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Posted 4 years agoI seem unable to upload anything through my Android phone. Anyone have any idea why?
Struggling a bit.... Commission potential....
Posted 5 years agoHey all. Been stressing a bit since I have under $50 to my name after a good portion of bills and buying food for the month. Though I worry about not making my internet payment as without that I have no access to anything and that is $70. So I tried making a Fiverr account for voice stuff, an Etsy to sell my bong creations and even an ad up on Craigslist -_-. So yeah.
Trying to do what I can to make money. Would people consider $5 sketches? Not only will it help financially for me, but will also help me (hopefully) improve my art. O almost never ask for help when struggling, but am trying to better myself and open myself up to new experiences good or bad as all become lessons to me which I can learn from.
I lost my job due to health reasons (thankfully not Covid but neck related) and attempting to apply for Unemployment, but the paperwork seems confusing to me. Should be getting assistance with that next week.
I am even looking into learning how to code through a book I got. I am seriously pushing so many boundaries here, and I hate asking for donations, and would rather earn the money in some way.
Hell, I'd even offer voice stuff cheaply also. I do a good Arnold Schwarzenegger, Kermit the frog, Duke Nukem, A cringey nerd and a good deep voice. I may put clips up later at some point.
Now that I have vented about my issues, how is everyone else doing so far?
Trying to do what I can to make money. Would people consider $5 sketches? Not only will it help financially for me, but will also help me (hopefully) improve my art. O almost never ask for help when struggling, but am trying to better myself and open myself up to new experiences good or bad as all become lessons to me which I can learn from.
I lost my job due to health reasons (thankfully not Covid but neck related) and attempting to apply for Unemployment, but the paperwork seems confusing to me. Should be getting assistance with that next week.
I am even looking into learning how to code through a book I got. I am seriously pushing so many boundaries here, and I hate asking for donations, and would rather earn the money in some way.
Hell, I'd even offer voice stuff cheaply also. I do a good Arnold Schwarzenegger, Kermit the frog, Duke Nukem, A cringey nerd and a good deep voice. I may put clips up later at some point.
Now that I have vented about my issues, how is everyone else doing so far?
Doctor update again - 2016-08-11
Posted 9 years agoWent to the doctors. No word 100% of what's going on until I see this OTHER doctor in 2 weeks or so. The doctor said I MIGHT have some arthritis on my neck. Whether that's due to the surgery I had a while ago or something else is unknown. And it appears there is some minor disk bulging probably. She's not an expert in looking at MRI's & Analyzing them.
It was interesting to see the images though. Got more pills, others I'm on I increase to higher doses. So yeah.
The day started early for me also. Somehow waking up around 6:50am, no alarm. Went to 99 cent store. Got some things as well as accidently a pack of spoiled green/blackish lunch meat that technically doesn't expire till the end of the month. -_-
Pain level is probably around a 4 or 5 & I'm feeling rather tired/drowsy. So chances are I'll be heading to sleep soon. Take care everyone & I hope all of you are well. Hang in there as you know I'll be doing the same. Thanks for reading & Talk to you all later.
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It was interesting to see the images though. Got more pills, others I'm on I increase to higher doses. So yeah.
The day started early for me also. Somehow waking up around 6:50am, no alarm. Went to 99 cent store. Got some things as well as accidently a pack of spoiled green/blackish lunch meat that technically doesn't expire till the end of the month. -_-
Pain level is probably around a 4 or 5 & I'm feeling rather tired/drowsy. So chances are I'll be heading to sleep soon. Take care everyone & I hope all of you are well. Hang in there as you know I'll be doing the same. Thanks for reading & Talk to you all later.
(b^_^)b
Update on neck head pain nonsense......
Posted 9 years agoI know I haven't been as active as I used to be on here, but as some may know, I've been dealing with a lot of health issues as of late. Way back in 2011, I had neck/cervical surgery on 3 or 4 vertebrae levels. Then, I've been dealing with migraine headaches & keeping up on making sure the Non cancerous tumor/cyst on my pituitart gland hasn't changed or caused any issues.
And more recently neck pain included with my migraines.
I just got off the phone with my mom. The doctor I see about my headaches & whatnot is on vacation, but her assistant mentioned I have some bulging discs or something in my neck. No word as to how many, but probably more than one.
I won't know more until the doctor gets back from vacation & I go see her. Just though all of you would want to know an update to my neck/head nonsense going on with me.
I'm not too worried or anything.
Take care everyone & have a good day. ^_^
And more recently neck pain included with my migraines.
I just got off the phone with my mom. The doctor I see about my headaches & whatnot is on vacation, but her assistant mentioned I have some bulging discs or something in my neck. No word as to how many, but probably more than one.
I won't know more until the doctor gets back from vacation & I go see her. Just though all of you would want to know an update to my neck/head nonsense going on with me.
I'm not too worried or anything.
Take care everyone & have a good day. ^_^
Monster GIrl Quest Music Pack I made.....
Posted 9 years agoI made a music pack for the game Monster Girl Quest. It's an H-Game where you play as Luka, a guy who wants to be a hero. Along the way he fights various Monster Girls on his way to the Monster Lord's Castle. Following him on his journey is the mysterious Snake Woman Alice.
I'm sure you can find info about the game by searching. Main point for me is to allow you all to download the music pack & see what you all think. Be sure to backup the BGM folder before overwriting files. I TRIED to add a backup folder, but am Unsure if I got all the original files.
https://mega.nz/#!fEoVlQAA!NOE8Ugig.....s5QHgfSeGoykOo
This just replaces ones that I modded, doesn't contain every BGM in the game (to cut down on filesize & whatnot)
There are various songs from Anime, Video Games & even 1 or 2 other visual novels. You may laugh oat some of the changes, or maybe they will allow you to be more absorbed into the game. I'd reccomend playing from the beginning again to get the full effect.
Hope you enjoy the pack & If you do like it, tell me.
I'm sure you can find info about the game by searching. Main point for me is to allow you all to download the music pack & see what you all think. Be sure to backup the BGM folder before overwriting files. I TRIED to add a backup folder, but am Unsure if I got all the original files.
https://mega.nz/#!fEoVlQAA!NOE8Ugig.....s5QHgfSeGoykOo
This just replaces ones that I modded, doesn't contain every BGM in the game (to cut down on filesize & whatnot)
There are various songs from Anime, Video Games & even 1 or 2 other visual novels. You may laugh oat some of the changes, or maybe they will allow you to be more absorbed into the game. I'd reccomend playing from the beginning again to get the full effect.
Hope you enjoy the pack & If you do like it, tell me.
Surgery update (3 days into 1 post)
Posted 10 years ago[[[[[[[[[[ THIS WAS TYPED JUNE 5TH]]]]]]]]]]
Just an update for all of you. As some may know, I had surgery on Wednesday. I thought was for 2 or 3 things but was for 4. They removed my tonsils, they fixed my deviated septum, they did some work on these bones inside the nose I think called turbinates or something? They called that procedure a turbinoplasty. an they i one other thing, I think in the throat area to make room.
I have shunts in my nose that I have to wait until Thursday to get removed. But I am doing well. As you all know, I am a fighter. Though the shock from the pain & whatnot made me cry uncontrollably while eating dinner tonight. I mean it seemed as though my boy felt like it was it's way of releasing pent up stuff it must have not been able to release, even though mentally as far as I could tell consciously I was okay.
I am hanging in there.
I am able to talk a bit, but I try to not much as it usually hurts my throat, but it's not impossible. So remember, texts are the best way to contact me rather than calling on the cell ok?
I had to stay overnight as my blood pressure was extremely high, perhaps due to in response of the pain.
I am grateful to all the staff at USC Keck Medical who watched over me & took care of me. As well as my parents as they are helping me during my recovery.
I am taking things slow & one day at a time. Making sure to listen to my body.
Take care & I hope all of you are doing well in your lives as well.
I will keep you updated as time goes on.
[[[[[[[[[[ THIS WAS TYPED JUNE 8TH]]]]]]]]]]
Each day is having it's up's & it's downs. I think that with after I get over this stuff with this surgery stuff (though already trying to do it while here with Mom) is to try and exercise more, even if it means walking more.
In the mornings when she takes one of the dogs for a walk, I've been going with her. I' say it's roughly 1.5-2 blocks of amount of space of walking. As those who know me I;m not a slow walker normally, but due to the effects the surgery has one on my stability, it makes me slow own a bit ue to not wanting to get lightheaded or anything.
So, I'm trying to do a bit more exercise. I am also thinking of talking with Chris' cousin George, who is a goo friend of mine & maybe we can help each other on our fitness goals that way as well.
So yeah, pretty much, I am going to try and use the surgery & it's opening my airways as a way to open myself up to be more in tune with getting more fitness inclined basically.
I am more than happy to accept help and advice from anyone here if you have any ideas or whatnot, things to look out for, things that may be better over other things, etc etc.
I need to get WAY below the around 289 I was the last time the doctors weighed me & lose a lot of the boy fat on me. It's not healthy. Anyways, take care, & I hope all of you are well. I am grateful to be in each & everyone of your lives & to have you as family & friends, so don't ever forget that. I felt the need to say that & show my appreciation. Probably in part due to the stress caused by the pain & junk I am dealing with affecting me perhaps subconsciously or something.
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Just know I am getting past the pain an the stuff of the surgery just fine. I'll get past this like I did the other surgery I had. Even though at times, this feels a tad worse. Odd huh? Take care all.
