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Posted 2 years agoHey guys...
It's been a hot minute...
I haven't been posting much, since my Mom passed away. I have gift art from years ago, through just a couple months ago, that I haven't even posted yet. I've just been too depressed to post anything. But, I am really struggling, financially right now. My Mom left me an inheritance, that was SUPPOSED to last me the rest of my life. But, when I received it, I immediately lost my medical benefits, and started having to pay out of pocket for ALL of my medical expenses. Prescriptions, Office Visits, transportation to and from appointments, CPAP Equipment... My inheritance ran out in July, and I've been barely scraping by, with help from donors on GoFundMe. I didn't want to have to resort to asking for help, but I didn't have a choice. It was either ask for help, or not be able to pay my bills. Some of my more recent medical bills, have wound up in collections, and now I get phone calls, daily, telling I need to pay them or else. Some of them I've paid, because I was too intimidated, to say, "I can't." And then I wasn't able to pay my regular monthly bills, because the collections agencies caused me to be short. I was so focused on trying to make ends meet for my monthly bills, and my overdue medical bills, that I completely neglected my property taxes this year. I am drowning in debt, right now, and I was hoping that posting my fundraiser here, might help a little. Thanks for reading. I miss you guys.
https://gofund.me/37b45cee
It's been a hot minute...
I haven't been posting much, since my Mom passed away. I have gift art from years ago, through just a couple months ago, that I haven't even posted yet. I've just been too depressed to post anything. But, I am really struggling, financially right now. My Mom left me an inheritance, that was SUPPOSED to last me the rest of my life. But, when I received it, I immediately lost my medical benefits, and started having to pay out of pocket for ALL of my medical expenses. Prescriptions, Office Visits, transportation to and from appointments, CPAP Equipment... My inheritance ran out in July, and I've been barely scraping by, with help from donors on GoFundMe. I didn't want to have to resort to asking for help, but I didn't have a choice. It was either ask for help, or not be able to pay my bills. Some of my more recent medical bills, have wound up in collections, and now I get phone calls, daily, telling I need to pay them or else. Some of them I've paid, because I was too intimidated, to say, "I can't." And then I wasn't able to pay my regular monthly bills, because the collections agencies caused me to be short. I was so focused on trying to make ends meet for my monthly bills, and my overdue medical bills, that I completely neglected my property taxes this year. I am drowning in debt, right now, and I was hoping that posting my fundraiser here, might help a little. Thanks for reading. I miss you guys.
https://gofund.me/37b45cee
Happy Christmas!
Posted 5 years agoJust wanted to give a shout out to you, my followers, and wish you a Happy Christmas, Hannukah, Kwanza, Yule, or whatever else you may celebrate this time of year. Enjoy your time with family and friends. Love you all!
Officially A Greymuzzle...
Posted 6 years agoToday is my 40th Birthday. The day I officially turn to dust... Just add water to reconstitute me, if you wanna hang out. LOL! Thankfully, my fur is already grey, so you all won't notice as much.
That is all.
That is all.
Bound For Anthrocon 2019
Posted 6 years agoSo, I just wanted to give an update! I'm heading to AC, and I look forward to seeing familiar faces, as well as meeting new ones! I will be there for the the whole Con, this year, staying with my friend Jeff. This is going to be an epic event, and I look forward to seeing you all there! @ me on Telegram, if you want to meet up for a time to visit! You can find all my info on my main profile page! I shouldn't be too easy to miss, as I dyed my hair teal and purple, so if you see me walking to and from events at the Con, don't be afraid to give me a holler! I'll be cosplayed as my main Fursona, MiLayna, as I don't fursuit, as I get overheated easily... so that should make it even easier to find me. A Snep with teal and purple hair! How many could there be? Mainly I'll just be wearing my tail, and my creamy, yellow leather huntress vest. Along with some Snow Leopard spots, of course! See you at Anthrocon!
Raffle for Custom Items
Posted 6 years agoHey guys!
Twice in one night! Just thought I'd post to see if there was any interest in Bracelets, Anklets, Bath Bombs or Roll-On Scents. My friend Kiro is running a raffle for custom made items! Check out her journal here!
http://www.furaffinity.net/journal/9004332/
http://www.furaffinity.net/journal/9004332/
http://www.furaffinity.net/journal/9004332/
Twice in one night! Just thought I'd post to see if there was any interest in Bracelets, Anklets, Bath Bombs or Roll-On Scents. My friend Kiro is running a raffle for custom made items! Check out her journal here!
http://www.furaffinity.net/journal/9004332/
http://www.furaffinity.net/journal/9004332/
http://www.furaffinity.net/journal/9004332/
ARTIST FEATURE
Posted 6 years agoHey guys!
My friend Kiro is having a baby, and so she'll be staying home for a few weeks, after her son is born. Since she does art, she's doing ych's, and adopts while she stays home with the baby. Check out her art here!
My friend Kiro is having a baby, and so she'll be staying home for a few weeks, after her son is born. Since she does art, she's doing ych's, and adopts while she stays home with the baby. Check out her art here!
Feeling Blue...
Posted 7 years agoToday would have been my Mom's 76th Birthday... Tomorrow is the One Year Anniversary of her passing. I'm just feeling kinda low. I miss her so much. I wish I could spend one more birthday with her. I hate that she's gone, and that I can't talk to her, or hug her anymore. I'm sad, and I just want to be with her, right now. Oh... and it's raining... AGAIN... đ˘đââđ§đ
The Latest...
Posted 7 years agoHey Guys...
Just thought I should update you on what has been happening, recently...
In June, my friends,
& 
came for a visit. The week prior to them arriving, I had a Colonoscopy, Endoscopy, and Gastric Emptying Study. The Scopes went fine, but they didn't give any clues, as to why I've been feeling so lousy since February. The Gastric Emptying Study was another story. After 4 hours with "special eggs" in my stomach, that sat, and never moved, during the whole time I was there, it was discovered that I have Idiopathic Gastroparesis. What that means, is that the part of my stomach, that actually is supposed to empty my food, into the rest of my digestive tract, is partially paralyzed, and they can't find a specific cause for this condition. Eating has become increasingly difficult, and with my already restricted diet, due to my Celiac Disease, I needed to go and see a Dietician. I saw her yesterday, and the appointment was a real eye-opener and a tear-jerker, to put if bluntly. I broke down, and cried, when she told me the things I could no longer eat, because of my Gastroparesis. Everything I used to love, is now out of reach. And when I got home, and thought more about it, it made me cry even harder. To be a Foodie, and have food taken away from you, in even it's simplest form, it's like having your entire life snatched away. I don't know why I have so many health problems, but it seems, ever decade, I am faced with a new digestive dilemma. This one being the most serious yet. On my 19th Birthday, I was told I was Lactose Intolerant. On my 29th Birthday, I came down with a virus, that never went away, and turned out to have triggered my dormant Celiac Disease. Now, a month before my 30th Birthday, I have found out, that food, as I knew it, is gone from my diet, forever.
I wish that my Mom was still here, to cheer me on, and cheer me up. But I lost her, last November, one day after HER 75th Birthday. Mom was always my biggest supporter. She was always around to help me see the bright side of things. Well, I'm not seeing much shiny in this situation, and she's not here, to help me find it. With my birthday coming up, it makes me realize, just how isolated, and alone, I have become. There's truly nothing to celebrate, this year.
I am still passing out, and nobody knows why. I have been to the Cardiologist, the Endocrinologist, the Neurologist, and not one of them can explain why I lose consciousness, at random, for seemingly no reason at all. This has become rather frustrating, as I keep having tests, but still don't have any answers.
And, last, but not least, I started getting Kidney Stones, starting July 1st. I have had 5 now, averaging one, about every week and a half. I go to see the Urologist the 5th of September. I don't understand what is going on with my body! And apparently, neither do any of my Doctors. They can't explain why these things are happening, but I keep getting new diagnoses, from nearly every specialist I've seen. My life feels like never ending Doctors Visits, with a little napping in between. I'm so sick and tired of being sick and tired...
Oh! And after months of listening to my brother complain about my stuff being in Mom's house, and how he wanted to have the house sold no later than the end of June... it has yet to sell... I just want the money from the sale of the house, so I can pay my bills off, and live in relative comfort, for the rest of my life. He threatened to throw my things away, because he wanted to sell the house as quickly as possible... and it is STILL not sold... jerk... *mutters*
Anyway, that's all there is, to print, for the moment... if anyone would like to help me celebrate my miserable existence, in this world, for the last 39 years, my Birthday is September 17th... I have a small Amazon Wishlist: https://www.amazon.com/gp/registry/...../190293QH6OSSN
Thanks for reading!
Just thought I should update you on what has been happening, recently...
In June, my friends,
& 
came for a visit. The week prior to them arriving, I had a Colonoscopy, Endoscopy, and Gastric Emptying Study. The Scopes went fine, but they didn't give any clues, as to why I've been feeling so lousy since February. The Gastric Emptying Study was another story. After 4 hours with "special eggs" in my stomach, that sat, and never moved, during the whole time I was there, it was discovered that I have Idiopathic Gastroparesis. What that means, is that the part of my stomach, that actually is supposed to empty my food, into the rest of my digestive tract, is partially paralyzed, and they can't find a specific cause for this condition. Eating has become increasingly difficult, and with my already restricted diet, due to my Celiac Disease, I needed to go and see a Dietician. I saw her yesterday, and the appointment was a real eye-opener and a tear-jerker, to put if bluntly. I broke down, and cried, when she told me the things I could no longer eat, because of my Gastroparesis. Everything I used to love, is now out of reach. And when I got home, and thought more about it, it made me cry even harder. To be a Foodie, and have food taken away from you, in even it's simplest form, it's like having your entire life snatched away. I don't know why I have so many health problems, but it seems, ever decade, I am faced with a new digestive dilemma. This one being the most serious yet. On my 19th Birthday, I was told I was Lactose Intolerant. On my 29th Birthday, I came down with a virus, that never went away, and turned out to have triggered my dormant Celiac Disease. Now, a month before my 30th Birthday, I have found out, that food, as I knew it, is gone from my diet, forever. I wish that my Mom was still here, to cheer me on, and cheer me up. But I lost her, last November, one day after HER 75th Birthday. Mom was always my biggest supporter. She was always around to help me see the bright side of things. Well, I'm not seeing much shiny in this situation, and she's not here, to help me find it. With my birthday coming up, it makes me realize, just how isolated, and alone, I have become. There's truly nothing to celebrate, this year.
I am still passing out, and nobody knows why. I have been to the Cardiologist, the Endocrinologist, the Neurologist, and not one of them can explain why I lose consciousness, at random, for seemingly no reason at all. This has become rather frustrating, as I keep having tests, but still don't have any answers.
And, last, but not least, I started getting Kidney Stones, starting July 1st. I have had 5 now, averaging one, about every week and a half. I go to see the Urologist the 5th of September. I don't understand what is going on with my body! And apparently, neither do any of my Doctors. They can't explain why these things are happening, but I keep getting new diagnoses, from nearly every specialist I've seen. My life feels like never ending Doctors Visits, with a little napping in between. I'm so sick and tired of being sick and tired...
Oh! And after months of listening to my brother complain about my stuff being in Mom's house, and how he wanted to have the house sold no later than the end of June... it has yet to sell... I just want the money from the sale of the house, so I can pay my bills off, and live in relative comfort, for the rest of my life. He threatened to throw my things away, because he wanted to sell the house as quickly as possible... and it is STILL not sold... jerk... *mutters*
Anyway, that's all there is, to print, for the moment... if anyone would like to help me celebrate my miserable existence, in this world, for the last 39 years, my Birthday is September 17th... I have a small Amazon Wishlist: https://www.amazon.com/gp/registry/...../190293QH6OSSN
Thanks for reading!
UPDATE
Posted 7 years agoHey, guys!
So, I had my procedure, yesterday, and my colon looks very healthy, but he had to remove several stomach polyps, while I was having my Endoscopy. He said he didn't find anything that would be causing my digestive issues, though, so he wants me to have a Gastric Emptying Study, to determine whether or not, my stomach is just delaying on emptying, after I eat, or if it's something else. So, I'm just waiting for his office to call me, about scheduling that. Honestly, the worst part of the whole procedure, was the prep for it. I had to start clear liquids on Friday, and I wasn't allowed to eat, until after the procedure, on Monday morning. I was sooooo hungry! But I survived it, and now I can eat again. I lost 8 lbs. in three and a half days! Meep! I'm sure it will come back, and then some. LOL
The other thing I want to update you on, is my house. I DID manage to get everything in here... it's just a mess, and it's a bit cramped, at the moment. I got rid of a lot of stuff, that I just don't need. I may have wanted to keep a lot of it, but I'm so over it. I just want my house back, and I want it to be organized and clean. I'm still working on that part. But it's easier, now that I have places to go with everything. It's still slow-going, but slow is better than not at all. It's a step in the right direction, anyway.
Thanks for all your prayers, and support, while I've been struggling. I appreciate everything you guys do. Moral support has been a huge part of my being able to get stuff done.
So, I had my procedure, yesterday, and my colon looks very healthy, but he had to remove several stomach polyps, while I was having my Endoscopy. He said he didn't find anything that would be causing my digestive issues, though, so he wants me to have a Gastric Emptying Study, to determine whether or not, my stomach is just delaying on emptying, after I eat, or if it's something else. So, I'm just waiting for his office to call me, about scheduling that. Honestly, the worst part of the whole procedure, was the prep for it. I had to start clear liquids on Friday, and I wasn't allowed to eat, until after the procedure, on Monday morning. I was sooooo hungry! But I survived it, and now I can eat again. I lost 8 lbs. in three and a half days! Meep! I'm sure it will come back, and then some. LOL
The other thing I want to update you on, is my house. I DID manage to get everything in here... it's just a mess, and it's a bit cramped, at the moment. I got rid of a lot of stuff, that I just don't need. I may have wanted to keep a lot of it, but I'm so over it. I just want my house back, and I want it to be organized and clean. I'm still working on that part. But it's easier, now that I have places to go with everything. It's still slow-going, but slow is better than not at all. It's a step in the right direction, anyway.
Thanks for all your prayers, and support, while I've been struggling. I appreciate everything you guys do. Moral support has been a huge part of my being able to get stuff done.
Well, I'm Screwed...
Posted 7 years agoHey guys...
Just taking a quick break from cleaning and organizing my crap-pile... I mean my house... and I guess I'm not sleeping tonight. The people from the organization that is bringing me my furniture tomorrow, will be here at approximately 11am... and I am nowhere near ready for them. This place looks like a bomb went off in it... honestly, if a bomb did go off in here, it would probably be an improvement! I am so discouraged! I don't know how I am going to manage this! đŚđ§đłđ˘đ
I need to get the living room and dining room completely cleared out, and I can't do it by myself. I've asked for help, and received next to none. I wish I had some friends who lived close by so that I could get SOME help. But all my friends are online, or live really far away. This feels so hopeless! I honestly wish I had a big dumpster, so I could just start throwing all the stuff away. This place feels like all way never-ending nightmare!
I am so exhausted, but I've got to get back to it. Sorry for whining about all this stuff, but thanks for reading, if you did.
Just taking a quick break from cleaning and organizing my crap-pile... I mean my house... and I guess I'm not sleeping tonight. The people from the organization that is bringing me my furniture tomorrow, will be here at approximately 11am... and I am nowhere near ready for them. This place looks like a bomb went off in it... honestly, if a bomb did go off in here, it would probably be an improvement! I am so discouraged! I don't know how I am going to manage this! đŚđ§đłđ˘đ
I need to get the living room and dining room completely cleared out, and I can't do it by myself. I've asked for help, and received next to none. I wish I had some friends who lived close by so that I could get SOME help. But all my friends are online, or live really far away. This feels so hopeless! I honestly wish I had a big dumpster, so I could just start throwing all the stuff away. This place feels like all way never-ending nightmare!
I am so exhausted, but I've got to get back to it. Sorry for whining about all this stuff, but thanks for reading, if you did.
Insert Angry Profanity Here _______ D:<
Posted 7 years agoI am so angry, I could spit nails! So, I went to Walmart, last week, with a couple of Gift Cards, and was going to buy all the things I still needed for moving and finishing up with organization, here... BUT... the gift cards expired in April! D:< So, I ended up having to cancel my transaction, at Walmart, and I was completely embarrassed, because I thought I had the money for stuff, and turns out, I didn't.
So then, I thought I could get them reissued, but turns out, that they would be reissued to the place where my friend got them, in the first place! And they would have taken $12.95 out of each one, for a reissue fee! Stupid fracking nonsense!
