So there, I did that.

Bweh.

They're going to start happening almost immediately... new characters will be all over FA tomorrow and I will have no context for them other then "Ahh-- this is a new Deltarune thing. Fuck." Because the series is insanely popular (as it probably deserves to be) and people will gush and make fanart and memes and generally go crazy. And I am going to be fucking miserable.

Like, I don't want to rain on anybody's parade. I want people to be happy and enjoy the things they enjoy. I just wish I could be there enjoying it with you. And this isn't some case of "Oh, he can't afford the game?? Don't worry, I, your friend, will buy it for you! Then you can play and they won't be spoilers!" No. Don't do that. Firstly, because I can definitely afford it. Secondly-- "Oh, do you not have time for it?? Just don't go on FA or The Entire Internet until the weekend or whenever when you finally get the chance to play!" ....also No. This is not a matter of time. If it was just a matter of avoiding things until the weekend and playing then, I could probably manage. I do have time off, I could put the time in to play it. But I'm not going to.


I hate episodic games. I don't like "Early Access" games.
They aren't FINISHED... I want to play the entire game, all at once, Together. For a full singular experience, where I can explore EVERYTHING the game has to offer, all at once. Where I don't have to sit on my hands for 3-4 years waiting to see where things go next. I haven't played Final Fantasy 7 Remake either... for functionally the same reasons. If you need another example of a high profile game released episodically that is spoiler heavy by nature, just significantly less furry.

I think .hack// ruined me... lols... or the development of streaming services where I can watch an entire series all together without waiting a full week for a new episode of something. Or maybe I've just watched indie games, mostly horror titles, do this trick time after time after time and find it infuriating and manipulative-- and more often than not in those cases leads to an ending to the game that is extraordinarily dissatisfying... because they couldn't live up to the hype they were drip feeding out for years. (The only title I think that actually broke that cycle was Sally Face and fuck-- what a low bar to clear, yet everyone else trips right over it.) Or maybe it's watching every fighting game for the last ten to fifteen years releasing in a completely unfinished state, while they continue developing the game's content for the next 2-3 years-- and by the time they're actually DONE, I have stopped fucking caring.

But this is Toby Fox... and "Undertale"... so I expect better. I'm not sitting on the fence because I don't think the ending will be good or worth the hype. This is just the same fence I sit on with all of these things. I want to play the whole game. I played Chapter 1 because it was... functionally... a complete game, that was also a spectacular demo for something bigger and better. And he kind of tricked everyone into playing it as an april fools gag, cause he's a fucking troll. But then he did the same with Chapter 2, supposedly just to keep people engaged and interested... and the full game would release when it's done. So I waited. And Chapter 2, despite never playing it or watching anyone play it, has still been functionally spoiled almost in it's entirety to me over the last... what... two years?? But I thought, it's fine... the full game will eventually come out-- and we won't have to do this again. I can just enjoy it all together with everyone-- and only this one bit near the start will have been spoiled for me. But instead... he's releasing only the next two chapters... with the other... three?? to be released... "Eventually." So... cool. I'm completely fucked then. And I guess I'm just really disappointed.

So I guess what this journal is really about, is to say... Do whatever. I'm already doomed. You can't SAVE me. There's no avoiding this. I've been dreading it for months, since the news originally dropped that this is how Toby was gonna do it. I don't know why he changed course... I don't care. It's done now. So... bring it on, I guess? Just don't expect me to know what any of you are fucking talking about, because I'm not going to try to learn... I'm just not going to try and avoid it either. Otherwise I'd have to leave the internet entirely for the next 3-4 years to avoid this. Which doesn't sound like an entirely bad idea, given everything else in the world, but-- yeah... no...


Also if you didn't notice, they finally cancelled my Gumroad, so good thing I have a job now I guess. Hokays-- Byyyyyeee....

So as you can see by my everything, I am a snek now. Mercy has perma digested Terith-- no more rodents-- only snek. They will not be okay. I look forward to the clear boost this will deliver to my popularity, based on clear serpent bias in my favorites records.

...anyways-- I just wanted to play things up for the holiday type thing, pay no attention to my nonsense. Do however pay attention to the fact I’ve had a new job since around end of November and you probably noticed my posting dead stopped from pretty much then till now, just about. It’s full time, so I’ve been busy. Barely have time for anything and have had a rough time managing what free time I do have after work, but I’m getting a little better at it? It’s pretty nice though, apart from the daily traffic to and from, so we’re looking a lot better financially than we were before-- aaaand there may even be potential for further upward momentum soon? But in general, I’m just playing everything by ear.

I’ll try to post more as I finish it going forward, but I was kind of saving some things up for the art dump today. Due to the job thing though, progress is slow… and commissions are-- not moving at any sort of speed and probably not something to ask me for right now. Sorry. We’ll see how things shift in the future, but for now, I am playing a LOT of things by ear and just seeing where they go. I’m… still shocked Gumroad hasn’t kicked me off the platform yet… until it does though, the link is below.

So about that whole doing a daily challenge thing--

Long story short, I fell off the horse like, *immediately*, not big surprise. This always happens. Usually I shift gears into still posting and getting what I could done, but-- I dunno. I wasn't feeling it. Didn't want to deal with the low tier stress of adhering to the original challenge idea.

....so I just kept drawing whatever I felt like anyways. No real challenge attached? Just what can I get done? Went a bit all over the place-- I have a LOT of unfinished sketches. And then I just kept not posting anything when I was finished with something, so-- yeah, I have a backlog now? I'm probably just gonna drop it all tomorrow? I dunno. That's probably not ideal posting strategy, but-- It's what I've got? Maybe I can try to break it into two or three days? However long it takes me to type everything I need to into postybirb. :p

I'm not sorry XD XD


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To do an inktober-like thing this month, but my god, I don't expect my work schedule to cooperate and I've been awful at buckling down to art for the past two months...

I've already got a list and stuff, even if I can't remember where I put it, but-- it doesn't matter, it's an excuse to post stuff, it'll go up when it goes up or it won't. I know I can't complete the challenge so I'm just gonna do as much stuff as I can, like last year and hope for the best with it. Will try to stream as much of it as I can too, but-- I'm running late hours and I might not always remember/bother to announce it. Good luck catching me. Lols.


