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Posted 11 months agonope, still not leavin this chair
Surgery soon
Posted 2 years agoIn less than 12 hours I have my Orchi ama
Surgery Update!
Posted 3 years agohttps://gofund.me/7b0c916b
Still fundraising ofc. But an update! That I will also add on my GFM later. But!
I have a surgery date! Feb 6 is the day ya girl getting it done.
Still fundraising ofc. But an update! That I will also add on my GFM later. But!
I have a surgery date! Feb 6 is the day ya girl getting it done.
Hi I'm 35 now. Lol.
Posted 3 years agohttps://gofund.me/7b0c916b
I'm still fund raising for my Orchi.
https://twitter.com/lucashoal/statu.....81561913774088 or a Twitter post.
Be kind we're still in fucking terrifying times. It's awful. I'm scared not gonna lie. But I'm trying.
I'm still fund raising for my Orchi.
https://twitter.com/lucashoal/statu.....81561913774088 or a Twitter post.
Be kind we're still in fucking terrifying times. It's awful. I'm scared not gonna lie. But I'm trying.
Fundraising Again
Posted 4 years agoThis time, for my GRS. My Orchiectomy.
https://gofund.me/2d5ae5a2 GFM link.
https://twitter.com/lucashoal/statu.....10677645451264 and if you can't donate, but do have a Twitter. I'd absolutely appreciate at least sharing it. Thank you for your time. 💜
https://gofund.me/2d5ae5a2 GFM link.
https://twitter.com/lucashoal/statu.....10677645451264 and if you can't donate, but do have a Twitter. I'd absolutely appreciate at least sharing it. Thank you for your time. 💜
The State of the Kitsune, Dec 2021
Posted 4 years agoSo it's been about half a year since I last wrote a journal huh?
https://www.furaffinity.net/view/44897177/
Just gonna link this here for ease of reference. Let's start there. Pronouns and identity. I explain pronouns in that piece. But there's some more.
Namely, Therian, what is that? Another link. Luca, has always been me. I've been thinking about this for most of the year in fact, that she's me. But, I never made the corollary connection until a few months after that journal. That if she's me, then I'm her, in turn. We are one and the same. There is really no separate entity between us. This reads like potential system/DID talk. And I've had that self conversation more than once over the years. Even before I knew any of my friends were plural.
And in all that time. I've always come back to the same conclusion. That it's all just me. And that me just happens to be a kitsune that the world perceives as a human shaped AMAB girl. VRchat has helped me figure this out. Pet play as well. Socializing, kink, they all just tie into who I am and how I am. I get phantom touch sensations in VRchat and over text. I can feel *my* ears (as in, the kitsune ones) wiggle every so often. There's a lot there. But the point being. I've always been a kitsune ever since I settled into the general shape you see.
Which leads me into the next bits.
Some of y'all have seen a shift in content from me. From shy and submissive, to assertive and dominant. Turns out I'm a Switch. Progesterone has helped me with self confidence a LOT. I feel, proper. Right, correct. I feel like *me* now. And in that, I've made self discoveries, that I can be a teasing domme, or just as easily be a puddle of blush in the presence of the right person or right touch. So, that's pretty cool.
Partners! I have more than one. I've always been open to the idea to be honest, I was just single for the past 5 years or so. But, I have a local girlfriend now. Her name is Sammy (no relation to the fruit stripe gum lookin cat who's Pandora the artist cats partner.) She's on twitter. It's a funny story how I met her. It was June or so? Started talking to a roommate of hers on grindr. Then her (said roommate)'s partner. And one of them mentioned their roommate knew of me. She's a bab too. And long story short, I go to meet the girl roommate, as well as at least say hi to Sammy and tease and be mom like and all. And I'm just kinda instantly smitten. And she took a liking to me as well. A month later, we made it official that we were dating.
And since then I've... gotten 4 more partners. Talking to another girl on twitter, we connect about things. Her partner likes me as well.. and I get asked into the polycule they're already in. Same thing when it comes to Jenna & Steph (they're partners in a separate polycule.) So that happened somehow, and I am ok with this. It's nice.
Things I mention... I'm working through therapy now. I've talked about it on twitter. But I haven't said much here. So, this is where it's gonna get a bit heavy without to much detail, but, TW starts here.
TW - CSA, ptsd, abuse talk
I've had some. Less pleasant memories I never talk about for various reasons. That I hid and suppressed, some of them for decades. I started thinking about them earlier this year when the situation with Tato happened. And how I've been accused of some things.
And I'm in a place now. Where I can start dealing with them. With my past trauma. Chief amongst them being relevant here, that I was unfortunately a CSA victim growing up. Which honestly still affects me to this day. I've also had to deal with both Complex and "normal" post-traumatic stress disorder, over various things. The PTSD particular comes from the CSA thing. As well as something else. The complex bits, from growing up with mental abuse from my mother, and the whole stalker situation with the second life trolls, to ED, to kfarms now. That's been a lurking annoyance threat for about 15 years now.
