http://forums.furaffinity.net/threa.....-Policy-on-Cub

....fuck.

Well, I never really wanted to ever say I was leaving, because I know how that usually turns out. Ya known, declare that you're leavin' 4eva, delete everything and leave... and then are back in a week. This really sucks ass, but I'm not gonna be the one to say I'm leaving forever just to be back in a week. I fucking hate how spineless and lazy Dragoneer is being, but there're lots of artists here I like who don't do cubs, or don't do them exclusively. I like the community for the most part, I just hate the dummies running it.

So consider my gallery effectively dead. It was pretty much dead already, as I haven't really found the will to draw in a great long while. If I ever do continue drawing I think I'll just grab myself a sketch blog, and maybe pop in this journal from time to time and say: 'Hey, new pieces on the blog.' and point you there. I'm probably not going to be throwing anything new into this gallery.

That's assuming I don't wind-up getting banded for calling the staff spineless, lazy dumbasses. Though at this point I don't really care all that much anymore. To my watchers and all the friendly folks in the community, I say; "Thanks for the good times."

To the Moral Guardians celebrating this 'victory' I say; "When the party's over, you'll still be insufferable pricks who've ultimately wasted your lives tilting at windmills. Have fun with that, I'll be over here laughing with friends while you're crying yourself to sleep at night, alone."

Good night, people.

Original journal posted by  redregon here: http://www.furaffinity.net/journal/1767489/

not that it really mattered, the account was merely a placeholder since i signed up before knowing who was running it.

but funny, my profile page had my statement of not supporting pedophilia and not knowing the site was run by pedophiles before signing up.

and when i last tried to log in... whoops, no user.

tried to go directly to the page... whoops, no user.

looks like i peeved off the big bad pedophiles that are the inkbunny site owners enough to warrant my account being removed.

or maybe it was mentioning to someone that since the site servers are run in canada that the rules pertaining to issues such as cub pornography are a leeeeetle bit different than what people are used to on sites like FA which are run on american servers.

i can't help but laugh heartily! if this is how the inkbunny site owners handle issues such as this, well... let's just say that it's no surprise that they'd be a bunch of piddly cowards.

so, do you have an inkbunny account? do you dislike the site lots for whatever reason? criticize the site owners as being pedophiles (since, well, they fap to pictures of furry children so they technically are) and see what happens.

maybe you'll have your account suddenly dissapear as well.

heheee, i love it when i piss off pedophiles like that. it's priceless!

oh, and so far there's been absolutely no notification as to the why it happened... no email in my inbox, no alert message or whatever. just... sweep it under the rug and pretend that it didn't even exist.

Why, that sounds like utter bullshit! You boys and girls who watch me should know by now, the 'My Site, My Rules' excuse does not fly with The Kid; that he sees users who employ that excuse as nothing but shameless ass-kissers, and staff/owners who employ it as cowardly douchebags, ESPECIALLY when it is used to silence dissenting opinions. Even so much as a 'Fuck you (insert site staff/owner name here)' is free speech that deserves to be protected even from the private sector.

And seriously, if all you want is a site full of ass-kissers, then why make it open to the public? Just make it a private gathering place for your friends and suck-ups if you just wanna live in an echo-chamber and not bother with hearing other voices and opinions.

So to learn that Ink Bunny may be guilty of bullshit similar to what is going on over here on FA made me want to register over at Ink Bunny just to complain about it all. I may not like  redregon, and honestly I think of him as nothing more than a stupid, worthless crusading moralfag only interested in playing the Knight Templar against things HE finds offensive, but dammit, he has as much right to spout his bullshit as anyone else! It doesn't matter that I seriously doubt he has any actual interest in protecting children and only wants to play Thought Police with people's fantasies and use 'pedophiles' as an enemy to fill his empty life with some semblance of meaning, he has a right to say his piece, even if that piece consists of nothing more than libelous name-calling.

I'm going to go leave a Shout on his page right now expressing my support of his rights to voice his opinion unimpeded.


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Oh, that's right, I forgot,  redregon blocked me for insinuating that he was a moralfag Knight Templar with no life outside of crusading against and playing Thought Police against things HE finds offensive. Hmm... sounds awfully similar to how  redregon's Ink Bunny account was allegedly deleted for his inflammatory opinions about 'pedophilia' (re: 'cub art and fans of it,' actually) and the allegedly 'paedophilic' owners/staff of Ink Bunny, actions that  redregon himself described as those of 'a bunch of piddly cowards.'

Now boys and girls, don't get The Kid wrong on this or anything. I still think it is utter bullshit if it is in fact true that  redregon's Ink Bunny account was deleted for his inflammatory opinions. And if I can be arsed to get off my lazy ass and do so, I probably will make an account on Ink Bunny JUST to complain about this. I just enjoy pointing out when moralfags like him are being hypocrites. ^-^


PS: BTW, it says right in the TOS on Ink Bunny that any material that 'defames or vilifies any person or group of people' is considered inappropriate and violates the TOS, as well as declaring that 'Access to this website may be terminated at any time by us without notice.' I still think it's bullshit, but it's a site rule right there in black and white. :B

 redregon blocked me from his page, but I really wanted to chime in with my own thoughts on his latest journal so I thought I'd do it here. The original journal can be found here: http://www.furaffinity.net/journal/1687099/

oh the matter of violence and fantasy.

for starters... what is fantasy? well, if you kinda boil it down, it's what comes up in our imaginations... the stuff of fiction... not real... but, why is it as it is? well, fantasy is a sort of escape. if we never wanted to escape reality, why would we have fantasies in the first place?

so there is one point. but, what does that really mean? i mean, yeah, we have nightmares but that's kinda a byproduct of our imaginations. what is the allure of fantasy? well, it's what we imagine doing or seeing or whatever in things that we want to do in some way.

I'm always hesitant to agree with someone when they start an argument by making assertions like this, but I looked it up and did some quick reading on it and Wikipedia seems to agree with him at least as far as daydreams are concerned. But he not localize the discussion to just daydreams, but fantasy as a whole, which is where I draw contention with his argument, as fantasy as a whole contains more than just daydreams.

now, fantasizing about going on a roller-coaster... harmless
fantasizing about going on a roller-coaster nude... hilarious, but harmless.
fantasizing about shopping at the mall... harmless
fantasizing about going on a shopping spree... probably a lot of fun, but ultimately harmless.

so, yeah... it's rather blah for the everyday stuff... let's go a little further...

fantasizing about being intimate with that cutie on the bus... harmless
fantasizing about doing the nasty on a pool-table/hot-tub/etc... harmless
fantasizing about getting your freak on with your other... harmless (and fun)

now... here's the question... even though these things are fantasies, they are drawn from the drives in our heads that make us want to DO these things... that's why we imagine them, explore them from different angles, toy with them... that kinda thing (or it's just *poof* IDEA! and then it's gone... but those don't happen often.)

basically, deep down, there's a part of us that kinda wants to DO those things that we fantasize about.