So, then, the next day, I got a call from my health insurance company, and and I missed the call. They left a message in my Voicemail, for me to call the message retrieval center, and get the message that they needed to give me... God forbid they should just LEAVE THE MESSAGE in my Voicemail! So, I called, and got the message, but I had questions about it, and I was able to choose an option, that allowed me to speak to a pharmacy representative. I waited on the line, and listened to all the nonsense, that they were offering in the hold... one thing said that I had been made eligible for a $100 Gift Card to Walmart or Target... so I actually decided to go for it, because I really need those things from Walmart! Well, I just found out, TODAY, that I got scammed! I thought that because it was "affiliated" with my insurance, that it was legitimate. WRONG-O!!! I had to call my bank, and have them put a block on my account, and reissue my Debit Card! I feel so stupid! I was desperate, and I ended up getting scammed! I should have known it was too good to be true! I'm such an idiot! So, now, I have to go into the bank, and sign a Fraud document, so that I can gain access to my bank account, again.
Why is my life crap?! D:< I'm so angry, that I fell for something like this!
So then, I thought I could get them reissued, but turns out, that they would be reissued to the place where my friend got them, in the first place! And they would have taken $12.95 out of each one, for a reissue fee! Stupid fracking nonsense!
So, then, the next day, I got a call from my health insurance company, and and I missed the call. They left a message in my Voicemail, for me to call the message retrieval center, and get the message that they needed to give me... God forbid they should just LEAVE THE MESSAGE in my Voicemail! So, I called, and got the message, but I had questions about it, and I was able to choose an option, that allowed me to speak to a pharmacy representative. I waited on the line, and listened to all the nonsense, that they were offering in the hold... one thing said that I had been made eligible for a $100 Gift Card to Walmart or Target... so I actually decided to go for it, because I really need those things from Walmart! Well, I just found out, TODAY, that I got scammed! I thought that because it was "affiliated" with my insurance, that it was legitimate. WRONG-O!!! I had to call my bank, and have them put a block on my account, and reissue my Debit Card! I feel so stupid! I was desperate, and I ended up getting scammed! I should have known it was too good to be true! I'm such an idiot! So, now, I have to go into the bank, and sign a Fraud document, so that I can gain access to my bank account, again.
Why is my life crap?! D:< I'm so angry, that I fell for something like this!
In Desparate Need... +THANK YOU!
Posted 7 years agoHey guys!
So, I have received a huge outpouring of love from you guys, and I can't thank you enough!
From the Vitamins to the Groceries, thank you from the very bottom of my heart! Not everything came with a name, and to be honest, I don't even know what came from who... but whoever you are, thank you so much!
I have a little over a week, until the movers bring the furniture in here, and I feel like I've gotten absolutely nowhere, with cleaning and organizing. It honestly looks more like I have just spread the mess around a little more! D: I need prayers, guys! I HAVE to get this place cleaned up, and organized before the 29th of May! I just have to! But I'm just getting nowhere fast. It seems like, whenever I finally make a dent in the mess, something happens to make it twice as big! I'm sure it isn't really true, but it sure seems that way. It's going to take divine intervention from God, to make it so that this place is ready in 9 days...
Also... I have my Endoscopy & Colonoscopy, coming up on June 4th, and I have to "clean myself out" the weekend before the procedure. I'm only allowed to have clear liquids, so, water, apple juice, clear broth, Gatorade, and Jello... and I'm very limited on the kinds, because I can't have certain colors, because it will interfere with the tests. You guys have gotten me some Jello and Gatorade... thank you, again... but there is something else that I am in dire need of, and I won't be able to get more, before the weekend of my "cleanse"... Toilet Paper! If you can help, there's some on my Amazon List: https://www.amazon.com/gp/registry/...../2TEXDFFPTFRQ4
Thanks guys! I think I'm definitely headed in the right direction, as far as my health is concerned. I'll give you more of an update, when I know a little more.
So, I have received a huge outpouring of love from you guys, and I can't thank you enough!
From the Vitamins to the Groceries, thank you from the very bottom of my heart! Not everything came with a name, and to be honest, I don't even know what came from who... but whoever you are, thank you so much!
I have a little over a week, until the movers bring the furniture in here, and I feel like I've gotten absolutely nowhere, with cleaning and organizing. It honestly looks more like I have just spread the mess around a little more! D: I need prayers, guys! I HAVE to get this place cleaned up, and organized before the 29th of May! I just have to! But I'm just getting nowhere fast. It seems like, whenever I finally make a dent in the mess, something happens to make it twice as big! I'm sure it isn't really true, but it sure seems that way. It's going to take divine intervention from God, to make it so that this place is ready in 9 days...
Also... I have my Endoscopy & Colonoscopy, coming up on June 4th, and I have to "clean myself out" the weekend before the procedure. I'm only allowed to have clear liquids, so, water, apple juice, clear broth, Gatorade, and Jello... and I'm very limited on the kinds, because I can't have certain colors, because it will interfere with the tests. You guys have gotten me some Jello and Gatorade... thank you, again... but there is something else that I am in dire need of, and I won't be able to get more, before the weekend of my "cleanse"... Toilet Paper! If you can help, there's some on my Amazon List: https://www.amazon.com/gp/registry/...../2TEXDFFPTFRQ4
Thanks guys! I think I'm definitely headed in the right direction, as far as my health is concerned. I'll give you more of an update, when I know a little more.
WHAT IS WRONG WITH ME?! +Mother's Day
Posted 7 years agoHey guys...
Ok, so I got the results back from the Event Monitor, I had to wear for my heart, a couple weeks ago... and my Cardiologist says that it all looked normal. Wut?! Then why am I constantly getting light headed, and dizzy, and passing out, or nearly passing out? Ugh! The not knowing is what's driving me crazy! Nobody can seem to tell me what is going on in my body, to cause me to feel the way I've been feeling! đ RAWR!
I'm really depressed right now, because I keep getting mail, and emails, and seeing ads for Mother's Day... if you're new to watching me, my Mom, passed away, in November, and this is my first Mother's Day, without her... đ˘ I miss her so much... đđ While everyone else is out celebrating their Mom, today, I will be continuing to clear out my house, of tons of stuff, so I can get my furniture in here, on May 29th... everywhere I look, here, is a reminder of her, and how much of a loss I've sustained... and so much of the stuff in here, I don't want to get rid of, BECAUSE it reminds me of her... so many memories!
I have my appointment with the Endocrinologist, on Monday morning... I really need to know what exactly I'm dealing with, as far as my newer diagnosis of Secondary Hyperparathyroidism, is concerned. My Rheumatologist wants me to go and get new blood work done, because SHE is concerned that I may have PRIMARY Hyperparathyroidism! I don't know what that means, exactly, but I guess I'll find out, on Monday. Everything is so confusing, when it comes to my health... I just want to start feeling better! Hopefully, seeing this new specialist, will give me some answers to some of my questions about my health. I'll have to let you guys know how it goes...
And one last thing... đ I hate to sound like I'm begging, but honestly, I kind of need to... I have an Amazon List, full of food items, that I could really use... I have Celiac Disease, so I have to be on a Gluten-Free Diet, which can be stupidly expensive... I don't have a whole lot of energy, or stamina, so it's difficult for me to prepare meals for myself, all the time. My health just doesn't allow for it... so, if anyone, would be willing to get me any of the items on my list, I would be so grateful. The Gatorade is for my upcoming Endoscopy/Colonoscopy procedure, on June 4th, for which I have to be on clear liquids for THREE DAYS prior to the test! Blehhhhh! đ I'm gonna be so hungry! I can eat Jello, but only certain colors, because some of the dyes aren't allowed, for the test. I don't usually buy a whole lot of that stuff, because I don't eat/drink it that regularly. But for this test, I would rather be prepared, than be sitting here, being hungry, thirsty, and miserable... So, here is the link to my list, if anyone is willing to help out: https://www.amazon.com/gp/registry/...../15DW12GP4JKXK
Thanks for reading, guys! And for any help, provided... that includes prayer, healing energy, and good juju... đ
Ok, so I got the results back from the Event Monitor, I had to wear for my heart, a couple weeks ago... and my Cardiologist says that it all looked normal. Wut?! Then why am I constantly getting light headed, and dizzy, and passing out, or nearly passing out? Ugh! The not knowing is what's driving me crazy! Nobody can seem to tell me what is going on in my body, to cause me to feel the way I've been feeling! đ RAWR!
I'm really depressed right now, because I keep getting mail, and emails, and seeing ads for Mother's Day... if you're new to watching me, my Mom, passed away, in November, and this is my first Mother's Day, without her... đ˘ I miss her so much... đđ While everyone else is out celebrating their Mom, today, I will be continuing to clear out my house, of tons of stuff, so I can get my furniture in here, on May 29th... everywhere I look, here, is a reminder of her, and how much of a loss I've sustained... and so much of the stuff in here, I don't want to get rid of, BECAUSE it reminds me of her... so many memories!
I have my appointment with the Endocrinologist, on Monday morning... I really need to know what exactly I'm dealing with, as far as my newer diagnosis of Secondary Hyperparathyroidism, is concerned. My Rheumatologist wants me to go and get new blood work done, because SHE is concerned that I may have PRIMARY Hyperparathyroidism! I don't know what that means, exactly, but I guess I'll find out, on Monday. Everything is so confusing, when it comes to my health... I just want to start feeling better! Hopefully, seeing this new specialist, will give me some answers to some of my questions about my health. I'll have to let you guys know how it goes...
And one last thing... đ I hate to sound like I'm begging, but honestly, I kind of need to... I have an Amazon List, full of food items, that I could really use... I have Celiac Disease, so I have to be on a Gluten-Free Diet, which can be stupidly expensive... I don't have a whole lot of energy, or stamina, so it's difficult for me to prepare meals for myself, all the time. My health just doesn't allow for it... so, if anyone, would be willing to get me any of the items on my list, I would be so grateful. The Gatorade is for my upcoming Endoscopy/Colonoscopy procedure, on June 4th, for which I have to be on clear liquids for THREE DAYS prior to the test! Blehhhhh! đ I'm gonna be so hungry! I can eat Jello, but only certain colors, because some of the dyes aren't allowed, for the test. I don't usually buy a whole lot of that stuff, because I don't eat/drink it that regularly. But for this test, I would rather be prepared, than be sitting here, being hungry, thirsty, and miserable... So, here is the link to my list, if anyone is willing to help out: https://www.amazon.com/gp/registry/...../15DW12GP4JKXK
Thanks for reading, guys! And for any help, provided... that includes prayer, healing energy, and good juju... đ
Need Food + Health Update
Posted 7 years agoHey guys!
So, I just ate the last of my bread, last night, for supper. I made a sandwich of Turkey Burgers... on two slices of bread... it was all I had left. I don't get my Food Stamps till Friday, and it's only Monday... and then I have to find someone who can take me to the grocery store, so I can actually get said food... Would anybody be able to help me out, please? Ugh... I sound like a freakin' beggar... Sorry you guys... I really hate asking for help... like I said in a previous journal, it's not humbling, it's humiliating...
And, as promised in the Title, I have some small updates for you.
I have been diagnosed with mild Mitral Valve Regurgitation, which means that one of the valves in my heart, isn't closing properly, when my heart beats... causing the blood, to flow back, in the wrong direction, occasionally. It's not too serious, at the moment, but if it continues to get worse, I will have to have surgery to repair it. It worries me, because my Mom's valves were all completely shot, when she passed away, nearly 6 months ago. At least they've caught it, with me, and we'll continue to keep an eye on it. I still haven't gotten the results back, from when I was wearing the C.A.M. Event Monitor, 2 weeks ago. I expect to hear back, sometime this week, to find out if my heart is the reason I keep getting super dizzy, and passing out, or nearly passing out. My Blood Pressure has been fairly normal, for the last week or so, but my heart still races, and my heart feels like it's "fluttering" from time to time, causing me to need to lie down, and rest. This is no r at all convenient, as I am still trying to get my house in order, and get thing clean, and orderly, so I can get my furniture in here, from my Mom's house. It's difficult enough trying to do all this, on my own, without feeling terrible while doing it.
Also, I had my appointment with the GI Specialist on May 4th, and I am now scheduled for a Diagnostic Endoscopy & Colonoscopy, on June 4th... I have to be on a clear, liquid diet, starting June 1st, so that I can be completely cleaned out, when I have the procedures done. Thankfully, I will be completely sedated with General Anesthesia, so I won't actually feel the procedures. I would be completely freaking out, if I had to be awake through them. So, I'm going to put Gatorade on my list, since I have to drink plenty of fluids, from June 1st through the early hours of June 4th. I have to drink that Miralax stuff, so that it will completely empty my digestive tract of any and all waste, before the tests. And I've tried to drink that stuff with water before, and it is really disgusting. I don't know how anyone drinks that stuff in just water... and that's usually all I ever drink! I've never been much of a soda drinker - I don't like how the carbonation feels. But I have learned to tolerate drinking Gatorade, as I tend to end up dehydrated fairly often, with my electrolytes all out of whack.
So... yeah... here's my Amazon List, if any of you feel led to help me out: https://www.amazon.com/gp/registry/...../15DW12GP4JKXK
Thanks so much guys, and thank you for reading!
So, I just ate the last of my bread, last night, for supper. I made a sandwich of Turkey Burgers... on two slices of bread... it was all I had left. I don't get my Food Stamps till Friday, and it's only Monday... and then I have to find someone who can take me to the grocery store, so I can actually get said food... Would anybody be able to help me out, please? Ugh... I sound like a freakin' beggar... Sorry you guys... I really hate asking for help... like I said in a previous journal, it's not humbling, it's humiliating...
And, as promised in the Title, I have some small updates for you.
I have been diagnosed with mild Mitral Valve Regurgitation, which means that one of the valves in my heart, isn't closing properly, when my heart beats... causing the blood, to flow back, in the wrong direction, occasionally. It's not too serious, at the moment, but if it continues to get worse, I will have to have surgery to repair it. It worries me, because my Mom's valves were all completely shot, when she passed away, nearly 6 months ago. At least they've caught it, with me, and we'll continue to keep an eye on it. I still haven't gotten the results back, from when I was wearing the C.A.M. Event Monitor, 2 weeks ago. I expect to hear back, sometime this week, to find out if my heart is the reason I keep getting super dizzy, and passing out, or nearly passing out. My Blood Pressure has been fairly normal, for the last week or so, but my heart still races, and my heart feels like it's "fluttering" from time to time, causing me to need to lie down, and rest. This is no r at all convenient, as I am still trying to get my house in order, and get thing clean, and orderly, so I can get my furniture in here, from my Mom's house. It's difficult enough trying to do all this, on my own, without feeling terrible while doing it.
Also, I had my appointment with the GI Specialist on May 4th, and I am now scheduled for a Diagnostic Endoscopy & Colonoscopy, on June 4th... I have to be on a clear, liquid diet, starting June 1st, so that I can be completely cleaned out, when I have the procedures done. Thankfully, I will be completely sedated with General Anesthesia, so I won't actually feel the procedures. I would be completely freaking out, if I had to be awake through them. So, I'm going to put Gatorade on my list, since I have to drink plenty of fluids, from June 1st through the early hours of June 4th. I have to drink that Miralax stuff, so that it will completely empty my digestive tract of any and all waste, before the tests. And I've tried to drink that stuff with water before, and it is really disgusting. I don't know how anyone drinks that stuff in just water... and that's usually all I ever drink! I've never been much of a soda drinker - I don't like how the carbonation feels. But I have learned to tolerate drinking Gatorade, as I tend to end up dehydrated fairly often, with my electrolytes all out of whack.
So... yeah... here's my Amazon List, if any of you feel led to help me out: https://www.amazon.com/gp/registry/...../15DW12GP4JKXK
Thanks so much guys, and thank you for reading!
MiLayna NEEDS Some Important Items
Posted 7 years agoUgh! I freaking hate this... I hate having to ask for help! It's not humbling, it's humiliating... I had to make a different Needs List on Amazon, because I felt like some Needs were more important than others, and I prioritized them, but everything on my "Dire Needs" List, is something I need right away... especially the supplements. Also, I had no idea that Hyaluronic Acid products were THIS pricey, but I'm literally scratching my skin off my body, I itch so badly. Thankfully, Amazon has them a lot cheaper, than retail places, in my area. But I still can't afford them... I've asked my brother for help, but he won't even help me get my roof fixed. He seriously doesn't care, if I end up dead. Maybe one day, I'll oblige him, and see how he feels then... he'll probably do the dance of joy... jerk... While he's off having a brand new back patio put in, complete with a built-in fire pit, I'm struggling to afford non-edible groceries (like toilet paper, and cat litter), and fix the things that really need to be fixed (like my roof, and a few months ago, my plumbing). He complains about not having any money, and yet he has his entire back patio redone, and screens in the space, underneath their Sun Porch? Yeah, that sounds like he's struggling to get by, to me... *rolls eyes*
Anyway, sorry for complaining so much about my brother, but his idea of struggling to get by, and my idea, of the same, are very different, obviously...