TW ends
So. I've been talking to a therapist about things. I'm taking antidepressants now. And I realized I still have ADHD that I thought I grew out of before I finished grade school. That was a mistake, lol.
But, in my years since then. I've done research off and on. I feel I know myself well enough to make an educated guess on things. So with my closing out this journal. One final thought remains.
I've done a lot of thinking and introspection. I've always wondered why I felt "different" and off. And honestly? I think I'm Autistic. I've also talked about this at length on twitter. And I'm open to talking about most of this in private. But, autism would explain a lot of things. A lot more than I have room for here to even begin talking about. But it explains why I relate to certain people and friends so well. This isn't a statement I make lightly. Nor do I make this assumption to make excuses for anything, nor to belittle anyone else. This is all to do with me.
I'm trying to save the money to get proper testing as an adult to be sure. Because once I've set my mind on something, I want to be sure. And this is something I'm just as sure of as I was when I figured out I was trans all along.
I've talked about it on twitter. But I've been anxious to talk about it here. In part because I know several people have used "but I'm autistic!" as an excuse to be shitty people. And I've never wanted to associate with acting like that. So my research was always quiet. But I've done my due diligence. I know myself and my own history better than any doctor or therapist does. I never talked about the trauma up above until this year, for one. With any friends, much less a professional. I hope it doesn't come across as me hopping on some "self diagnosis" trend, but rather a place of honest understanding and desire to know for my own sake.
If you've read all this so far? Thank you, I appreciate it.
In lighter, happier news. I have my new social security card. With the right name. My name and info are updated with the local dept of health. I just need to order a new birth certificate. (Why they couldn't just mail me one I don't know... thanks Ohio. Thanks small taxes on being trans.) Such is life.
Y'all can still call me Luca, or Renée. The names apply still. Depending on who you are, mom/milf also works.
Til next time the stars align and our paths cross again and I write another journal.
https://www.furaffinity.net/view/44897177/
Just gonna link this here for ease of reference. Let's start there. Pronouns and identity. I explain pronouns in that piece. But there's some more.
Namely, Therian, what is that? Another link. Luca, has always been me. I've been thinking about this for most of the year in fact, that she's me. But, I never made the corollary connection until a few months after that journal. That if she's me, then I'm her, in turn. We are one and the same. There is really no separate entity between us. This reads like potential system/DID talk. And I've had that self conversation more than once over the years. Even before I knew any of my friends were plural.
And in all that time. I've always come back to the same conclusion. That it's all just me. And that me just happens to be a kitsune that the world perceives as a human shaped AMAB girl. VRchat has helped me figure this out. Pet play as well. Socializing, kink, they all just tie into who I am and how I am. I get phantom touch sensations in VRchat and over text. I can feel *my* ears (as in, the kitsune ones) wiggle every so often. There's a lot there. But the point being. I've always been a kitsune ever since I settled into the general shape you see.
Which leads me into the next bits.
Some of y'all have seen a shift in content from me. From shy and submissive, to assertive and dominant. Turns out I'm a Switch. Progesterone has helped me with self confidence a LOT. I feel, proper. Right, correct. I feel like *me* now. And in that, I've made self discoveries, that I can be a teasing domme, or just as easily be a puddle of blush in the presence of the right person or right touch. So, that's pretty cool.
Partners! I have more than one. I've always been open to the idea to be honest, I was just single for the past 5 years or so. But, I have a local girlfriend now. Her name is Sammy (no relation to the fruit stripe gum lookin cat who's Pandora the artist cats partner.) She's on twitter. It's a funny story how I met her. It was June or so? Started talking to a roommate of hers on grindr. Then her (said roommate)'s partner. And one of them mentioned their roommate knew of me. She's a bab too. And long story short, I go to meet the girl roommate, as well as at least say hi to Sammy and tease and be mom like and all. And I'm just kinda instantly smitten. And she took a liking to me as well. A month later, we made it official that we were dating.
And since then I've... gotten 4 more partners. Talking to another girl on twitter, we connect about things. Her partner likes me as well.. and I get asked into the polycule they're already in. Same thing when it comes to Jenna & Steph (they're partners in a separate polycule.) So that happened somehow, and I am ok with this. It's nice.
Things I mention... I'm working through therapy now. I've talked about it on twitter. But I haven't said much here. So, this is where it's gonna get a bit heavy without to much detail, but, TW starts here.
TW - CSA, ptsd, abuse talk
I've had some. Less pleasant memories I never talk about for various reasons. That I hid and suppressed, some of them for decades. I started thinking about them earlier this year when the situation with Tato happened. And how I've been accused of some things.