This may or may not be true of daydreams, I'm hesitant to agree with this argument here, however it is not true of all fantasy.

The first thing that popped into my mind when reading his journal was The Elder Scrolls IV: Oblivion. One of the missions in the game tasks you with killing a unicorn and retrieving its horn. This game is obviously fantasy, but before playing it, I never really had any desire to kill a unicorn, and I would argue that the programmer of the game doesn't really have a desire to kill a unicorn either. It was just an appropriately fantasy-esc creature for the very heavily fantasy-esc setting, and tasking you with killing it would make the Daedric Prince who gave you the mission look like a real bastard.

Switching gears from Magical Fantasy to another Fantasy Genre; Horror, I think we can see some real obvious examples of how fantasy doesn't necessarily equate to secret desires. Another game example, because video games, by virtue of being an interactive media I think are the best way to dispel this false equivocation; Silent Hill. It can be argued effectively I think that one playing such a game wants to be scared, yes, I can agree to this. However, I cannot agree that one would want to be Harry Mason; to face the abominations of Silent Hill in a desperate search for his beloved daughter only to lose that daughter to these demonic forces, I can't see a player wanting this and I can't see the person who penned the script wanting this either.

Fantasy in this regard is penned for the sake of creating an entertaining narrative. There are no actual wants involved in it.

now... turn your heads and look at the fandom. it's a community fueled by the imagination, drives, secret things we've wanted to try or wished we could do (as is the case of nearly all of us here having furry personas.) granted, everyone's going to be different, but there's that underlying theme... besides, don't you really think it'd be cool to be your fursona IRL for even one day? hour?

Bringing up the subjects of fursonas does raise an interesting point: Now, there are many fursonas, mine includes, that have rather emotastic back-stories attached to them. I, for one, wouldn't really want to live Leon's life, since while it would include a lot of sex, it would also include a lot of really bad things I'd rather avoid, and I think if a lot of the people who write their fursonas to have really dark back stories stopped and thought about it, they might not really enjoy those lives either, in spite of whatever powers and such might come along with it.

On the flip side, it cannot be denied that there are definitely a lot of people who would probably enjoy living their fursonas' lives. There are probably a lot of author's who might enjoy living the lives of some of their characters. It is very possible that even outside of daydreaming there are possible wants involved in fantasy, the idea of self-insert fanfiction is essentially predicated on this. However, I do not agree that all fantasy is based on secret wants and desires, and I might even go so far as to claim that not all daydreams are necessarily based on secret desires and wants either, but that some might just be based on their entertainment value. Hell,  redregon himself gives a rather good example of this with the 'riding a roller-coaster nude.' He says himself; 'hilarious, but harmless.' Exactly, the thought of riding a roller-coaster nude is hilarious... the actual practice of this, however, probably wouldn't be as hilarious if you were then arrested for indecent exposure and/or banned from the amusement park. Granted there are some who might think of something like this out of some secret desire to want to do it as a prank, but similarly there are others who would only think about it because it would be a funny thought.

I'm actually reminded just now of an old episode of the Nickelodeon series Clarissa Explains it All. A running gag in the series was Clarissa's desire to own/drive a car and her frequent frustrations at being denied opportunities to do so, and in one episode she has the chance to take a motorcycle out for a solo joyride, but is hesitant and in a roundabout way asks her father about his opinion on motorcycles without revealing her desire to go joyriding. Her father at first speaks rather romantically about motorcycles, but then when asked if he would like to ride one if given the chance completely switches gears and begins complaining about all the problems of motorcycles from how difficult they are to handle for the inexperienced to gunk from the handlebars getting stuck under your finger nails. Here, he daydreamed about motorcycles and then in practically the same breath confirmed his dislike for them and lack of desire to ever ride one.

so, here's where i suggest to you... using this train of thought, extend the metaphor...

what do you fantasize about?

My fantasies are my own, and not really of any concern of yours, be they based on secret desires or simply their entertainment value. Only my actions and the intentions behind them should be of any concern to others.

Mirroring the journal posted by  alexreynard explaining the particulars behind all the drama related to the last journal I mirrored.

It's quite a bit to copy and paste, so I think I'll just link to it here: http://www.furaffinity.net/journal/1462952/

And summarize it here: Part misunderstanding, and part overreaction on both sides.

And now for my take on this all: Did we overreact the way we all rushed to support  alexreynard, given that he was partly at fault? No, I do not think we did. Firstly, as I said, both sides ( alexreynard and the admin who band him, that is) overreacted, and whether they likes it or not, as a member of the staff they must be held to a higher standard. If they can't handle being held to a higher standard then they should just quit, simple as that.

Besides that, all that was done here was a peaceful protest lobbied against a perceived abuse of power. Even if we had been completely in the wrong--as oppose to what ultimately happened with the confirmation of some overreaction on the part of the administration--how could a peaceful protest be considered an overreaction in the slightest? We didn't act like tea-party fuck-heads and Glenn Beck fanboys, trying to insight violence. We simply gathered together to declare that we believed a wrong had been committed and wish to bring it to attention. Typically, it is only the sheeple, the ass-kissers, the 'the staff can do whatever the fuck they want' crowd who think we overreacted, and compared to them, who not only refused to act at all, but also criticized those that did, I suppose to them any action would seem like an overreaction.

My opinion: No, the FA Staff cannot do whatever the fuck they like. I do not care if membership is free, I do not care if they're doing their jobs for free. I did not ask them to do this, and I will not cry if they quit, so if they cannot do their jobs right then that is exactly what they should do. The running of FA can only be considered a 'favor' to the community if it is run with the Staff adhering to the same rules they expect the user base to adhere to; and with them all being held to a higher level of scrutiny when it comes to perceived abuses of power. If the staff is allowed to do as they like and everyone just kisses their asses then this becomes not so much a community as it is a monument to their over-inflated egos. One only need look to what had happened to F-Chan to see evidence of this.

