aproaching 3-ish years pf art classes and I'm pretty sure I've learned to draw....I've been taught to draw every single thing in every single way I don't want to draw (-_-)

I've learned to draw in pencil, charcoal, acrylic paints, oil pastel, and water color. I've learned to draw items, abstact shapes, the principles and elements of art, and people in motion. I've made pieces that made it the the 2nd place rounds of college wide art contests. [even put in a gallery for a short time!] I've made pieces that made fellow students go 'Daaaayuummm~' when they look at the line work. I've already developed personal artistic habits I've taken note of. [Example being whenever I use paints and I have paint left over on my pallet when I'm near completion of my actual piece or I'm waiting for it to dry, Ill turn the pallet into its own tiny paintings using only the paint left on it~ I get so many vibrant and glorious shifting colors when I do that.]

In all of that, depite how I know all of the stuff I listed above are good things...I still don't feel like I've learned how to make the things I've been wanting to create my whole life. I want to be able to draw my Fur OC's so I no longer haft to barrow are on F-list. I want to be able to draw anime stuff so I cant finally put my 4-5 years and plots into existance. I want them all to be as beautiful as the stuff I see in games, on FA, on E621, and more with the percision of hand with the level of detail and type of texture only a computer can do. But I still Don't feel like I know HOW TO DO ANY OF IT!!!! >:U *flips desk*

Now I'm in summer sumester with online classes and I've hot what feels like a crippling road block when it comes to me drawing...when I'm in the studio during class I can work on art for hours straight before going home...now that I'm not in the class...I can barely bring myself to raise a pencil and work on the map I use for the Dungeons and Dragons game I'm in....I can't bring myself to draw (;A;)

I cant teach myself to draw the things I love if I can't even bring myself to draw SOMETHING!...Anything!? My dad tried to help by making me draw something from WoW...I managed to 'with what I can only describe as the mental equivilent of trying to push a car with no gas] draw a Fel Flame pet that I had from Outland. It seemed like such a simple shaped creature since it shares the same model with fire elementals....but in the end...it turned out as what I cant best describe as 'Meh...' uncolored it certainly fit the profile of fire,water, and void elementals but it just felt so off that I really stopped liking it...I wanted to throw it away....and it was nowhere near as good as anything I'd make in class.

I say all this In the hopes that someone cant tell me how I can 'motivate' myself into wanting to start drawing with renewed fervor. I want to be able to scan and post things here on FA so everyone can love my creations like I've always wanted for as long as I can remember~ (;w;) I just want to know why I feel so dead when it comes to drawing anything, why I can't bring myself to draw outside my class time in the studio...and hopefully how to fix it~ (^W^)

Yep~ They didn't kick me out of college yet and I've actually taken art classes~ and I think I'm progressively getting better~ Even my art professor is saying I should go digital with some of my drawings~ saying they were surreal in a similar way 'spirited away' was with its buildings and spirits. I've had fellow students who openly admit they take drugs and halucinigenics...come up to me, look at the stuff I've made and say I make some Really Trippy stuff. Stuff that I'd love to show you guys here on F list If i could ever figure out a method for transfering pictures from a sketchbook and posterboard into digital.

Speaking of posterboard- One of my pieces I made it to the semi-final round of a local colleges art contest, and was put in a gallery for a time~ it only took months for me to actually get it back though~ cause apparently someone who was supposed to bring all the submitted works back to our college...didn't.

But yeah I actually got it back and now its sitting in the corner of my room never to be seen again until I can figure out how to transfer IRL stuff to my PC without getting all complicated with a scanner...I technically have one but my grandpa would never get around to digging it out of his office so that option is out the window.

If you guys who even bother to read this have any ideas please tell me in the comments~ (o3o)/

Dats right! Dispite how im typin wif an accent! ima ctually starting college today!....and now that its me second semester im starting my drawing classes!

that means i get to drown FA in all my unmade doodles as soon as i get a scanner! \o3o/

wont that be great! i can finally be important! ;D

Harro interwebs~ *wipes dust and vines off profile*

I have finally decided to dive right into FA....

you can only have a profile for so many years and leave it totally blank and sad (ono). I'm aware that I'm completely active on F-list with many characters of mine but I wanna actually get active on FA as well. And in order to do so i think i need to start out with two things.

1. can someone please help me set up a big fanceh profile? i have no idea how or what to put on it :C i start taking art classes next semester at my college so... ill be able to draw soon!

2. I feel like i need a proper main Fursona/ OC (along with an profile icon). I know that i have a wide array of characters that i've made over the years. [akari sakanoe (my tsundere), Tommi (my NEET girl), Cindi dragosa (my dragoness), Belic (my absol), Lilith Oranor (my weavile), opal tenshiki (my White ninja tigress), and last but not least i have my character that i use the most for RP and such 'Fifi De Muff' my plump 'Muff'ed wolfess~ shes derpy and overly playful like me~ I've had her as a character for 10 years now ever sence i made her on Deviant art RPing in notes and comment sections. If i recall she was also oridgionally a skunk before she shifted to a wolf...somehow...( SCIENCE!). i know she had a sister names Lulu who belongs so someone else on DA. and i also remember making a character for every single one of the eeveelutions~

Thing is that i feel like i need a Male OC for FA (for some reason unknown to me) but the thing is... i'm so used to playing as fifi (female) that it feels so ackward doing anything with males X3 10 years of ERP expierence and I don't think I've ever really used males properly 'if you know what I mean' hint hint wink wink *ackward cough*

This is why I need the help of the denizens of the internets! the help me decide what to do on the issues here :L Commets would be well loved. mainly cause I love comments for some reason. (probably cause i never get any on any site) But feel free to pitch advice and stuff down below~

*sits upon my tiny boat in the sea of the internet poking my 5$ spear down into the Data water of FA* "cmon!!! make comments already!"