And I'm in a place now. Where I can start dealing with them. With my past trauma. Chief amongst them being relevant here, that I was unfortunately a CSA victim growing up. Which honestly still affects me to this day. I've also had to deal with both Complex and "normal" post-traumatic stress disorder, over various things. The PTSD particular comes from the CSA thing. As well as something else. The complex bits, from growing up with mental abuse from my mother, and the whole stalker situation with the second life trolls, to ED, to kfarms now. That's been a lurking annoyance threat for about 15 years now.
TW ends
So. I've been talking to a therapist about things. I'm taking antidepressants now. And I realized I still have ADHD that I thought I grew out of before I finished grade school. That was a mistake, lol.
But, in my years since then. I've done research off and on. I feel I know myself well enough to make an educated guess on things. So with my closing out this journal. One final thought remains.
I've done a lot of thinking and introspection. I've always wondered why I felt "different" and off. And honestly? I think I'm Autistic. I've also talked about this at length on twitter. And I'm open to talking about most of this in private. But, autism would explain a lot of things. A lot more than I have room for here to even begin talking about. But it explains why I relate to certain people and friends so well. This isn't a statement I make lightly. Nor do I make this assumption to make excuses for anything, nor to belittle anyone else. This is all to do with me.
I'm trying to save the money to get proper testing as an adult to be sure. Because once I've set my mind on something, I want to be sure. And this is something I'm just as sure of as I was when I figured out I was trans all along.
I've talked about it on twitter. But I've been anxious to talk about it here. In part because I know several people have used "but I'm autistic!" as an excuse to be shitty people. And I've never wanted to associate with acting like that. So my research was always quiet. But I've done my due diligence. I know myself and my own history better than any doctor or therapist does. I never talked about the trauma up above until this year, for one. With any friends, much less a professional. I hope it doesn't come across as me hopping on some "self diagnosis" trend, but rather a place of honest understanding and desire to know for my own sake.
If you've read all this so far? Thank you, I appreciate it.
In lighter, happier news. I have my new social security card. With the right name. My name and info are updated with the local dept of health. I just need to order a new birth certificate. (Why they couldn't just mail me one I don't know... thanks Ohio. Thanks small taxes on being trans.) Such is life.
Y'all can still call me Luca, or Renée. The names apply still. Depending on who you are, mom/milf also works.
Til next time the stars align and our paths cross again and I write another journal.
High Tail Hall
Posted 4 years agoDang, remember that? It's almost 18 years old now. How time flies.
For those who somehow don't know the story. I was 16 or 17 at the time. The fandom was a simpler time then, lol. I still get folk every so often going "THAT WAS YOU??" Because yes, faithful viewers. That indeed, was me. Funny how I figure shit out years later about being a girl, yknow?
I'm thinking about this because of this thing I saw going around twitter. I made a contribution. https://twitter.com/lucashoal/statu.....14730401632258
For those who somehow don't know the story. I was 16 or 17 at the time. The fandom was a simpler time then, lol. I still get folk every so often going "THAT WAS YOU??" Because yes, faithful viewers. That indeed, was me. Funny how I figure shit out years later about being a girl, yknow?
I'm thinking about this because of this thing I saw going around twitter. I made a contribution. https://twitter.com/lucashoal/statu.....14730401632258
Happy funny number day, but more importantly,
Posted 4 years agoHappy 2 years of HRT to me. Yes it's on the funny weed number day.
https://twitter.com/lucashoal/statu.....15023289061381 I've posted a short pictorial time line on twitter earlier today. I feel so much better since I've come out publicly at work. And working on getting my legal name changed on all my accounts.
Thank you all for your support through the years. 💜
https://twitter.com/lucashoal/statu.....15023289061381 I've posted a short pictorial time line on twitter earlier today. I feel so much better since I've come out publicly at work. And working on getting my legal name changed on all my accounts.
Thank you all for your support through the years. 💜
Furry name stuff
Posted 4 years agoI mentioned it on twitter. But realized I never updated things here.
Ok, so. My name is legally Renée now, right? Well, Luca, she never had a middle name. Not until I got my name changed. So this is just a brief update that from here on out, that will be her full name. Luca Renée Shoal. Now *my* legal middle name isn't Luca, that would be a weird crossover. No it's something different and I'm only going to tell close friends about. Nothing personal to folk here, just gotta do some OpSec yknow? But it seemed fitting for Luca to have my name as her middle name, because... I'm so used to being called Luca in person, that I just liked the sound of it.
That is all. Y'all be well. Oh also on an important note, tomorrow I can update my drivers license. I got my birth certificate finally so I can update that.
