice to just step away from the poontang and just read a book or something.
Game of Thrones doesn't count because then you get raging food boner.
Anamanaguchi Kickstarter
Posted 12 years agoOn the art front
Posted 12 years agoGrinding away at some new stuff, hopefully it'll be worthwhile and something I'm proud of. Got one or two more pieces of art from friends I might put up but after that, I promise some actual work from me.
So uh. Yeah. There's that. On with your daily business then!
So uh. Yeah. There's that. On with your daily business then!