Run FA right or don't run it at all. Step down and pass the torch to someone else if you can't handle it, or just shut the place down. I say, better no FA than a corrupt FA.

Originally posted by  ZephonTsol Original Journal can be found here: http://www.furaffinity.net/journal/1460904/

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There is a time and a place, someone once said, to keep your mouth shut.

Now is not that time. Come hell or damnation, everyone on my watchlist will know this was done.

A dear friend of mine, Alex Reynard, has had his FurAffinity account hacked and banned. He has done no wrong, has stayed within the AUP, and has, aside from some heated journals, never attacked anyone.

Not only can he NOT log in and do anything about this, but now his art and journals and everything uniquely "him" on this website is at risk of either being deleted or changed to reflect whoever did this and their intentions.

The final straw is that his icon has been changed to "I <3 FA ADMINS".

Enough is fucking enough. When an admin goes right on into your profile and takes what they like, it's time to stand up and say enough.

Spread the Word. ALL of You.

Let your friends know to save their info and to be wary of any admin from this site.

I hate to say it, but I knew that this day would come, when the admins would do as they like and there is little that we can do about it.

Spread the word, people.

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My personal thoughts: I'm not surprised stuff like this is happening. I had a feeling things like this would go down the moment the new AUP rules were proposed.

Some will argue that the staff are doing the user base a favor by running this site and that for that they should be allowed to do what they like: FUCK THAT! Either run FA right or just close it down, you're not doing anyone a favor by running it solely based on your whims; by that point you're just running a monument to your own massive ego.

It it's really true the Admid staff had anything to do with this, then indeed Fuck The FA Staff!

http://www.furaffinity.net/journal/1327468/

Tl;dr version: Cubs are staying.

I should probably be relieved, but I can't stop scowling at the way 'Neer portrays himself as some kind of hero fighting for free speech in this journal. My Ass! >_>

This comment of his especially ticked me off: http://www.furaffinity.net/journal/...../#cid:11119337

We have continued to move forward with our original plans. Human Loli/Shota is going away, but mostly because we're trying to focus this on being more of a FURRY site, and for legal reason, it is the one that makes the most sense.

Translation from Doublespeak into English: "I don't like what you fap to but I'll defend to the death your right to fap to it... unless you fap to fictional hoo-mon childrenz. I'll just pretend that laws that don't exist/are unconstitutional anyway/don't apply to the US where our servers are based are forcing me to ban it so I can get all that nasty hoo-monz shit off my nice fursite e-cawk."

In my opinion, this move does little more than make FA into the equal and opposite of 4chan. 4chan refused to give us a furry board a long time ago and butthurt furries are trying to hurt them back by kicking lolis and shotas out.

I used to think Dragoneer was a spineless coward for bowing to the fear-hype over loli and shota. Now I know he's really just a scheming hypocrite.

Because certain FA Site Owners who shall remain nameless here have decided to be retarded and cowardly, and because Fur-Gallery seems to enjoy mimicking FA's frequent down times at the moment, I've decided I need to get me a sketch-blog or something along those lines to post my now banned works to to link off site to too (lotta to's there. >_>). Problem is, I have absolutely no experience finding some kind of blog service, so I wanted to ask around a bit for any recommendations.

So guys, what's the best blog-hosting service that you could recommend for someone with not really any money to spend on hosting? Something that will allow hot-linking so I can post 'clean' versions on FA with links to a full version somewhere else?

I hear a lot of 'that's a slippery-slope argument/fallacy' crap being thrown around lately in regards to arguments against the new TOS, but what is a slippery-slope fallacy anyways?

Well, a slippery-slope is defined as an argument based on the assumption that a relatively small step will inevitably lead to a chain of related events culminating in some significant impact. What makes the argument a fallacy, and this is important, is when the resulting premises that supposedly spin off from the initial step are argued unsupported; when it is just assumed that they will follow from step one without any arguments as to why they should follow or have the particular magnitude they are assigned.

i.e., a slippery-slope argument often made with regards to same-sex-marriage is that once the practice is allowed people will begin wanting to marry children, pets and perhaps even their cars. What makes this a fallacious slippery-slope is that premises two (marrying children), three (marrying pets), and four (marrying cars) are assumed to follow as if logically from premise one (marrying same-sex). No argument is made for why we should assume that people would go from premise one (consenting adults who happen to be the same sex) to premise two (children who're unable to consent or sign legal documentation yet) to premise three (animals who are not considered citizens and will never be able to consent or sign legal documentation) to premise four (inanimate objects which are legally considered property, and will never be able to consent or sign legal documentation).

There are two things that are important to note here; firstly, if a slippery-slope does indeed support it's premises or they do indeed follow logically from one to another, then the argument is not a fallacy.

Secondly, and perhaps most important, calling an argument a 'slippery-slope' is not an argument/does not refute the argument. If you want to properly refute the argument refutations are required. You can't just declare the argument a fallacy and call it a day, especially if the premises do indeed follow logically or are supported by follow up arguments (to call it a fallacy then would make the person guilty of a Straw-Man Fallacy). To properly refute a Slippery-Slope one needs to explain why the preceding premises do not follow logically from premise one.

This is why many quote-unquote 'refutations' to arguments against the new TOS rules are in fact, Straw-Men Fallacies; the arguers simply throw up their hands and cry 'Slippery-Slope' as if this is all they need to do. No one has explained to me yet why, in a system completely based on the site-owner's arbitrary whims, why we should not fear the new TOS being the thin edge of the wedge; why we should not fear more bans on more unpopular or objectionable material.

http://forums.furaffinity.net/showt.....ad.php?t=64325

Had to nuke most of my gallery because of this BS. Goddamn I hate the world sometimes. >.>


Edit: Also, I'm now curious as to what I can really get away with, as I don't wanna just RAGE/QUIT FA entirely, and was wondering if I could say, post a 'clean' sample of a piece and then link it to and offsite host for the full piece? If doing something like that would violate the TOS or not.

Double Edit: My friend Drow has me recommending this place in case the hammer falls on all cub-porn too, and just generally for anyone who's fed up with FA.

http://www.fur-gallery.net/

I was perusing my subscriptions list on Youtube when I stumbled on a new video from one of my favorite vloggers, ZOMGitsCriss.