Ok, so. My name is legally Renée now, right? Well, Luca, she never had a middle name. Not until I got my name changed. So this is just a brief update that from here on out, that will be her full name. Luca Renée Shoal. Now *my* legal middle name isn't Luca, that would be a weird crossover. No it's something different and I'm only going to tell close friends about. Nothing personal to folk here, just gotta do some OpSec yknow? But it seemed fitting for Luca to have my name as her middle name, because... I'm so used to being called Luca in person, that I just liked the sound of it.
That is all. Y'all be well. Oh also on an important note, tomorrow I can update my drivers license. I got my birth certificate finally so I can update that.
It Is Done
Posted 4 years agoMarch 5th, 2021. At 11am EST
I got my name changed. I'm legally Renee now. Thanks yall for your support.
I got my name changed. I'm legally Renee now. Thanks yall for your support.
Birthday Coming, and gift/fan art
Posted 4 years agoYup! It's that time of year again. I'm almost 34, Feb 25 is my birthday. Same as it ever was.
My name change hearing date is still coming up on March 5th, which I'm still excited about. I'm less nervous about potential complications therein, but the minor low key fear is still there. They would have told me something was up by now I assume if I had anything to worry about.
Anyways. Art, yeah? I am as always, open to gift/fan art. And my policy therein remains the same. Yes, please! Just let me know about it! And my only other request being that I'm not drawn as a domme/top without prior discussion with me. Clean fun stuff? Go for it! Just *please* tell me about it so I can appreciate it!
I bring this up just because I came across art drawn of the old me (Hight Tail Hall era) someone posted here. I was all ready to thank them for the art and fav it... but I was blocked for some reason. So, yknow, whatever there. I have Thoughts about said art, where the artist "likes how I was then" to paraphrase things. I don't think it's a transphobic view of theirs, just, they weren't aware I'm a real person. And yknow? That's ok, you can be wrong, but that's ok. I'm not gonna push about it, I just hope they realize that I am a real person, a real girl that exists.
My name change hearing date is still coming up on March 5th, which I'm still excited about. I'm less nervous about potential complications therein, but the minor low key fear is still there. They would have told me something was up by now I assume if I had anything to worry about.
Anyways. Art, yeah? I am as always, open to gift/fan art. And my policy therein remains the same. Yes, please! Just let me know about it! And my only other request being that I'm not drawn as a domme/top without prior discussion with me. Clean fun stuff? Go for it! Just *please* tell me about it so I can appreciate it!
I bring this up just because I came across art drawn of the old me (Hight Tail Hall era) someone posted here. I was all ready to thank them for the art and fav it... but I was blocked for some reason. So, yknow, whatever there. I have Thoughts about said art, where the artist "likes how I was then" to paraphrase things. I don't think it's a transphobic view of theirs, just, they weren't aware I'm a real person. And yknow? That's ok, you can be wrong, but that's ok. I'm not gonna push about it, I just hope they realize that I am a real person, a real girl that exists.
Further Name Change Progress
Posted 4 years agoIt's happening. IT'S HAPPENING.
I have a court date. My court fees are paid. March 5th, before noon. I am just at a loss for words now aside from being beyond excited. Holy heck it is happening.
(also my gofundme is still open because more help would be appreciated. But the main hurdle of expenses is covered and dealt with. Than you all folk who helped. <3)
I have a court date. My court fees are paid. March 5th, before noon. I am just at a loss for words now aside from being beyond excited. Holy heck it is happening.
(also my gofundme is still open because more help would be appreciated. But the main hurdle of expenses is covered and dealt with. Than you all folk who helped. <3)
Legal Name Progress
Posted 4 years agoA continuation of https://www.furaffinity.net/journal/9739674
I got started on ACTUALLY doing the thing. I am currently waiting for my account to be approved by the County Probate Court, so I can submit my case. I said I'd do it this year, and I am doing it. Once my paperwork is submitted and accepted by the court, I'll have to wait about 45 days to actually have my hearing. Which I don't foresee having any issues with.
On the further bright side of things? I live in Ohio. We *were* one of two states left that I couldn't get my birth certificate updated with the proper gender marker. That recently changed, thankfully. Which will make my life easier to get other documentation corrected. https://www.aclu.org/legal-document.....er-and-opinion Here's the results, if anyone is interested.
With that said. It's not exactly cheap to get done. I started a gofundme to help cover the related costs. Which will include drivers license update, and if there are any charges associated with correcting my birth certificate.
> https://www.gofundme.com/f/help-luc.....r-name-changed <
If you can't donate, I still appreciate you reading this! And if you're able, then I also have a twitter post that can be shared.
> https://twitter.com/lucashoal/statu.....30820663836673 <
Furthermore. I got my updated nametag at work. I'm coming out to more people there, slowly. It's a little more progress and a little more feeling right and *myself* every day. I'm doing the needful. And I can't wait to be open about it so I can be more earnest in doing work on vocal training. What is vocal training, you may ask? It's practice to make my voice sound like I *want* it to sound. Instead of the deep masc voice I grew up into. I have some starting points in that I can mimic voices to an extent. I just need to learn how to focus and keep it consistent how I want it. Because that's hard for me, my voice fluctuates a lot, especially when I'm cognizant of it.