If any of you are able to help me out, I would greatly appreciate it. Here's the list Link: https://www.amazon.com/gp/registry/...../2TEXDFFPTFRQ4
Thanks for reading!
Anyway, sorry for complaining so much about my brother, but his idea of struggling to get by, and my idea, of the same, are very different, obviously...
If any of you are able to help me out, I would greatly appreciate it. Here's the list Link: https://www.amazon.com/gp/registry/...../2TEXDFFPTFRQ4
Thanks for reading!
The Struggle Is Real...
Posted 7 years agoHey guys...
I wanted to update y'all on some more stuff...
I made it to the store Monday, but I was only able to afford a 1/2 gallon of milk, and 2 gallons of water... I thought my SNAP Benefits would have already gone through, but apparently that won't be until later in the week, and I don't have a way to get to the store later in the week... I haven't been able to get to the Food Bank in several months, as my neighbor has had to work on the weekends. My cupboards are starting to get rather empty... I hate this feeling of being hungry. I don't have much of an appetite, since I started my newest pain medication, in November. And even when I am hungry, I often don't have the energy to prepare a meal for myself. I put together a short list of food items that are quick and easy to prepare, on an Amazon Grocery List. Sadly, Gluten-Free Food, is horrendously expensive, but I did find that it's a bit cheaper to buy on Amazon, than in the actual grocery store. If anyone would like to help me out, by buying me a meal or two, I would be so appreciative. I really don't like asking for help, but sometimes you just have to swallow your pride, and do what you need to do, to survive. Here's the link to my Amazon Grocery List: https://www.amazon.com/gp/registry/...../1AC5ZGO56KEIR
Now, I am also really struggling with my health, as you may have read, in some of my previous journals. My blood pressure has been really high, and so has my heart rate. Like my heart beats around 115-135 beats per minute, when I am lying down in my bed. This is causing me to become very dizzy, when I am sitting up, or standing, and on Friday, when my Ambulatory Collaborative Care Team, was here, helping me organize, and clean my house, I became so dizzy, that I fell. Thankfully, one of the gals caught hold of me, and I didn't crash to the floor, like I do, when nobody else is here. But this has been really concerning. I was supposed to have an Echocardiogram, on April 2nd, but I rescheduled it, for the 16th, because it snowed on the 2nd. As much as I would like answers about my questionable health, I decided to postpone the scan, in an attempt, to keep myself safe. Also, I've been feeling a bit more under the weather than usual, so I'm hoping, by the time the 16th rolls around, I will be feeling better.
I went to my Mom's again, on Monday... my brother and sister-in-law came to get ne, and took me over, so I could go through more stuff, and get it out of there. I was discussing things with my brother, who just kept shoving my chronic illness back in my face. I told him I was going down to Philadelphia on the 17th, for my Genetic Testing, and he kept asking me, what they were going to do for me, once they determined what chronic illness I have (Osteogenesis Imperfecta or Ehlers-Danlos Syndrome... or both). I told him that they would be able to treat the symptoms better, once they knew what they were dealing with. He asked me how... O.o" Sometimes, it's like talking to a brick wall! I told him that they would be able to find better medications, specifically tailored to my needs, based on how they can improve my quality of life. He said that Mom decided against going and having the genetic testing done, because she didn't feel that they could do anything to "fix" her. I don't expect anyone to "fix" me. But I'm half my Mother's age, and I would like to have a better quality of life! I told him, that as a person, who has never had to live with chronic pain, or illness, a day in his life, I didn't expect him to understand. But that I wanted a better quality of life. I don't want to sit on my couch, and waste my life, watching Fox News, like our Mom did. I want to be able to go out, and not feel like crap, every day. They can give me medications that will help to boost my collagen levels, and better medicarions, to manage my pain, once they can determine what will, and will not work for me, based on which illness I have. If I have Ehlers-Danlos, I will metabolize certain pain medications, more quickly, and they won't be as effective. If I have Osteogenesis Imperfecta, they can give me a medication, that will help to strengthen my bones, so that I don't end up with so many fractures. When I tried to explain this to my brother, he kept cutting me off, and telling me that he thought I was wasting my time. I don't consider it a waste of my time, to find out what my chronic conditions are, for certain, so that I can live a better life! He was like, "It's not my time, so I don't care... you do you... but don't complain about not wanting to go." I didn't complain about not wanting to go! I just said that I didn't want to go by myself, to a city that I'm unfamiliar with. I was going to tell him, that he only hears what he wants to hear, but again, it's like talking to a brick wall... he obviously has selective hearing, and only picks up, about half of everything I say. I told him what they would do for me, and then he said, "I was pretty sure you just said, 'I don't know!'..." Ugh! Talking to him is exhausting! I don't know why I bother. I thought he might care, since we're family, but he doesn't give a crap about me. All he cares about, is whether or not he can buy the latest new video game system, or remodel his house, some more (not that it needs it), while I'm struggling to afford groceries, and worrying about how I'm going to fix my roof! Oh yeah! It has been so windy here, that it has literally started blowing the shingles off my roof! I called my Insurance Company, to let them know what happened, and they were basically like, "Fix it yourself, because if it costs less than your deductible, you'll be paying for it, out of pocket, anyway, and you'll have a claim on your policy for the next 5 years." Uhmmm, I'm sorry, but isn't that what Insurance is for? So that you can get things repaired, when something happens? Why do we pay all this money, for something that we aren't even allowed to use?! It doesn't make sense to me! Am I the only person who thinks of these things? Geez! So, now, I have to find someone who can fix my roof, and when I told my brother about it, he was like, "Well that's what you get, for buying a trailer. It's meant to be mobile. It's not meant to just sit in one place. That's why they're called 'mobile homes'... that's why they cost half as much as as real house." Well, excuse me for not having money to buy a real house! I'm freaking disabled! It's not like I get overtime pay, or holiday bonuses! Jerk! There are days I'd like to punch my brother in the balls, but it wouldn't do any good. It would just make him hate me that much more, and I have much better things to spend my time, and energy on. Like living my own life. I feel like he and I have said all we can, to each other, and he has made it abundantly clear, that he doesn't care about me. I'm tired of trying, anymore. He isn't worth my time, or my precious energy, of which I have very little, as it is. I'll continue to pray for him, but I think I'm done trying to "make nice" with him. I'll be civil, as always, but why should I continue to try to cultivate a relationship with someone who doesn't give a damn about whether I live or die? He wouldn't care of I were homeless, or dying of cancer, so I'm done trying to make things "right" between us. I don't know what I ever did to him, to make him hate me so much, but he doesn't deny that he hates me. And he won't tell me what I can do, to "fix" things, between us. So, I'm not going to waste my time anymore. He doesn't want to help me, in any way, and he's not interested in being my brother, let alone, my friend. I wanted to make things work, for Mom's sake, but I know a lost cause, when I see one. It makes me sad, because family is supposed to be there for each other. But since our Mom passed, I have been utterly, and completely alone. I haven't even had a real chance to grieve the loss of her, because I'm trying to get everything moved out of her house, before he decides to throw everything away. I love my brother, and his family, but they have made it very clear, that they don't feel the same way. They have each other, for support, and I have nobody, but my online friends. Since I can't drive, I can't even visit my friends, across town. And they haven't even called to check on me, since Christmas... let me tell you, THAT is a lonely existence. I feel so alone, here. I just want someone to hug me, and tell me that everything will be ok, again, one day. But the reality is, that it will never be ok again... my Mom was my best friend, and she's gone. I miss her so much! đđ˘đ I'm so tired of fighting... I wish I could just join her, in Heaven. But I know I have things that God wants me to do here, still... so I'll just keep going through the motions, until I've completed whatever it is He wants me to do. And then, I will gratefully give up this life, and move on to Eternity with Him...
Geez... sorry... that turned really morbid, I guess... I'm just really tired, guys.... I'm tired of being in pain, and being sick, and I'm tired of trying to live a life, where all the odds are stacked against me. And I'm tired of feeling so alone, all the time. My heart hurts, and not just because I'm having heart health problems... If you guys think of it, send a prayer (or good vibes) my way. I appreciate every thought and sentiment. Thanks so much for reading, and again, sorry for this turning into more of a rant, than an update. I just want to keep you all informed of what I'm going through, here.
I wanted to update y'all on some more stuff...
I made it to the store Monday, but I was only able to afford a 1/2 gallon of milk, and 2 gallons of water... I thought my SNAP Benefits would have already gone through, but apparently that won't be until later in the week, and I don't have a way to get to the store later in the week... I haven't been able to get to the Food Bank in several months, as my neighbor has had to work on the weekends. My cupboards are starting to get rather empty... I hate this feeling of being hungry. I don't have much of an appetite, since I started my newest pain medication, in November. And even when I am hungry, I often don't have the energy to prepare a meal for myself. I put together a short list of food items that are quick and easy to prepare, on an Amazon Grocery List. Sadly, Gluten-Free Food, is horrendously expensive, but I did find that it's a bit cheaper to buy on Amazon, than in the actual grocery store. If anyone would like to help me out, by buying me a meal or two, I would be so appreciative. I really don't like asking for help, but sometimes you just have to swallow your pride, and do what you need to do, to survive. Here's the link to my Amazon Grocery List: https://www.amazon.com/gp/registry/...../1AC5ZGO56KEIR
Now, I am also really struggling with my health, as you may have read, in some of my previous journals. My blood pressure has been really high, and so has my heart rate. Like my heart beats around 115-135 beats per minute, when I am lying down in my bed. This is causing me to become very dizzy, when I am sitting up, or standing, and on Friday, when my Ambulatory Collaborative Care Team, was here, helping me organize, and clean my house, I became so dizzy, that I fell. Thankfully, one of the gals caught hold of me, and I didn't crash to the floor, like I do, when nobody else is here. But this has been really concerning. I was supposed to have an Echocardiogram, on April 2nd, but I rescheduled it, for the 16th, because it snowed on the 2nd. As much as I would like answers about my questionable health, I decided to postpone the scan, in an attempt, to keep myself safe. Also, I've been feeling a bit more under the weather than usual, so I'm hoping, by the time the 16th rolls around, I will be feeling better.
I went to my Mom's again, on Monday... my brother and sister-in-law came to get ne, and took me over, so I could go through more stuff, and get it out of there. I was discussing things with my brother, who just kept shoving my chronic illness back in my face. I told him I was going down to Philadelphia on the 17th, for my Genetic Testing, and he kept asking me, what they were going to do for me, once they determined what chronic illness I have (Osteogenesis Imperfecta or Ehlers-Danlos Syndrome... or both). I told him that they would be able to treat the symptoms better, once they knew what they were dealing with. He asked me how... O.o" Sometimes, it's like talking to a brick wall! I told him that they would be able to find better medications, specifically tailored to my needs, based on how they can improve my quality of life. He said that Mom decided against going and having the genetic testing done, because she didn't feel that they could do anything to "fix" her. I don't expect anyone to "fix" me. But I'm half my Mother's age, and I would like to have a better quality of life! I told him, that as a person, who has never had to live with chronic pain, or illness, a day in his life, I didn't expect him to understand. But that I wanted a better quality of life. I don't want to sit on my couch, and waste my life, watching Fox News, like our Mom did. I want to be able to go out, and not feel like crap, every day. They can give me medications that will help to boost my collagen levels, and better medicarions, to manage my pain, once they can determine what will, and will not work for me, based on which illness I have. If I have Ehlers-Danlos, I will metabolize certain pain medications, more quickly, and they won't be as effective. If I have Osteogenesis Imperfecta, they can give me a medication, that will help to strengthen my bones, so that I don't end up with so many fractures. When I tried to explain this to my brother, he kept cutting me off, and telling me that he thought I was wasting my time. I don't consider it a waste of my time, to find out what my chronic conditions are, for certain, so that I can live a better life! He was like, "It's not my time, so I don't care... you do you... but don't complain about not wanting to go." I didn't complain about not wanting to go! I just said that I didn't want to go by myself, to a city that I'm unfamiliar with. I was going to tell him, that he only hears what he wants to hear, but again, it's like talking to a brick wall... he obviously has selective hearing, and only picks up, about half of everything I say. I told him what they would do for me, and then he said, "I was pretty sure you just said, 'I don't know!'..." Ugh! Talking to him is exhausting! I don't know why I bother. I thought he might care, since we're family, but he doesn't give a crap about me. All he cares about, is whether or not he can buy the latest new video game system, or remodel his house, some more (not that it needs it), while I'm struggling to afford groceries, and worrying about how I'm going to fix my roof! Oh yeah! It has been so windy here, that it has literally started blowing the shingles off my roof! I called my Insurance Company, to let them know what happened, and they were basically like, "Fix it yourself, because if it costs less than your deductible, you'll be paying for it, out of pocket, anyway, and you'll have a claim on your policy for the next 5 years." Uhmmm, I'm sorry, but isn't that what Insurance is for? So that you can get things repaired, when something happens? Why do we pay all this money, for something that we aren't even allowed to use?! It doesn't make sense to me! Am I the only person who thinks of these things? Geez! So, now, I have to find someone who can fix my roof, and when I told my brother about it, he was like, "Well that's what you get, for buying a trailer. It's meant to be mobile. It's not meant to just sit in one place. That's why they're called 'mobile homes'... that's why they cost half as much as as real house." Well, excuse me for not having money to buy a real house! I'm freaking disabled! It's not like I get overtime pay, or holiday bonuses! Jerk! There are days I'd like to punch my brother in the balls, but it wouldn't do any good. It would just make him hate me that much more, and I have much better things to spend my time, and energy on. Like living my own life. I feel like he and I have said all we can, to each other, and he has made it abundantly clear, that he doesn't care about me. I'm tired of trying, anymore. He isn't worth my time, or my precious energy, of which I have very little, as it is. I'll continue to pray for him, but I think I'm done trying to "make nice" with him. I'll be civil, as always, but why should I continue to try to cultivate a relationship with someone who doesn't give a damn about whether I live or die? He wouldn't care of I were homeless, or dying of cancer, so I'm done trying to make things "right" between us. I don't know what I ever did to him, to make him hate me so much, but he doesn't deny that he hates me. And he won't tell me what I can do, to "fix" things, between us. So, I'm not going to waste my time anymore. He doesn't want to help me, in any way, and he's not interested in being my brother, let alone, my friend. I wanted to make things work, for Mom's sake, but I know a lost cause, when I see one. It makes me sad, because family is supposed to be there for each other. But since our Mom passed, I have been utterly, and completely alone. I haven't even had a real chance to grieve the loss of her, because I'm trying to get everything moved out of her house, before he decides to throw everything away. I love my brother, and his family, but they have made it very clear, that they don't feel the same way. They have each other, for support, and I have nobody, but my online friends. Since I can't drive, I can't even visit my friends, across town. And they haven't even called to check on me, since Christmas... let me tell you, THAT is a lonely existence. I feel so alone, here. I just want someone to hug me, and tell me that everything will be ok, again, one day. But the reality is, that it will never be ok again... my Mom was my best friend, and she's gone. I miss her so much! đđ˘đ I'm so tired of fighting... I wish I could just join her, in Heaven. But I know I have things that God wants me to do here, still... so I'll just keep going through the motions, until I've completed whatever it is He wants me to do. And then, I will gratefully give up this life, and move on to Eternity with Him...
Geez... sorry... that turned really morbid, I guess... I'm just really tired, guys.... I'm tired of being in pain, and being sick, and I'm tired of trying to live a life, where all the odds are stacked against me. And I'm tired of feeling so alone, all the time. My heart hurts, and not just because I'm having heart health problems... If you guys think of it, send a prayer (or good vibes) my way. I appreciate every thought and sentiment. Thanks so much for reading, and again, sorry for this turning into more of a rant, than an update. I just want to keep you all informed of what I'm going through, here.
Latest Update On My Life
Posted 7 years agoHey guys!
So, I haven't really posted in a while, about what's going on in my life. I had my blood labs redone, and it turns out I have Secondary Hyperparathyroidism. I have an appointment with a new doctor of Endocrinology, scheduled for May 14th... so I guess I won't know more, about this condition, until then.
Also, I have been having some major health concerns, regarding my digestive system, and urinary tract. I had to go to the hospital on March 16th, for a bunch of tests, including an ultrasound of my bladder. The tests looked normal, but my function was way off. I ended up, not being able to pee, for nearly 2 weeks! Talk about uncomfortable!