And they still haven't pulled the plug on me yet, so...
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I had this moment the other night in the shower... where the logical motion of my coping mechanisms hit me and I started to understand something about myself. In the late evening of November 19th, 2022... sometime around 2 to 3AM of the 20th, I was trapped in a "One More Turn" cycle browsing Imgur when I clicked on to a picture of Jason David Frank and was greeted to page titled "In Memorial to..." and I went cold. What? What are you talking about--?? I haven't heard anything about this-- WHAT DO YOU MEAN?? I had to google it immediately... Death by Suicide. Impossible. Not him. There's no way. And now I'm sitting there, crying, alone at like 3am, with no one to turn to. Everyone I know is offline... they won't reply till morning. My parents are sleeping and even if they weren't they wouldn't understand-- not really. There was just no one to turn to... and I mourned a loss in silence.

Jason was one of the first character actors I really learned the name of. Probably because I thought it was funny that the fictional name of the leader of the team was "Jason" and here was an *actual* Jason playing a "Tommy" instead. Before that, if I'd seen a real life actor in something, I'd only ever referred to them by the name of their role. But they were playing a role that really have a lasting impact on me-- a series that really started to build out my creativity in new directions I hadn't fully embraced before. And just-- I mean-- you know?? It was fucking Power Rangers. One of the biggest early crazes of my lifetime until Toonami brought anime into every corner of the states. He showed me that villains could be redeemed before probably anything else did. He showed me heroes could be different. And even when it all finally came to an end and moved on-- he showed that you can always come back and have just as big an impact as you always did, mentoring a new generation. And outside of all that--? He was still a brilliant martial artist. He was constantly participating in outreach programs-- he was always there for the fans that grew up with him as their hero.

And so we go back to the 20th... I hadn't heard anything about this on the news until now. I waited through the next day... nothing. So many nights, I'd sit there with my parents in front of the evening news and watch them spend anywhere from a full minute to a whole 5-6 minute segment memorializing a recently deceased actor that I couldn't have given two shits about. Just because they were *old* ...they were important to the people running the fucking news studio, I guess? So the rest of the world must care too, right? And yeah-- I'm sure a lot of it does. But then-- a lot cared about JDF too, right? Where was his tribute? Are you saying he didn't *deserve* one?? And sure... a couple entertainment rags did stories about the incident... but that didn't matter to me. That wasn't reaching the public eye like the mainstream news would. Some of my friends cared-- they were there for me-- but they didn't feel quite the same way?

A couple days later, I was laying in bed, staring at the ceiling, crying again... for probably a good twenty minutes or so, just alone in my head until my mom happened to come along and ask what was up. My dad had said earlier in the day that I needed to cut my hair because it was getting too wild, in that tone of his like it was some kind of order. But a few months prior to all this, I had decided, that I was gonna try to grow my hair out again. Because I wanted it to be the length of "Tommy's" from the early Power Rangers days. I'd always wanted to have that hairstyle... I thought it was so cool. I wanted to pull this mess of hair of mine back into a ponytail and live that vibe I'd always wanted, finally after all these years. But I hadn't told anyone that yet... so obviously they hadn't known. And as I finished explaining that to her-- I had to add then "But he died last week... and now I don't know if I want to keep it-- because it hurts to think about him." And I did cut it... I couldn't hold myself together otherwise.

Cut to this week. Another devastating blow. It wasn't suicide of course, thank goodness, that would've been so much worse, but-- someone incredibly important was still taken from our lives. And it was fucking devastating. And yet... I haven't cried. I haven't broken down. And that's been *bothering me* ...a LOT. Because it feels like it should be. It feels like it should have impacted so much. And what I came to the other night was this sudden question of... Why did I cry *then* but I can't cry *now*? ...and I think I know why?

When JDF died, I was looking everywhere for solace... and I found none. Yeah, sure there were some twitter tributes-- and I'm sure there was a power rangers forum or discord, or JDF fansite somewhere that was mourning as I was? But I wasn't a part of those things. I couldn't see all of that. I was Alone. I was crying because I felt like if I didn't, who would? Someone has to care-- even if it's only me. In the isolation, I was the only person who could mourn. That's how it felt to me.

But when I learned that Forest died, immediately, there was someone else there with me. And over the course of the day, one after the other, so many people stepped up-- some I hadn't even spoken to in months? Maybe years-- maybe NEVER. The impact this person had on his friends, his community, was obvious and impassioned. There were pillars of support all around us, holding us up, grieving together. I wasn't alone. I was in the arms of so many empathetic people all struggling with the same loss, holding each other together, not letting anyone fall by the wayside. Being there for each other when we needed it the most, all because this one person had touched our lives. And all without me having to have been in some community discord or something-- (because I wasn't, I'm still not).

And it's not like I wasn't sad. I've been depressed as hell. I've been frustrated, I've been ANGRY. And I've certainly teared up from time to time-- when something hits just right for an emotional reaction. But I haven't really *cried* and I never fell down. I never collapsed, never felt like I couldn't keep going. I've stood tall and kept marching ahead. Because I wasn't alone. I didn't need to shed all those tears myself. They were being shed all around me. I could *see* them. And it was uplifting... to not be so alone. So I know, that he's never going to be forgotten. I can hold my head high and smile again, like he'd have wanted, knowing his legacy will live on with all of us.

Just to bring us full circle... I thought I would leave you with this. It's part of a sequence, but this is the silly ending bit... It's something commissioned for me out of the blue for-- possibly no reason at all? I don't talk about such things much, but... this is probably one of my favorite stupid things ever... and there's just nothing more appropriate to this conversation to end on...
https://www.furaffinity.net/view/15765735/

...And now I tear up again. Damnit. XD

And yet kinda not? Like... I'm fine? -ish. :p I feel like I pulled together faster than just about anybody-- and I feel kinda bad about that, but-- I guess I've developed pretty resilient coping strategies, given the world seems to be always against us. That and-- I just know he wouldn't have wanted us moping around sad forever, his energy was always more positive than that.

I've been talking with people pretty consistently since, but-- I just haven't really known what to say in public. The outpouring of support since Forest's passing from friends and the community he developed has been astounding to me. He clearly touched so many people's lives in a positive manner and it's great to see them all coming together through this. If you need a hand getting through this and I haven't reached out already myself-- well, sorry-- there has been a LOT of messages the last couple days. But I'm still here, if you need me.