[[[[[[[[[[ THIS WAS TYPED JUNE 9TH]]]]]]]]]]
Earlier today,A friend was able to come over who is one who I think will be able to help me in my goal of exercising & whatnot as well as being there for emotional support if I need it & not be judgmental or anything like how other might be in public.
As I am sure some people might see someone exercising & be like "They aren't trying hard enough, no wonder they're fat." or other thoughts. But my friend George, he came over to see how I was doing & we went to the park & were able to o a bunch of warmup exercises & stretches to show me ways to perhaps improve ways on mow to move my boy & whatnot so I can have less wear & tear & then we walked a couple laps around the park, After, we went to Ralphs, got some soup (I got broccoli with cheddar & had half, he got chicken noodle & we watched some of the Anime Hellsing & then we called it a night.
PS3 Destiny Queen's Wrath + more.....
Posted 11 years agoLooking for help doing Queen's Wrath stuff for PS3 Destiny based stufff before the Event ends. Stuck in Black Garden right now soloing. Need some backup.
PSN: Megamanrulesall
We can do more Destiny stuff in the future as well obviously. Thanks in advance.
PSN: Megamanrulesall
We can do more Destiny stuff in the future as well obviously. Thanks in advance.
Jakebluepaw is looking for people......
Posted 11 years agoto be in art commission for his bunny character who is named Candy, as can be seen in this image here:
http://www.furaffinity.net/view/14614960/
If all goes well it could be a monthly thing he would be willing to do. This month, the artist will be: http://www.furaffinity.net/user/keishinkae/
To read the requirements or to send the link to the journal you create & a reference link of your character, go to the link below to be entered into the drawing.
http://www.furaffinity.net/journal/6167941/
http://www.furaffinity.net/view/14614960/
If all goes well it could be a monthly thing he would be willing to do. This month, the artist will be: http://www.furaffinity.net/user/keishinkae/
To read the requirements or to send the link to the journal you create & a reference link of your character, go to the link below to be entered into the drawing.
http://www.furaffinity.net/journal/6167941/
Artists who went to AX2014...(AX2014 report)
Posted 11 years agoWasn't Anime Expo 2014 pretty awesome? If any of you were in the Artist's Alley & heard/saw some guy with glasses going down the Artist Alley Area on Day 1-3, that was me. I was the one oing this deep booming dramatic/Heroic voice, as well as swithing it up from time to time with an Arnold Schwarzenegger impression voice to mix things up to make as many as I could smile & laugh.
I think I succeeded at a super high percentage based on the reactions. A few mentioned I should have gone to the voice acting booth, but each time, the llines were way too long. Someone random with a camera asked to record me and asked me to say random things for them. I don't remember the lines I said, but it made them happy.
Also, I got my copy of Megaman X for the Super Nintendo signed by Keiji Inafune, Creator of the Megaman/Rockman series, as well as Mighty No. 9.
Also, the Sailor Moon Crystal panel was awesome. On my way out, I found a Nintendo 3DS. No one was anywhere near it (talking the entire isle, as well as a good 4-6 isles behind & in front of me. I took it straight to the Lost & Found, asked if I could write a note. I told them where I found it & even put my Cell , in case they wished to say thanks. No calls back I am afraid.
All in all, I had a awesome time.
I think I succeeded at a super high percentage based on the reactions. A few mentioned I should have gone to the voice acting booth, but each time, the llines were way too long. Someone random with a camera asked to record me and asked me to say random things for them. I don't remember the lines I said, but it made them happy.
Also, I got my copy of Megaman X for the Super Nintendo signed by Keiji Inafune, Creator of the Megaman/Rockman series, as well as Mighty No. 9.
Also, the Sailor Moon Crystal panel was awesome. On my way out, I found a Nintendo 3DS. No one was anywhere near it (talking the entire isle, as well as a good 4-6 isles behind & in front of me. I took it straight to the Lost & Found, asked if I could write a note. I told them where I found it & even put my Cell , in case they wished to say thanks. No calls back I am afraid.
All in all, I had a awesome time.
Something cool I found + first OBE
Posted 11 years agoSomething pretty cool I found. The music is good as is the imagery. Pretty awesome and perhaps moving as well. Makes you think about the potential we have for good.
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=15pOr1E6hvc
Recently I've been on a type of journey of trying to reawaken myself on a like, higher consciousness or something. Looking again into things liike metaphysics, meditation, higher consciousness and other similar categories. It's how I found this video. I've noticed some positive changes in my life since I've started this type of journey of learning again as of perhaps a good couple to 3 weeks or so, trying to put into practice the things I actually heard and watched.
I even am sure I had my first Out of Body experience through meditation when I was in the shower.
It was late one night about a week ago on a night before work & I was sitting in the tub, allowing the water to rain down upon me, doing my breathing exercises to relax myself to a point where my mind was still conscious but my body was in a state of deep sleep or perhaps an extremely relaxed state, where if you could, you could stay like this and feel refreshed in perhaps a couple of hours or so if in this state.
A few moments later, I suddenly found myself standing outside of my body in the shower looking down at my body. I was barely able to feel the water hitting my skin on my physical body, yet I could see through this "other self" at my physical form. It only lasted for a couple of seconds. Granted, since I've never had such an experience before, it came as one heck of a shock to me and that shock jolted me out of that mental state and I ended up back inside my body. It was definitely an interesting experience though. The power of the mind and force of will can allow you to do some pretty amazing things.
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=15pOr1E6hvc
Recently I've been on a type of journey of trying to reawaken myself on a like, higher consciousness or something. Looking again into things liike metaphysics, meditation, higher consciousness and other similar categories. It's how I found this video. I've noticed some positive changes in my life since I've started this type of journey of learning again as of perhaps a good couple to 3 weeks or so, trying to put into practice the things I actually heard and watched.
I even am sure I had my first Out of Body experience through meditation when I was in the shower.
It was late one night about a week ago on a night before work & I was sitting in the tub, allowing the water to rain down upon me, doing my breathing exercises to relax myself to a point where my mind was still conscious but my body was in a state of deep sleep or perhaps an extremely relaxed state, where if you could, you could stay like this and feel refreshed in perhaps a couple of hours or so if in this state.
A few moments later, I suddenly found myself standing outside of my body in the shower looking down at my body. I was barely able to feel the water hitting my skin on my physical body, yet I could see through this "other self" at my physical form. It only lasted for a couple of seconds. Granted, since I've never had such an experience before, it came as one heck of a shock to me and that shock jolted me out of that mental state and I ended up back inside my body. It was definitely an interesting experience though. The power of the mind and force of will can allow you to do some pretty amazing things.
Post for FurSupport Welcome Center & Sympathetic Ears......
Posted 11 years agoThis is for an intro for others for the :iconFurSupport page. A place for people to go if they need assistance in a variety of things.
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Hello to all. My name is Willy. I am a 29 year old male. I am going to go in my own life story a bit so others know the things I have had to endure in my life so that maybe I can be of help to others. First of, I will say that I consider each day I am alive to be a good thing because when I was born, I was born almost 2 months premature at a weight of about 3lbs. I had a twin that died. I myself nearly died as well due to a lack of oxygen to my brain. I was in an incubator for a while.
At the age of 2, I was removed from my biological parents home due to a spiral fracture of one of my arms. At age 2-6, I was placed in a foster home. I remember getting my hair pulled a lot.
At age 6, I was adopted by the parents I have now. I was lucky to get the parents I did as they were 2md in line for wanting to adopt me. I got to choose my name & everything & I even remember the area of where the courthouse we went to was when my friends & i pass it from time to time.
Most of my school life was rather torturous due to always getting teased for being different. It seems from Kindergarten through High school I was always teased. I remember a lot of times I would come home crying because of it. For me, fighting wasn't my thing as I tried once or twice. One time, pretty much the teacher only saw me so I got in trouble, the other, I'd rarely even land a hit. Almost all of it was verbal & name calling. The stuff about words not hurting is a bunch of BS.
But the doctors first thought I had ADHD/ADD, stuff like that.
Around Jr high was when my motor tics would flare up whih would make me look like I was trying to twist or jerk my had off my neck. That added to my teasing.
Eventually the doctors found meds to help with the tics from happening & I learned to try & conceal the ones that would still happen in a way of stretching or something. eventually the doctors re-diagnosed me with having Aspergers Syndrome with some Tourettes (motor tics).
I eventually got to the point where I no longer got upset by the teasing & name calling, as though I learned how pointless it was to get upset & allow myself to feel those negative emotions. Granted I at times feel blank when it comes to negative emotions & would catch myself mirroring negative emotions of others around me.
March 2005 a bit after finding out about the fur community & whatnot, there had been a fire at my house. We lost 5 cats due to the smoke, & the kitchen was gutted. It could have been worse as my dad could have taken his meds to take a nap & I still asleep & my mom at work. It just so happened that I had a routine teeth cleaning at the dentist & my dad took me. The shock & stress of it all caused my dads internal defibrillator to shock him. The shock my mom endured was having to see the cats who had died, all on the grass.
I remember for a few years after having to counsel & console her about the incident. She thought she was at fault due to unplugging something from the socket that shorted out, but it was the new microwave we got.
I helped them through that ordeal. There were other times where my mom came to me for advice. I remember her saying afterwards that she felt as though I have some type of wisdom that goes beyond my age, as though I have an "Old Soul" or something. Also, most of my friends seem to come to me for advice & even for reason I dont understand, call me the "Ultimate Counselor" of the group or mediator or something.