ZOMGitsCriss's channel: http://www.youtube.com/user/ZOMGitsCriss
The video in question: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=PTKkDDZs-kM

For the tl;dw crowd, here's the gist of the vid. Hussain Muradi is a member of the Council of Ex-Muslims and the One Law for All Campaign against Sharia Law in Britain. He grew up in Afghanistan but has lived in the UK for seven years. He is an atheist who has renounced Islam. Now he is being deported back to Afghanistan. There has been no official reason given for Muradi's deportation, he doesn't have a criminal record, and if he is deported he will face execution for apostasy. I'm urging my watchers to take a few minutes out of your day to sign the petition linked below to stop his deportation. Please, it'll only take a minute, and it's a guy's life we're talking about here!

The petition: http://www.petitiononline.com/muradi/petition.html

I've struggled with chronic depression my whole life, but recently it's become about a thousand times worse, and it's getting to be too much to bear. Every day I seem to get a little worse, and it doesn't look like there's going to be a light at the end of the tunnel. I have no job, no insurance, so I can't go to therapy or get medication, and I'm nearing my wit's end. I'm fast approaching the point where I may do something desperate, and worse yet, I'm beginning to look forward to it, as it would mean an end to the sadness.
So I'm reaching out to my watchers to ask: Does anyone know anything I can do? Something I can do to manage my depression?

I try, and I try, and I try, but I never seem to get ahead. I wind-up spinning my wheels for no reason and at the end of the day I'm just tired, sad, and alone.

My ex girlfriend and I had tried to remain on friendly term after our break up. Or I should say that I tried to stay on friendly terms with her. She never really made any effort other than saying she wanted to be friends. In truth, she didn't want a friend. She wanted a toy. That's all I really was to her, a thing, an object. Something she could play with and then throw away when she got bored. She fucking broke up with me for no reason other than she found someone with more money, and despite that I really tried to stay friends with her at least. Admittedly, I was really stressed out, sad, lonely. I tried to force her to come back a few times at first before I accepted that she was gone for good, and even after that our relationship, and my mental condition, was heavily strained. I said some mean things, she did too, but all the while I got the distinct sense that she didn't really get, or didn't really care, just how badly I was hurting.
I felt like shit, and when I feel like shit I don't like to draw for myself or anyone else. We'd just gotten over a fight when she came to pester me about if I would still draw free requests for her, and a little miffed I told her I'd probably only do it for her birthday or something like that, and she got upset, started suggesting that I return the high-end colored pencils she'd gotten for me as a gift since I wouldn't use them for her. Annoyed, I suggested she should pay back the (now) close to $300 she's borrowed from me, and to return the possessions I'd left with her before our falling out before I would return her colored pencils, and that's when she really got upset. This was always one of the big indicators to me that she doesn't see me as a person; she borrowed a lot of money from me and whenever I broached the subject of her paying it back she grew upset and offended, as though it were some kind of grave insult for me to even expect to be repaid what she's borrowed from me.
The fight grew more and more heated until she took her anger and frustration out on herself with a razor, and I was told by her new mate that I wasn't allowed to talk to her anymore. Fuck, like I would want to talk to her anymore. I tried, I tried my fucking hardest, but she didn't want a friend out of me. She wanted a toy.

Now in her Journal she bragged about how happy she was with her new mate, without me in her life anymore, lovingly twisting the dagger she stuck in my heart months ago. She also mentioned that she'd gotten a tablet for me that she'd intended to give as a Christmas gift, but now because of our falling out she intended to keep for herself. Fine, keep your damn tablet. I could buy my own tablet if you'd pay back all the money you owe me, how about you get on that?
She also made mention of having got me $200 in art supplies as though that meant she shouldn't have to repay the close to $300 she owes me, conveniently forgetting to mention that the only way the total even comes close to $200 is if she's counting the tablet that she'd now decided to keep for herself. Without it, I don't think it even breaks $100.

Because of this woman I spend many nights crying myself to sleep, wondering where it all went wrong. We used to be so close, we talked about getting married, about building a life together, but now she hates me so much and I don't know why. She shattered my heart, dashed my hopes and dreams, all by arbitrarily deciding I wasn't good enough. I go to sleep many nights hoping I don't wake up the next morning. I sometimes wish I could just curl up and die, and I'm not getting any better. Every day it just seems to get worse and worse, the sadness growing steadily to encompass everything about me. And what hurts the most is that she doesn't seem to care in the slightest. I'm not a person to her, I'm a toy, and she doesn't need to care about a toy's feelings.

I don't really know how much longer I can go on like this. I'm so sad and bitter all the time, and it never ends, never gets any better. I miss her, or who she used to be, before she became so selfish and terrible. I wish things could just go back to how they used to be.

Originally posted by  XeNoX. Mirroring to help spread the word around. Original journal can be found here: http://www.furaffinity.net/journal/.....0/#cid:7477365

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Well after seeing the recent asshattery perpetrated by  snistrtaz I feel like I should give this very important advice:

Never sign away rights to your pictures UNLESS you get some very serious compensation for that (ie hundreds of bucks).
Especially to people who claim to be planning to make money with them.
And who are thick.
And are law-impaired.


Or maybe you shouldn't even do business with such people in the first place



That is all

Okies, stole this from  TerraMG's journal. How it works is, first ten peeps to reply to this journal get three of my favorite works by them advertised in said Journal. The catch is that you pass it along, making a similar Journal to advertise three of your favorite works by each of the first ten people to comment on the Journal, starting with meh. :p

1:  TerraMG
- http://www.furaffinity.net/view/1628045/ (Not really done by hear, done by a friend of hers, but a nice character sheet for her char., Ester. I loved the pic.)
- http://www.furaffinity.net/view/1840911/ (Our introduction to Ester and her world. Ester's an adorable meek little mouse. X3)
- http://www.furaffinity.net/view/2100001/ (Her first real adult fic, and quite the doosey. @.@)

2:  Skoon
- http://www.furaffinity.net/view/2637762/ (Delicious Fifi! :o)
- http://www.furaffinity.net/view/2551778/ (Voyeurism, FTW!)
- http://www.furaffinity.net/view/2541686/ (And this one's just a cute sketch. :3)

3:  Catwolf
- http://www.furaffinity.net/view/2665658/ (She is quite cuddly-cute. Colors seem a little flat but Catwolf does make it clear that the piece isn't finished.)
- http://www.furaffinity.net/view/2253095/ (I liked the sketched version and its sepia tone feel to it better than the line art. Plus, I just love exhibitionism. X3)
- http://www.furaffinity.net/view/2514329/ (Hooka's are sexy. Egyptian stuff is sexy. This pic is just hawtness. o3o)

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I need a new source of income to tide me over until I can find a new job, so teh Kid will now be whoring himself out for work. =D

Okies, here're my price ranges:


Sketches
Single Character: $5 USD
Additional Characters: $1 USD a piece

Inked
Single Character: $10 USD
Additional Characters: $2 USD a piece

Flat-Color
Single Character: $20 USD
Additional Characters: $5 USD a piece

Full Color + Shading
Single Character: $25 USD
Additional Characters: $6 USD a piece


Extras:

Backgrounds
Inked, colorless: $5 USD
Inked, flat-color: $10 USD


Will Not Draw*
Scat
Ero-Guro
Hard Vore



*KidLoose Productions reserves the right to turn down or cancel any commission for any reason or no reason at all. If payment was received prior to cancellation, the commissioner will be entitled to and will receive a full or partial refund depending on amount of work completed.