If anything, the silence I'm struggling through is just... the voice that isn't there anymore. The voice that was around for me even late at night or nearly any time at all, to pass the time and cheer you up. And how to deal with that. Because it isn't fair. Everything was starting to look up. Even with the Gumroad turmoil still brewing and such-- I even got a job again recently and I don't fucking hate it. So money is stabilizing, the road to opportunities looks a little brighter. And then-- the world brought it's heavy hand down on us again. So I've just been trying to figure out what comes next. What I should do with myself going forward-- and I mean... most of my plans haven't really changed I guess? I just have a few more weights to carry-- and new projects to consider... and old ones I will potentially have to drop as associated parties aren't as open to working on them anymore. For now at least?

And that probably brings me to my biggest immediate conundrum. Because a lot of people have expressed that they no longer want to use certain characters in art and stories-- and... that's they're decision, I understand. But I can't commit to that. Not only as a part of Forest, but even just in general, these characters mean too much to me to just let go of and stop using. Even if it might be a bit before I really get back to it with some of them. But I'm thinking this may also lead to changes in Terith's design. And I worry that people are gonna see those and think I'm being greedy and selfish, cause it's undeniably a little horny... as is my nature. So-- yeah, it probably is greedy and selfish, in a way. But this is for me. I have my reasons... and I'll explain them when I get there. But all I can really say for now I guess is... don't tell me how to grieve and honor my friend. It wouldn't be the first time I've done something and had people go "did you have permission for that?" with any of Forest's characters... I wouldn't have done them if I didn't. And I wouldn't be doing this if I didn't think he'd approve. He loved all this stupid vorny stuff... he inspired me constantly with it. I'm not going to let this passing stop me from continuing to enjoy these things. I don't think he would want me to stop.

So I'm gonna carry that weight.


(And for the record, if I drop off the planet tomorrow... don't stop ruining my characters either. None of this should die with me. Keep right on going. Let these silly cartoon animals fucking and eating each other last the test of time. I will fucking HAUNT YOU if you don't!)

So... I'm sitting on my hands at the moment, waiting to see what's actually going to happen with Gumroad. For those unaware, they appear to have updated portions of their terms of service regarding adult material in such a way to state that "because Mastercard and Paypal" we will no longer allow such content on the platform. But this news came to me indirectly from friends who caught sight of people panicking elsewhere on the web. Gumroad has not actually contacted me-- and thus I'm going to assume ANYONE-- regarding the matter to provide any manner of official policy update alert... Yet

For now, I'm just going to assume that I have been or will be deplatformed...

So if there is anything on my Gumroad that you've paid for-- probably go make sure it's downloaded and saved, if you want it-- cause it's probably going away soon. This includes my artpacks, support subscription, and my visual novel.

Where will it all go after this?? I don't fucking know. I've been too depressed by this all day to try and realistically manage it. And I have to work tomorrow for longer than I was anticipating because they changed my schedule at the eleventh hour. So while a few suggestions have been thrown by me... any one of them will be a lot of time and effort to set up that I don't have right now. I'm... I'm literally sitting here preparing to move in a little under a month now-- so I just... I don't have time for this. I can't do anything about it. It's just going to have to sit and wait until the temp job and the move are over. I'm sorry. There's nothing I can do about it. Conservative capitalism sucks shit and none of us can live like this.

I'll try to look for alternatives, but I don't know how to feel about SubscribeStar yet... and Itch.Io also does their payments through Mastercard and Paypal, so they are just a repeat of this shit waiting to happen. I don't know what to do.



.....don't expect to hear anything for a while?
Thank you for your support.

Maven opened a Gumroad today to help support herself and her works, so I felt like I should point everyone at that. They're super cool and have helped me with a lot of projects, so any love I can direct their way is good to see.
https://maventreecat.gumroad.com/l/supportme


And I'm a little late to it, but Stank dropped a new vore comic out of nowhere and you should check it out, it's good. Thumbs up all around.
https://www.swallowtailproductions......st-pantry-raid


I feel like that's about all that I know about that's new at the moment, but I like shouting out my friends projects. And if you wanna support me, then as usual, my Gumroad link is down below. I always appreciate the support! This year is probably gonna be... pretty chaotic, but hopefully in a good way-- soo-- Thanks for being here for me.


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Let's see...

Completed and posted around 54 completed submissions...
Produced around 336 sketches, shared with Gumroad supporters...
Finished and released an actual fucking game, ending my second Gumroad project...
Closing in on the completion of third Gumroad project, having finished all inking on the current project...
Opened and populated three new galleries, while also filling out a previously abandoned fourth one...

That's... not too bad, I guess? :p
Just trying to convince myself I accomplished some stuff over the year. XD
It came and went so quickly and I often feel like I'm floundering... but I've certainly been working. Even if I didn't accomplish everything I wanted... we made progress.



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To anyone asking or waiting on commissions from me, I do apologize. October was very busy and I was trying to do the challenge thing and-- yeah, that was very distracting and time-consuming next to everything else in my life. I've got one more thing I want to try and do soon before I let the deadline get too much closer, but once that's settled, I should be open to do stuff again without too many delays. I think/hope.

Life is rather stressful and I'm still heavily eyeing a move soon, it just may be pushed back a few more months for a variety of reasons. But I'm trying to make myself available for that sort of thing as much as I can. I've had more than a few ideas pitched at me that I really wanna do, it just kinda got backlogged as I dealt with other things-- or had to manage my body betraying me amidst all the currently active temperature fluctuations. But again, I should be good soon-- sorry if I went quiet on anyone, that was not my intention, I just got caught up in stuff. Bweh.


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This month, gawd.

Art Challenge derailed, not big surprise-- but I had a big commission to finish and it was already behind schedule. I'm happier having gotten it done though than stressing over it as I kept plowing through an art challenge instead. I have not cancelled/stopped doing the challenge though, I just kinda stopped daily posting because things are getting done out of order now... and-- I wanna post them in order.

So those should be getting posted soon. I'll throw up whatever's done by the end of the month and if I hit anything else after, cool, but... yeah. I'm just happy to be finishing things either way. I have way too many sketches.