I many times in my life try to be random to get people to laugh or smile. Recently, back in November 2011, I had neck spine surgery to fix 3 vertebrae levels of where my spinal cord was getting compressed to paralysis risk levels. Imagine trying to shoot lightning from your ad]rn]ms out your hand but nothing comes out. Imagine after, you shoved both hands into bucket of thumbtacks & enduring that pain for a few hours.
After the surgery, I then developed bad migraine headaches which I deal with to this day. I tell people, imagine a long screwdriver being shoved into the back side of your neck & the tip is pushing your eyeball forward. After, someone is tapping that screwdriver with a hammer & the pain radiating through your entire head.
I llve on my own in a studio apartment. I try to have it be a type of safe Haven of sorts for my friens. If they need a break from problems with school/work/parents/etc, I try to have my place be a safe haven for people to come and be able to have fun & relax. I also forgot to mention that I never have done drugs or alcohiol but am not prejudiced against those who do/have. Live & let live is how I am. It is the persons life to do with as they wish. My only request for people who I have over is, treat me with respect & I'll do the same. Treat my stuff with respect & respect the rules if I say something. I'm mostly a pretty relaxed laid back guy. Race, religion, gender, sexuality, none of that matters to me & seems to at times cause issues, so why bother with it all?
I tell people the one thing that keeps me going and did was trying to have a positive attitude in life, as well as the thought of knowing that if you are alive, you have the inner strength to overcome a great many adversities you may face in your life & that they WILL eventually get better. It may take time, it may take years, it may take accepting help from others even if maybe you may feel like you wish to do things on your own.
Knowing when to ask for help is important. Just know, that no matter what you are enuring in life, you have the strength inside to push past it & overcome it & conquer it. Or, if not conquer it, you could say reach a point of understanding of knowing yourself well enough when to fight & when to rest & when to ask for help.
So please, do not be hesitant to ask for help from others if you feel you need help, or feel at a loss & don't know what to do. All I ask is that you do NOT turn to suicide as it is a PERMANENT ACTION TO A (more then likely) TEMPORARY PROBLEM!
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Hello to all. My name is Willy. I am a 29 year old male. I am going to go in my own life story a bit so others know the things I have had to endure in my life so that maybe I can be of help to others. First of, I will say that I consider each day I am alive to be a good thing because when I was born, I was born almost 2 months premature at a weight of about 3lbs. I had a twin that died. I myself nearly died as well due to a lack of oxygen to my brain. I was in an incubator for a while.
At the age of 2, I was removed from my biological parents home due to a spiral fracture of one of my arms. At age 2-6, I was placed in a foster home. I remember getting my hair pulled a lot.
At age 6, I was adopted by the parents I have now. I was lucky to get the parents I did as they were 2md in line for wanting to adopt me. I got to choose my name & everything & I even remember the area of where the courthouse we went to was when my friends & i pass it from time to time.
Most of my school life was rather torturous due to always getting teased for being different. It seems from Kindergarten through High school I was always teased. I remember a lot of times I would come home crying because of it. For me, fighting wasn't my thing as I tried once or twice. One time, pretty much the teacher only saw me so I got in trouble, the other, I'd rarely even land a hit. Almost all of it was verbal & name calling. The stuff about words not hurting is a bunch of BS.
But the doctors first thought I had ADHD/ADD, stuff like that.
Around Jr high was when my motor tics would flare up whih would make me look like I was trying to twist or jerk my had off my neck. That added to my teasing.
Eventually the doctors found meds to help with the tics from happening & I learned to try & conceal the ones that would still happen in a way of stretching or something. eventually the doctors re-diagnosed me with having Aspergers Syndrome with some Tourettes (motor tics).
I eventually got to the point where I no longer got upset by the teasing & name calling, as though I learned how pointless it was to get upset & allow myself to feel those negative emotions. Granted I at times feel blank when it comes to negative emotions & would catch myself mirroring negative emotions of others around me.
March 2005 a bit after finding out about the fur community & whatnot, there had been a fire at my house. We lost 5 cats due to the smoke, & the kitchen was gutted. It could have been worse as my dad could have taken his meds to take a nap & I still asleep & my mom at work. It just so happened that I had a routine teeth cleaning at the dentist & my dad took me. The shock & stress of it all caused my dads internal defibrillator to shock him. The shock my mom endured was having to see the cats who had died, all on the grass.
I remember for a few years after having to counsel & console her about the incident. She thought she was at fault due to unplugging something from the socket that shorted out, but it was the new microwave we got.
I helped them through that ordeal. There were other times where my mom came to me for advice. I remember her saying afterwards that she felt as though I have some type of wisdom that goes beyond my age, as though I have an "Old Soul" or something. Also, most of my friends seem to come to me for advice & even for reason I dont understand, call me the "Ultimate Counselor" of the group or mediator or something.
I many times in my life try to be random to get people to laugh or smile. Recently, back in November 2011, I had neck spine surgery to fix 3 vertebrae levels of where my spinal cord was getting compressed to paralysis risk levels. Imagine trying to shoot lightning from your ad]rn]ms out your hand but nothing comes out. Imagine after, you shoved both hands into bucket of thumbtacks & enduring that pain for a few hours.
After the surgery, I then developed bad migraine headaches which I deal with to this day. I tell people, imagine a long screwdriver being shoved into the back side of your neck & the tip is pushing your eyeball forward. After, someone is tapping that screwdriver with a hammer & the pain radiating through your entire head.
I llve on my own in a studio apartment. I try to have it be a type of safe Haven of sorts for my friens. If they need a break from problems with school/work/parents/etc, I try to have my place be a safe haven for people to come and be able to have fun & relax. I also forgot to mention that I never have done drugs or alcohiol but am not prejudiced against those who do/have. Live & let live is how I am. It is the persons life to do with as they wish. My only request for people who I have over is, treat me with respect & I'll do the same. Treat my stuff with respect & respect the rules if I say something. I'm mostly a pretty relaxed laid back guy. Race, religion, gender, sexuality, none of that matters to me & seems to at times cause issues, so why bother with it all?
I tell people the one thing that keeps me going and did was trying to have a positive attitude in life, as well as the thought of knowing that if you are alive, you have the inner strength to overcome a great many adversities you may face in your life & that they WILL eventually get better. It may take time, it may take years, it may take accepting help from others even if maybe you may feel like you wish to do things on your own.
Knowing when to ask for help is important. Just know, that no matter what you are enuring in life, you have the strength inside to push past it & overcome it & conquer it. Or, if not conquer it, you could say reach a point of understanding of knowing yourself well enough when to fight & when to rest & when to ask for help.
So please, do not be hesitant to ask for help from others if you feel you need help, or feel at a loss & don't know what to do. All I ask is that you do NOT turn to suicide as it is a PERMANENT ACTION TO A (more then likely) TEMPORARY PROBLEM!
Haven't been on in a while.....
Posted 12 years agoI haven't been on here in quite some time. Mainly trying to balance work & the stuff with my neck out.
As of the past couple of weeks, it seems as though I have been having more flareups.
I told a friend of mine about it, and his brother had similar things (not neck surgery but same type of pains). His brother's case was far worse due to hemorrhaging in the brain due to a grapefruit sized tumor on his pituitary gland.
Any who, his dad called me and talked with me, letting me know to stay on top of all this and keep him updated.
I may not have updated people, but they did a MRI of my brain back in November or December and found a cyst within a benign tumor on my pituitary gland. It wasn't affecting hormone related things which was a plus & they said they'd do a scan later to see if it has grown or changed at all. I think I get the next scan in August if memory serves correctly, maybe July.
All I know is that I get the feeling that peeople with weaker willpower then I have might have done stupid things to try and get rid of the pain. It is a pain I would not want others to have to endure.
Imagine someone shoving a big spike from the back of your head near the base of your skull through to the back of one of your eyes. Thenn imagine eevery second someone tapping a hammer on that spike. It is a pain that can't quite be placed. It seems almost like the base of the skiull near the neck but at times inside the brain or the entire head. Reallly hard to describe.
Part of me wonders if I should see about talking to the neurosurgeon and see about that thing getting removed due to the talk I had with my friends dad.
Any who, just thought I would update you all. Sorry for not being around or talking as I may normally have. This crao kinda has had some interference in the normalcy of how I usually am.
As of the past couple of weeks, it seems as though I have been having more flareups.
I told a friend of mine about it, and his brother had similar things (not neck surgery but same type of pains). His brother's case was far worse due to hemorrhaging in the brain due to a grapefruit sized tumor on his pituitary gland.
Any who, his dad called me and talked with me, letting me know to stay on top of all this and keep him updated.
I may not have updated people, but they did a MRI of my brain back in November or December and found a cyst within a benign tumor on my pituitary gland. It wasn't affecting hormone related things which was a plus & they said they'd do a scan later to see if it has grown or changed at all. I think I get the next scan in August if memory serves correctly, maybe July.
All I know is that I get the feeling that peeople with weaker willpower then I have might have done stupid things to try and get rid of the pain. It is a pain I would not want others to have to endure.
Imagine someone shoving a big spike from the back of your head near the base of your skull through to the back of one of your eyes. Thenn imagine eevery second someone tapping a hammer on that spike. It is a pain that can't quite be placed. It seems almost like the base of the skiull near the neck but at times inside the brain or the entire head. Reallly hard to describe.
Part of me wonders if I should see about talking to the neurosurgeon and see about that thing getting removed due to the talk I had with my friends dad.
Any who, just thought I would update you all. Sorry for not being around or talking as I may normally have. This crao kinda has had some interference in the normalcy of how I usually am.
Update on neck/head related stuff.....
Posted 13 years agoFor those of you interested, I have not been on in a while. I have been busy going to the doctors, Physical and occupational therapy meetings, etc.