** Note: KidLoose Productions (i.e., me) reserves all rights of ownership and copyright to commissioned works commissioned from KidLoose. All commissioned works produced by KidLoose Productions, as with all works produced by KidLoose Productions, are to be freely available for distribution, and may be reproduced and re-posted anywhere so long as proper credit and ownership is acknowledged. This clause is non-negotiable.



For right now I'll only be allotting three commission slots at a time, until I've built up my confidence and am sure I could handle any greater workload than that. Hope to hear from some interested customers soon. ^^

Borrowed from the journal of  Inuki.
If you've seen it before, you know the drill. Ask me anything in the comments section and I'll answer it to the best of my ability. Thankies. ^^

I'm sure some of you might be familiar with  Cigarskunk or if you're not, you soon will be. First, here's some light reading to help you get acquainted with him if you aren't already.

http://www.furaffinity.net/journal/.....0/#cid:2962464
http://www.furaffinity.net/journal/.....2/#cid:1656674

If you bothered to read those posts, then it is my sad duty to inform you that yes, ladies and gentlemen, there is someone that ungodly moronic walking the Earth. A fellow human being who is that retarded and hasn't accidentally killed himself yet, as amazing as that might sound, especially when you consider that he owns a gun! o.o

Ironically enough, I happen to be a Watcher of this loser (mostly for the top-notch pics he shells out big-bucks for other artists to draw for him), but unfortunately that also means I get his Journal entries.
One such entry laid the argument that the fictional character Robin Hood was a Republican/had Republican values or some other such shit nobody really cares about. So happening upon this journal entry, I decided to do a little trolling, and like the wonderful lulzcow that he is, Ciggy or 'the Accident of Evolution' (AoE) as he's affectionately known, fell for it hook line and sinker. Here are the results! o3o

http://www.furaffinity.net/journal/.....6/#cid:5484197

So tell me whatcha think? Who really won that little back and forth between me and the AoE?
I'd also like to invite any Watchers who're interested to mirror this journal on their own pages, so that Ciggy's shame might go viral. X3

Fursona Memes

Stolen from  capthavoc123 journal. :3



1 – Do you and your "fursona" look alike?

Not especially. He's an eleven year old rabbit boy and I'm a grown man, after all. We do have similar hair, and I have a heart shaped scar on my left eye, though not as large as his.


2 – Do you and your "fursona" share attires?

Again, not really. I have nothing in my wardrobe that looks anything like his standard dress.


3 – Do you share the same sexuality as your fursona?

Hmm, kind of. Leon is bisexual, with an at most 75%/25% split leaning toward girls. I myself am more 'bi-curious,' not quite bi but seemingly working myself that way. X3


4 – If you hadn’t already made your fursona look like you, if you would to change how he/she looked like to make him/her look more like you, how would you think he/she would look like?

Hmm, I wouldn't really wanna make Leon look more like me. He's cute the way he is, whereas I'm not the most pleasant sight to look at. XD


5 – Did you work hard to develop your fursona? What is the (brief) history of your fursona?

Hmm, depends on what you mean by 'worked hard.' His appearance slowly evolved over time as I made some drawing of him over time, though I didn't really work at it. It just came little to little. The only thing i worked at was his backstory, which I'm still working on.


6 – Do you and your fursona share relationship status?

Leon has a far more interesting sex life than I do. XD


7 – Do you find yourself jealous or upset if you get paired with someone you don’t like or your partner does?

Nah, I wouldn't get get upset for anything like that, unless someone where to pull a yaoi-fangirl and deliberately pair him with someone he'd be completely incompatible with just for the sake of them being 'cute' together. I wouldn't be jealous or upset, I'd just find it kind of sad. X3


8 – How would you like your character not to be used?

Anything goes for me. My dream is to see Leon get Rule34'd all over the place, so anyway someone wants to draw him is fine with me. X3


9 – What’s your fursona’s specialty?

He's primarily a shinobi, a Naruto style shinobi, so his specialty is Naruto style shinobi arts. His Kekei Genkai ('Blood Limit') is the Kokorogan, which grants him empathic abilities.


10 – At a score of 1-10 how much are you and your fursona alike?

Hmm, I'd say between a 7.5 to an 8. He's very much like how I was when I was eleven: childish, naive, trusting, a little selfish, a lot whiny, somewhat lazy and quite innocent, to a fault even. I'm still quite a few of those things, though I like to think I've lost a bit of my childishness, though I lament the loss of that 'almost to a fault' innocence.






Animated Movie Memes

And this one is pilfered from the journal of  Monoth :3

- X what you saw
- O what you haven't finished/saw sizable portions
- Bold what you loved
- Italics for what you disliked/hated
- Leave unchanged if neutral

Classic Disney
[x] 101 Dalmatians (1961)
[x] Alice in Wonderland (1951)
[x] Bambi (1942)
[x] Cinderella (1950)
[x] Dumbo (1941)
[x] Fantasia (1940)
[x] Lady and the Tramp (1955)
[x] Mary Poppins (1964)
[x] Peter Pan (1953)
[x] Pinocchio (1940)
[x] Sleeping Beauty (1959)
[x] Snow White and the Seven Dwarfs (1937)
[ ] Song of the South (1946)

Disney's Dark Age
[x] The Aristocats (1970)
[x] The Black Cauldron (1985)
[x] The Fox and the Hound (1981)
[x] The Great Mouse Detective (1986)
[x] The Jungle Book (1967)
[x] The Many Adventures of Winnie the Pooh (1977)
[x] Oliver and Company (1986)
[ ] Pete's Dragon (1977)
[x] The Rescuers (1977)
[x] Robin Hood (1973)
[x] The Sword In The Stone (1963)