AND, I had my first Cardiology appointment on March 12th... the cardiologist I'm seeing takes the real "complex cases" which my Primary Care Doctor tells me I am... they tested me, and did an EKG on me, so they could determine whether my heart was in good shape, or not. They checked my blood pressure, lying down, sitting up, and standing, and my heart rate was pretty high, while lying down. I've been having dizzy spells, where sometimes I fall to the floor. So he wants to do an Echocardiogram, and monitor my heart for a week, with a small heart monitor, that I can push a button on, when I start feeling dizzy. It will be recording the whole time, but I can push the button, when I feel the symptoms worsen, so they can see exactly what is going on with my heart, when I have these spells. I have passed out a couple of times, and I have just become very dizzy, to the point of falling to the floor, several times. Each time this happens, as soon as I am able, I check my blood pressure, which has become unusually high, and my heart rate has become dangerously high, as well. My Primary Care Doctor thinks I may have Postural Orthostatic Tachycardia Syndrome (POTS), and that is why she has referred me to this particular Cardiologist. I was supposed to have my Echocardiogram on Monday, of this week, but when I woke up, there was 4 inches of snow on the ground, so I rescheduled it, for the 16th of April. I really wanted to get it out of the way, but the weather had other ideas. Well, God's timing is always perfect, so I'm sure that there is a reason for my having to postpone the test.
Then, the day after my Echocardiogram, I have to travel down to Philadelphia, to the University of Penn, for genetic testing, so they can properly diagnose my connective tissue disorder. O.o Lots and lots of testing and Doctor's Appointments! I just hope that I start getting some answers soon.
I also have an appointment with a Gastroenterologist, coming up on May 4th... I have been losing weight very rapidly, and I've been having some unpleasant abdominal discomfort. I had another Ultrasound on my entire Abdomen, on March 20th, and everything looked normal, but I'm still having pain, and nausea. My Primary Doctor checked me over, last Thursday, and she feels that my gallbladder may be causing me problems, even though it does not appear, that I have any gallstones, on the Ultrasound. She thinks that I need a Gallbladder Function Test, and that can only be ordered by a GI Specialist. So, I have that consult coming up, as well... So many issues! :/
So, that's what is going on, as far as my health is concerned, at the moment. Other things that are going on, are my needing to have all my belongings out of my Mom's house by May 31st, or my brother will dispose of them as he sees fit. I am struggling here, at home, because of my chronic illnesses, and my disability, to try to get things cleaned up and organized by myself. But I don't have any help. It's just me, working on this huge mess, that my brother and sister-in-law have left me with, in my Mobile Home. They should have helped me get the furniture in here, first, instead of loading my house full of boxes of things that I can't put away, because I have nowhere to go with them. They have done this whole thing completely backwards, and expect me to be able to get all this stuff done, on my own. There are days I wish I could just die, so that I don't have to worry about any of this anymore. I'm not suicidal, but I'm tired. I'm tired of fighting an uphill battle by myself. While I have blood relations, I don't feel I have any family. My only family died in November... My Mom was it. I don't have any support anymore. My health is failing, and nobody seems to care. I could die, and nobody would know until they finally came to my door, and I didn't answer. And that could be weeks... my "family" doesn't check on me, and I don't have any friends, in the area. I am utterly, and completely alone here. Isolated, secluded, and depressed beyond belief. I miss my Mom. I don't even feel I've had the time to grieve her, because I'm too busy trying to clean, organize, and survive... I don't know what I'm going to do, to get everything done, before May 31st. I feel helpless, and hopeless. I just wish I were healthier, so I could get more done...
If you guys think of it, pray for me. Or send me good vibes. Or whatever it is you do. Thanks for reading.
So, I haven't really posted in a while, about what's going on in my life. I had my blood labs redone, and it turns out I have Secondary Hyperparathyroidism. I have an appointment with a new doctor of Endocrinology, scheduled for May 14th... so I guess I won't know more, about this condition, until then.
Also, I have been having some major health concerns, regarding my digestive system, and urinary tract. I had to go to the hospital on March 16th, for a bunch of tests, including an ultrasound of my bladder. The tests looked normal, but my function was way off. I ended up, not being able to pee, for nearly 2 weeks! Talk about uncomfortable!
AND, I had my first Cardiology appointment on March 12th... the cardiologist I'm seeing takes the real "complex cases" which my Primary Care Doctor tells me I am... they tested me, and did an EKG on me, so they could determine whether my heart was in good shape, or not. They checked my blood pressure, lying down, sitting up, and standing, and my heart rate was pretty high, while lying down. I've been having dizzy spells, where sometimes I fall to the floor. So he wants to do an Echocardiogram, and monitor my heart for a week, with a small heart monitor, that I can push a button on, when I start feeling dizzy. It will be recording the whole time, but I can push the button, when I feel the symptoms worsen, so they can see exactly what is going on with my heart, when I have these spells. I have passed out a couple of times, and I have just become very dizzy, to the point of falling to the floor, several times. Each time this happens, as soon as I am able, I check my blood pressure, which has become unusually high, and my heart rate has become dangerously high, as well. My Primary Care Doctor thinks I may have Postural Orthostatic Tachycardia Syndrome (POTS), and that is why she has referred me to this particular Cardiologist. I was supposed to have my Echocardiogram on Monday, of this week, but when I woke up, there was 4 inches of snow on the ground, so I rescheduled it, for the 16th of April. I really wanted to get it out of the way, but the weather had other ideas. Well, God's timing is always perfect, so I'm sure that there is a reason for my having to postpone the test.
Then, the day after my Echocardiogram, I have to travel down to Philadelphia, to the University of Penn, for genetic testing, so they can properly diagnose my connective tissue disorder. O.o Lots and lots of testing and Doctor's Appointments! I just hope that I start getting some answers soon.
I also have an appointment with a Gastroenterologist, coming up on May 4th... I have been losing weight very rapidly, and I've been having some unpleasant abdominal discomfort. I had another Ultrasound on my entire Abdomen, on March 20th, and everything looked normal, but I'm still having pain, and nausea. My Primary Doctor checked me over, last Thursday, and she feels that my gallbladder may be causing me problems, even though it does not appear, that I have any gallstones, on the Ultrasound. She thinks that I need a Gallbladder Function Test, and that can only be ordered by a GI Specialist. So, I have that consult coming up, as well... So many issues! :/
So, that's what is going on, as far as my health is concerned, at the moment. Other things that are going on, are my needing to have all my belongings out of my Mom's house by May 31st, or my brother will dispose of them as he sees fit. I am struggling here, at home, because of my chronic illnesses, and my disability, to try to get things cleaned up and organized by myself. But I don't have any help. It's just me, working on this huge mess, that my brother and sister-in-law have left me with, in my Mobile Home. They should have helped me get the furniture in here, first, instead of loading my house full of boxes of things that I can't put away, because I have nowhere to go with them. They have done this whole thing completely backwards, and expect me to be able to get all this stuff done, on my own. There are days I wish I could just die, so that I don't have to worry about any of this anymore. I'm not suicidal, but I'm tired. I'm tired of fighting an uphill battle by myself. While I have blood relations, I don't feel I have any family. My only family died in November... My Mom was it. I don't have any support anymore. My health is failing, and nobody seems to care. I could die, and nobody would know until they finally came to my door, and I didn't answer. And that could be weeks... my "family" doesn't check on me, and I don't have any friends, in the area. I am utterly, and completely alone here. Isolated, secluded, and depressed beyond belief. I miss my Mom. I don't even feel I've had the time to grieve her, because I'm too busy trying to clean, organize, and survive... I don't know what I'm going to do, to get everything done, before May 31st. I feel helpless, and hopeless. I just wish I were healthier, so I could get more done...
If you guys think of it, pray for me. Or send me good vibes. Or whatever it is you do. Thanks for reading.
HAPPY EASTER!!!
Posted 7 years agoHey guys!
I just wanted to wish you all a Happy Easter! I hope everyone has a lovely weekend with family and/or friends! This is my first Easter without my Mom, so I'm struggling a bit, but I have to start getting used to not having anyone to spend the holidays with, anymore. While I still have family, I don't have any that actually care about me. They don't even check to see if I'm ok. But why should they? I don't mean anything to them... Meh... whatever. I can't wait till we sell Mom's house, so we can do what my brother said the day after she died... go our separate ways. He couldn't care less about me. Oh well... it's their loss. But I'm not gonna go outta my way, to just have my heart broken, over and over again, by him and his family. I don't need that. I just wish I had some nearby friends, to spend some time with... I have my cat. He's all the family I need, I guess... at least he doesn't scream at me, and make me sad. And he doesn't ignore me, either. I don't know what I would do, if I didn't have him... I guess I'd be pretty lonely...
Anyway, have a nice Holiday!
I just wanted to wish you all a Happy Easter! I hope everyone has a lovely weekend with family and/or friends! This is my first Easter without my Mom, so I'm struggling a bit, but I have to start getting used to not having anyone to spend the holidays with, anymore. While I still have family, I don't have any that actually care about me. They don't even check to see if I'm ok. But why should they? I don't mean anything to them... Meh... whatever. I can't wait till we sell Mom's house, so we can do what my brother said the day after she died... go our separate ways. He couldn't care less about me. Oh well... it's their loss. But I'm not gonna go outta my way, to just have my heart broken, over and over again, by him and his family. I don't need that. I just wish I had some nearby friends, to spend some time with... I have my cat. He's all the family I need, I guess... at least he doesn't scream at me, and make me sad. And he doesn't ignore me, either. I don't know what I would do, if I didn't have him... I guess I'd be pretty lonely...
Anyway, have a nice Holiday!
*UPDATE* Blood Lab Results! Oh NO!
Posted 7 years agoHey Guys,
So, I got a phone call, earlier, from my doctor's office, and the nurse told me that they got the results of my Blood Labs, from yesterday. It was a Fasting Test, so I didn't eat for 12 hours, and when my brother & sister-in-law came to take me to Mom's, to do some more cleaning out, of the house, I asked them, if they could take me to the lab, so I could get my tests done, that my PCP had ordered, for before I go and see the Cardiologist on March 19th. So, they dropped me off, and I was in and out, pretty quick, but I had to wait for them to come back and get me, because they had to go get their puppy, since she's too young to be left alone, at this point...
Anyway, so the results of my Blood Labs are high cholesterol and lipids, which is no surprise, considering my past numbers, and my family history, of high cholesterol. BUT, I have elevated Potassium, Calcium & CO2 levels in my blood, which IS indicative of a heart issue. My doctor wants me to follow through, with my appointment with the Cardiologist, on the 19th, and avoid Potassium-rich foods, like bananas, peaches, grapes, potatoes and a lot of green vegetables. So, now, I am even more limited in what I can eat, because of this problem. As if my Celiac, and food allergies didn't limit me enough? Ugh! I don't know what I can eat!
I'm really struggling, here, guys... I haven't even really had the chance to properly grieve the loss of my Mom, because of all the other stressors in my life (my health... or lack thereof... financial problems, having to clean out my Mom's house, etc.). My family doesn't seem to care, about what is going on in my life. I told them about my fainting spells, and they proceeded to berate me, for not knowing what was going on, and when I told them I have an appointment with the Cardiologist, and mentioned to my brother about our cousin dying at the age of 36, he argued with me, and said that our Mom had told him, that she had killed herself... I told him that she hadn't LITERALLY killed herself, that she hadn't taken her own life, but with her previous life choices, of eating disorders, and going from very thin, to very heavy, and back and forth, it had put a major strain, on her heart, and she died in her sleep. And he argued that I was wrong. I'm the one who keeps in touch with our family, on Mom's side. And her sister told me exactly what had happened. My cousin did NOT commit suicide! But you can't tell my brother anything, because he thinks he knows all, and is always right. He didn't even know anything about our Mom, when we were writing up her obituary! I had all the family history! I knew the names of our Grandparents, whom I had never even met! I listened to Mom's stories, and I have a memory, like a steel trap, for long term stuff. Tell me something right now? And I'll forget it in 5 minutes. But 5 years from now, I'll recall the exact thing you told me, and probably recall the time and date, as well (exaggerating just as little)... Ugh! But you get my point... my brother has lived illness his own little world, for 20 years, with his wife, and his own family. Which is great! I don't deny him that! But he basically ignored our Mom, to the very end. He was concerned about her, the last week of her life! I had listened to her every word, for the last 20 years. I called to talk to her, EVERY DAY! And we would talk for hours, and she would tell me stories about her younger years. Lord, if my brother knew half the stuff she told me, he'd probably have a stroke, right where he stood! And, then, when he was trying to plan out her service, he wanted his own memories of her, to be the ones that were shared. Even if they were 20 years out of date... he didn't know her, like I did! And he doesn't know ME, like SHE did. And at this rate, he never will. He just doesn't care! He has his own life to worry about, and who cares about his little sister?
Ugh! Sorry! I didn't mean for this to turn into a huge rant... but you see where my family is, now... it's you guys, here in the Furry Community. You guys are my family. I have never felt so loved, and cared about, by so many people, in all my life! My Mom lobed, and cared for, and understood me, but nobody else has ever taken the time, to listen to me. My brother has hated me, nearly my entire life, and I don't know why. I've talked to him about it, and he doesn't deny that it's true. And I've asked him why, and he either refuses to tell me, or he literally, just can't tell me, because he doesn't really know. But he and his wife have called me "too much"... What does that even mean??? They aren't the only ones who have said that to me, either... that I'm "too much"... I don't understand what that is supposed to mean. I mean, yes... my life is extremely comlex, and sometimes, it gets to be a bit much for ME to handle, but Love doesn't put a limit on who, or how much you give... so why do people try to limit it?
Meh... Whatevs... The point is, is that you guys are my family, and I love all of you! And I thank you very much, for loving, and caring about me, in return! You don't know how much that means to me.
(Sorry... this is a day late, being posted. I actually fell asleep, while typing it Oops!) Thanks for reading! If you have a mind or a heart to help out, in any way, I do have an Amazon NEEDS List: https://www.amazon.com/gp/registry/...../1XM2WNSCOTRPA
Thanks for bring so awesome!
So, I got a phone call, earlier, from my doctor's office, and the nurse told me that they got the results of my Blood Labs, from yesterday. It was a Fasting Test, so I didn't eat for 12 hours, and when my brother & sister-in-law came to take me to Mom's, to do some more cleaning out, of the house, I asked them, if they could take me to the lab, so I could get my tests done, that my PCP had ordered, for before I go and see the Cardiologist on March 19th. So, they dropped me off, and I was in and out, pretty quick, but I had to wait for them to come back and get me, because they had to go get their puppy, since she's too young to be left alone, at this point...
Anyway, so the results of my Blood Labs are high cholesterol and lipids, which is no surprise, considering my past numbers, and my family history, of high cholesterol. BUT, I have elevated Potassium, Calcium & CO2 levels in my blood, which IS indicative of a heart issue. My doctor wants me to follow through, with my appointment with the Cardiologist, on the 19th, and avoid Potassium-rich foods, like bananas, peaches, grapes, potatoes and a lot of green vegetables. So, now, I am even more limited in what I can eat, because of this problem. As if my Celiac, and food allergies didn't limit me enough? Ugh! I don't know what I can eat!
I'm really struggling, here, guys... I haven't even really had the chance to properly grieve the loss of my Mom, because of all the other stressors in my life (my health... or lack thereof... financial problems, having to clean out my Mom's house, etc.). My family doesn't seem to care, about what is going on in my life. I told them about my fainting spells, and they proceeded to berate me, for not knowing what was going on, and when I told them I have an appointment with the Cardiologist, and mentioned to my brother about our cousin dying at the age of 36, he argued with me, and said that our Mom had told him, that she had killed herself... I told him that she hadn't LITERALLY killed herself, that she hadn't taken her own life, but with her previous life choices, of eating disorders, and going from very thin, to very heavy, and back and forth, it had put a major strain, on her heart, and she died in her sleep. And he argued that I was wrong. I'm the one who keeps in touch with our family, on Mom's side. And her sister told me exactly what had happened. My cousin did NOT commit suicide! But you can't tell my brother anything, because he thinks he knows all, and is always right. He didn't even know anything about our Mom, when we were writing up her obituary! I had all the family history! I knew the names of our Grandparents, whom I had never even met! I listened to Mom's stories, and I have a memory, like a steel trap, for long term stuff. Tell me something right now? And I'll forget it in 5 minutes. But 5 years from now, I'll recall the exact thing you told me, and probably recall the time and date, as well (exaggerating just as little)... Ugh! But you get my point... my brother has lived illness his own little world, for 20 years, with his wife, and his own family. Which is great! I don't deny him that! But he basically ignored our Mom, to the very end. He was concerned about her, the last week of her life! I had listened to her every word, for the last 20 years. I called to talk to her, EVERY DAY! And we would talk for hours, and she would tell me stories about her younger years. Lord, if my brother knew half the stuff she told me, he'd probably have a stroke, right where he stood! And, then, when he was trying to plan out her service, he wanted his own memories of her, to be the ones that were shared. Even if they were 20 years out of date... he didn't know her, like I did! And he doesn't know ME, like SHE did. And at this rate, he never will. He just doesn't care! He has his own life to worry about, and who cares about his little sister?