I didn't have much else to say, I just wanted to excuse my posting drop and the challenge thing and-- Fuck, the Ironclaw thing with Alessi and Nekot could have been "Sail", why didn't I think of-- baaaaaaaaahhh-- XD XD

Anyways, I'm pulling myself back together best I can. There's a lot on my mind, so depression comes and goes. We're making it work for now, but there may be other changes on the way. I'll elaborate when it's worth elaborating on. Till then, I'll see you around.


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So I just wanted to do an upload real quick to say the I'm attempting the usual month of October "Challenge" shenanigans like the last couple of years. I'm not sure how dedicated I'm going to be able to be to it this time around, but I kinda figured "Why the fuck not?" anyways. It's something to do, I enjoy it, so I'll do the best I can with it.

There were a LOT of options to choose from for prompt lists this time around, including just going back to resuming my own Smiteober bullshit from last year... but I know how long those images were taking, so that's not honestly tenable for the monthly challenge with everything else I had going for sure, so... standard prompt list sounded like a better option to keep me on track. I've ultimately decided to go with Jyinxx's Art Challenge list, found here, if you wanna hop on the bandwagon with me a little late (or just have it for another month? Nothing says it has to be done on this one!)
https://www.furaffinity.net/view/53495565/


I was about to start posting the things I have done so far, so... kinda wanted to throw out the journal notice in advance. Just to clarify that I'm doing it, but not sticking to it too strictly, perhaps? I have other obligations to work on, apart from the usual life stuff, so I wanted to be clear that I'm not pushing any Gumroad projects or commissions back to work on this. It's just a side project! And I wanted people to know what was up with it before I started posting the images.

Thanks for reading, catch ya next time.


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It done.

So I’ve caught up to all the gallery reposting I had planned for other websites, which means I’m ready to start posting the new shit again. There’s not a lot of it ready to go-- but still… I’m ready/able to now. XD

That said, wanted to give a quick overview as best I can of the other art sites and the responses I’ve seen from each of them. Sort of an artists feedback for anyone still on the fence about where to go, etc, etc… :p


Engagement Comparison, Metrics Discussion… IE - Watches and Favorites and Comments
FurAffinity
FA has been my baseline for a while now, just due to being here the longest. Whenever I post here, I tend to get a pretty steady influx of favorites, a few watches maybe, and a couple comments. The biggest variable tends to be content… tame stuff gets minimal notice, porn gets slightly above minimal notice on average, aaaand vore things get the most notice. I don’t have much further to say here other than to put it on the list for reference, because everything will be compared against it.

Weasyl
Uploads to Weasyl, on average receive a handful of favorites from close friends, if they remember to check it… and that is it. Excluding those 2-3 people, posts on this platform tend to receive an average of 1-2 favorites across multiple postings in a day. The occasional, rare, new watcher. The extremely rare comment. Weasyl is a complete deadzone, all but abandoned. At this point, it serves mostly as a backup gallery as I cannot expect any real growth or engagement from it otherwise. Really sad, because I thought it had a lot of potential before it just fell apart.

Inkbunny
The revival of the Inkbunny account seems to be going steadily. It receives a fair influx of activity when I’m posting, not quite comparable to FA, where I have a distinctly larger following, but still growing accordingly to expectations. I’ve made a point of making full use of the gallery format to post multiple versions of content, including a lot of things that never ended up elsewhere (and likely never will). Since this upload spree began, I’ve received 985 favorites and a fair number of new watchers, but I didn’t save that count unfortunately. Comments have also come at a rate mildly comparable with what I see on FA.

Itaku
Itaku is hard to judge. If I have one complaint, it’s how they display your metrics and alerts. It’s impossible to tell what someone “starred”/favorited without clicking each individual notification in a drop down menu too small to show them all. There’s not a lot of easy ways to gauge what’s being responded to well because of it. Even now, looking at it directly, I can barely tell much of anything. The clearest metric I see is that I have 39 followers. Of the estimations I can make however, I would say that on average I get around as many favorites dropping on Itaku as I do on Inkbunny? It’s very hard to gauge, but from what I’ve seen so far, the values tended to mildly sync up? With a slight edge perhaps still to Inkbunny. But due to the smaller audience, nothing is getting more than 3-4 favorites on average? With even the higher end hits not really breaking 10, so far. But then a lot of things just get no interest at all, seemingly. And nobody leaves comments on anything, ever… which is hella disappointing. It’s got a nice enough look and direction, with fair room for growth? But it’s still really lacking in places… as lack of comments makes me feel really… distant? from watchers there.

Aryion(/Eka’s Portal)
As of documentation, I have received 170 Watches and 4878 Favorites since starting posting at this location. Blowing Inkbunny out of the water by a factor of nearly 5, in spite of the fact that, between the two, I have posted significantly LESS CONTENT to Eka’s. And I don’t just mean because I’m leaving out extras and alternate versions… I have focused primarily on posting only the vore content, with a selection of my favorite non-vore things from the 3-4 years of content I started re-posting to these newer locations (at least until getting into the last year’s worth of content, as I posted most of that stuff). But still, Inkbunny had a small existing audience and has had far more content provided to that audience as it grew over the last month or two. Eka’s has still dominated the metrics. My content has clearly gotten an extremely higher response there than anywhere else. I’d almost be willing to argue that growth has spiked harder than I’d have expected of FA. While I haven’t kept the clearest view of the metrics, everything seems to be getting a fair amount of notice and favorites, with the vore content obviously getting the lion’s share of said notice and favoritism… but still. I get a healthy enough handful of comments here too, enough to be on par with FA and Inkbunny. This has been the gallery I’ve felt the most impressed by the growth of since starting this venture. Not the most useful thing to learn if you don’t cater to the vore community, but-- if you do, good lord, get on Eka’s sooner than I did. I just feel stupid now for missing out on all this engagement I could have been having over the years.