The Disney Renaissance
[x] Aladdin (1992)
[x] Beauty and the Beast (1991)
[x] A Goofy Movie (1995)
[x] Hercules (1997)
[ ] The Hunchback of Notre Dame (1996)
[x] The Lion King (1994)
[x] The Little Mermaid (1989)
[x] Mulan (1998)
[x] Pocahontas (1995)
[x] The Rescuers Down Under (1990)
[x] Tarzan (1999)

Disney's Modern Age
[x] Atlantis: The Lost Empire (2001)
[ ] Bolt (2008)
[ ] Brother Bear (2003)
[ ] Chicken Little (2005)
[O] Dinosaur (2000)
[x] The Emperor's New Groove (2000)
[x] Fantasia 2000 (2000)
[ ] Home on the Range (2004)
[x] Lilo & Stitch (2002)
[ ] Meet the Robinsons (2007)
[x] Treasure Planet (2002)

Pixar
[x] A Bug's Life (1998)
[x] Cars (2006)
[x] Finding Nemo (2003)
[x] The Incredibles (2004)
[x] Monsters Inc. (2001)
[ ] Ratatouille (2007)
[x] Toy Story (1995)
[x] Toy Story 2 (1999)
[ ] Wall-E (2008)

Don Bluth
[x] All Dogs Go to Heaven (1989)
[x] An American Tail (1986)
[x] Anastasia (1997)
[x] The Land Before Time (1988)
[x] The Pebble and the Penguin (1995)
[x] Rock-a-Doodle (1991)
[x] The Secret of NIMH (1982)
[ ] Thumbelina (1994)
[x] Titan AE (2000)
[ ] A Troll in Central Park (1994)

Claymation
[ ] The Adventures of Mark Twain (1986)
[x] Chicken Run (2000)
[ ] Corpse Bride (2005)
[x] James and the Giant Peach (1996)
[x] Nightmare Before Christmas, The (1993)
[O] Wallace & Gromit: The Curse of the Were-Rabbit (2005)
[ ] Flushed Away (2006)
[ ] Coraline (2009)

CGI Glut
[x] Antz (1998)
[ ] Happy Feet (2006)
[ ] Kung Fu Panda (2008)
[x] Madagascar (2005)
[ ] Monster House (2006)
[x] Over the Hedge (2006)
[ ] Polar Express, The (2004)
[ ] Robots
[x] Shrek (2001)
[x] Shrek 2 (2004)
[ ] Shrek The Third

Imports
[x] Arabian Knight (aka The Thief and the Cobbler) (1995)
[O] The Last Unicorn (1982)
[ ] Light Years
[ ] The Plague Dogs
[ ] The Triplets of Belleville (2003)
[ ] Persepolis (2007)
[ ] Waltz With Bashir (2008)
[ ] Watership Down (1978)
[ ] When the Wind Blows (1988)
[ ] Yellow Submarine (1968)

Studio Ghibli/Miyazaki
[x] Grave of the Fireflies
[x] Howl's Moving Castle (2004)
[x] Kiki's Delivery Service (1989)
[x] Laputa: Castle in the Sky (1986)
[ ] Lupin III: The Castle of Cagliostro (1979)
[ ] My Neighbors The Yamadas
[x] My Neighbor Totoro (1993)
[x] Nausicaä of the Valley of the Wind (1984)
[ ] Only Yesterday
[x] Pom Poko
[x] Porco Rosso (1992)
[x] Princess Mononoke (1999) - Mononoke was the first Miyazaki movie I saw and began my life-long love of his work! o3o
[x] Spirited Away (2002) - Perhaps one of his greatest works to date! o3o
[x] The Cat Returns
[x] Whisper of the Heart

Satoshi Kon
[ ] Millennium Actress (2001)
[ ] Paprika (2006)
[ ] Perfect Blue (1999)
[ ] Tokyo Godfathers (2003)
[ ] Memories - "Magnetic Rose" (1995)

Shinkai Makoto
[ ] She and Her Cat (1999)
[x] Voices of a Distant Star (2001)
[o] The Place Promised in Our Early Days (2004)
[ ] 5 Centimeters per Second (2007)

Other Japanese Animated Films
[ ] Adolescence of Utena
[o] Akira (1989)
[x] Appleseed
[o] Appleseed: Ex Machina
[ ] Arcadia of My Youth (U.S. Title - Vengeance of the Space Pirate)
[x] Cowboy Bebop: The Movie (2003)
[ ] The Dagger of Kamui (U.S. Title - Revenge of the Ninja Warrior)
[ ] Dirty Pair: Project Eden
[o] End of Evangelion
[ ] Fist of the North Star
[x] Galaxy Express
[x] Ghost in the Shell (1996)
[ ] The Girl Who Leapt Through Time
[ ] Lensman
[ ] Macross: Do You Remember Love (U.S. Title - Clash of the Bionoids)*
[o] Metropolis (2001)
[ ] Neo-Tokyo
[ ] Ninja Scroll
[ ] Patlabor the Movie
[ ] The Professional: Golgo 13
[ ] Project A-ko
[ ] Robotech: The Shadow Chronicle
[ ] Silent Mobius
[ ] Space Adventure Cobra
[x] Steamboy (2004)
[ ] Sword of the Stranger
[ ] Unico and the Island of Magic
[ ] Urotsukidoji: The Movie
[o] Vampire Hunter D
[x] Vampire Hunter D: Bloodlust
[ ] Wings of Honneamise: Royal Space Force

Adult-Oriented Animation
[ ] American Pop
[X] The Animatrix (2003)
[x] Aqua Teen Hunger Force Colon Movie Film for Theaters
[x] Beavis & Butthead Do America (1996)
[x] Cool World
[x] Final Fantasy: The Spirits Within (2001)
[x] Final Fantasy: Advent Children
[ ] Fire & Ice
[o] Fritz the Cat (1972)
[x] Heavy Metal (1981) This shit was an acid trip.
[x] Heavy Metal 2000 (2000)
[ ] Hey Good Looking
[x] Lady Death
[ ] A Scanner Darkly (2006)
[x] South Park: Bigger, Longer & Uncut (1999) -I can still sing many of the songs from the movie by heart! XD
[ ] Street Fight (AKA - Coonskin)
[ ] Waking Life (2001)