Ugh! Sorry! I didn't mean for this to turn into a huge rant... but you see where my family is, now... it's you guys, here in the Furry Community. You guys are my family. I have never felt so loved, and cared about, by so many people, in all my life! My Mom lobed, and cared for, and understood me, but nobody else has ever taken the time, to listen to me. My brother has hated me, nearly my entire life, and I don't know why. I've talked to him about it, and he doesn't deny that it's true. And I've asked him why, and he either refuses to tell me, or he literally, just can't tell me, because he doesn't really know. But he and his wife have called me "too much"... What does that even mean??? They aren't the only ones who have said that to me, either... that I'm "too much"... I don't understand what that is supposed to mean. I mean, yes... my life is extremely comlex, and sometimes, it gets to be a bit much for ME to handle, but Love doesn't put a limit on who, or how much you give... so why do people try to limit it?
Meh... Whatevs... The point is, is that you guys are my family, and I love all of you! And I thank you very much, for loving, and caring about me, in return! You don't know how much that means to me.
(Sorry... this is a day late, being posted. I actually fell asleep, while typing it Oops!) Thanks for reading! If you have a mind or a heart to help out, in any way, I do have an Amazon NEEDS List: https://www.amazon.com/gp/registry/...../1XM2WNSCOTRPA
Thanks for bring so awesome!
Medical Concerns UPDATE *PLEASE READ*
Posted 7 years agoHey Guys!
So I went to my Doctor, yesterday, and my blood pressure was really high again! 140/100, and that is NOT normal for me. Ok, yes, I have been under quite a bit of stress lately, but not really any more than I have been, in the past, and I have ALWAYS had LOW blood pressure, all my life, except for when I'm in the middle of one of these "episodes" for lack of a better word. My heart racing lasted for around an hour, and I was lying on the bed, completely flat! My heart just kept pounding, and pounding! So, when I went to see my Doctor, for a follow-up, anyway, I brought this up to her. I was really honest with her, and told her that because these episodes are becoming more frequent, that they are really starting to scare me. I used to think it was my Hypoglycemia, but I think, maybe, I was misdiagnosed with that.
So, here is the plan of action, that my Doctor set for me:
She ordered a full blood panel work up, and has referred me to a Cardiologist, who "likes to take the more complex cases" since I have so many other issues, going on... I guess he likes the challenge... *Rolls Eyes* Yes, I have become one of "THOSE" patients. The ones who are really difficult to diagnose, due to all my other issues. Now, this could be brought on, by stress, with all that has been going on, in my life, with losing my Mom, so suddenly, not really having the proper time, to grieve, the way I need to (I'm still in that shock phase), having to deal with all the stuff, in my own house, like more Ratties dying, and not knowing why, and trying to get this place cleaned up, and organized, so that it can become a HOME, and not just a glorified storage unit. I've lived here over 2 and a half years, and I'm still not fully moved in! I don't even have my Dining Room Table here!!! And I don't have my important furniture, either! So, yeah... lots of stress. My Doctor seems to think that this is the main cause of my "Episodes" of syncope/near-syncope.
But, I have had episodes like this, in the past, also, when I wasn't really having a lot of stress... I mean, now that I look back at those times, I realize, that I WAS under a lot of stress, but, at the time, they didn't seem connected at all. Hence, being diagnosed with Hypoglycemia. But I can go hours, and sometimes days, without an actual meal, or even snacks, really, and I don't go around passing out. I get a little "Hangry" sometimes, but my blood pressure doesn't skyrocket, and I don't go passing out, whenever I miss a meal... in fact, more often, than not, I forget to eat! And the only time I finally notice that I'm hungry, is if my stomach starts chewing on itself, and screaming, "Remember me?! Feed me!" So, I'm more inclined to believe that I was misdiagnosed with the Hypoglycemia.
So, my Doctor thinks I need a stress test, but since I'm disabled, and unable to actually perform the "physical stress test" they will give me a chemical reaction test, where they will administer Dopamine (not too thrilled about this idea, as I'm allergic to so many medications), to make my heart race, like I've been working out, or, whatever. She was glad, that I went ahead, and ordered myself the Pulse Oximeter, because she sees that I am taking the proper measures, to ensure my own safety, and to gain a better understanding of what my body is doing, when I have these "Episodes"... She, of course, told me, that if I have any chest pains, or any symptoms of heart attack, or stroke, to call 911, and go directly to my nearest Emergency Room. Smart, right? If I had had any other symptoms, yesterday, other than nearly fainting, and my heart racing, I Would have called 911, and gone straight to the Hospital.
But, anyway, that is the uodate, for now. My appointment with the Cardiologist, is scheduled for March 19th. I just need to get to the blood lab and have this work-up, before I go for that appointment.
And THAT is the update, guys, thus far. I'll keep you posted, and I'll keep my NEEDS List up, on Amazon, so if any of you can help me out, in any way, it is greatly appreciated! Thanks, ever so much!
Hi. Check out this list: https://www.amazon.com/gp/registry/...../1XM2WNSCOTRPA
So I went to my Doctor, yesterday, and my blood pressure was really high again! 140/100, and that is NOT normal for me. Ok, yes, I have been under quite a bit of stress lately, but not really any more than I have been, in the past, and I have ALWAYS had LOW blood pressure, all my life, except for when I'm in the middle of one of these "episodes" for lack of a better word. My heart racing lasted for around an hour, and I was lying on the bed, completely flat! My heart just kept pounding, and pounding! So, when I went to see my Doctor, for a follow-up, anyway, I brought this up to her. I was really honest with her, and told her that because these episodes are becoming more frequent, that they are really starting to scare me. I used to think it was my Hypoglycemia, but I think, maybe, I was misdiagnosed with that.
So, here is the plan of action, that my Doctor set for me:
She ordered a full blood panel work up, and has referred me to a Cardiologist, who "likes to take the more complex cases" since I have so many other issues, going on... I guess he likes the challenge... *Rolls Eyes* Yes, I have become one of "THOSE" patients. The ones who are really difficult to diagnose, due to all my other issues. Now, this could be brought on, by stress, with all that has been going on, in my life, with losing my Mom, so suddenly, not really having the proper time, to grieve, the way I need to (I'm still in that shock phase), having to deal with all the stuff, in my own house, like more Ratties dying, and not knowing why, and trying to get this place cleaned up, and organized, so that it can become a HOME, and not just a glorified storage unit. I've lived here over 2 and a half years, and I'm still not fully moved in! I don't even have my Dining Room Table here!!! And I don't have my important furniture, either! So, yeah... lots of stress. My Doctor seems to think that this is the main cause of my "Episodes" of syncope/near-syncope.
But, I have had episodes like this, in the past, also, when I wasn't really having a lot of stress... I mean, now that I look back at those times, I realize, that I WAS under a lot of stress, but, at the time, they didn't seem connected at all. Hence, being diagnosed with Hypoglycemia. But I can go hours, and sometimes days, without an actual meal, or even snacks, really, and I don't go around passing out. I get a little "Hangry" sometimes, but my blood pressure doesn't skyrocket, and I don't go passing out, whenever I miss a meal... in fact, more often, than not, I forget to eat! And the only time I finally notice that I'm hungry, is if my stomach starts chewing on itself, and screaming, "Remember me?! Feed me!" So, I'm more inclined to believe that I was misdiagnosed with the Hypoglycemia.
So, my Doctor thinks I need a stress test, but since I'm disabled, and unable to actually perform the "physical stress test" they will give me a chemical reaction test, where they will administer Dopamine (not too thrilled about this idea, as I'm allergic to so many medications), to make my heart race, like I've been working out, or, whatever. She was glad, that I went ahead, and ordered myself the Pulse Oximeter, because she sees that I am taking the proper measures, to ensure my own safety, and to gain a better understanding of what my body is doing, when I have these "Episodes"... She, of course, told me, that if I have any chest pains, or any symptoms of heart attack, or stroke, to call 911, and go directly to my nearest Emergency Room. Smart, right? If I had had any other symptoms, yesterday, other than nearly fainting, and my heart racing, I Would have called 911, and gone straight to the Hospital.
But, anyway, that is the uodate, for now. My appointment with the Cardiologist, is scheduled for March 19th. I just need to get to the blood lab and have this work-up, before I go for that appointment.
And THAT is the update, guys, thus far. I'll keep you posted, and I'll keep my NEEDS List up, on Amazon, so if any of you can help me out, in any way, it is greatly appreciated! Thanks, ever so much!
Hi. Check out this list: https://www.amazon.com/gp/registry/...../1XM2WNSCOTRPA
Medical Concerns! *PLEASE READ*
Posted 7 years agoHey Guys!
So, I just had an episode of pre-syncope, where I just bent over for a second, to get my Datebook, out of my backpack, and stood back up, and went to walk into my bedroom. I FELL ON THE FLOOR!!! I just ordered a Pulse Oximeter, off of Amazon, but I need something, so I can check my blood pressure, more often. It has been higher, lately, and I don't know if it's from the pain, from the injury I sustained, when I fell January 12th, or the stress of dealing with my Mom's passing, and the subsequent cleaning out of her house (and my own), or just all the stuff that has been going on with me, medically, anyway. But it's getting scary, since I don't know when it's going to happen, or why. And if I keep falling down, I'm going to seriously injure myself, to the point, where I will not be able to live in my own home! I have a cat, and pet rats, who depend on me, to take care of them!
I just really don't like this! I have a Doctor's Appointment, today, and I will bring this up to her, but I'd really appreciate, is somebody could help me with the Blood Pressure Cuff? I can't thank you guys enough,for helping me out, with all the things, you and ready have! The Furry Community is so amazing! I love you guys!
Here's the link to my Amazon NEEDS List: https://www.amazon.com/gp/registry/...../1XM2WNSCOTRPA
So, I just had an episode of pre-syncope, where I just bent over for a second, to get my Datebook, out of my backpack, and stood back up, and went to walk into my bedroom. I FELL ON THE FLOOR!!! I just ordered a Pulse Oximeter, off of Amazon, but I need something, so I can check my blood pressure, more often. It has been higher, lately, and I don't know if it's from the pain, from the injury I sustained, when I fell January 12th, or the stress of dealing with my Mom's passing, and the subsequent cleaning out of her house (and my own), or just all the stuff that has been going on with me, medically, anyway. But it's getting scary, since I don't know when it's going to happen, or why. And if I keep falling down, I'm going to seriously injure myself, to the point, where I will not be able to live in my own home! I have a cat, and pet rats, who depend on me, to take care of them!
I just really don't like this! I have a Doctor's Appointment, today, and I will bring this up to her, but I'd really appreciate, is somebody could help me with the Blood Pressure Cuff? I can't thank you guys enough,for helping me out, with all the things, you and ready have! The Furry Community is so amazing! I love you guys!
Here's the link to my Amazon NEEDS List: https://www.amazon.com/gp/registry/...../1XM2WNSCOTRPA
A Huge Thank You!
Posted 7 years agoHey guys!
I would like to thank whoever it was, who purchased items from my Amazon NEEDS Wishlist! It was obviously more than one person, because one package came, and not everything that disappeared from my list, was in it.
And, to whomever purchased my Vogmask? Thank you so very much! It has not arrived yet, but I know it will be here soon. I just hope I don't get sick, before it gets here. I've started with my semi-annual bout of Bronchitis, but, it's not too bad yet. It's just my barking, cough...
Anyway, though, THANK YOU SO VERY MUCH for being so kind, generous, and caring! I appreciate your help, more than I can say! My NEEDS List has shrunken, and that is amazing to me! I've said it before, and I'll say it again, "The Furry Community never ceases to amaze me!"
For anyone else, wishing to help, here is the link to my Amazon NEEDS List: https://www.amazon.com/gp/registry/...../1XM2WNSCOTRPA
Tha k You, again, and God Bless You, All!
I would like to thank whoever it was, who purchased items from my Amazon NEEDS Wishlist! It was obviously more than one person, because one package came, and not everything that disappeared from my list, was in it.
And, to whomever purchased my Vogmask? Thank you so very much! It has not arrived yet, but I know it will be here soon. I just hope I don't get sick, before it gets here. I've started with my semi-annual bout of Bronchitis, but, it's not too bad yet. It's just my barking, cough...
Anyway, though, THANK YOU SO VERY MUCH for being so kind, generous, and caring! I appreciate your help, more than I can say! My NEEDS List has shrunken, and that is amazing to me! I've said it before, and I'll say it again, "The Furry Community never ceases to amaze me!"
For anyone else, wishing to help, here is the link to my Amazon NEEDS List: https://www.amazon.com/gp/registry/...../1XM2WNSCOTRPA
Tha k You, again, and God Bless You, All!
MiLayna NEEDS Some Important Items
Posted 7 years agoHey guys!
**UPDATE - 1/28/2018**
Somebody, did purchase the Vogmask I needed, off my list. I checked a little while ago, and the item had disappeared off my Wish List, on Amazon. Thank you, to whomever it was, that was so generous, in getting this new tool for me, in my defence against chronic illness! I can't tell you how much I appreciate it! I may even get it, in time, for my next appointment, on Wednesday!
As most of you, may know, I am chronically ill/disabled. Not only does that mean that I can also become ill, quicker than most people, but being on a Disability income, makes it tough to get by...
As many of you, also know, my Mom just passed away, in November, and she used to help me out, quite a bit, financially...
My car has needed to be inspected, since November, and still sits outside my house... sadly, now with a dead battery. The negative temperatures finally just made the battery die, even though I was starting the car every other day, to avoid that very thing...
Anyway, this isn't really about my car, exactly... I have to ride on a shared-ride bus, to get to my doctor's appointments, now, and there are a lot of sick people, where I live. The flu is running rampant here, and the flu vaccine does not work on this particularly nasty strain of the flu. Because I am spending so much time in doctor's offices, and on semi-public transportation, I am at a higher risk of becoming ill. And when I get ill, I end up in the hospital. So far, staying in my house this Winter, has proven very effective against catching anything. But, now, because I had a fall, a few weeks ago, I have had 4 appointments just this week, and I have had to ride the bus to and from those appointments.
Because my Mom is no longer around, to help take care of me, AND my animals, when I become ill, I can't afford to GET ill... my cat, and my remaining 3 rats, depend on me. So I can't wind up in the hospital.
I was wondering, if anyone would be willing to purchase an item from my Amazon Wishlist/Needs List. Everything on the list, is something I need, for my health, or for around my home, that I am just too financially strapped, to purchase on my own. Here is the link to my List: Check out this list: https://www.amazon.com/gp/registry/...../1XM2WNSCOTRPA
M11 Allergy Mask - Gray Tiger - Adult (Available in Child and Adult) https://www.amazon.com/dp/B00N9C37Q....._9O0AAbMHKN658 is one thing I am in need of, to keep me healthy, should I ever find myself at another Furry Convention, like Anthrocon, again. I know that the Tiger mask (it could SO be a Snow Leopard Face, as well), would help to keep me from catching "Con Crud"... I also have asthma, and seasonal allergies, so this will also help to filter those things out, come Spring, and Summer, so that my asthma won't be as severe.
If anyone would be willing to help, I'd really appreciate it! If the items are purchased directly from my Wish List, they will disappear, so that I don't receive more than one of something, just in case there are several of you, willing to be generous.
Thank you, and God Bless! May you all stay healthy, as well!
**UPDATE - 1/28/2018**
Somebody, did purchase the Vogmask I needed, off my list. I checked a little while ago, and the item had disappeared off my Wish List, on Amazon. Thank you, to whomever it was, that was so generous, in getting this new tool for me, in my defence against chronic illness! I can't tell you how much I appreciate it! I may even get it, in time, for my next appointment, on Wednesday!
As most of you, may know, I am chronically ill/disabled. Not only does that mean that I can also become ill, quicker than most people, but being on a Disability income, makes it tough to get by...
As many of you, also know, my Mom just passed away, in November, and she used to help me out, quite a bit, financially...
My car has needed to be inspected, since November, and still sits outside my house... sadly, now with a dead battery. The negative temperatures finally just made the battery die, even though I was starting the car every other day, to avoid that very thing...
Anyway, this isn't really about my car, exactly... I have to ride on a shared-ride bus, to get to my doctor's appointments, now, and there are a lot of sick people, where I live. The flu is running rampant here, and the flu vaccine does not work on this particularly nasty strain of the flu. Because I am spending so much time in doctor's offices, and on semi-public transportation, I am at a higher risk of becoming ill. And when I get ill, I end up in the hospital. So far, staying in my house this Winter, has proven very effective against catching anything. But, now, because I had a fall, a few weeks ago, I have had 4 appointments just this week, and I have had to ride the bus to and from those appointments.