Mastodon
Is still not a gallery. But it is interesting… While I can’t determine much about “metrics” due to it being… not a gallery and hard to look up stats in post… it has gotten a fair amount of attention whenever I posted things. I’ve not posted everything to it either, only a handful of things and then more recent content in fair abundance. But each time, there’s a fair bit of response and engagement, some comments here and there, plenty of favorites. The most surprising bit I’m noticing is that, despite being on the vore server, I’m noticing that the most favorites seem to actually be going to… the perfectly tame and silly shit. Which sends me reeling just that little bit-- and makes me happier than any of you realize. In general, it’s still not pulling in numbers and engagement like a gallery would, but… it’s not a gallery. So for what it is, I guess it’s fine? And it’s not twitter, so thank fuck.

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Going Forward,
Now that I have Postybirb running things smoothly for me and speeding up the process of posting to all locations at once, only requiring mild editing and adjustment on Inkbunny and Mastodon, I’ve decided to continue posting everywhere at once. I could set it to post to FurAffinity a week later than everywhere else, but I don’t ultimately see the point in it. It’s not going to change anyone’s viewing habits. Still, I’m inching away from the platform and will continue to deprioritize it until a better alternative manifests. I hope that one day someone will make a site with all the functionality of Inkbunny, but none of the stigma of Inkbunny, and maybe some of Itaku’s folder support? Then maybe I can settle down to rest in a permanent home instead of having to drift all over the place like this.

Regardless, while we wait for something better, I’ll be posting most everything going forward to FurAffinity and Itaku as the “main” galleries, with Weasyl continuing to serve as a “backup” gallery. Inkbunny will serve as the “full content” repository that gets all of the above content and then some, with alts, extras, and more. Because it’s built to handle those things without causing a hassle for me. Eka’s will receive most but not all of my posts, leaning mostly into the vore side of things. And Mastodon will get whatever I feel like sharing there, because it is not a gallery and I can do whatever I want. :p

Links to these galleries and more, now in the header of my profile page. :p


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Happy Vore Day, lols~

Imma go ahead and disappoint you all now and say that I'm not posting anything cool today like other people in the scene. It's not that I didn't want to...? I just could not get anything going. The last month has been kind of rough on my psyche and I haven't had the motivation to do much because of it. The mental blocks caused by my situation have just stifled all creativity.

So while I'm missing out on a silly holiday, I'll still keep making stuff as I have been, there just won't be anything on "special days" like this unless I can functionally manage it. Maybe next year though? :p

I'll still stream later tonight though. That'll be vore stuff! So you can tune in then I guess?
Catch you later~


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So, it’s been One Year since I opened my Gumroad account as a patreon-like subscription service to support my artwork and endeavors. How’s it gone?

Well-- XD

Just to get the “negative” out of the way, I admit that there’s a non-insignificant part of me that’s been disappointed with it all. That recognition of not having any sort of immediate jump to “fame” or “financial stability” through the process. Which isn’t fair, because I was never expecting that to start with. But it has certainly been a case of, despite my continued efforts to input adverts in uploads to point towards the Gumroad, I’ve really only ever gotten the handful of about ten or so people that showed up in the first month aaaand…. nobody new has really joined since the start of it? Which is a little discouraging, so see zero growth in all this time.

That said then… Everyone who joined that first month is still with me today. And while monetarily, I suppose that doesn’t seem like much, just knowing I have that support from friends and that they’d stick with it for this long-- I am so deeply thankful for that. It serves as a strong reminder to keep myself going and keep pushing forward with the goals I set alongside the Gumroad. Because of that, I’ve maintained a biweekly, if not weekly, streaming schedule to work on my art. I’ve finished more art than I’d have normally completed, just because I have supporters pushing me forward. And of all things, I even got back to and completed an entire Visual Novel all by myself. (Which has been modestly successful as well, btw!)

This has all let me take tiny steps as well along the way, from just keeping a consistent schedule, to pushing myself to maintain it and not give up. It’s probably helped a lot with subduing my depression too. Just seeing the steady support and feedback on all my sketching keeps me motivated enough to keep going with it. I feel like I’ve drawn so much in this span of a year, even if I only completed like a fourth of that work.

Still, it does leave me to ponder how I can further branch out and expand. I’m not complaining about my current numbers, of course, but if I want to really grow and justify making time for more of the things I want to work with, then I really need to draw in more attention. For now, both for that reason AND because FurAffinity has been such a bummer lately, I’m opening myself up to a few new platforms that I intend to start posting on soon. But beyond that, I’m not sure how best to advertise? I guess I could use some input and suggestions for that?

One thought though was just to drop some numbers real quick for assessment! Over the course of this year, I’ve posted a total of 361 sketches to Gumroad and Discord as part of my subscription service. That’s compared to the 87 or so finished images posted to FurAffinity in that same span of time! So if you’re not subscribed, you’re actually missing out on a TON of my content. I don’t post these things anywhere else. I also usually post finished works to the Discord first too! There’s usually not an extended “early access” period there, but sometimes I forget to post things to my galleries and the Discord will eventually remind me what I missed. It’s also helpful if you’re looking for the full scale images that FA likes to shrink or if there are multiple versions of something that might not show up otherwise because it was too much a hassle. Though as I diversify across different galleries, you should still be able to find all the completed works at proper scaling, at least.

It’s also worth noting that, while I haven’t gone too far into it yet, I am planning another Visual Novel. Something a lot longer and a bit more ambitious, with more streamlined mechanics. A few people felt frustrated with my last game’s RNG and-- that is understandable. We’re working towards a more systematic approach this time, so the routes are a bit more hard coded. I’d be putting more effort into it now, but-- like I said, the monetary support isn’t quite there yet for me to drop everything for it just yet. But I hope to have more to say about it in the coming months, just to give more of a heads up than I had for the first one.

I’ve a few other projects and things I wanna do that are floating around in my head, but I’m waiting on different blocks to fall into place before I can make much headway with those thoughts. I’m hoping they’ll come together in time though. Could be quite exciting!

While I don’t know what else the future holds for me right now, so long as the support I’ve received so far continues, then I’m gonna do everything I can to keep my schedules (even if they need rearranging later) going and continue committing to the projects people vote on. It’s a slow and steady march of progress, but I’m happy to keep making it happen.

I suppose that wraps things up for now? So I’ll close out with an update on all the links you’ll ever need to find me in whatever direction you happen to be going in future. Thanks for reading and all see you all again soon!