That's all for now. Thank you all again for your support and care. It's lovely to feel appreciated by folk. <3
(post edit - For full clarity here as well. I initially set my funding goal at $250 which covered the immediate court related costs, plus I think my license. Anything beyond that would of course be exceptionally beneficial to me getting other debts sorted.)
I got started on ACTUALLY doing the thing. I am currently waiting for my account to be approved by the County Probate Court, so I can submit my case. I said I'd do it this year, and I am doing it. Once my paperwork is submitted and accepted by the court, I'll have to wait about 45 days to actually have my hearing. Which I don't foresee having any issues with.
On the further bright side of things? I live in Ohio. We *were* one of two states left that I couldn't get my birth certificate updated with the proper gender marker. That recently changed, thankfully. Which will make my life easier to get other documentation corrected. https://www.aclu.org/legal-document.....er-and-opinion Here's the results, if anyone is interested.
With that said. It's not exactly cheap to get done. I started a gofundme to help cover the related costs. Which will include drivers license update, and if there are any charges associated with correcting my birth certificate.
> https://www.gofundme.com/f/help-luc.....r-name-changed <
If you can't donate, I still appreciate you reading this! And if you're able, then I also have a twitter post that can be shared.
> https://twitter.com/lucashoal/statu.....30820663836673 <
Furthermore. I got my updated nametag at work. I'm coming out to more people there, slowly. It's a little more progress and a little more feeling right and *myself* every day. I'm doing the needful. And I can't wait to be open about it so I can be more earnest in doing work on vocal training. What is vocal training, you may ask? It's practice to make my voice sound like I *want* it to sound. Instead of the deep masc voice I grew up into. I have some starting points in that I can mimic voices to an extent. I just need to learn how to focus and keep it consistent how I want it. Because that's hard for me, my voice fluctuates a lot, especially when I'm cognizant of it.
That's all for now. Thank you all again for your support and care. It's lovely to feel appreciated by folk. <3
(post edit - For full clarity here as well. I initially set my funding goal at $250 which covered the immediate court related costs, plus I think my license. Anything beyond that would of course be exceptionally beneficial to me getting other debts sorted.)
Personal Announcement
Posted 4 years agoSo we're over a week into 2021 now huh? What a week, goddamn.
First and foremost. If you support Trump and his policies to harm nigh on every minority under the sun. Kindly go away forever. You enabled him. We told you since he became the Republican candidate back in 2016. And yet you never listened. This isn't a time for healing, this is a time for you to reflect on why you're culpable for this national tragedy.
Anyways. Moving on after getting that out of the way.
I have made a New Years Resolution. That I will stick to and keep. I'm going to get Legal Stuff done in regards to me being a girl. And I've started to work on coming out at work. The more I tell people, the more I know I'm doing the right thing. I feel so much more at peace and at ease being *me*, than trying to be some boy.
And in addition to that. Luca, she's me. She's never had a middle name. Until now.
Luca Renée Shoal.
She will have *my* name as a middle name. To reinforce that dynamic of her being me. I am her, she is me. We're the same person, just different fronts as it were. What exactly does that all mean? You can call me Luca or Renée interchangeably. This isn't a Plurality thing. She's...just a different side of me.
May your year go well and be one of happiness and joy. May we avoid further catastrophies. And here's hoping we'll be able to see friends again.
Oh. And as a little closing aside. Since I cook at a hospital. That makes me an essential worker. I've gotten the first half of the Moderna vaccine. Aside from a little soreness in my arm for like, two days. I've had no issues or complaints whatsoever. So if you have the opportunity, please get vaccinated asap. Thank you.
First and foremost. If you support Trump and his policies to harm nigh on every minority under the sun. Kindly go away forever. You enabled him. We told you since he became the Republican candidate back in 2016. And yet you never listened. This isn't a time for healing, this is a time for you to reflect on why you're culpable for this national tragedy.
Anyways. Moving on after getting that out of the way.
I have made a New Years Resolution. That I will stick to and keep. I'm going to get Legal Stuff done in regards to me being a girl. And I've started to work on coming out at work. The more I tell people, the more I know I'm doing the right thing. I feel so much more at peace and at ease being *me*, than trying to be some boy.
And in addition to that. Luca, she's me. She's never had a middle name. Until now.
Luca Renée Shoal.
She will have *my* name as a middle name. To reinforce that dynamic of her being me. I am her, she is me. We're the same person, just different fronts as it were. What exactly does that all mean? You can call me Luca or Renée interchangeably. This isn't a Plurality thing. She's...just a different side of me.