Because my Mom is no longer around, to help take care of me, AND my animals, when I become ill, I can't afford to GET ill... my cat, and my remaining 3 rats, depend on me. So I can't wind up in the hospital.
I was wondering, if anyone would be willing to purchase an item from my Amazon Wishlist/Needs List. Everything on the list, is something I need, for my health, or for around my home, that I am just too financially strapped, to purchase on my own. Here is the link to my List: Check out this list: https://www.amazon.com/gp/registry/...../1XM2WNSCOTRPA
M11 Allergy Mask - Gray Tiger - Adult (Available in Child and Adult) https://www.amazon.com/dp/B00N9C37Q....._9O0AAbMHKN658 is one thing I am in need of, to keep me healthy, should I ever find myself at another Furry Convention, like Anthrocon, again. I know that the Tiger mask (it could SO be a Snow Leopard Face, as well), would help to keep me from catching "Con Crud"... I also have asthma, and seasonal allergies, so this will also help to filter those things out, come Spring, and Summer, so that my asthma won't be as severe.
If anyone would be willing to help, I'd really appreciate it! If the items are purchased directly from my Wish List, they will disappear, so that I don't receive more than one of something, just in case there are several of you, willing to be generous.
Thank you, and God Bless! May you all stay healthy, as well!
Super Long Meme! But Asks Some Good Questions!
Posted 7 years ago1.) Whatâs better, having high expectations or having lower expectations?
Lower, because when things don't happen the way you hope for, you're not disappointed.
2.) Would you rather go without junk food for a year or go without TV for a year?
TV. I rarely watch tv, anyway, but I gotta have my Chocolate.
3.) Describe your perfect man/woman.
Honest, Caring, Gentle, Helpful, Funny, Deep Eyes, Cat & Rat Lover, Likes to Cuddle.
4.)Thoughts on school dress codes?
On one hand, school uniforms are equalizing. Nobody can have "better clothes" than anyone else. But on the other hand, they take away kids ability to express themselves, in a way.
5.)Any phobias?
No, not really. I'm not a big fan of clowns or aliens, but I'm not afraid of them.
6.)At what job do you see Donald Trump best fitting?
Any job he really sets his mind to... maybe he should work for Twitter...
7.) Who was your first crush?
Kermit the Frog (no lie)
8.) Who was your first best friend?
Topher Neidig
9.)What is one weird thing about you?
Only one? Uhmmmm.... I don't like my food to touch, on my plate, unless it's made its casserole form.
10.) Top 5 TV shows you like to watch?
RWBY, Sleepy Hollow, Bones, Gilmore Girls, Avatar: The Last Airbender,
11.) What are your favorite boys names?
Christopher, Matthew, Hunter
12.) What are your favorite girls names?
Cadence, Mikaela, Hope
13.) Do you have any tattoos? If so, what are they?
Yes. I have 2 Celtic Knots in the center of my back.
14.) Do you plan on getting (more) tattoos? If so, what do you want to get as of the moment?
I would like to. I want to get my Heart Rat, Ruby, tattooed over my heart.
15.) Do you have any piercings? Do you plan on getting more?
Just 2 in each ear. And no. I think I have enough holes in my body, thank you very much.
16.) Do you like hugging people?
Sometimes. It depends on the person, I guess.
17.) Think of ANY person on Earth right now. Who did you think of?
My first thought was of my Mom, but it says on Earth, so I immediately think of my Sissy.
18.) Do you have an iPhone?
No. I hate Apple Products.
19.) What is the worst thing that could happen in your life right now?
I don't want to jinx myself, so I refuse to answer.
20.) Do you watch anime?
Yes
21.) What brings true happiness?
The Love of Friends & Family
22.) What is the most expensive thing youâve ever paid for?
My House
23.) If you could have any job in the world and get paid millions of dollars a year for it, what would you be and why?
A Medical Researcher, so I could cure people of chronic illnesses/chronic pain
24.) Do you want children? If so, how many?
I did... I wanted 2 boys and a girl, but sadly I had a full hysterectomy in 2012
25.) Name and describe someone who you feel most comfortable around.
Amy. I can be myself with her. She listens, and is understanding, and compassionate, and she loves me, no matter what. We're always there for each other.
26.)If you could invent a holiday, what would it be?
Uhmmmm....? World Book Day? And everyone would give and receive books as gifts?
27.)Would you rather have summer weather or winter weather all year round?
Mild Summer Weather. Nothing too hot, and minimal humidity. Extreme temperatures are bad, either way, but I really hate snow.
28.) If you could make an alien race, describe what they would look like.
I already did. She's my Main Fursona. They are intergalactic cat people, who can walk through time & space.
29.) What was the first thing you learned to cook?
Pillsbury Biscuit Mini Pizzas, in the Toaster Oven
30.) Describe your sense of humor.
Dark, somewhat morbid
31.) What is the key to happiness?
Finding the humor in any situation, even in the worst of times.
32.) How many phone numbers do you have committed to memory? Whose numbers are they?
Too many to list. Some of the numbers are from when I was a kid, so they are for the parents of friends, I had in Elementary School.
33.) Name three songs that make you want to dance.
I don't really know. Most music makes me want to dance, if it has a good enough beat. I shake it to the music in the grocery store, sometimes! LOL
34.) What job did you want to have as a child?
I wanted to be a Veterinarian.
35.) Do you have any talents or skills?
I have a talent for remembering random information. Some is useful, but most of it, is just random, useless knowledge.
36.) What was the worst punishment youâve ever had?
Being spanked with a belt.
37.) Did you ever do anything weird as a child?
Uhmmm... what child didn't? But personally, I sucked my thumb till I was 17.
38.) What is your dream car?
Anything that runs, and gets good gas mileage! Either a Nissan Altima, or a Subaru Outback or Forrester
39.) Describe something that made you laugh
My Mom & I always laughed. About lots of stuff. I used to tell people that when she passed away, I wanted her Shoulder Implant, and that I would use it as a paperweight. Then, when people would say, "That's an interesting paperweight. What is it?" I would say, "My Mom's Shoulder." I got to keep it, when she passed away, in November.
40.) Did you have a dream last night? If so, describe it.
I did. And I was avoiding the matchmaker, so she couldn't set me up with some random man. But then, when I saw all the happy women, with their men, I would get sad. So I went in search of a man for myself, and I was at a party, and I danced with a widower. He was far too old for me, but he was searching for a new wife. The matchmaker found me, and tried to set us up, and I ran. But everywhere I went, I saw happy couples, and I felt like they were all staring at me.
41.) Do you ever have repetitive dreams? Describe it/them.
Yes. I often dream I'm back in High School, AFTER I've already graduated, and when I get tired of being there, I'm like, "Why am I even here?! I already graduated, for goodness sake!"
42.) Describe the worst/ scariest dream youâve ever had.
A dream about a rock monster, chasing me around the playground at school, and a hole following me, for the rock monster to chase me into.
43.) Describe the best dream youâve ever had.
Seeing my Mom in Heaven, with my son, that I miscarried.
44.) If God theirself gave you a choice of either having unlimited money for the rest of your life or finding your one true gift, what would it be?
It sounds selfish, probably, but I would want the money, because then I could help others with it, once I was able to make sure that all my bills were paid up. And I could find my own true gifts.
45.) If you could do anything (and I mean ANYTHING) right now without consequences, what would you do and why?
It sounds awful, but I would rob a bank, and pay off all my debts.
46.) Do you have any recipes that you know off the top of your head? What is it/ what are they?
Yes. One of my favorites:
Beef Rice Bake
1lb. Ground Beef
1 packet Onion Soup Mix
1 15oz. Can Diced Tomatoes
3/4 Cup of uncooked Rice
1 & 1/2 Cups Boiling Water
1/2 Cup Shredded Cheddar Cheese
Brown the beef in a pan on the stove. Drain excess fat. Preheat oven to 350°F. Boil the water, while you are rinsing and draining the rice, in a sieve. Once meat is browned, add the soup mix, rice, tomatoes, and water, and simmer for 2 minutes on the stovetop, mixing all ingredients, thoroughly. Prepare a 3 Quart Casserole Dish, with a lid, and pour the mixture into the casserole dish. Bake covered (if your casserole, doesn't have a lid, use aluminum foil), for 55 minutes. Uncover, and sprinkle the cheese, generously, over the top of the casserole. Put back in the oven for 5 minutes, or until the cheese is melted. Remove from oven, and serve hot. Enjoy!
For a Mexican take, on this dish, add a can of Black Beans, and a Can of Whole Kernel Corn, and substitute the tomatoes with a 16oz. Jar of Mild or Medium Salsa, depending on your own personal taste. You can use a Mexican 4 Cheese Blend, instead of the Cheddar, if desired. I love this dish, both ways. Also, for a leaner dish, you can use 1lb. of Ground Turkey, instead of the Beef.
47.) Do you have your license? If so, do you have a car?
Yes, and yes.
48.) Have you ever had a near death experience?
Yes. Several, in fact.
49.) Do you personally know anyone that has been to prison?
Yes. A few of my friends have been to prison. Two were even falsely accused, but they did the time, and are closer to God, for having been there.
50.) Have you ever been in a physical fight?
Yes.
51.) When you get out of the shower, do you towel dry, blow dry, or air dry your hair?
I towel dry it until it's just damp, and then let it air dry, the rest of the way.
52.) When you go to the movies, what snacks and drinks do you take with you?
I always have a bottle of water with me, everywhere I go. Sometimes I will sneak my own popcorn in, because I'm allergic to Movie Theater Popcorn.
53.) Do you like going to the beach? If so, do you like to stay dry or go in the water? If not, why?
I love the beach. But I stay out of the water, unless I can physically see the bottom, clearly (like in the Gulf of Mexico). I have been caught in the undertow, 3 times, and nearly drowned, so I have a healthy respect for the Ocean.
54.) Do you untie your shoes when you take them off?
When they're brand new, I do.
55.) If you could have a superpower ASIDE from being invisible or being able to fly, what would you have?
The ability to heal people/animals, even from mortal wounds.
56.) If you were able to live for however long you wanted to (iâm talking thousands of years without aging), when would you choose to die?
When I feel I've had a full life. If I've could share my life with others, including children that I could adopt, since I am physically unable to have children, I would want to help as many children as possible, or feel like they are not alone, and that they are loved.
57.) What do you think happens after you die?
I believe we go to Heaven.
58.) Do you believe in aliens?
Yes, because it's pretty arrogant, to think that we are the only living beings in the Universe.
59.) Do you believe in ghosts?
Yes.
60.) Do you believe in spiritual things like ouija boards, tarot cards, and crystals? Do you believe they are portals for evil entities to enter the mortal world?
I believe that these things have energy of their own. And I believe in the existence of evil. I believe that they possibly COULD open a pathway, for evil entities, to gain entry into the mortal world. But I also believe that evil already exists here.
61.) If you could make one mythical being real, who/what would you make?
A Gryphon, because they're beautiful, again they can fly.
62.) Do you get tan, or do you burn?
I burn really badly, peel, and turn white, again...
63.) Describe your shower routine.
I turn the water on, just so it's warm, and get my hair and body wet. I turn off the water. I put soap on the washcloth, or bath poof, and I scrub my body, thoroughly, with the water off, starting from the top, and working my way down to my feet. Then I turn the water back on, and rinse my body AND the washcloth of soap, and use the washcloth to thoroughly rinse the soap off. Then I wash my hair, and my face, and I wash my hair a second time, because I have super oily hair. Then I rinse thoroughly again, and get out of the shower and dry myself.
64.) Do you enjoy school? Why or why not?
No. I did not like school. I was bullied again lot, and I hated math and history.
65.) In your opinion, what is the worst way to die?
Slowly, and painfully, from an untreatable terminal illness.
66.) Do you get carsick, sea sick, or airplane sickness?
I get carsick, if I sit in the back seat, or I try to do something, like read, during a car trip. I don't get sea sick, but once I get off of the boat, and I'm on land, once again, that's when I feel queasy.
67.) Whatâs one memory that you wish you could live again and again?
Spending my 27th Birthday with my Mom, at the Renaissance Faire.
68.) What were some of your stuffed animals' names from when you were a kid?
Stoly, at stuffed sheep (whom I still have), Pinky, I think she was some sort of guinea pig, or something, but she was this puffy little pink blob, with a cute face, and little stubby arms, legs, a tail, and ears... Teddy-So-Soft, my first teddy bear, Paws, my teddy bear I got for my 10th Birthday, and Ian, another teddy bear.
69.)Do you have any pets?
Yes. A cat, and Pet Rats
70.) Describe your daily wardrobe.
Usually it's just pajamas, since I'm disabled, and don't leave the house much. But when I do go out, it's usually jeans and a t-shirt.
71.) Describe what your daily wardrobe would be if you were rich.
It would be the same.
72.) Have you ever had surgery?
Yes. Several, actually.
73.)What was the last thing you bought?
Paper Towels, Tissues, Cat Litter, Spring Water and Milk
74.) Have you ever bought a CD? What band was it for?
Uhmmmm.... Yes! Tons of them! My favorite bands to listen to, that I have the most CD's of, are The Monkees, The Newsboys, The Waiting, Casting Crowns
75.) Describe your perfect ice cream sundae.
Warm Gluten-Free Brownie, topped with Vanilla Ice Cream, a drizzle of Hershey's Special Dark Syrup, Chocolate Whipped Cream, and Chocolate Jimmies (the long sprinkles).
76.) If you could make ANYTHING happen right now with no cost, trouble, or obstacles, what would you do?
I would have my home made more handicap accessible, and I would get a shed, for all my garden supplies, and my bicycle.
77.) What are some of your favorite physical activities to do?
I can't really do them now, because of my disabiities, but biking, rollerblading, rock climbing, hiking, and swimming.
78.) What were some of your favorite shows as a child?
The Muppet Show, Fraggle Rock, Today's Special, Pinwheel, and the original Teenage Mutant Ninja Turtles cartoon.
79.) Describe how you would survive the zombie apocalypse.
I would turn my house onto one giant "Panic Room" and stock it really well with food and water, and just wait it out.
80.)What are some things you shouldnât do or say at work?
Don't have sex at work. Don't talk about sex at work. Ever.
81.) If you were told that if you killed someone, you would save 100 people, would you do it?
Depends on if the person who told me that, was trustworthy or not.
82.) Howâs the weather right now?
It's snowing, and cold.
83.) What is the background on your cell phone right now?
It's a picture of my Heart Rat, Ruby
84.)Is it better to work at a job that you love or a job that pays well?
A job you love, because if you hate your job, then no amount of money is worth it.
85.) What do you have within arms reach of your bed?
My CPAP, my Medicine, Water Bottle, my Bluetooth, Epi-pens, Inhaler, First Aid Kit, Remote for my Spinal Cord Stimulator, Remote for my Sleep Number Bed, Chocolate, Granola Bars.
86.) Have you ever been fired from a job? If so, why?
.Yes. I was wrongfully fired, for something I didn't do. On my "pink slip" it says I had a sexually explicit conversation, with a customer, which did NOT happen!
87.) Have you ever won a trophy, prize, or medal? If so, for what?
I won 2 trophies for my Pinewood Derby Cars, I won several prizes for school fund-raisers, and I've won a ton of art from raffles, here on FA.
88.) Do you have any posters, pictures, or art hanging on your walls in your room? If so, what are they?
I have some art of my Fursona on my walls, and a black and white drawing of Thor (Chris Hemsworth), with only his eyes colored in blue.
89.) Are you afraid of the dark? If so, why?
No. I love the dark.
90.)What is something that youâve never done but would like to try?
Sky Diving
91.) If you could choose three famous people or characters to be friends with, who would you choose and why?
Stan Lee, because we've already met, and he's awesome.
Patrick Stewart, because we've also, already met, already he plays some of the other incredible characters, and he has a sexy accent. He's a genuinely joyful man, who absolutely loves what he does.
Emma Watson, because she's a very strong, kind, and witty woman, and she seems like she would be a really fun person to hang out with.
92.) Do you smile at strangers when you pass by them on the street?
Yes I do, because I might be the only smile they see all day.
93.) Do you have a favorite TV commercial? If so, what is it?
The Energizer Bunny Commercials.
94.) Do you like your handwriting?
Yes, when I don't write too fast.
95.) Cable TV or Netflix?
Netflix
96.) What are your favorite smells?
Clean Laundry, Anything with Garlic, Chocolate, Pumpkin Spice
97.) Do you consider yourself physically strong?
Yes, because I am in pain, every day of my life, and I power through my pain, and keep living through it, instead of giving up.
98.) Describe a time where you said something really rude or mean, whether intentional or not.