Gumroad - https://terithsart.gumroad.com/
Weasyl - https://www.weasyl.com/~lapseph
Inkbunny - https://inkbunny.net/Lapseph
Itaku - https://itaku.ee/profile/lapseph
Eka’s Portal - https://aryion.com/g4/user/Mimzy
Mastodon - https://gulp.cafe/@lapseph
Picarto - https://picarto.tv/LapSeph
Twitch - https://www.twitch.tv/revyacunning
YouTube - https://www.youtube.com/@LunarMimzy

Right, first up, just got back from the long convention weekend vacation and I've been struggling to catch up with everything I missed, unpack and put away-- etc, etc. I am-- still struggling to finish up. XD My home life is a bit sideways still right now and I realized a few things while I was out that I need to get moving on soon but-- fuuucking family life BS is holding me up, as is waiting for input on this big job thing I was in the running for and still dunno what's happening with. So... everything is moving slower than I want it, but that's par the course. I've at least got the drive enough to keep it going and get things done, it's just gonna be a slower process then I'd like... and I'm gonna have a lot of new books sitting in the floor for a while-- XD XD

That ramble said, Anthrocon was quite fun. It's been a WHILE since I got to go to it or any other convention, so that was a well needed vacation type thing. Got to hang out with Damien, Humbug, and Box quite a while, as well as a few other people who happened to make it out there. Loved getting to see everybody, wish I could have talked to some of you more-- or at all XD but I'm an anxious bitch and sometimes it hard, especially when cooler people have your attention. XD XD

Learned a fair bit here and there too though, both about gaming jobs and possible furry marketing options, so... a lot of stuff to look into in future that I plan to be dealing with, it's just another one of those long slow roads we're walking on the day to day.

Got a bit of art while I was out, but not sure how to go about posting it-- don't have a good scanner right now and I'm not keen on relying on iphone photos. :p So I guess that might have to just wait. Definitely met a lot of great artists though! Wish I could have gotten more from them. And in some cases, just hang out, because they were really sweet and cool. is really awesome and you should read their comics, definitely a highlight getting to meet them! X3 And I cannot describe the glee I felt every time I handed someone a reference of one of my characters and they "squee'd" over how cute they thought they were-- I never get to *hear* that. It was really awesome. X3


Once I'm out of recovery mode, I've got a one-year retrospective I wanna write up an anniversary journal regarding my Gumroad experience. So expect that soon. Aaaand while I still expect my FA gallery to be "safe" as it were from incoming judgement-- (the deadline is passed now, right? I-- am not keeping up properly) ...my plan right now is to go about opening new "galleries" in some capacity across Itaku, Mastadon, and Eka's Portal. Just gotta do some upkeep first, try out Forest's gallery downloader properly, and learn to use PostyBirb because I've had how it can be used explained to me and-- yeah, okay, fine, I think I can manage that. It's all gonna be a super hassle, but... I'll manage. I have to. I can't have everything tied to a single gallery anymore, not when they can change the rules and blow up overnight, if they so choose. (Looking at you too, Twitter, lol, not that I have to worry about that one, thank fuck.)

But yeah, that's my updates for now. Will chat again soon? :p

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I've been sitting on this a while, trying not to knee-jerk react, and watching how the policy change discussion played out. I think I've seen all the different arguments and memes and things to be afraid of now. And honestly? I still don't want to talk about it in public. At all. But I've spent the last few days being empathetically terrified, frustrated, and on edge... just like everybody else potentially effected by this. Because nobody likes staring down the prospect of their artistic livelihood being arbitrarily shitcanned on the one place they can find reliable, non-stigmatized viewership.

So, I'm not looking for a debate here. I'm just going to talk for a bit, because I don't want to seem like I'm ignoring it either. It affects me. So we're gonna get it all off our chest and then hopefully move on for a bit. I'm going to split this into two pieces, "What I Think" and "What I am Doing" and you can cut to whichever part you care about.

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What I Think of This

For starters, everyone has over-reacted. Myself included. I'm not surprised by this. It's in our nature. But it's also not our fault. They dropped this on people out of nowhere, at the end of the week, with little explanation or clarification, and slapped a hard deadline to comply a month away on it. People panicked. Because what's the outcome of this? People are gonna be harassed and called pedophiles for drawing perfectly harmless content because it upsets someone's sense of moral decency. Nobody wants that kind of stress. Nobody wants to get kicked off a platform they've spent 5 to 10 to 15 years building up an audience on, for posting the same type of artwork they've been doing this entire time and were told was fine. It's agonizing.

So the backlash was expected. And I am somewhat happy and vindicated to see how big of an uproar it seems to have been. But lets be real here. The policy is going forward. They're not going to "change their minds" or backtrack. They're already preparing something intended to "better explain" the policy and provide clearer guidelines regarding the change and how they review things.

....this will not help. It's the internet. And we're furries. We've already made up our minds. XD

Still, they're going to TRY and it will probably assuage some of the fears people are under. But near everyone else is going to remain pissed and up in arms and that's just going to be the website for the next month, so just brace for impact. We're in for a whole lot of yelling and stupidity and contradictions. BUT... it's not going to change a lot? Most of us are probably going to be fine. For one of two reasons...

1) The Mods have never been proactive. Unless something is directly reported by some asshole, nobody is coming for your gallery tomorrow. And even if it does happen, there will be a legitimate review process and there appears to be an opportunity to appeal. So it is not immediately the end of the world. (So long as you don't bite yourself in the ass by flying off the handle at the mods when you appeal; we are all fucking human, remember that.) As far as this sort of thing is concerned, you will be no more or less safe from judgement a month from now, than you were a month ago.

2) I do not believe this rule change was made with actual malicious intent. Will it be used for malicious intent?? Almost Certainly. Yes. Because people with agenda's in positions of authority cannot be trusted to abide in good faith. But on the whole, no... I do not believe this was drafted as a means of attacking the community and specific types of artists. They were just rewriting some things to better fit their way of addressing things and it came off in the worst way possible, because these people have ALWAYS been terrible at communication.

Here, while reviewing possible new art sites... I found this in the rules over at Itaku...

Banned content:
Do not post art in any form that sexually depicts characters that are clearly underage according to the artist.
Characters that are underage by canon but are portrayed as adults by the artist are allowed, since by definition those characters are still adults.

That's it.
That's all you had to fucking say. From the very beginning. Full stop.
Why was that so difficult?