May your year go well and be one of happiness and joy. May we avoid further catastrophies. And here's hoping we'll be able to see friends again.
Oh. And as a little closing aside. Since I cook at a hospital. That makes me an essential worker. I've gotten the first half of the Moderna vaccine. Aside from a little soreness in my arm for like, two days. I've had no issues or complaints whatsoever. So if you have the opportunity, please get vaccinated asap. Thank you.
Trans Rights & Black Lives Matter
Posted 5 years agohttps://www.furaffinity.net/view/39885578/
So some people are still being shitty, huh? (no
is not in any way shitty TO CLARIFY. Arh's good, they're cool.)
So some universal truth reminders.
Black Lives Matter
Trans Lives Matter
Queer POC Lives Matter
Antifa is not in any way a terrorist group. Much less an actual GROUP (unlike say, the Proud Boys, Atomwaffen, the numerous other right wing terrorist groups...)
He/him and pan/bi lesbians/femme presenting folk are real and valid. Same goes for she/her and pan/bi gay masc presenting folk.
Trump sucks, McConnell too and a large margin of the GOP.
If you disagree with these facts, speak up kindly.
And with that spicy title out of the way. Uhh, I'm gay for girls. So I'm leaning towards pan/bi lesbian so yknow. Ladies.
So some people are still being shitty, huh? (no
is not in any way shitty TO CLARIFY. Arh's good, they're cool.)So some universal truth reminders.
Black Lives Matter
Trans Lives Matter
Queer POC Lives Matter
Antifa is not in any way a terrorist group. Much less an actual GROUP (unlike say, the Proud Boys, Atomwaffen, the numerous other right wing terrorist groups...)
He/him and pan/bi lesbians/femme presenting folk are real and valid. Same goes for she/her and pan/bi gay masc presenting folk.
Trump sucks, McConnell too and a large margin of the GOP.
If you disagree with these facts, speak up kindly.
And with that spicy title out of the way. Uhh, I'm gay for girls. So I'm leaning towards pan/bi lesbian so yknow. Ladies.
15 Years
Posted 5 years agoJesus crust. I've had this profile since Dec 15, 2005. This precedes Twitter. It came after my long defunct LJ, and. Somewhere around the same time. I drifted apart from Yiffstar, now SoFurry?
Dang.
Dang.
Trump is Out.
Posted 5 years agoIf you're a Trump fan and you're watching me? Let me know so I can block you. Please do speak up so I can share with the class. No fascists in this fandom.
(also I guess Biden won, not a fan of him. What matters is Trump is gone.)
(also I guess Biden won, not a fan of him. What matters is Trump is gone.)
Twitch Streamin
Posted 5 years agoNot now, but!
I started streaming on twitch recently. I'm close to hitting the affiliate tier somehow. I just need a few more followers. It's a way for me to just actually talk instead of just sitting in the quiet silence of my apartment. Youtube doesn't do so much, or music, it's nice to chill and be able to chat, yknow? It helps with the loneliness and all.
So! https://www.twitch.tv/lucashoal
Dere ya go! I AM however, going to be streaming in about 2.5 hours (the time is currently 3:40/15:40 EST.) I'll be starting at 6pm/18:00 thereabouts. Tonight, will be Blood Bowl and more Fall Guys. I post a lot more on twitter about it though. So hit me up with one of those follows there as well if you wanna keep track.
Twitch follows are appreciated. And YOU are appreciated for reading this. Be safe, and be well out there. <3
I started streaming on twitch recently. I'm close to hitting the affiliate tier somehow. I just need a few more followers. It's a way for me to just actually talk instead of just sitting in the quiet silence of my apartment. Youtube doesn't do so much, or music, it's nice to chill and be able to chat, yknow? It helps with the loneliness and all.
So! https://www.twitch.tv/lucashoal
Dere ya go! I AM however, going to be streaming in about 2.5 hours (the time is currently 3:40/15:40 EST.) I'll be starting at 6pm/18:00 thereabouts. Tonight, will be Blood Bowl and more Fall Guys. I post a lot more on twitter about it though. So hit me up with one of those follows there as well if you wanna keep track.
Twitch follows are appreciated. And YOU are appreciated for reading this. Be safe, and be well out there. <3
Black Lives Matter
Posted 5 years agoDisagree, or gonna cry "b-but the LOOTERS are BREAKING STORES!!!" at me? Go on or just unwatch and block me, but speak up first so I know I shouldn't be following you. Kthx.
Black Lives Matter
Trans Lives Matter
Queer POC Lives Matter
Cops are Bastards, Firefighters are good and cool. Support your local post office.
If I missed something here I'm tired and running on not enough sleep because I've been watching everything going on and life is just so fucking tiring. (This isn't a cry for help, I just can't get proper sleep.)