I told someone that they would not make a good father, because they were abusive.
99.) Do you ask strangers to pet their dogs?
No, because I'm allergic to dogs.
100.)What is your most embarrassing moment?
One that sticks out in my mind, the most, is when I was at Anthrocon 2015, and I was going to meet someone I admired, in person, for the first time, and 10 minutes after we met, I passed out, on the dance floor, from the strobe lights. I was so embarrassed, and I didn't think he would ever talk to me again. But he did, and we're pretty good friends! So, YAY! Happy Ending!
101.) Has anyone really close to you ever died? If so, who was it and how did you handle it?
I have lost several people, close to me. The most recent, being my Mom. I think I'm handling it, pretty well. I mean, I'm not jumping for joy, and I still cry some days, but it only happened 2 months ago... so... yeah......
102.) Describe your plan of action if you were home alone and you heard someone break into your house.
I have a firearm, and the clips are always loaded. They aren't IN the gun, unless I'm carrying, but I would call 911, and be as quiet as possible, and if they came toward me, if would use my pistol, to try to scare them off. If if had to shoot them, if would, but I think just having the gun aimed at them would make them turn tail, and run.
103.) If you were to be born again, would you want to be born male or female?
Male, so I wouldn't have to deal with monthly female troubles...
104.) What shampoo do you use?
Any 2 in 1, but usually VO5
105.) Guess the meaning of this word: ulotrichous.
Uhmmm.... I know it has something to do with hair, because of the "trich" part... I think the ulo, is like course or curly? Like African-American Hair?
106.) Do you let messages (phone, email, text, social media, etcâŚ) build up, or do you have to look at them right away?
I usually check my texts right away, but other messages, I rarely check.
107.) Where is the nearest McDonalds to your house?
About a mile from here, in either direction. There are two, in my immediate area.
108.) If you had $1 billion and you had to spend it in exactly one week, what would you spend it on?
My bills, a new car, new washer and dryer, decent Bookshelves, a Cat Tower, a new stereo, to replace mine, that died last Spring, a shed, a new porch, with a ramp, and a roof, and a screened in area, so that I could let my cat out, and we could sit together on the porch. A place to live, for my Sissy, and I would put some away in savings for my nephew and niece, and give some to my Brother and his wife. I would also hire someone to come and help me, around my house, with cleaning, and cooking. I would also take the neighborhood cat, to the vet, and get her shots updated, and see if she and my cat would get along, so that I wouldn't have to see her outside, in the cold, in the Wintertime. I would give her a full-time home. I'd replace all the movies that my ex stole from me, all I'd make sure that my Book series were completed.
109.) What is the best thing youâve ever eaten?
Fresh Sushi
110.) If you could go on a trip around the world with up to three people, who would you bring? (they can be people you know personally or famous people).
My Sissy, my friend, Chris, and my friend, Tyler.
111.) What expletive/ explicit phrase do you say most often?
Son of a...!
112.) What is your personal definition of success?
Being able to get out of bed, every day, and accomplish at least one task, around my house.
113.) How was your day today?
It was cold, and I have a lot of pain, in my knee, from a bad fall I had.
114.) What is the closest Big City you live by?
Either Philadelphia or Harrisburg
115.) Have you ever been in a car accident?
Yes
116.) Do you hide anything from your parents?
I hid my rape, and subsequent pregnancy, and miscarriage from my Mom, for 12 years...
117.) If you could possess one talent, what would you be able to do?
Draw really well
118.) Ugly and smart or beautiful and stupid?
Ugly and Smart, because you can't cure stupid, and beauty is in the eye of the beholder.
119.) What is the worst thing youâve ever seen in real life?
I saw a deer hit by a tractor trailer on the highway. It exploded.
120.) Use only 3 words to describe how you want your future to go.
Organized
Debt-Free
Stable
121.) QUICK! give me a few things a brick could be useful for
Building, holding a door open, breaking a window, to save an animal or baby from a locked hot/cold car
122.) If you could make a dream society, describe it in great detail where it would be, who would be in it, and what rules there would be?
It would be someplace that it never snows, and it would not get to hot, or too humid. It would be lush, and green there. Lots of beautiful plant life. People who have never had a loving home, would live there, and there would not be any violence allowed there. It would be a peaceful, serene, and loving place to live. Nobody would ever go without food, and everyone there would know what it felt like to be loved by someone.
123.) If you could make any animal miniature, what would you make and why?
A Giraffe, because they're cute, and quiet, and I could feed it my houseplants, so that it could live with me.
124.) What are your favorite candle scents?
Chocolate, Rustic Cabin, Midsummer Night, Green Tea & Bamboo
125.) If you HAD to have one plastic surgery, what would you get and why?
Breast Reduction, because they're too big, and hurt my back.
126.) Do you prefer to hang out with the same sex or the opposite sex?
Opposite sex.
127.) If you could make a charity, what would the profits go towards? How would you raise money for it?
Research to help find a cure, or better treatments for Complex Regional Pain Syndrome. I would sell my crafts, if I had the energy to do them...
128.) Describe the body you wish you had.
The one I have now, only healthy, and and out 100 lbs lighter. No chronic illness or pain, and no joint problems. I wouldn't need a Spinal Cord Stimulator to walk, and ic could do all the things that I used to be able to do, like bike, and Rollerblade, and rock climb.
129.) What do you want done with your body after you die?
I want to be cremated, and have a Weeping Willow planted in my ashes
130.) What three physical features do people compliment you most on? What do they say about them?
People say I have a nice Smile, that I have pretty eyes, and that I have nice boobs
131.) What is your favorite alcoholic drink?
A Mudslide
132.) Do you have a problematic friend?
Doesn't everyone?
133.) Are you more spontaneous or more of a planner?
I'm definitely more spontaneous, because I can't always plan ahead, because my body doesn't always cooperate.
134.) If you could change your full name, what would your name be?
I would change my name to my Fursona's name. MiLayna Grace Swiftpaws
135.) Name some of your favorite colors.
Periwinkle, Cerulean, Lavender, Plaid
136.) Have you ever been in legal trouble?
No.
137.) Do you find it easy to drop toxic people from your life that youâve known for a long time?
Yes.
138.) Do you like children? Why or why not?
Yes, as long as they're well behaved, and not screaming.
139.) What is your zodiac sign?
Virgo
140.) Do you like to dance? Do you dance often? In front of other people?
I like to move it, move it!
141.) If you could speak three additional languages, what would they be?
Gaelic, Russian, and it guess Spanish, so it could understand and communicate with most of the American population... *sigh*
142.) If you could have your own business, what would you do?
I would knit.
143.) Where would you like to live?
Ireland or Scotland...
144.) What do you find most attractive about the opposite sex and same sex?
Eyes and hair, usually.
146.) How did your last kiss go down?
Uhmmm.... I don't kiss and tell, thank you very much
147.) Someone you miss.
My Mom
148.) Someone you love.
My Sissy
149.) Number of kids you want?
Already asked this question! Geez! 3... but I can't have my own.
150.) Where do you see yourself in 5 years?
Same place, only hopefully a lot cleaner, and a lot more organized, and happier.
Uhmmm..... where's #145? It's missing from this questionnaire! D:
Lower, because when things don't happen the way you hope for, you're not disappointed.
2.) Would you rather go without junk food for a year or go without TV for a year?
TV. I rarely watch tv, anyway, but I gotta have my Chocolate.
3.) Describe your perfect man/woman.
Honest, Caring, Gentle, Helpful, Funny, Deep Eyes, Cat & Rat Lover, Likes to Cuddle.
4.)Thoughts on school dress codes?
On one hand, school uniforms are equalizing. Nobody can have "better clothes" than anyone else. But on the other hand, they take away kids ability to express themselves, in a way.
5.)Any phobias?
No, not really. I'm not a big fan of clowns or aliens, but I'm not afraid of them.
6.)At what job do you see Donald Trump best fitting?
Any job he really sets his mind to... maybe he should work for Twitter...
7.) Who was your first crush?
Kermit the Frog (no lie)
8.) Who was your first best friend?
Topher Neidig
9.)What is one weird thing about you?
Only one? Uhmmmm.... I don't like my food to touch, on my plate, unless it's made its casserole form.
10.) Top 5 TV shows you like to watch?
RWBY, Sleepy Hollow, Bones, Gilmore Girls, Avatar: The Last Airbender,
11.) What are your favorite boys names?
Christopher, Matthew, Hunter
12.) What are your favorite girls names?
Cadence, Mikaela, Hope
13.) Do you have any tattoos? If so, what are they?
Yes. I have 2 Celtic Knots in the center of my back.
14.) Do you plan on getting (more) tattoos? If so, what do you want to get as of the moment?
I would like to. I want to get my Heart Rat, Ruby, tattooed over my heart.
15.) Do you have any piercings? Do you plan on getting more?
Just 2 in each ear. And no. I think I have enough holes in my body, thank you very much.
16.) Do you like hugging people?
Sometimes. It depends on the person, I guess.
17.) Think of ANY person on Earth right now. Who did you think of?
My first thought was of my Mom, but it says on Earth, so I immediately think of my Sissy.
18.) Do you have an iPhone?
No. I hate Apple Products.
19.) What is the worst thing that could happen in your life right now?
I don't want to jinx myself, so I refuse to answer.
20.) Do you watch anime?
Yes
21.) What brings true happiness?
The Love of Friends & Family
22.) What is the most expensive thing youâve ever paid for?
My House
23.) If you could have any job in the world and get paid millions of dollars a year for it, what would you be and why?
A Medical Researcher, so I could cure people of chronic illnesses/chronic pain
24.) Do you want children? If so, how many?
I did... I wanted 2 boys and a girl, but sadly I had a full hysterectomy in 2012
25.) Name and describe someone who you feel most comfortable around.
Amy. I can be myself with her. She listens, and is understanding, and compassionate, and she loves me, no matter what. We're always there for each other.
26.)If you could invent a holiday, what would it be?
Uhmmmm....? World Book Day? And everyone would give and receive books as gifts?
27.)Would you rather have summer weather or winter weather all year round?
Mild Summer Weather. Nothing too hot, and minimal humidity. Extreme temperatures are bad, either way, but I really hate snow.
28.) If you could make an alien race, describe what they would look like.
I already did. She's my Main Fursona. They are intergalactic cat people, who can walk through time & space.
29.) What was the first thing you learned to cook?
Pillsbury Biscuit Mini Pizzas, in the Toaster Oven
30.) Describe your sense of humor.
Dark, somewhat morbid
31.) What is the key to happiness?
Finding the humor in any situation, even in the worst of times.
32.) How many phone numbers do you have committed to memory? Whose numbers are they?
Too many to list. Some of the numbers are from when I was a kid, so they are for the parents of friends, I had in Elementary School.
33.) Name three songs that make you want to dance.
I don't really know. Most music makes me want to dance, if it has a good enough beat. I shake it to the music in the grocery store, sometimes! LOL
34.) What job did you want to have as a child?
I wanted to be a Veterinarian.
35.) Do you have any talents or skills?
I have a talent for remembering random information. Some is useful, but most of it, is just random, useless knowledge.
36.) What was the worst punishment youâve ever had?
Being spanked with a belt.
37.) Did you ever do anything weird as a child?
Uhmmm... what child didn't? But personally, I sucked my thumb till I was 17.
38.) What is your dream car?
Anything that runs, and gets good gas mileage! Either a Nissan Altima, or a Subaru Outback or Forrester
39.) Describe something that made you laugh
My Mom & I always laughed. About lots of stuff. I used to tell people that when she passed away, I wanted her Shoulder Implant, and that I would use it as a paperweight. Then, when people would say, "That's an interesting paperweight. What is it?" I would say, "My Mom's Shoulder." I got to keep it, when she passed away, in November.
40.) Did you have a dream last night? If so, describe it.
I did. And I was avoiding the matchmaker, so she couldn't set me up with some random man. But then, when I saw all the happy women, with their men, I would get sad. So I went in search of a man for myself, and I was at a party, and I danced with a widower. He was far too old for me, but he was searching for a new wife. The matchmaker found me, and tried to set us up, and I ran. But everywhere I went, I saw happy couples, and I felt like they were all staring at me.
41.) Do you ever have repetitive dreams? Describe it/them.
Yes. I often dream I'm back in High School, AFTER I've already graduated, and when I get tired of being there, I'm like, "Why am I even here?! I already graduated, for goodness sake!"
42.) Describe the worst/ scariest dream youâve ever had.
A dream about a rock monster, chasing me around the playground at school, and a hole following me, for the rock monster to chase me into.
43.) Describe the best dream youâve ever had.
Seeing my Mom in Heaven, with my son, that I miscarried.
44.) If God theirself gave you a choice of either having unlimited money for the rest of your life or finding your one true gift, what would it be?
It sounds selfish, probably, but I would want the money, because then I could help others with it, once I was able to make sure that all my bills were paid up. And I could find my own true gifts.
45.) If you could do anything (and I mean ANYTHING) right now without consequences, what would you do and why?
It sounds awful, but I would rob a bank, and pay off all my debts.
46.) Do you have any recipes that you know off the top of your head? What is it/ what are they?
Yes. One of my favorites:
Beef Rice Bake
1lb. Ground Beef
1 packet Onion Soup Mix
1 15oz. Can Diced Tomatoes
3/4 Cup of uncooked Rice
1 & 1/2 Cups Boiling Water
1/2 Cup Shredded Cheddar Cheese
Brown the beef in a pan on the stove. Drain excess fat. Preheat oven to 350°F. Boil the water, while you are rinsing and draining the rice, in a sieve. Once meat is browned, add the soup mix, rice, tomatoes, and water, and simmer for 2 minutes on the stovetop, mixing all ingredients, thoroughly. Prepare a 3 Quart Casserole Dish, with a lid, and pour the mixture into the casserole dish. Bake covered (if your casserole, doesn't have a lid, use aluminum foil), for 55 minutes. Uncover, and sprinkle the cheese, generously, over the top of the casserole. Put back in the oven for 5 minutes, or until the cheese is melted. Remove from oven, and serve hot. Enjoy!
For a Mexican take, on this dish, add a can of Black Beans, and a Can of Whole Kernel Corn, and substitute the tomatoes with a 16oz. Jar of Mild or Medium Salsa, depending on your own personal taste. You can use a Mexican 4 Cheese Blend, instead of the Cheddar, if desired. I love this dish, both ways. Also, for a leaner dish, you can use 1lb. of Ground Turkey, instead of the Beef.
47.) Do you have your license? If so, do you have a car?
Yes, and yes.
48.) Have you ever had a near death experience?
Yes. Several, in fact.
49.) Do you personally know anyone that has been to prison?
Yes. A few of my friends have been to prison. Two were even falsely accused, but they did the time, and are closer to God, for having been there.
50.) Have you ever been in a physical fight?
Yes.
51.) When you get out of the shower, do you towel dry, blow dry, or air dry your hair?
I towel dry it until it's just damp, and then let it air dry, the rest of the way.
52.) When you go to the movies, what snacks and drinks do you take with you?
I always have a bottle of water with me, everywhere I go. Sometimes I will sneak my own popcorn in, because I'm allergic to Movie Theater Popcorn.
53.) Do you like going to the beach? If so, do you like to stay dry or go in the water? If not, why?
I love the beach. But I stay out of the water, unless I can physically see the bottom, clearly (like in the Gulf of Mexico). I have been caught in the undertow, 3 times, and nearly drowned, so I have a healthy respect for the Ocean.
54.) Do you untie your shoes when you take them off?
When they're brand new, I do.
55.) If you could have a superpower ASIDE from being invisible or being able to fly, what would you have?
The ability to heal people/animals, even from mortal wounds.
56.) If you were able to live for however long you wanted to (iâm talking thousands of years without aging), when would you choose to die?
When I feel I've had a full life. If I've could share my life with others, including children that I could adopt, since I am physically unable to have children, I would want to help as many children as possible, or feel like they are not alone, and that they are loved.
57.) What do you think happens after you die?
I believe we go to Heaven.
58.) Do you believe in aliens?
Yes, because it's pretty arrogant, to think that we are the only living beings in the Universe.
59.) Do you believe in ghosts?
Yes.
60.) Do you believe in spiritual things like ouija boards, tarot cards, and crystals? Do you believe they are portals for evil entities to enter the mortal world?
I believe that these things have energy of their own. And I believe in the existence of evil. I believe that they possibly COULD open a pathway, for evil entities, to gain entry into the mortal world. But I also believe that evil already exists here.
61.) If you could make one mythical being real, who/what would you make?
A Gryphon, because they're beautiful, again they can fly.
62.) Do you get tan, or do you burn?
I burn really badly, peel, and turn white, again...
63.) Describe your shower routine.