As many know, I had neck surgery last year due to compression of the spinal cord. That surgery fixed stuff. THough it seems that now later, it has allowed other things I may have had before, to flare up worse then before. Pains like someone stabbing you in the back of the head where the neck meets your skull and that screwdriver is stabbing and pushing the back of your eye, making it feel all swollen like.
I am on meds that seem to do nothing and may even be responsible for my body feeling even less sensory input then normal. One such example is rubbing my eye. I feel the eye lid barely but cant feel the eye, so I worry about doing too much pressure. Also imagine your whole body like, buzzing and itching in areas and now matter how hard you try, the scratching of the area, does nothing.
So, that is what is going on so far. No end yet in sight for the neck/head pain stuff. And the added aspect of the numb dead feeling of non tingly feelings is annoying.
Anywho, take care all and I hope you all had a good day of stuffing your face in the company of friends or family.
As many know, I had neck surgery last year due to compression of the spinal cord. That surgery fixed stuff. THough it seems that now later, it has allowed other things I may have had before, to flare up worse then before. Pains like someone stabbing you in the back of the head where the neck meets your skull and that screwdriver is stabbing and pushing the back of your eye, making it feel all swollen like.
I am on meds that seem to do nothing and may even be responsible for my body feeling even less sensory input then normal. One such example is rubbing my eye. I feel the eye lid barely but cant feel the eye, so I worry about doing too much pressure. Also imagine your whole body like, buzzing and itching in areas and now matter how hard you try, the scratching of the area, does nothing.
So, that is what is going on so far. No end yet in sight for the neck/head pain stuff. And the added aspect of the numb dead feeling of non tingly feelings is annoying.
Anywho, take care all and I hope you all had a good day of stuffing your face in the company of friends or family.
Yes/No meme copied from someone somwhere here....
Posted 13 years ago1. You can ONLY answer Yes or No .
2. You are NOT ALLOWED to explain ANYTHING unless someone messages/comments you and asks. And believe me, the temptation to explain some of these will be overwhelming... things are not exactly as they seem.
3. It is harder than it looks, but NO explanations !!! You will want to... but don't!!!
Kissed any one of your Facebook friends? --- NO
Been arrested? --- YES
Kissed someone you didn't like? ---NO
Slept in until 5 PM? --- YES
Fallen asleep at work/school? ---YES
Ran a red light? --- NO
Been suspended from school? ---YES
Experienced love at first sight? --- NO
Totalled your car in an accident? ---Oo
Been fired from a job? --- YES
Fired somebody? --- NO
Sang karaoke? ---YES
Pointed a gun at someone? --- NO
Done something you told yourself you wouldn't? ---NO
Laughed until something you were drinking came out your nose? --- NO
Caught a snowflake on your tongue? --- YES
Kissed in the rain? --- NO
Had a close brush with death --- YES
Seen someone die? ---NO
Played spin-the-bottle? ---NO
Sang in the shower? --- NO
Smoked a cigar? ---NO
Sat on a rooftop? --- NO
Taken pictures of yourself naked? ---YES *Blushes* >_<
Been pushed into a pool with all your clothes? --- NO
Skipped school? ---NO
Eaten a bug? -- NO
Sleepwalked? --NO
Walked a moonlit beach? ---I THINK SO, CAN'T REMEMBER
Ridden a motorcycle? ---NO
Dumped someone? --- NO
Forgotten your anniversary? --- NO
Lied to avoid a ticket? ---NO
Ridden on a helicopter? ---YES
Shaved your head? --- NO
Blacked out from drinking? ---NO
Played a prank on someone? --- I DON'T BELIEVE SO
Hit a home run? --- YES
Felt like killing someone? ---NO
Cross-dressed? --- NO
Been falling-down drunk? --- NO
Made your girlfriend/boyfriend cry? ---NO
Eaten snake? --- NO
Marched/Protested? --- YES
Had Mexican jumping beans for pets? --- NO
Puked on amusement ride? ---NO
Seriously & intentionally boycotted something? ---NO
Been in a band? --- NO
Knitted? ---NO
Been on TV? ---NO
Shot a gun? ---YES (b^o^)b
Skinny-dipped? --- NO
Caused someone to need stitches? --- NO
Ridden a surfboard? ---NO
Drank straight from a liquor bottle? --- NO
Had surgery? --- YES
Streaked? --- NO
Taken by ambulance to hospital? --- NO
Passed out when not drinking? --- NO
Peed on a bush? --- NO
Donated Blood? ---NO
Grabbed electric fence? ---NO
Eaten alligator meat? ---NO
Eaten cheesecake? ---YES
Eaten kids' Halloween candy? ---NO
Killed an animal when not hunting? --- NO
Peed your pants in public? ---NO
Written graffiti? --- NO
Still love someone you shouldn't? --- NO
Think about the future? --- YES & NO
Been in handcuffs? --- YES -_-
Believe in love? ---NO
Sleep on a certain side of the bed? ---Yes
Ask me questions about the responses or if you want to ask anything not on these as many as you want!!!!
*in my good Arnold impersonation voice* "Come on, do it now! What are you waiting for, I'm right here!"
XD
2. You are NOT ALLOWED to explain ANYTHING unless someone messages/comments you and asks. And believe me, the temptation to explain some of these will be overwhelming... things are not exactly as they seem.
3. It is harder than it looks, but NO explanations !!! You will want to... but don't!!!
Kissed any one of your Facebook friends? --- NO
Been arrested? --- YES
Kissed someone you didn't like? ---NO
Slept in until 5 PM? --- YES
Fallen asleep at work/school? ---YES
Ran a red light? --- NO
Been suspended from school? ---YES
Experienced love at first sight? --- NO
Totalled your car in an accident? ---Oo
Been fired from a job? --- YES
Fired somebody? --- NO
Sang karaoke? ---YES
Pointed a gun at someone? --- NO
Done something you told yourself you wouldn't? ---NO
Laughed until something you were drinking came out your nose? --- NO
Caught a snowflake on your tongue? --- YES
Kissed in the rain? --- NO
Had a close brush with death --- YES
Seen someone die? ---NO
Played spin-the-bottle? ---NO
Sang in the shower? --- NO
Smoked a cigar? ---NO
Sat on a rooftop? --- NO
Taken pictures of yourself naked? ---YES *Blushes* >_<
Been pushed into a pool with all your clothes? --- NO
Skipped school? ---NO
Eaten a bug? -- NO
Sleepwalked? --NO
Walked a moonlit beach? ---I THINK SO, CAN'T REMEMBER
Ridden a motorcycle? ---NO
Dumped someone? --- NO
Forgotten your anniversary? --- NO
Lied to avoid a ticket? ---NO
Ridden on a helicopter? ---YES
Shaved your head? --- NO
Blacked out from drinking? ---NO
Played a prank on someone? --- I DON'T BELIEVE SO
Hit a home run? --- YES
Felt like killing someone? ---NO
Cross-dressed? --- NO
Been falling-down drunk? --- NO
Made your girlfriend/boyfriend cry? ---NO
Eaten snake? --- NO
Marched/Protested? --- YES
Had Mexican jumping beans for pets? --- NO
Puked on amusement ride? ---NO
Seriously & intentionally boycotted something? ---NO
Been in a band? --- NO
Knitted? ---NO
Been on TV? ---NO
Shot a gun? ---YES (b^o^)b
Skinny-dipped? --- NO
Caused someone to need stitches? --- NO
Ridden a surfboard? ---NO
Drank straight from a liquor bottle? --- NO
Had surgery? --- YES
Streaked? --- NO
Taken by ambulance to hospital? --- NO
Passed out when not drinking? --- NO
Peed on a bush? --- NO
Donated Blood? ---NO
Grabbed electric fence? ---NO
Eaten alligator meat? ---NO
Eaten cheesecake? ---YES
Eaten kids' Halloween candy? ---NO
Killed an animal when not hunting? --- NO
Peed your pants in public? ---NO
Written graffiti? --- NO
Still love someone you shouldn't? --- NO
Think about the future? --- YES & NO
Been in handcuffs? --- YES -_-
Believe in love? ---NO
Sleep on a certain side of the bed? ---Yes
Ask me questions about the responses or if you want to ask anything not on these as many as you want!!!!
*in my good Arnold impersonation voice* "Come on, do it now! What are you waiting for, I'm right here!"
XD
PSP Memory Card experiment Complete........
Posted 13 years agoFor those of you who knew that I was seeing if by getting two 32GB MicroSD Cards + a Dual Slot MS Pro Duo Adapter that has two slots to see if the PSP can support a 64GB card, I can tell you that 32GB is the size limit for a memory stick for the PSP.
So, don't spend extra money thinking you can do a 64GB card. But, at least I have 2 32GB Cards for my PSP for games & Music.
Anywho, hope this helps those of you with PSP's and curious as to the max card size you can use. ^_^
So, don't spend extra money thinking you can do a 64GB card. But, at least I have 2 32GB Cards for my PSP for games & Music.
Anywho, hope this helps those of you with PSP's and curious as to the max card size you can use. ^_^
Something about this song. Not sure what emotion.....
Posted 13 years agois correct for how or what this song makes me feel. Then again me and knowing emotions has always been pretty crazy what with trying to identify emotions and whatnot due to how I am.
I've said it before but combined with emotional blankness combined with blankness due to lack of tactile input all over, at times I feel as though I am almost like a ghost, simply floating through life perhaps not affecting that much even if I really am.
Does any of that make sense?
Anywho, here is the song. What does it make you all feel?