Black Lives Matter
Trans Lives Matter
Queer POC Lives Matter
Cops are Bastards, Firefighters are good and cool. Support your local post office.
If I missed something here I'm tired and running on not enough sleep because I've been watching everything going on and life is just so fucking tiring. (This isn't a cry for help, I just can't get proper sleep.)
100k soon
Posted 5 years agoPageviews that is! Wow! That's impressive.
Also I'm one away from 2250 watchers here. That's also impressive.
I hope you're all doing ok and surviving. I never mentioned it here but I expanded on Anthrocon staff. At least before everything went to heck and all. But, I'm also now the PR person for the Gaming Dept, read, I'm the most online of our staff and thus I'm best equipped to help out with the other PR related staff who work out stuff for posting to the official AC twitter.
Also I'm one away from 2250 watchers here. That's also impressive.
I hope you're all doing ok and surviving. I never mentioned it here but I expanded on Anthrocon staff. At least before everything went to heck and all. But, I'm also now the PR person for the Gaming Dept, read, I'm the most online of our staff and thus I'm best equipped to help out with the other PR related staff who work out stuff for posting to the official AC twitter.
Birthday, the 33rd
Posted 5 years agoI'm 33 today! Aaa
My one year HRT anniversary is coming April 20th.
And tonight! I'm gonna go to a nerdcore show! And also getting my hair trimmed in a bit, and probably some new piercings!
My one year HRT anniversary is coming April 20th.
And tonight! I'm gonna go to a nerdcore show! And also getting my hair trimmed in a bit, and probably some new piercings!
Life, and Life
Posted 5 years agoHello it's been awhile! I post (and shitpost) far far more on twitter. Info is on my profile! Please follow me :D
But anyways! So. How yall been? I've been working and stuff. Same hospital. New people started, they're competent. One manager is retiring, she's being replaced by this one lady who'd normally be doing the 5am room service spot to do breakfast for patients most of the week. I'm in the running for taking it over. I've been there almost 5 years now, I can handle it. I'm the most qualified, and also senior-most person now on the line frequently.
...Holy heck I'm the senior-most person. Everyone else doing it has been there less than a year at this point. Goddamn.
What else... This is also good news! There's been development of things. HRT is continuing to do it's thing. I've been, tender in spots. Which means things are slowly working. I just wish it was going faster but WHATEVS body gotta play like that what can ya do. I'm at 9 months on HRT now! I've gone out as me several times! I wore a skirt all of AC save for the drive to and from!
And, I came out to my parents! And they were cool and accepting. Which is a huge relief. Now I just need to come out at work. And get to work on name change stuff. Not much else exciting comes to mind!
Thus also concludes me catching up on art! Aside from some comics I was part of.
Other than that it's been the usual. I've been moved out over a year now as well. It's quiet and relaxing and nice to have my own quiet space. And I've had friends come to visit. I just gotta clean my place at some point, but lazy. Like a real good clean. Last one was in, wanna say November. So I'm due to clean soon.
But anyways! So. How yall been? I've been working and stuff. Same hospital. New people started, they're competent. One manager is retiring, she's being replaced by this one lady who'd normally be doing the 5am room service spot to do breakfast for patients most of the week. I'm in the running for taking it over. I've been there almost 5 years now, I can handle it. I'm the most qualified, and also senior-most person now on the line frequently.
...Holy heck I'm the senior-most person. Everyone else doing it has been there less than a year at this point. Goddamn.
What else... This is also good news! There's been development of things. HRT is continuing to do it's thing. I've been, tender in spots. Which means things are slowly working. I just wish it was going faster but WHATEVS body gotta play like that what can ya do. I'm at 9 months on HRT now! I've gone out as me several times! I wore a skirt all of AC save for the drive to and from!
And, I came out to my parents! And they were cool and accepting. Which is a huge relief. Now I just need to come out at work. And get to work on name change stuff. Not much else exciting comes to mind!
Thus also concludes me catching up on art! Aside from some comics I was part of.
Other than that it's been the usual. I've been moved out over a year now as well. It's quiet and relaxing and nice to have my own quiet space. And I've had friends come to visit. I just gotta clean my place at some point, but lazy. Like a real good clean. Last one was in, wanna say November. So I'm due to clean soon.
Anthrocon 2019 mem
Posted 6 years agoWhat day are you getting there?
Wednesday July 3rd
Where are you staying?
Drury
How are you traveling?
3 hour drive from home, woo.
Who will you be rooming with?
techno. , 
bgypupfntm, 
babbyarts, and 
quirkykitty
How can I find you?
You can find me lucashoal on both telegram and twitter! Telegram is the fastest way. Or find me in the gaming rooms!
Are there any panels you might be attending?