Anyways...
Everyone needs to calm down and breath for a bit. I mean, don't stop fighting? This is all still kind of a problem and needs to be addressed and you need to make your voices heard. But what I mean more is just... Don't Panic. And not because nothing is out to get you, like some people are reassuring and calling people dumb for over-reacting... No. You've every right to fucking panic. Just. Don't. You need to re-direct that energy to both maintain your sanity and also to address the situation calmly and at least ensure that your voice is heard. You don't want to come off as someone who is just over-reacting and flying off the handle. This is all gonna play out over the course of a month. You have time to absorb the details of the situation, let the admins try explaining themselves, and then continue the discussion in good faith. The outcome will not be perfect. But so long as you don't destroy yourself in the process, you will be okay. Worst case scenario, you have to find another website to post on and-- I know. There aren't any good options there. But you should probably just start looking into them.

FurAffinity has never been all that reliable. Either through drama or bad coding or both, this site is gonna fall apart one day. Have a backup. Even if it's not the best backup. Even if you currently have zero traffic there. Don't leave all your chips in one basket. For the basket was a mimic all along and is waiting to eat your hand-- :p


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What I am Going to Do About It

Nothing.
I'm doing functionally nothing.
I'm not taking anything else down. I already took about two dozen things down a few months back during the last bit of unfortunate drama I witnessed. Nothing I personally thought was bad. Nothing I thought or believed was actually cub porn in any sense of the term. But just old shit posted before the original ban that I could look back at today and go "you know what, there are people that could misconstrue this, so... let's just not deal with that possibility." But I'm done with that now. Are there still some things people could act suss over? Especially with this latest rule adjustment? Yeah, probably. But I don't care anymore. I don't want to scroll through everything again and painstakingly decide if I think some puritan would decide something I never intended as cub is suddenly cub because they say it is. Fuck your personal opinion of moral decency. I don't give a shit.

While I have a lot of strong fears and paranoia now about smol cute critters in my gallery... kobolds, nimbats, moogles, phooka, etc... I am not going to morality police myself. And I am not going to keep stressing over it. I know the characters I drew were adults. If they weren't adults, I wouldn't have posted it here. I know what the fucking rules are, damnit, and I follow them whether I think they are stupid or not. I'm just... I'm choosing not to live in fear of it. Because that's just putting stress on myself that I don't need.

That said, while I'm not leaving... unless things dramatically fucking escalate, lols, which I guess I can't rule out?? I am going to keep doing more or less as I have been... and continue de-prioritizing this website. A thing it was already forcing me to do when they limited the upload sizes a few months back. So if you want the highest quality versions of my art? Go to Weasyl or InkBunny or, in time, once I start archiving completed works there too, Gumroad. If you want every version of an image and not just the base version I post to FA? Go to InkBunny. Don't like InkBunny, for reasons I perfectly understand? Well, too bad, I got no where else to put them. They'll be on Gumroad eventually? But you'll have to pay for access to that. I'm sorry. This is the best I can do until someone builds a better alternative.

I will not be going to Twitter. Mastadon either, though that has a way higher likelihood than the former. Those are not art galleries, they are not curateable. They are for social media engagement and to maybe lure people to your actual galleries-- that's it. So no. And then, e621 is an image board, not a gallery. So same basic problem. Pixiv is a japanese censorship nightmare, so... yeah, no. Newgrounds... is not for furries. But I guess I will keep it in mind if it comes to that. I'm considering Itaku as a new site to try, but we aren't there yet. Anything else, I'm clearly not familiar enough with to comment on.

But if you're looking for me off FA, here are the usual links.
https://www.weasyl.com/~lapseph
https://inkbunny.net/Lapseph
https://terithsart.gumroad.com/


Thank you for reading to the end of this nonsense.
I love you. Good luck out there.

Hey, s'been a little bit and felt quiet on this front, so just the quick updates.

The Closet was a pretty decent success? Nothing super exciting to report there? It did well enough for me to be happy with it and that's the best I could probably ask for. It's obviously still on sale and demo if you wanna take a look, links below. Aaand I have got a bit of feedback on it, but not a whole lot? Comments, as usual, are hard to come by. But what I did get I am taking into account for future projects. I may eventually push myself to do a light quality of life update for The Closet, but for now I'm trying to focus on other projects I guess?

Speaking of, next gumroad project is in the works, it's just been slow going because I got set back for about three weeks doing contract work, followed by another week of allergies kicking my ass, but I should be back on track to get drawing tonight. I've done a bit of sketching to rake the dust back off and got the commission I just posted finally done. So... feeling pretty good about it. Should probably jump on another commission offer or two I've had while I'm at it, I'm just... really slow getting started after that month of slogging through other people's problems on the job. But hey, we've recovered, seem to be going well, should be good from here. No major mood killers to worry over... yet. XD

Other than that? Not much to report. Getting back to sketching, but those mostly only show up in my gumroad/discord, so... I'm sure it will continue feeling lifeless here as I drag myself towards actually finishing things. XD I'm still proud of my sketching lately? Just... yeah. Not posting em to FA. XD I... guess... that's... all?? So I'll see you in the next one. :p


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Available for purchase and download at, https://terithsart.gumroad.com/
https://terithsart.gumroad.com/l/bvuhv

It's finally finished! You can pick it up at the above link now! I've also posted a submission advert which you may has noticed before this journal, so you can find all the links there too. The demo is free to download at no cost and contains limited content, but is still a fully contained mini-experience with two endings. So you can take a look at what I've made for free, if you want a quick look at what's in store for you in the full game.

I've had the game playtested for bugs and errors in advance of release, and it should be clean and fully functional now! But if you run into any issues, do let me know! I'll work on getting any problems fixed right away. Gumroad is set up for pretty easy re-uploads in the event something went wrong, but I'm pretty sure there won't be any problems. Similarly, if you've got any questions or feedback, give me a shout anytime! I'd love to hear what people think of the product!

This has been a long nearly two year or so project, just because I kept losing my motivation, but friends and gumroad supporters alike have kept encouraging me to pick it back up and finish it, and finally here we are. So I just wanted to thank everyone for their support in getting here.