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=hY3c77lHsGE
Makes me think of something similar from Nier maybe. I could be wrong. I need to get back to that game. Haven't made any progress yet. >_<
I've said it before but combined with emotional blankness combined with blankness due to lack of tactile input all over, at times I feel as though I am almost like a ghost, simply floating through life perhaps not affecting that much even if I really am.
Does any of that make sense?
Anywho, here is the song. What does it make you all feel?
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=hY3c77lHsGE
Makes me think of something similar from Nier maybe. I could be wrong. I need to get back to that game. Haven't made any progress yet. >_<
Update on sinus infection junk + quotes I found neat...
Posted 13 years agoI went back to Urgent Care today (Wednesday) as it seems the Amoxicillin was proving to be making my stomach really freaking upset to point of near vomiting. So they took me off that, prescribed something else as well as changing the stuff I was taking for the couhing. The Steriod type stuff.
Also was dealing with a type of full body muscle fatigue to like where my body felt unsure of it's ability to do things. KInda like sometimes feeling a bit "Wobbly" and weak in say, legs if standing and walking even a few feet, or the arms. Usually, say one hand is all I would require to properly carry a bowl of soup, but I had to use both hands to make sure not to drop it. >_<
I also got a doctors note saying for me to not go back to work until Monday if I feel good to go. So at least I have the rest of the week and the weekend to get myself better. Just have to wake up early to make the call tommorow as well as take the pills.
So, yeah. My heads like heck due to my neck from the coughing. Gonna eat something here and maybe relax by playing this one game to take my mind off of the neck and other crap.
I hate being sick.
Anywho, there's the update. Got some bananas for fruit, some more chicken noddle soup. Some Sprite so if Water starts getting my mouth all whatever, I can switch. Some bread and cheese to have on the bread with the soup.
So yeah.
Take care everyone.
Also, to my friends who usually try to hang out every so often, this means that nothing is happening this weekend for me.
===========================
EDIT: Adding something else because my body/brain won;t allow me to sleep yet. >_<
Interesting quotes I found while looking for random wallpapers.
[[[Quote 1]]]]
"Do not believe in anything because you have heard it. Do not believe in anything simply because it is spoken and rumored by many. Do not believe in anything simply because it is found written in your religious books. Do not believe in traditions because they have been handed down for many generations. But after observation and analysis, when you find that anything agrees with reason and is conducive to the good and benefit of one and all, then accept it and live up to it."
[[[Quote 2]]]
Doesn't matter what the press says.
Doesn't matter what the Politicians or the mobs say.
Doesn't matter if the whole country decided that something wrong is something right.
This Nation was founded on one principle above all else.
The Requirement that we stand up for what we believe
No matter the odds or the consequences
When the mob and the press and the whole world tell you to move
Your job is to plant yourself like a tree beside the River of Truth
and tell the whole world
"NO, YOU MOVE."
[[[Quote 3]]]
"Problems cannot be solved by the same level of thinking that created them."
[[[Quote 4]]]
"You may be one person in this world, but to one person, you mean the world."
[[[Quote 5]]]
"You talk to God, you're Religious. God talks to you, you're Psychotic."
[[[Quote 6]]]
"You have enemies? Good. That means you've stood up for something, sometime in your life."
[[[Quote 7]]]
"You might as well be dead. Seriously, if you always put limits on what you can do, physically or anything else, it'll spread over into the rest of your life. It'll spread into your work, into your morality, into your entire being. There are no limits. There are plateaus, but you must not stay there, you must go beyond them. If it kills you, it kills you. A man must constantly exceed his level. ~Bruce Lee
[[[Quote 8]]]
It is better to keep quite and be thought of as an idiot than to open ones mouth and prove it.
[[[Quote 9]]]
You shouldn't have to sacrifice who you are just because someone else has a problem with it.
[[[Quote 10]]]
Don't be irreplaceable. If you can't be replaced, you can't be promoted.
<>I assume this has something to say about work related things?"<>
[[[Quote 11]]]
A good one if you ask me
Go to Work. Get Married.
Have some kids. Pay your taxes.
Pay your bills. Watch your TV.
Follow Fashion. Act Normal.
Obey the law.
and repeat after me:
I AM FREE
<>Think about that one for a bit, won't you?<>
[[[Quote 12]]]
Don't tell me the sky is the limit
when there are footprints on the moon.
And last but not least for now anyways. One that may make the rest go a bit in perspective for you all.
"You aren't smart when you use quotes, but only when you understand them."
Anywho, that is all. Take care everyone.
Also was dealing with a type of full body muscle fatigue to like where my body felt unsure of it's ability to do things. KInda like sometimes feeling a bit "Wobbly" and weak in say, legs if standing and walking even a few feet, or the arms. Usually, say one hand is all I would require to properly carry a bowl of soup, but I had to use both hands to make sure not to drop it. >_<
I also got a doctors note saying for me to not go back to work until Monday if I feel good to go. So at least I have the rest of the week and the weekend to get myself better. Just have to wake up early to make the call tommorow as well as take the pills.
So, yeah. My heads like heck due to my neck from the coughing. Gonna eat something here and maybe relax by playing this one game to take my mind off of the neck and other crap.
I hate being sick.
Anywho, there's the update. Got some bananas for fruit, some more chicken noddle soup. Some Sprite so if Water starts getting my mouth all whatever, I can switch. Some bread and cheese to have on the bread with the soup.
So yeah.
Take care everyone.
Also, to my friends who usually try to hang out every so often, this means that nothing is happening this weekend for me.
===========================
EDIT: Adding something else because my body/brain won;t allow me to sleep yet. >_<
Interesting quotes I found while looking for random wallpapers.
[[[Quote 1]]]]
"Do not believe in anything because you have heard it. Do not believe in anything simply because it is spoken and rumored by many. Do not believe in anything simply because it is found written in your religious books. Do not believe in traditions because they have been handed down for many generations. But after observation and analysis, when you find that anything agrees with reason and is conducive to the good and benefit of one and all, then accept it and live up to it."
[[[Quote 2]]]
Doesn't matter what the press says.
Doesn't matter what the Politicians or the mobs say.
Doesn't matter if the whole country decided that something wrong is something right.
This Nation was founded on one principle above all else.
The Requirement that we stand up for what we believe
No matter the odds or the consequences
When the mob and the press and the whole world tell you to move
Your job is to plant yourself like a tree beside the River of Truth
and tell the whole world
"NO, YOU MOVE."
[[[Quote 3]]]
"Problems cannot be solved by the same level of thinking that created them."
[[[Quote 4]]]
"You may be one person in this world, but to one person, you mean the world."
[[[Quote 5]]]
"You talk to God, you're Religious. God talks to you, you're Psychotic."
[[[Quote 6]]]
"You have enemies? Good. That means you've stood up for something, sometime in your life."
[[[Quote 7]]]
"You might as well be dead. Seriously, if you always put limits on what you can do, physically or anything else, it'll spread over into the rest of your life. It'll spread into your work, into your morality, into your entire being. There are no limits. There are plateaus, but you must not stay there, you must go beyond them. If it kills you, it kills you. A man must constantly exceed his level. ~Bruce Lee
[[[Quote 8]]]
It is better to keep quite and be thought of as an idiot than to open ones mouth and prove it.
[[[Quote 9]]]
You shouldn't have to sacrifice who you are just because someone else has a problem with it.
[[[Quote 10]]]
Don't be irreplaceable. If you can't be replaced, you can't be promoted.
<>I assume this has something to say about work related things?"<>
[[[Quote 11]]]
A good one if you ask me
Go to Work. Get Married.
Have some kids. Pay your taxes.
Pay your bills. Watch your TV.
Follow Fashion. Act Normal.
Obey the law.
and repeat after me:
I AM FREE
<>Think about that one for a bit, won't you?<>
[[[Quote 12]]]
Don't tell me the sky is the limit
when there are footprints on the moon.
And last but not least for now anyways. One that may make the rest go a bit in perspective for you all.
"You aren't smart when you use quotes, but only when you understand them."
Anywho, that is all. Take care everyone.
Well, it seems I've had one hell of a sinus infection......
Posted 13 years agoFINALLY went to the doctor after having to leave work from not feeling too well. Mom took me to the doctor and they said I had one heck of a sinus infection dripping into my ears and throat.
It sucks when you feel like someone is sitting on your chest & junk. Makes breathing not all that fun.
Or, how you have one hell of a couching fit it triggers the "Throw up now" mechanism making you dry heave due to thankfully not feeling like having anything to eat for lunch. >_<
Got some antibiotics and some steriod type thingy. Told me to take the steroid thingy in the morning as it my screw with sleep. Like I need any more help not being able to sleep at night. @_@
I really hate calling in sick to work (Crazy right?), but at the same time, part of me wonders if it would be best for me to not go into work and relax and allow the pills to do what they need to and see about going into work the following day.
Not sure. Depends how I feel in the morning I suppose. That is all for now.
It sucks when you feel like someone is sitting on your chest & junk. Makes breathing not all that fun.
Or, how you have one hell of a couching fit it triggers the "Throw up now" mechanism making you dry heave due to thankfully not feeling like having anything to eat for lunch. >_<
Got some antibiotics and some steriod type thingy. Told me to take the steroid thingy in the morning as it my screw with sleep. Like I need any more help not being able to sleep at night. @_@
I really hate calling in sick to work (Crazy right?), but at the same time, part of me wonders if it would be best for me to not go into work and relax and allow the pills to do what they need to and see about going into work the following day.
Not sure. Depends how I feel in the morning I suppose. That is all for now.