I'll be hosting several! Dropmix and Fireball Island in the tabletop room. And year two of the Undertale AND NOW DeltaRune meet and photoshoot! And also the Pup Play panel & romp thing Saturday night.
Will you be suiting?
I have no suit!
What is your gender?
Trans Female
How tall are you?
6'
Are you taken?
Single
Can I talk to you?
Yee
Can I touch you?
Ask first but probably!
Can I buy you drinks?
No one has yet but yee.
Can I give you stuff?
HECK Yee
Can I hug or snuggle with you?
Again, ask!
Are you nice?
People seem to think so! I try to be good and chill.
How long are you going?
July 3 - 8
Will you be going to parties?
Maybe, intending to hang out with folk. But feel free to let me know.
If I see you, how should I get your attention?
Don't call me Lucario, and just ask for me.
Can I take your picture?
If you wanna I guess *shrug*
Can I come with you for food/fun/etc?
If I know you, again, just ask!
Can I look/draw in your sketchbook?
Yee
Do you do free art/trades?
I don't art! :D
What's your goal(s) for the con this year?
Doing con staff stuff primarily. And then relaxing otherwise when I can. Seeing folk I don't get to see, meeting folk I've known and have the chance to meet, etc.
Wednesday July 3rd
Where are you staying?
Drury
How are you traveling?
3 hour drive from home, woo.
Who will you be rooming with?
techno. , 
bgypupfntm, 
babbyarts, and 
quirkykittyHow can I find you?
You can find me lucashoal on both telegram and twitter! Telegram is the fastest way. Or find me in the gaming rooms!
Are there any panels you might be attending?
I'll be hosting several! Dropmix and Fireball Island in the tabletop room. And year two of the Undertale AND NOW DeltaRune meet and photoshoot! And also the Pup Play panel & romp thing Saturday night.
Will you be suiting?
I have no suit!
What is your gender?
Trans Female
How tall are you?
6'
Are you taken?
Single
Can I talk to you?
Yee
Can I touch you?
Ask first but probably!
Can I buy you drinks?
No one has yet but yee.
Can I give you stuff?
HECK Yee
Can I hug or snuggle with you?
Again, ask!
Are you nice?
People seem to think so! I try to be good and chill.
How long are you going?
July 3 - 8
Will you be going to parties?
Maybe, intending to hang out with folk. But feel free to let me know.
If I see you, how should I get your attention?
Don't call me Lucario, and just ask for me.
Can I take your picture?
If you wanna I guess *shrug*
Can I come with you for food/fun/etc?
If I know you, again, just ask!
Can I look/draw in your sketchbook?
Yee
Do you do free art/trades?
I don't art! :D
What's your goal(s) for the con this year?
Doing con staff stuff primarily. And then relaxing otherwise when I can. Seeing folk I don't get to see, meeting folk I've known and have the chance to meet, etc.
48 Hours Remain
Posted 6 years agoUntil E-Day. The day I get my cooties...
I have a date and time. I go back in in two days to sign my consent form to start transitioning. Thank you all for all the kind words and encouragement. <3
I have a date and time. I go back in in two days to sign my consent form to start transitioning. Thank you all for all the kind words and encouragement. <3
Trans Life Update, Round three
Posted 6 years agohttps://www.furaffinity.net/journal/9084316/ the continuing tale from here.
"Hi -Luca-,
I wanted to send you an update. I spoke with -other trans health nurse- today and updated her on your progress and we are good to go to start estrogen. The only thing we would need to do is have you complete the consent form, if you have no done that already. We usually give it at your first appointment in the packet.
Let me know if you have that or if we need to coordinate a time for you to come in.
If you don't have it already, lets make another appointment next week so we can go over it together in detail and we can get you started at that time on estrogen."
I was so frustrated after my appointment yesterday where she told me she needed to confer with the first CNP I spoke with. And then I saw I had a new message on my patient portal, and nervously looked at it...and it washed away in a pile of unbridled happiness. I'm a girl. A damn good girl. And now to start working on the slow magical girl transformation scene.
FUCK I'm so happy and excited and nervous and just, all the emotions.
"Hi -Luca-,
I wanted to send you an update. I spoke with -other trans health nurse- today and updated her on your progress and we are good to go to start estrogen. The only thing we would need to do is have you complete the consent form, if you have no done that already. We usually give it at your first appointment in the packet.
Let me know if you have that or if we need to coordinate a time for you to come in.
If you don't have it already, lets make another appointment next week so we can go over it together in detail and we can get you started at that time on estrogen."
I was so frustrated after my appointment yesterday where she told me she needed to confer with the first CNP I spoke with. And then I saw I had a new message on my patient portal, and nervously looked at it...and it washed away in a pile of unbridled happiness. I'm a girl. A damn good girl. And now to start working on the slow magical girl transformation scene.
FUCK I'm so happy and excited and nervous and just, all the emotions.