Other Animated Movies I Can't Categorize
[ ] Animal Farm
[x] Animalympics
[x] Batman Beyond: Return of the Joker - Friggin' awesome movie! =D
[x] Batman and the Mask of Phantasmen - Even more friggin' awesome movie! =D
[x] The Brave Little Toaster (1988) - Not quite as awesome a I remember it was, but still good. ^^
[ ] Bravestarr: The Movie
[x] Care Bears: The Movie
[x] Charlotte's Web (1973)
[x] Fern Gully
[ ] G.I. Joe: The Movie
[ ] Gobots: Battle of the Rock Lords
[ ] He-Man & She-Ra: The Secret of the Sword - The secret is, they're both really, REALLY gay! XD
[x] The Hobbit
[x] The Iron Giant (1999)
[x] Justice League: The New Frontier - When a superhero movie opens with Hal Jordan shooting a Korean pilot in the face while wrestling with him in a ditch, you just know it's gonna be awesome! =D
[ ] Lord of the Rings
[x] Little Nemo: Adventures in Slumberland (1989) I loved this movie when I was a kid. Wore out my VHS copy of it. X3
[ ] My Little Pony: The Movie
[o] Pink Floyd's The Wall (1982) - Holy hell was this movie trippy! @.@
[x] The Prince of Egypt (1998)
[x] Powerpuff Girls: The Movie
[x] Quest For Camelot (1999)
[ ] Ringing Bell
[x] The Road to El Dorado (2000)
[ ] Rock & Rule
[x] Space Jam
[ ] Starchaser: The Legend of Orin
[x] Superman: Doomsday
[x] The Swan Princess
[ ] Transformers: The Movie (1986)
[ ] Wizards
[x] Who Framed Roger Rabbit (1988) A Disney movie with drinking, smoking, swearing, and Bugs Bunny. What's not to love? =D
[ ] Wonder Woman

I've seen a lotta movies. I guess I really don't have a life. @.@

Sorry to lay yet more emoness on you all, but I've got another update.

Well, after a long and sometimes rocky relationship, my mate left me for another. She actually left me at the beginning of the week, and I've been bouncing around in an emotional turmoil ever since. However, I think I'm finally beginning to cope with the loss and get over it. I realized today at work that life goes on even though I feel broken and hurt inside, and I can either pick things up and keep going along with it, or I can let the pain consume me, and I'm gonna make a try for the prior.

Though really it was a pep-talk from a friend of mine that helped me pull myself out of my pit of despair. Nick, if you're reading this, thanks. I really own you one for always playing the Motivational Santa. ^^

I've probably still got a long way to go before I'll be completely alright again, but right now I feel halfway good, and at least I'm still drawing. I'll get to posting some new pics to my gallery soon as I finish up a couple different projects I've been working on.

To those of you who've been following the drama since the beginning: Well, it's finally over. Teh Kid's relationship highs and lows are at an end. I think I'll give being alone a shot for a while, and then maybe someday I'll go love-hunting again, who knows?

My thanks to anyone who'll take the time to read this. Stay strong, fur friends, and I'll try to do the same.

~KidLoose

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=1w1F.....2QSd8&NR=1

I watched this about half a dozen times, and lol'd each time! X3


Krillin: I fucked your mooooomm! XD

Okay folks. Was wondering if any of you could gimme some info on what kind of tablet to acquire. With tax refunds coming I'm looking for a good, reliable drawing tablet that isn't too expensive or require too high system requirements.

Also, got a few pics I wanna finish up, and then I'll be uploading several works to my gallery.

And now for the memes thing. Namely, the Interests/Fetishes list memes:

Key
(+++) FUCK YEAH, SEAKING!
(++) Awesome!
(+) Hawt!
(~) Indifferent/Kind of want
(-) No, not really.
(--) DO NOT WANT!
(---) GAH, KILL IT WITH FIRE!!!!!1!
(?) WTF? (haven't seen it before.)




Anal on Males (~)
Anal on Females (~)
Breasts (++)
Breast Expansion (++)
Weight Gain (---)
Bondage (+)
Clothing (+)
Leather (+)
Stockings (++)
Shoe/Boots (~)
Suit and Tie (~)
Muscle, Male (---)
Muscle, Female (---)
Herm (~)
Cub (++++) (Delicious cubs, I must sex! =D~~~)
Baby/Diaper (~)
Transformation (+++)
Macro/Micro (~)
Impregnation (+++)
Pregnancy (+++)
Lactation (++)
Anal Vore (---)
Soul Vore (~)
Cock Vore (---)
Standard Soft Vore (~)
Standard Hard Vore (---)
Paw/Foot (~)
Incest (++++)
Yuri (F/F) (++)
Yaoi (M/M) (~)
Hetero (M/F) (+++)
Bi (+)
Girly Boys (+)
Tomboys (+)
Mind Control (+)
Rape (~) (Only fictional, roleplaying. Real rape is baaaaad! D: )
Uniform (++)
Orgy (++)
Subbing/Doming (++)
Biting (+) (So long as they're love nibbles.)
Cheesecake (++++) (Delicious cake, I must eat it! =D~~~ )
Solo Masturbation (+)
Scat (----)
Inflation (---)
Fat/Pudge (+) (I like a girl with a little junk in the trunk. ^.~)
Tech (~)
Watersports (+)
Glasses (++)
Tentacles (+)
Oviposition (?)
Masochism (--)
Sadism (--)
Multiple body parts (~)
Partial Nudity (++)
Gore/guro (----)
Snuff (----)
Hyper (-)
Zoophilia (+++)
Electricity (~)
She-males (~)
Cross-dressing (+)
Skunk spray (---)
Oral (++)
Asphyxiation (---)
Wet-look (+)
Mud/Quicksand etc (?)
Sinking (--)
Spooge (+++)
Body Paint (+)
Plants (~)
Tickling (+)

I realize that it's been a really long time since I last updated my journal, and for that I apologize. I'd like to say it's been a bed of roses since my last harrowing update, but frankly it hasn't.
Now don't any of you fret, my mate is fine, and has been since my last update, it's our relationship that's been less than stellar lately.
As we've tried to work through her problems, and my own as well, these problems just seem to keep coming back to haunt us. The nature of her trauma has left her socially maladjusted, which has led to several fights over seemingly nothing, mostly as opportunities to shove me away because she lacks confidence in my commitment to this relationship and wants to distance herself so it won't hurt as much if I should leave. I've tried to explain to her how much this hurts me, and she seems to understand and has been making efforts to stop, but every now and then she still does it. I admittedly don't handle this well, being not very well socially adjusted myself, and I tend to overreact, and sometimes overlook how hard she's trying to make changes for me. It just hurts so much when she lashes out at me, and then refuses to talk to me afterward, choosing to let her pain and anger fester than let me help her to work it out.
Admittedly, the stress over this has effected my work, which is why I haven't updated my gallery in such a long time. I lose the will to draw when I'm depressed.