Went to Neurologist today.....+Edit
Posted 13 years agoHaven't been feeling well for the past few days due to what I believe to be sinuses, but for me who usually rarely gets sick (Though recently been feeling odd a lot due to headaches and whatnot, perhaps due to other things, who can say?) I usually can't tell whether what I have is a "I am sick" versus "It's just allergies."
Anywho, I accidently took 3 times the normal dose of Mucinex D before looking at the box to double check I was taking the right amount. let's just say I felt as if I was barely here in a physical sense. ^_^;
Was kinda goofy/aloof or whatever a bit also. Vision was really blurry though as well.
I told the doctor things I have been dealing with (forgot this one thing that I sometimes don't catch which could be Motor Tic related.)
BUt, for these other things that I thought were Motor Tics, he said it was some form of Sensory something. I can't fully remember, but not Motor Tics. He said the reason I had it before, was due to the problems of my neck/spine which apparently was "Degenerative Arthritis of the Spine" as he put it. The Neurosurgeon mentioned it wasa form of birth defect.
For those I have told, I am lucky to be alive due to the fact I was born around 2 months premature, had a twin that died and etc. I wonder if that is also why I have had other things happen in the past, or why my motor skills seem to be super low and it can be hard for me to do things like printing legibly, where most of you would probably be able to do like nothing. Me, to write a check, it may take me a good 5 minutes, and that is only because in part of my hand wanting to cramp up.
Then, my dad when he picks me up has to rub this whole "So, you had to call in sick huh?" in my face.
The thing he doesn't realize (And sometimes my mom, but not as much) is that I have gotten a lot better at learning to endure things. I sometimes I wish they could have felt things I endured because I knew telling them about it would have done nothing and then they'd get upset and lecture me about how weak I was being.
Man. I tried telling him I am not the weakling I was when I was in Jr High/High School, crying about every thing or so and not wanting to endure anything.
Try telling my dad that and he dismissed it as "Well, you just do whatever it is you want. See how far that job of yours is gonna last."
His additude really pissed me off a bit. Well, if it weren't for the fact of the meds and my whole, trying to do this thing some might call similar to meditation where I basically focus so intently in my head that the rest of my body can achieve a mild form of lack of sensation so I could ignore some of the neck pain that was trying to come back.
He has no idea how I feel, or what I have been enduring. Nor would I have any idea what he is. It would be like me telling him "Why the hell are you laying on the couch at this hour. You should be up and moving around doing something. Just suck up that back pain of yours and get up."
I don't know. I think all of that hit a nerve, combine that with the emotion I have felt about myself what with the aspects of the surgery and then this being sick. I think I had a mild breakdown in the car with my mom.
They should know I have become a LOT stronger and only complain because it is serious to me. Everyone has their own limits to what they can tolerate. So why should I be looked at as weak just because I seem to be having a bit of time now where I am having more moments of "weakness" then usual?
I HATE calling in sick for work. I would rather be working as it makes me feel as though I am not wasting my life doing nothing. I feel as though I am contributing in some way and being of help somehow. Laying in bed being sick pisses me off as it feels a bit like admitting defeat. As though a part of me is making fun of myself. "How could you be so weak like that?" Almost as though it makes me pissed off at myself or something.
I don't know. I can't seem to think all that straight right now.
The doctor precribed something called Gabapentin in 300mg tablets. I am supposed to work myself up to 3 tablets a day. He mentioned that I am to take one every day somewhat close to bed time for about 1-2 weeks and once I feel as though the tiredness side effect it is supposed to cause go away, then I am to go to 2 for 1-2 weeks, and then 3.
I hope that it works. I have not been one who is all too fond of taking meds, but at the same time, if there is a chance it can help me with some of this annoying neck pain that makes my head feel like it wants to sometimes pop like a over filled balloon, then so be it.
Anywho, if you actually read all this rambling potentially nonsensical stuff, then congrats, or thanks or something. Maybe I should try laying down and see if I can sleep or something.
Though my body feels weird, like both being really fatigued while hyper energized at the same time. My body, not my mind. My mind I suspect is a bit on the tired side.
I really hope that I won't have to call in sick tommorow, but if I do, then I have to take the day as it comes. I talked to my boss and he said to let him know when I am feeling better. He knows all I have endured, so I think he knows I am still in the process of healing. But at the same time, I worry if they will try to make that into an excuse for perhaps having me not work there. Part of me doesn't like that idea as I like the work I am doing. I am making a actual decent wage, and the people are all really nice. If I were to return to this training center area, my pay would be cut dramatically.
But part of me wonders if I would have as much stress. But then I think to myself, would that be considered taking the easy way out or giving up? Or could it be a form of doing what is best for my own wellbeing, even if it may make others upset.
I sometimes wonder whose life I am living. Could it be part of me is living as though to somehow make my parents proud of me and on some subconscious level I feel like if I were to go back to the other place, it would be seen as not trying or putting out effort?
Man, my scar seems to actually be throbbing a bit now. I get the feeling that that can't be all that good.
Anywho, thanks for reading all this. Comment if you want, but it is not truly necessary. I think I will indeed try to lay down.
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Well, it seems that my couching of nasal dripping whatever crap seems to be f*cking with me again, making me cough like crazy. Not only has it f*cked over my neck real bad, but also made my right eye hurt a lot, as well as having had some pain in the lower right areas of my stomach and groin/ballsack area and a general weakening of the right arm.
So yeah, as you may be able to tell, I am really pissed off at my body right now. Maybe I'll get lucky to be able to sleep a bit. Not holding my breath though. That is all.
Anywho, I accidently took 3 times the normal dose of Mucinex D before looking at the box to double check I was taking the right amount. let's just say I felt as if I was barely here in a physical sense. ^_^;
Was kinda goofy/aloof or whatever a bit also. Vision was really blurry though as well.
I told the doctor things I have been dealing with (forgot this one thing that I sometimes don't catch which could be Motor Tic related.)
BUt, for these other things that I thought were Motor Tics, he said it was some form of Sensory something. I can't fully remember, but not Motor Tics. He said the reason I had it before, was due to the problems of my neck/spine which apparently was "Degenerative Arthritis of the Spine" as he put it. The Neurosurgeon mentioned it wasa form of birth defect.
For those I have told, I am lucky to be alive due to the fact I was born around 2 months premature, had a twin that died and etc. I wonder if that is also why I have had other things happen in the past, or why my motor skills seem to be super low and it can be hard for me to do things like printing legibly, where most of you would probably be able to do like nothing. Me, to write a check, it may take me a good 5 minutes, and that is only because in part of my hand wanting to cramp up.
Then, my dad when he picks me up has to rub this whole "So, you had to call in sick huh?" in my face.
The thing he doesn't realize (And sometimes my mom, but not as much) is that I have gotten a lot better at learning to endure things. I sometimes I wish they could have felt things I endured because I knew telling them about it would have done nothing and then they'd get upset and lecture me about how weak I was being.
Man. I tried telling him I am not the weakling I was when I was in Jr High/High School, crying about every thing or so and not wanting to endure anything.
Try telling my dad that and he dismissed it as "Well, you just do whatever it is you want. See how far that job of yours is gonna last."
His additude really pissed me off a bit. Well, if it weren't for the fact of the meds and my whole, trying to do this thing some might call similar to meditation where I basically focus so intently in my head that the rest of my body can achieve a mild form of lack of sensation so I could ignore some of the neck pain that was trying to come back.
He has no idea how I feel, or what I have been enduring. Nor would I have any idea what he is. It would be like me telling him "Why the hell are you laying on the couch at this hour. You should be up and moving around doing something. Just suck up that back pain of yours and get up."
I don't know. I think all of that hit a nerve, combine that with the emotion I have felt about myself what with the aspects of the surgery and then this being sick. I think I had a mild breakdown in the car with my mom.
They should know I have become a LOT stronger and only complain because it is serious to me. Everyone has their own limits to what they can tolerate. So why should I be looked at as weak just because I seem to be having a bit of time now where I am having more moments of "weakness" then usual?
I HATE calling in sick for work. I would rather be working as it makes me feel as though I am not wasting my life doing nothing. I feel as though I am contributing in some way and being of help somehow. Laying in bed being sick pisses me off as it feels a bit like admitting defeat. As though a part of me is making fun of myself. "How could you be so weak like that?" Almost as though it makes me pissed off at myself or something.
I don't know. I can't seem to think all that straight right now.
The doctor precribed something called Gabapentin in 300mg tablets. I am supposed to work myself up to 3 tablets a day. He mentioned that I am to take one every day somewhat close to bed time for about 1-2 weeks and once I feel as though the tiredness side effect it is supposed to cause go away, then I am to go to 2 for 1-2 weeks, and then 3.
I hope that it works. I have not been one who is all too fond of taking meds, but at the same time, if there is a chance it can help me with some of this annoying neck pain that makes my head feel like it wants to sometimes pop like a over filled balloon, then so be it.
Anywho, if you actually read all this rambling potentially nonsensical stuff, then congrats, or thanks or something. Maybe I should try laying down and see if I can sleep or something.
Though my body feels weird, like both being really fatigued while hyper energized at the same time. My body, not my mind. My mind I suspect is a bit on the tired side.
I really hope that I won't have to call in sick tommorow, but if I do, then I have to take the day as it comes. I talked to my boss and he said to let him know when I am feeling better. He knows all I have endured, so I think he knows I am still in the process of healing. But at the same time, I worry if they will try to make that into an excuse for perhaps having me not work there. Part of me doesn't like that idea as I like the work I am doing. I am making a actual decent wage, and the people are all really nice. If I were to return to this training center area, my pay would be cut dramatically.