I also want to give a special shoutout to the following, & who helped me a lot with the writing, development, and testing of the game! This wouldn't have been possible without them, so thank you so much!


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Right, so before I forget for like the twentieth time, lols--

I have a game coming out by the end of the month?? XD

It's this little visual novel -like thing I've been working on for... probably two years now? Off and on. It's not very long, it's not breaking any boundaries, but... it's mine! I've struggled to keep up motivation with the project, like all other things on my plate, but people have kept prodding me about it just enough that we're finally almost there. If you've been checking into my streams lately, you may have seen me working on some of the artwork for it as part of my Gumroad funded project work. Which is probably also a chance for me to remind people that projects like this can get finished faster if I had more Gumroad support! XD

So, I kinda just wanted to bring it up a little in advance? So people know to expect it soon. It will be a "for sale" product though! I'm planning to have a free "demo" version with limited content, so people can see what they'd have to look forward to if they wanted more, but... the full version will cost you. It'll all be up on my Gumroad store page once it's ready to go. I'll post another announcement linking to it then, with some additional thank yous to people involved.

Sooo.... yeah!
I've had a lot of personal distress in my life for the last few weeks and this is one of the few things I get to be excited about, so I just wanted to take some time to hype it up and-- I'll see you with it in about another week or two? Thanks so much for you support!



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Seems like we've got some time yet before the next thing I've got finished for actually posting will be up, I'm just gonna... address the situation I'm seeing now, now. Ahh... If I can't upload my art here at the full correct size, because they removed the "exploit" for reuploading at full proper uncompressed size... umm... I just won't upload here? And... I realize that is going to hurt me, tremendously, if it comes to that but... I have always been frustrated with the jank bullshit that happens when you upload to this website and it compresses and heavily artifacts my artwork. The reupload "exploit/feature" that corrected this was like, the only reason I've continued posting here previously. Because seeing that quality degradation effect has always sickened me. I know some people don't care? But... I do. So-- that's just all there is to it.

Supposedly the file size limit is doubled from what it originally was? And maybe that's enough? But... somehow I doubt that. Umm... yeah, "2650x1440" is the new limit. I draw on 2000X2000 sized canvases by *default*. While cropping of the finished piece usually drops it under that full scale by a good bit... the 1440 side is... probably not always going to cut it? And if I've made a comic and it's pieced together from several of those scaled canvases... ahhh... yyyeeeaaahhh.... we're fucked. This is to say nothing of gifs, which... are currently broken entirely with the update, so... double fuck. Umm...

Yeah. Dunno what to do here. I've avoided Twitter promotion forever and-- now that place is trying to strangle itself to death, so that's not an option. I'm on Weasyl, but literally nobody else seems to be. Submissions to that place get all of 1 favorite per upload, on average, so... Not helpful. I could revive the Inkbunny but... I've not maintained my gallery there at all and I've no intention of just spamming it now, that feels gross and awful, and even if I did... pretty sure the Inkbunny stigma's never left, else FA would have probably died to it ten years ago. DeviantArt is.... No. So... *SHRUG??*

Everything is gross. Love that every corner of the web is doing it's best to choke itself to death for no reason all at the same fucking time, so there's just no where to go.

I'll figure something out? Or I'll just die I guess? Fucking--alksdjfagh
Or maybe it'll all magically work out and I wrote this for no reason! Hahahahahahahahaha. aslkjdgagioharjke hguhvea;svoiuh

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Whelp, inktober was a failure XD What a hard crash! But I at least know and can acknowledge that is because I bit off way more than I could chew. Wound up causing me a bit of burnout on the whole project, but I still did a fair amount over the month. But, sadly, what got posted, is what got finished and I'm not planning to extend the "month" into November to see it through. I'll dip back into the project from time to time, but for now, that's kind of the end of it? As I go back to it, I'll post new entries that get completed, but otherwise it's in the "to-do" folders with the rest of the sketches.

Speaking of, been about four months now without any major self promotion hype, lols, so quick update there!
I have a Gumroad over here! https://terithsart.gumroad.com/

While nothing new is there on the face of things, it's worth noting that I have been sketching A LOT in the past 3-4 months since launch. So even if the two older packs there don't interest you, the monthly "Support Me" option of "Personal Projects: Polls and WIPs" has been actively updated since launch and there is now a good six months worth of art packed in there for the extremely low cost of a $1 for monthly access. You can pay more obviously if you want to support me further or just gain access to my discord channel, where I share this content as well. But if you wanna see the art I'm not posting to FA, then... that's where it is hiding. I actually put out a lot more content in a month than I realized until I started categorizing things by month like this. XD


As for what's happening this month? Well, I'm about to jump back onto my discord polled project for gumroad support, but that's close to finished, so I'll be dropping that comic later this month and looking to start a new gumroad project. Options are still in the air, but if you wanted in on the voting, well... now's the time to jump in? XD

Nothing else special I can think of for now, so... yup, will check in later! Be well everybody!

Yeah, I totally fucked it, not gonna lie. Been sitting here trying to recover my pacing, but it's just not happening. I've still been drawing every day though! (okay, except one, I mental crisis'd out that one) And am still making progress on the things I was drawing, so... they're still happening, I'm just not getting them out on the daily. XP So the "Challenge" I think is very much lost, but that doesn't mean I'm quitting early or anything, it's probably just going to stretch into next month and I may give myself some leeway eventually to work on something else briefly. :p

But yeah, just wanted to explain the several days in a row of not posting in the "post one thing a day" challenge thing. :p
Bleh-- was too ambitious sadly. This stuff is taking longer to detail out than I figured it would for a single character a day, but... that's what happens when you're doing a bunch of detail, compared to the pretty simplistic designs I usually do. :p



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Ahhh--- I accidentally started turning these into pairs, but I still intend to only do/finish one character a day-- so I may be posting these every other day? XD Or at least for so long as I have character pairings to do? I wasn't planning to do it this way, but then the dynamic of interaction kind of blew up out of nowhere, because it ramped up my brain for better posing. So I'm just rolling with that now. XD

Also I keep weird hours, so the first entry probably wasn't popping up until tomorrow anyways, but that's my bad. I'd have had to start a day early and I didn't really. It will technically be completed in "my day" though, so I'm counting it. XD

I'm already happy with how these are looking though, so I hope you will too.


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