However, it hasn't all been sour, and I can't stress that enough. I wouldn't still be in this relationship if it was all crap, believe me. We do have a lot of fun together, and in truth those good times out number the bad. The happiest week of my life was spent with her, when I flew out to see her early last month. I really did have a wonderful time with her, spending a week of intimacy and quality time with her. We went on our first date to an arcade together, and one of my favorite memories from that trip was playing House of the Dead 2 with her and making fun of the ungodly awful writing and voice acting.

Well, with a large update of images accompanying this journal entry, I've obviously found the will to draw again, and I'd like to think that things between my mate and I are starting to look up. We've still got a long road ahead of us, but I think we'll be there someday.

My first Journal entry here on FA, and boy is it a doosey!





I'd like to tell you all a little about my girlfriend, or my mate as she likes to be called.





My mate is the most wonderful person I've ever met.
My mate makes me happier than anyone else in the world.
My mate can take a bad day and turn it into a good one.
My mate is witty and clever, and very intelligent.
My mate is an amazing dancer.
My mate has the cutest voice.
My mate has the most adorable smile.
My mate and I like all the same things.
My mate is the most important person in my life.
My mate loves me in spite of my shortcomings, and I love her with all my heart.

...And

...last night, my mate tried to kill herself.



She's had to deal with so much pain over the course of her life. Far more than someone like me could possibly imagine. For the sake of her privacy, I won't go into detail, but suffice it to say she has not had a happy life by any stretch of the imagination. She's been hurt so much, by so many people. She's had to deal with pain so terrible that it's almost a crime that the rest of us don't get down on our knees everyday and praise whatever higher power we believe in that we haven't had to suffer like her. So much pain in fact, that she's come to see it as her destiny that she is to suffer alone. She hates people, fearing being hurt again, and sometimes lashes out to try to hurt others before they can hurt her. I'm one of the few people who really gets to see the side of her that's nice, and sweet, and kind, what I'm sure is the real her, and I do my best to help her, but unfortunately this is a long distance relationship, and there's so much I can't do because I can't be with her in person, and even if I could I'm not sure what I could do besides hold her.

This was probably a long time coming, but it reached a breaking point last night, after one of her friends decided to abandon her, and she found out another had committed suicide.

Out of the blue, by IM, she told me we couldn't date anymore, and that she wanted me to go away. I froze for a while, then I decided to call her on the phone. She couldn't talk to me right then, but told me not to go to sleep and to wait for her to call back. This was about 3AM, and though it wasn't too long of a wait for her to call back, it felt like forever.
When she did, she told me she couldn't take the pain anymore, and that she was going to end it. She told me it was a mistake for her to have fallen in love, because she was meant to be alone, and also because if we hadn't fallen in love she wouldn't have to hurt me like she was about to.
She turned on her webcam and asked to click to accept. I was terrified at what I might see, tears streaking down my face, but I clicked on it. I saw her for what I feared might be the last time, as she explained to me how she planned to do it. Long story short, she planned to poison herself in a way that would be as painless and comfortable as possible, and then pass in her sleep. At that, I turned on my own webcam and begged her to click on it. I wanted her to see me, tears streaking down my face. I guess I wanted her to see what she was doing to me, and show her that there was someone who cared...
She shushed me and told me not to cry, reminding me that I had wonderful friends who would help me cope with losing her, telling me that she was glad that I'll be taken care of, and saying how sure she was that one day I would find love again. By this point I broke down into hysterical sobbing, begging her not to go through with it. I told her that I wanted her to live, to not give up on hope, that even if she never wanted to see me again it'd be alright as long as she chose life. By this point I was sobbing so hard I was all but incoherent, hot tears rolling down my face wave after wave as I begged her not to do it.

Finally, she shushed me gently, and told me that I win. She wouldn't go through with it.

The tears continued to fall for a time after that, and I made her promise me that she wouldn't do it. She told me not to cry, and she promised me that she wouldn't. We even pinky swore (over webcam) on it. ^^

We talked on the phone late into the night. In truth, I was afraid to leave her alone. We talked of how much we cared about one another, sang each other some songs. I sung her Hold On by Good Charlotte, a favorite of mine, and one that always helped me to feel better when I was feeling blue, and I think it helped her to feel better too.

It wasn't until dawn (my time) that I felt safe enough to let her hang up. We were both really tired by then, though honestly I probably would've stayed on longer, but she didn't want me to lose anymore sleep over her. I was still somewhat afraid to leave her alone, so I made her promise that she would be there when I woke up and logged back on my computer.
We wound-up saying goodbye almost half a dozen times, neither one of us very willing to hang up on the other. When we finally did hang up the dams burst and I broke down, all the emotions I'd been holding in to put up a brave front for her while we talked and sang gushing forward, and I broke into more hysterical sobbing, and I cried myself to sleep.
Several hours later, I woke with this fear. I didn't want to get out of bed, afraid to go to my computer. I was afraid that when I logged on she wouldn't be there. I wound-up lying in bed, clutching my bunny plushy for dear life as I sobbed and feared what might be waiting for me when I signed on.
When I finally did, I breathed a heavy sigh of relief as I saw her screen name there waiting for me, and immediately messaged her. I told her how afraid I'd been that she wouldn't be there when I signed in, and begged her to never scare me like that again, and she promised she would never do it again. After that, she called and we talked for a long while about this and that, as if nothing had happened, though I couldn't help but to think how much I would miss this if she had died. These simple moments with her are among the most precious to me, as before I'd met her I never knew how much joy could come just from simple conversation and the right company.


Writing this, I had to fight back tears for most of it. However, I feel a bit better now, both for having gotten this off my chest, and knowing that my mate is out of danger. Still, I feel like I've failed her somewhat, because as her mate I feel it's my job to make her happy, which I obviously haven't been doing very well. I know it's not going to be easy, as she's got a lotta pain I need to help her through, and sometimes I just don't know what to do except to keep on trying and keep on reminding her that there's someone who cares.







~KidLoose Productions