But part of me wonders if I would have as much stress. But then I think to myself, would that be considered taking the easy way out or giving up? Or could it be a form of doing what is best for my own wellbeing, even if it may make others upset.
I sometimes wonder whose life I am living. Could it be part of me is living as though to somehow make my parents proud of me and on some subconscious level I feel like if I were to go back to the other place, it would be seen as not trying or putting out effort?
Man, my scar seems to actually be throbbing a bit now. I get the feeling that that can't be all that good.
Anywho, thanks for reading all this. Comment if you want, but it is not truly necessary. I think I will indeed try to lay down.
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Well, it seems that my couching of nasal dripping whatever crap seems to be f*cking with me again, making me cough like crazy. Not only has it f*cked over my neck real bad, but also made my right eye hurt a lot, as well as having had some pain in the lower right areas of my stomach and groin/ballsack area and a general weakening of the right arm.
So yeah, as you may be able to tell, I am really pissed off at my body right now. Maybe I'll get lucky to be able to sleep a bit. Not holding my breath though. That is all.
Pics of me from LA Fur Meet October 15th 2011-HalloweenParty
Posted 13 years agoBrain too tired to remember who took all these. Basically, pics that I am in from the LA Fur Meet at Griffith Park.
More info about the meetups can be found at
http://www.furaffinity.com/user/lafurs/
A pic where we all played Bingo. I am at the bottom Right side pretending to be all ultra serious/angry or something. XD Me being goofy as usual:
http://www.furaffinity.net/view/6710269/
Not quite in my full "Ninja" gear there as I was getting too hot. I am the one on the bottom right with the blue mirror lensed shades looking all serious. I dressed as a type of "Modern Day Ninja" and won best Non Sexy Non Fur costume. XD
About to Kill (not really. XD) my friend Ignacio with my Ninja Skills
https://picasaweb.google.com/108722.....45652873642530
Getting ready to Attack Ignacio but his/my friend "Kitty" aka "The Scout" is about to block my attack:
https://picasaweb.google.com/108722.....45764235290690
The Badger must Die 1 of 3 (No one was harmed during the shots of these pics):
https://picasaweb.google.com/108722.....45990321916914
The Badger must Die 2 of 3:
https://picasaweb.google.com/108722.....46018175370018
The Badger must Die 3 of 3:
https://picasaweb.google.com/108722.....46059110030818
Little Did they know, they were about to die after this pic *Evil nonvisible smile*:
https://picasaweb.google.com/108722.....47770697438866
Distracted by Boobies (Not really. XD I suck at titles. ^_^,)
https://picasaweb.google.com/108722.....50046772691906
I am Victorious!!!
https://picasaweb.google.com/108722.....50324473780130
So yeah, me being silly in my "Ninja" costume. Comment if ya want. Too tired to think and stuff. Later all.
More info about the meetups can be found at
http://www.furaffinity.com/user/lafurs/
A pic where we all played Bingo. I am at the bottom Right side pretending to be all ultra serious/angry or something. XD Me being goofy as usual:
http://www.furaffinity.net/view/6710269/
Not quite in my full "Ninja" gear there as I was getting too hot. I am the one on the bottom right with the blue mirror lensed shades looking all serious. I dressed as a type of "Modern Day Ninja" and won best Non Sexy Non Fur costume. XD
About to Kill (not really. XD) my friend Ignacio with my Ninja Skills
https://picasaweb.google.com/108722.....45652873642530
Getting ready to Attack Ignacio but his/my friend "Kitty" aka "The Scout" is about to block my attack:
https://picasaweb.google.com/108722.....45764235290690
The Badger must Die 1 of 3 (No one was harmed during the shots of these pics):
https://picasaweb.google.com/108722.....45990321916914
The Badger must Die 2 of 3:
https://picasaweb.google.com/108722.....46018175370018
The Badger must Die 3 of 3:
https://picasaweb.google.com/108722.....46059110030818
Little Did they know, they were about to die after this pic *Evil nonvisible smile*:
https://picasaweb.google.com/108722.....47770697438866
Distracted by Boobies (Not really. XD I suck at titles. ^_^,)
https://picasaweb.google.com/108722.....50046772691906
I am Victorious!!!
https://picasaweb.google.com/108722.....50324473780130
So yeah, me being silly in my "Ninja" costume. Comment if ya want. Too tired to think and stuff. Later all.
Computer pretty much on the fritz.....
Posted 13 years agoUsing this thing on a CD called REATOGO-X-Pe as I had something like a virus or whatnot that would eat up all my CPU/Memory as well as the free space on my hard drive.
The bad thing about this though is the fact that I can't do much on this. Unable to do a lot on the internet due to being unable to install FLash & the like for the internet. >_<
I may need to get a new hard drive to backup stuff and then get a OS CD so I can format & reinstall.
It seems that the thing also deleted all my System Restore points as well. T_T
I f*cking hate computer viruses, rootkits and all related BS. Anywho, later all.
The bad thing about this though is the fact that I can't do much on this. Unable to do a lot on the internet due to being unable to install FLash & the like for the internet. >_<
I may need to get a new hard drive to backup stuff and then get a OS CD so I can format & reinstall.
It seems that the thing also deleted all my System Restore points as well. T_T
I f*cking hate computer viruses, rootkits and all related BS. Anywho, later all.
If possible, never kick something hard in your dreams....
Posted 13 years agoBecause, if your bed is near a wall or anything breakable, you run the risk of either damaging the thing because you may kick in real life, or if with a wall, may end up smashing your toes.
For me, I had a dream a couple nights ago, aka Friday Morning at 2 am. I was fighting a guy that was like Thor with him throwing a hammer at me, me spinning around to preserve the momentum, grabbing his hammer and throwing it back at him to hurt him somehow. After a while, I beat him where he was on his knees. I did this type of hard kick, perhaps similar to that "Sparta Kick" and all of a sudden "WHAM!" I am awakened by a large painful pain, as it seems that I freakin kicked the wall as hard as I could with my left foot. Now, the big toe toenail is freaking blueish purple. >_< I just hope I won't have to tear the toenail off like I did with the "Pinky" toe of the same foot.
And then, I somehow caught myself this morning where I was about to kick something again I was like "O_O DON'T F*CKING DO IT!!!" I woke myself up before doing it.
So much for that whole, sleep paralasis that is supposed to happen so you don't physically act your dreams out. ^_^;
Finished my 2nd week of work. Seems like the supervisors on the side I am on seem to, I don't know. There is like a darkness or just pure negativeity about them. As though they don't like the fact that I finish my stuff as fast as I do, and, that I seem to have the ability to think for myself and sometimes question what they say I do things that perhaps I did not.
One other person decided that after 5 years of them, enough was enough. So, she left to go back to the warehouse training area. Yeah, it means less pay for her, but she says if it means less stress & BS, and the fact she can help others earn a tad more money, she will.
I just hope I can just go back to the other side I was good at, but they may not for fear of my neck surgery stuff. -_-
Oh well.
Oh yeah, made a new cooking thingy. Gonna add some spices to the next batch I will probably make tommorrow.
Basically, You take a hotdog or sausage around the size of a hotdog, get cheese, wrap the dog/sausage in cheese (I prefer Extra Sharp Cheddar). then you take ground beef and wrap it around that. (I suppose one could then wrap that in cheese <Maybe I'll do that next time>) then you take a few of those biscuit things you can cook in the oven and wrap that meat & cheese thingys with it. Bake for around 30 mins, and eat & enjoy.
Also, someone took a pic of the rainbow white chocolate brownies & made at the Griffith Park Fur Meet a week or so ago that I made. If you have it, could you send it to me so I can post the recipe?
So, that is an update on my life for now. Take care everyone.
For me, I had a dream a couple nights ago, aka Friday Morning at 2 am. I was fighting a guy that was like Thor with him throwing a hammer at me, me spinning around to preserve the momentum, grabbing his hammer and throwing it back at him to hurt him somehow. After a while, I beat him where he was on his knees. I did this type of hard kick, perhaps similar to that "Sparta Kick" and all of a sudden "WHAM!" I am awakened by a large painful pain, as it seems that I freakin kicked the wall as hard as I could with my left foot. Now, the big toe toenail is freaking blueish purple. >_< I just hope I won't have to tear the toenail off like I did with the "Pinky" toe of the same foot.
And then, I somehow caught myself this morning where I was about to kick something again I was like "O_O DON'T F*CKING DO IT!!!" I woke myself up before doing it.
So much for that whole, sleep paralasis that is supposed to happen so you don't physically act your dreams out. ^_^;
Finished my 2nd week of work. Seems like the supervisors on the side I am on seem to, I don't know. There is like a darkness or just pure negativeity about them. As though they don't like the fact that I finish my stuff as fast as I do, and, that I seem to have the ability to think for myself and sometimes question what they say I do things that perhaps I did not.
One other person decided that after 5 years of them, enough was enough. So, she left to go back to the warehouse training area. Yeah, it means less pay for her, but she says if it means less stress & BS, and the fact she can help others earn a tad more money, she will.
I just hope I can just go back to the other side I was good at, but they may not for fear of my neck surgery stuff. -_-
Oh well.
Oh yeah, made a new cooking thingy. Gonna add some spices to the next batch I will probably make tommorrow.
Basically, You take a hotdog or sausage around the size of a hotdog, get cheese, wrap the dog/sausage in cheese (I prefer Extra Sharp Cheddar). then you take ground beef and wrap it around that. (I suppose one could then wrap that in cheese <Maybe I'll do that next time>) then you take a few of those biscuit things you can cook in the oven and wrap that meat & cheese thingys with it. Bake for around 30 mins, and eat & enjoy.
Also, someone took a pic of the rainbow white chocolate brownies & made at the Griffith Park Fur Meet a week or so ago that I made. If you have it, could you send it to me so I can post the recipe?
So, that is an update on my life for now. Take care everyone.
Funny quote + back to work finally
Posted 13 years agoFirst, the funny Quote from a new game from a guy named Fat Tony. Try and guess the game if ya want. ^_^
If you drop a piece of bread, you wanna know why it always lands butter side down? Cause you're a dickhead for dropping perfectly good food, that's why.
And that aside, I am FINALLY going back to work on Monday. Yay. When I get my paycheck it will probably be for 3 days or so what with the pay period being 1-15 then days 16-end of month. Paydays for the 1-15 days happens on the 25th of that month and for the days 16-end of month equals the 10th of the following month.
Will be nice to be able to make money again and not have to be so uptight and whatnot with money. Also means I can put back money I used in the emergency money thingy I had been using for things like food and whatnot.
Also, I made some pretty good brownies this morning. I was thinking of making this rainbow tye dye brownies but didn't realize that there was a reason the recipe called for WHITE chocolate chips instead of normal ones. Oh well. Next time. My mom tried some as did I and she also said they were good. I cut some pieces for her to go as well as for my dad.
Who knows what the next thing I'll make is. Earlier in the week I made these "Healthy" pancakes which I think had egg, oatmeal and cottage cheese as well as perhaps some cinnamon and maybe vanilla extract. They were good. Mix it via a blender and pour to cook. Add some Jam to it especially orange marmalade, was really good. ^_^ That is all for now. Later all.
If you drop a piece of bread, you wanna know why it always lands butter side down? Cause you're a dickhead for dropping perfectly good food, that's why.
And that aside, I am FINALLY going back to work on Monday. Yay. When I get my paycheck it will probably be for 3 days or so what with the pay period being 1-15 then days 16-end of month. Paydays for the 1-15 days happens on the 25th of that month and for the days 16-end of month equals the 10th of the following month.
Will be nice to be able to make money again and not have to be so uptight and whatnot with money. Also means I can put back money I used in the emergency money thingy I had been using for things like food and whatnot.
Also, I made some pretty good brownies this morning. I was thinking of making this rainbow tye dye brownies but didn't realize that there was a reason the recipe called for WHITE chocolate chips instead of normal ones. Oh well. Next time. My mom tried some as did I and she also said they were good. I cut some pieces for her to go as well as for my dad.
Who knows what the next thing I'll make is. Earlier in the week I made these "Healthy" pancakes which I think had egg, oatmeal and cottage cheese as well as perhaps some cinnamon and maybe vanilla extract. They were good. Mix it via a blender and pour to cook. Add some Jam to it especially orange marmalade, was really good. ^_^ That is all for now. Later all.
Hope these make you laugh.....
Posted 13 years agoBeen bored out of my skull, waiting to see when I can get back to work, as I had neck surgery 3 months ago. Worked on 3 or 4 vertebrae levels on my neck I have quite the big scar to show for it. But that is not the point of my journal. It is to hopefully spread things that will make others laugh and feel good, even if for a short while. to take away the sting of negativity life seems to have these days.
Durhamrocker does these funny King of the Hill Youtube Poop's as they are called. Take clips off stuff, try to make them funnier.
Helium Leak In The WWF!!!
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=fWzEpEiTbT8
Hank of the Hill
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=WCr-l9naPmE
THAT'S MY PURSE I DON'T KNOW U
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=UuIjbNkBDAw
The Life & Death of Mr. Hill
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=jJC5yUECbGs
Hank Hill is a Dick
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=LcWzHdpaXRo
John Deadcorn
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ftyqscO8riI
You know fellas....
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=TwgGfjVnvdc
Back Breakin' Bobbie
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=QJqwW-ivdlM
Hank: "Bill, for cryin out loud!"
Bill: "I WAS LISTENIN'!!"
Made me laugh. XD
Boggle Crunch
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=9x59NexTO2w
Some other misc/mixed ones for you all as well.
Team Fortress 2: Meet the Medic
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=36lSzUMBJnc
Team Fortress 2: Meet the Spy
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=OR4N.....eature=related
Team Fortress 2: Meet the Demoman
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=han3.....eature=related
Team Fortress 2: Meet the Soldier
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=h42d.....eature=related
Team Fortress 2: Meet the Heavy
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=jHgZ.....eature=related
Some mixed vids with Team Fortres 2 & other stuff that are pretty funny I think.
Team Fortress 2: Moments with Heavy - Heavy Takes his Driving Test
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ln4p.....eature=related
Team Fortress 2: Moments with Heavy - Heavy Goes Bowling
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ayrN.....eature=related
Team Fortress 2: Moments with Heavy - French Toast
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=dNB-.....eature=related
Team Fortress 2 Moments with Heavy - Heavy's Retarded Holiday
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=I8oM.....eature=related
Mass Defect
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=V46KYxFav24
Portal 2: Cave Johnson Quotes (Funny stuff)
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=deNP67TL7yI
(Voice of Spiderman's Boss from Spiderman Movies)
Gmod Idiot Box 01
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=t2eUUHkpvQA
Gmod Idiot Box 02
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Ajw6AsYTW2o
Gmod Idiot Box 03
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Q4DxWpnmmMk
Gmod Idiot Box 04
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Y2cxHYNMyyw
Gmod Idiot Box 05
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=faYW0CIpJsM
Gmod Idiot Box 06
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Nzy1MvR5-7g
Gmod Idiot Box 07
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=tMjTzc_QMwc
Gmod Idiot Box 08
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=t6Fpj-tmRiE
Gmod Idiot Box 09
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=8-OLi4mnSho
Gmod Idiot Box 10
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=XTWYoVnRGpw
This should be all for now.
Durhamrocker does these funny King of the Hill Youtube Poop's as they are called. Take clips off stuff, try to make them funnier.
Helium Leak In The WWF!!!
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=fWzEpEiTbT8
Hank of the Hill
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=WCr-l9naPmE
THAT'S MY PURSE I DON'T KNOW U
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=UuIjbNkBDAw
The Life & Death of Mr. Hill
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=jJC5yUECbGs
Hank Hill is a Dick
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=LcWzHdpaXRo
John Deadcorn
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ftyqscO8riI
You know fellas....
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=TwgGfjVnvdc
Back Breakin' Bobbie
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=QJqwW-ivdlM
Hank: "Bill, for cryin out loud!"
Bill: "I WAS LISTENIN'!!"
Made me laugh. XD
Boggle Crunch
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=9x59NexTO2w
Some other misc/mixed ones for you all as well.
Team Fortress 2: Meet the Medic
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=36lSzUMBJnc
Team Fortress 2: Meet the Spy
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=OR4N.....eature=related
Team Fortress 2: Meet the Demoman
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=han3.....eature=related
Team Fortress 2: Meet the Soldier
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=h42d.....eature=related
Team Fortress 2: Meet the Heavy
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=jHgZ.....eature=related
Some mixed vids with Team Fortres 2 & other stuff that are pretty funny I think.
Team Fortress 2: Moments with Heavy - Heavy Takes his Driving Test
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ln4p.....eature=related
Team Fortress 2: Moments with Heavy - Heavy Goes Bowling
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ayrN.....eature=related
Team Fortress 2: Moments with Heavy - French Toast
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=dNB-.....eature=related
Team Fortress 2 Moments with Heavy - Heavy's Retarded Holiday
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=I8oM.....eature=related
Mass Defect
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=V46KYxFav24
Portal 2: Cave Johnson Quotes (Funny stuff)
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=deNP67TL7yI
(Voice of Spiderman's Boss from Spiderman Movies)
Gmod Idiot Box 01
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=t2eUUHkpvQA
Gmod Idiot Box 02
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Ajw6AsYTW2o
Gmod Idiot Box 03
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Q4DxWpnmmMk
Gmod Idiot Box 04
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Y2cxHYNMyyw
Gmod Idiot Box 05
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=faYW0CIpJsM
Gmod Idiot Box 06
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Nzy1MvR5-7g
Gmod Idiot Box 07
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=tMjTzc_QMwc
Gmod Idiot Box 08
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=t6Fpj-tmRiE
Gmod Idiot Box 09
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=8-OLi4mnSho
Gmod Idiot Box 10
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=XTWYoVnRGpw
This should be all for now.
Seems one of the dogs has cancer. >_<
Posted 13 years agoI just talked to my mom, who gave me back my laundry and it seems that when my dad took one of the dogs into the vets for odd lumps near his neck, the tests that came back apparelty say that he has some form of cancer, which apparently has also spread to areas under his front and back legs.
My mom was close to crying when she told me all this. Even if we were to spend thousands of dollars to help, it may give him a year. What kind of year could that possibly be having to go through surgeries and recovery periods and all that. The only thing that is one worry is if his brother (from same litter) could get it later as well. Or, how the other dog will handle it due to the two being so close to each other.
All sorts of crazy crap going on it seems.
My mom was close to crying when she told me all this. Even if we were to spend thousands of dollars to help, it may give him a year. What kind of year could that possibly be having to go through surgeries and recovery periods and all that. The only thing that is one worry is if his brother (from same litter) could get it later as well. Or, how the other dog will handle it due to the two being so close to each other.
All sorts of crazy crap going on it seems.