I turn the water on, just so it's warm, and get my hair and body wet. I turn off the water. I put soap on the washcloth, or bath poof, and I scrub my body, thoroughly, with the water off, starting from the top, and working my way down to my feet. Then I turn the water back on, and rinse my body AND the washcloth of soap, and use the washcloth to thoroughly rinse the soap off. Then I wash my hair, and my face, and I wash my hair a second time, because I have super oily hair. Then I rinse thoroughly again, and get out of the shower and dry myself.
64.) Do you enjoy school? Why or why not?
No. I did not like school. I was bullied again lot, and I hated math and history.
65.) In your opinion, what is the worst way to die?
Slowly, and painfully, from an untreatable terminal illness.
66.) Do you get carsick, sea sick, or airplane sickness?
I get carsick, if I sit in the back seat, or I try to do something, like read, during a car trip. I don't get sea sick, but once I get off of the boat, and I'm on land, once again, that's when I feel queasy.
67.) Whatâs one memory that you wish you could live again and again?
Spending my 27th Birthday with my Mom, at the Renaissance Faire.
68.) What were some of your stuffed animals' names from when you were a kid?
Stoly, at stuffed sheep (whom I still have), Pinky, I think she was some sort of guinea pig, or something, but she was this puffy little pink blob, with a cute face, and little stubby arms, legs, a tail, and ears... Teddy-So-Soft, my first teddy bear, Paws, my teddy bear I got for my 10th Birthday, and Ian, another teddy bear.
69.)Do you have any pets?
Yes. A cat, and Pet Rats
70.) Describe your daily wardrobe.
Usually it's just pajamas, since I'm disabled, and don't leave the house much. But when I do go out, it's usually jeans and a t-shirt.
71.) Describe what your daily wardrobe would be if you were rich.
It would be the same.
72.) Have you ever had surgery?
Yes. Several, actually.
73.)What was the last thing you bought?
Paper Towels, Tissues, Cat Litter, Spring Water and Milk
74.) Have you ever bought a CD? What band was it for?
Uhmmmm.... Yes! Tons of them! My favorite bands to listen to, that I have the most CD's of, are The Monkees, The Newsboys, The Waiting, Casting Crowns
75.) Describe your perfect ice cream sundae.
Warm Gluten-Free Brownie, topped with Vanilla Ice Cream, a drizzle of Hershey's Special Dark Syrup, Chocolate Whipped Cream, and Chocolate Jimmies (the long sprinkles).
76.) If you could make ANYTHING happen right now with no cost, trouble, or obstacles, what would you do?
I would have my home made more handicap accessible, and I would get a shed, for all my garden supplies, and my bicycle.
77.) What are some of your favorite physical activities to do?
I can't really do them now, because of my disabiities, but biking, rollerblading, rock climbing, hiking, and swimming.
78.) What were some of your favorite shows as a child?
The Muppet Show, Fraggle Rock, Today's Special, Pinwheel, and the original Teenage Mutant Ninja Turtles cartoon.
79.) Describe how you would survive the zombie apocalypse.
I would turn my house onto one giant "Panic Room" and stock it really well with food and water, and just wait it out.
80.)What are some things you shouldnât do or say at work?
Don't have sex at work. Don't talk about sex at work. Ever.
81.) If you were told that if you killed someone, you would save 100 people, would you do it?
Depends on if the person who told me that, was trustworthy or not.
82.) Howâs the weather right now?
It's snowing, and cold.
83.) What is the background on your cell phone right now?
It's a picture of my Heart Rat, Ruby
84.)Is it better to work at a job that you love or a job that pays well?
A job you love, because if you hate your job, then no amount of money is worth it.
85.) What do you have within arms reach of your bed?
My CPAP, my Medicine, Water Bottle, my Bluetooth, Epi-pens, Inhaler, First Aid Kit, Remote for my Spinal Cord Stimulator, Remote for my Sleep Number Bed, Chocolate, Granola Bars.
86.) Have you ever been fired from a job? If so, why?
.Yes. I was wrongfully fired, for something I didn't do. On my "pink slip" it says I had a sexually explicit conversation, with a customer, which did NOT happen!
87.) Have you ever won a trophy, prize, or medal? If so, for what?
I won 2 trophies for my Pinewood Derby Cars, I won several prizes for school fund-raisers, and I've won a ton of art from raffles, here on FA.
88.) Do you have any posters, pictures, or art hanging on your walls in your room? If so, what are they?
I have some art of my Fursona on my walls, and a black and white drawing of Thor (Chris Hemsworth), with only his eyes colored in blue.
89.) Are you afraid of the dark? If so, why?
No. I love the dark.
90.)What is something that youâve never done but would like to try?
Sky Diving
91.) If you could choose three famous people or characters to be friends with, who would you choose and why?
Stan Lee, because we've already met, and he's awesome.
Patrick Stewart, because we've also, already met, already he plays some of the other incredible characters, and he has a sexy accent. He's a genuinely joyful man, who absolutely loves what he does.
Emma Watson, because she's a very strong, kind, and witty woman, and she seems like she would be a really fun person to hang out with.
92.) Do you smile at strangers when you pass by them on the street?
Yes I do, because I might be the only smile they see all day.
93.) Do you have a favorite TV commercial? If so, what is it?
The Energizer Bunny Commercials.
94.) Do you like your handwriting?
Yes, when I don't write too fast.
95.) Cable TV or Netflix?
Netflix
96.) What are your favorite smells?
Clean Laundry, Anything with Garlic, Chocolate, Pumpkin Spice
97.) Do you consider yourself physically strong?
Yes, because I am in pain, every day of my life, and I power through my pain, and keep living through it, instead of giving up.
98.) Describe a time where you said something really rude or mean, whether intentional or not.
I told someone that they would not make a good father, because they were abusive.
99.) Do you ask strangers to pet their dogs?
No, because I'm allergic to dogs.
100.)What is your most embarrassing moment?
One that sticks out in my mind, the most, is when I was at Anthrocon 2015, and I was going to meet someone I admired, in person, for the first time, and 10 minutes after we met, I passed out, on the dance floor, from the strobe lights. I was so embarrassed, and I didn't think he would ever talk to me again. But he did, and we're pretty good friends! So, YAY! Happy Ending!
101.) Has anyone really close to you ever died? If so, who was it and how did you handle it?
I have lost several people, close to me. The most recent, being my Mom. I think I'm handling it, pretty well. I mean, I'm not jumping for joy, and I still cry some days, but it only happened 2 months ago... so... yeah......
102.) Describe your plan of action if you were home alone and you heard someone break into your house.
I have a firearm, and the clips are always loaded. They aren't IN the gun, unless I'm carrying, but I would call 911, and be as quiet as possible, and if they came toward me, if would use my pistol, to try to scare them off. If if had to shoot them, if would, but I think just having the gun aimed at them would make them turn tail, and run.
103.) If you were to be born again, would you want to be born male or female?
Male, so I wouldn't have to deal with monthly female troubles...
104.) What shampoo do you use?
Any 2 in 1, but usually VO5
105.) Guess the meaning of this word: ulotrichous.
Uhmmm.... I know it has something to do with hair, because of the "trich" part... I think the ulo, is like course or curly? Like African-American Hair?
106.) Do you let messages (phone, email, text, social media, etcâŚ) build up, or do you have to look at them right away?
I usually check my texts right away, but other messages, I rarely check.
107.) Where is the nearest McDonalds to your house?
About a mile from here, in either direction. There are two, in my immediate area.
108.) If you had $1 billion and you had to spend it in exactly one week, what would you spend it on?
My bills, a new car, new washer and dryer, decent Bookshelves, a Cat Tower, a new stereo, to replace mine, that died last Spring, a shed, a new porch, with a ramp, and a roof, and a screened in area, so that I could let my cat out, and we could sit together on the porch. A place to live, for my Sissy, and I would put some away in savings for my nephew and niece, and give some to my Brother and his wife. I would also hire someone to come and help me, around my house, with cleaning, and cooking. I would also take the neighborhood cat, to the vet, and get her shots updated, and see if she and my cat would get along, so that I wouldn't have to see her outside, in the cold, in the Wintertime. I would give her a full-time home. I'd replace all the movies that my ex stole from me, all I'd make sure that my Book series were completed.
109.) What is the best thing youâve ever eaten?
Fresh Sushi
110.) If you could go on a trip around the world with up to three people, who would you bring? (they can be people you know personally or famous people).
My Sissy, my friend, Chris, and my friend, Tyler.
111.) What expletive/ explicit phrase do you say most often?
Son of a...!
112.) What is your personal definition of success?
Being able to get out of bed, every day, and accomplish at least one task, around my house.
113.) How was your day today?
It was cold, and I have a lot of pain, in my knee, from a bad fall I had.
114.) What is the closest Big City you live by?
Either Philadelphia or Harrisburg
115.) Have you ever been in a car accident?
Yes
116.) Do you hide anything from your parents?
I hid my rape, and subsequent pregnancy, and miscarriage from my Mom, for 12 years...
117.) If you could possess one talent, what would you be able to do?
Draw really well
118.) Ugly and smart or beautiful and stupid?
Ugly and Smart, because you can't cure stupid, and beauty is in the eye of the beholder.
119.) What is the worst thing youâve ever seen in real life?
I saw a deer hit by a tractor trailer on the highway. It exploded.
120.) Use only 3 words to describe how you want your future to go.
Organized
Debt-Free
Stable
121.) QUICK! give me a few things a brick could be useful for
Building, holding a door open, breaking a window, to save an animal or baby from a locked hot/cold car
122.) If you could make a dream society, describe it in great detail where it would be, who would be in it, and what rules there would be?
It would be someplace that it never snows, and it would not get to hot, or too humid. It would be lush, and green there. Lots of beautiful plant life. People who have never had a loving home, would live there, and there would not be any violence allowed there. It would be a peaceful, serene, and loving place to live. Nobody would ever go without food, and everyone there would know what it felt like to be loved by someone.
123.) If you could make any animal miniature, what would you make and why?
A Giraffe, because they're cute, and quiet, and I could feed it my houseplants, so that it could live with me.
124.) What are your favorite candle scents?
Chocolate, Rustic Cabin, Midsummer Night, Green Tea & Bamboo
125.) If you HAD to have one plastic surgery, what would you get and why?
Breast Reduction, because they're too big, and hurt my back.
126.) Do you prefer to hang out with the same sex or the opposite sex?
Opposite sex.
127.) If you could make a charity, what would the profits go towards? How would you raise money for it?
Research to help find a cure, or better treatments for Complex Regional Pain Syndrome. I would sell my crafts, if I had the energy to do them...
128.) Describe the body you wish you had.
The one I have now, only healthy, and and out 100 lbs lighter. No chronic illness or pain, and no joint problems. I wouldn't need a Spinal Cord Stimulator to walk, and ic could do all the things that I used to be able to do, like bike, and Rollerblade, and rock climb.
129.) What do you want done with your body after you die?
I want to be cremated, and have a Weeping Willow planted in my ashes
130.) What three physical features do people compliment you most on? What do they say about them?
People say I have a nice Smile, that I have pretty eyes, and that I have nice boobs
131.) What is your favorite alcoholic drink?
A Mudslide
132.) Do you have a problematic friend?
Doesn't everyone?
133.) Are you more spontaneous or more of a planner?
I'm definitely more spontaneous, because I can't always plan ahead, because my body doesn't always cooperate.
134.) If you could change your full name, what would your name be?
I would change my name to my Fursona's name. MiLayna Grace Swiftpaws
135.) Name some of your favorite colors.
Periwinkle, Cerulean, Lavender, Plaid
136.) Have you ever been in legal trouble?
No.
137.) Do you find it easy to drop toxic people from your life that youâve known for a long time?
Yes.
138.) Do you like children? Why or why not?
Yes, as long as they're well behaved, and not screaming.
139.) What is your zodiac sign?
Virgo
140.) Do you like to dance? Do you dance often? In front of other people?
I like to move it, move it!
141.) If you could speak three additional languages, what would they be?
Gaelic, Russian, and it guess Spanish, so it could understand and communicate with most of the American population... *sigh*
142.) If you could have your own business, what would you do?
I would knit.
143.) Where would you like to live?
Ireland or Scotland...
144.) What do you find most attractive about the opposite sex and same sex?
Eyes and hair, usually.
146.) How did your last kiss go down?
Uhmmm.... I don't kiss and tell, thank you very much
147.) Someone you miss.
My Mom
148.) Someone you love.
My Sissy
149.) Number of kids you want?
Already asked this question! Geez! 3... but I can't have my own.
150.) Where do you see yourself in 5 years?
Same place, only hopefully a lot cleaner, and a lot more organized, and happier.
Uhmmm..... where's #145? It's missing from this questionnaire! D:
Super Long Meme! But Asks Some Good Questions! (BLANK)
Posted 7 years ago1.) Whatâs better, having high expectations or having lower expectations?
2.) Would you rather go without junk food for a year or go without TV for a year?
3.) Describe your perfect man/woman.
4.)Thoughts on school dress codes?
5.)Any phobias?
6.)At what job do you see Donald Trump best fitting?
7.) Who was your first crush?
8.) Who was your first best friend?
9.)What is one weird thing about you?
10.) Top 5 TV shows you like to watch?
11.) What are your favorite boys names?
12.) What are your favorite girls names?
13.) Do you have any tattoos? If so, what are they?
14.) Do you plan on getting (more) tattoos? If so, what do you want to get as of the moment?
15.) Do you have any piercings? Do you plan on getting more?
16.) Do you like hugging people?
17.) Think of ANY person on earth right now. Who did you think of?
18.) Do you have an iPhone?
19.) What is the worst thing that could happen in your life right now?
20.) Do you watch anime?
21.) What brings true happiness?
22.) What is the most expensive thing youâve ever paid for?
23.) If you could have any job in the world and get paid millions of dollars a year for it, what would you be and why?
24.) Do you want children? If so, how many?
25.) Name and describe someone who you feel most comfortable around.
26.)If you could invent a holiday, what would it be?
27.)Would you rather have summer weather or winter weather all year round?
28.) If you could make an alien race, describe what they would look like.
29.) What was the first thing you learned to cook?
30.) Describe your sense of humor.
31.) What is the key to happiness?
32.) How many phone numbers do you have committed to memory? Whose numbers are they?
33.) Name three songs that make you want to dance.
34.) What job did you want to have as a child?
35.) Do you have any talents or skills?
36.) What was the worst punishment youâve ever had?
37.) Did you ever do anything weird as a child?
38.) What is your dream car?
39.) Describe something that made you laugh
40.) Did you have a dream last night? If so, describe it.
41.) Do you ever have repetitive dreams? Describe it/them.
42.) Describe the worst/ scariest dream youâve ever had.
43.) Describe the best dream youâve ever had.
44.) If God theirself gave you a choice of either having unlimited money for the rest of your life or finding your one true gift, what would it be?
45.) If you could do anything (and I mean ANYTHING) right now without consequences, what would you do and why?
46.) Do you have any recipes that you know off the top of your head? What is it/ what are they?
47.) Do you have your license? If so, do you have a car?
48.) Have you ever had a near death experience?
49.) Do you personally know anyone that has been to prison?
50.) Have you ever been in a physical fight?
51.) When you get out of the shower, do you towel dry, blow dry, or air dry your hair?
52.) When you go to the movies, what snacks and drinks do you take with you?
53.) Do you like going to the beach? If so, do you like to stay dry or go in the water? If not, why?
54.) Do you untie your shoes when you take them off?
55.) If you could have a superpower ASIDE from being invisible or being able to fly, what would you have?
56.) If you were able to live for however long you wanted to (iâm talking thousands of years without aging), when would you choose to die?
57.) What do you think happens after you die?
58.) Do you believe in aliens?
59.) Do you believe in ghosts?
60.) Do you believe in spiritual things like ouija boards, tarot cards, and crystals? Do you believe they are portals for evil entities to enter the mortal world?
61.) If you could make one mythical being real, who/what would you make?
62.) Do you get tan, or do you burn?
63.) Describe your shower routine.
64.) Do you enjoy school? Why or why not?
65.) In your opinion, what is the worst way to die?
66.) Do you get carsick, sea sick, or airplane sickness?
67.) Whatâs one memory that you wish you could live again and again?
68.) What were some of your stuffed animals' names from when you were a kid?
69.)Do you have any pets?
70.) Describe your daily wardrobe.
71.) Describe what your daily wardrobe would be if you were rich.
72.) Have you ever had surgery?
73.)What was the last thing you bought?
74.) Have you ever bought a CD? What band was it for?
75.) Describe your perfect ice cream sundae.
76.) If you could make ANYTHING happen right now with no cost, trouble, or obstacles, what would you do?
77.) What are some of your favorite physical activities to do?
78.) What were some of your favorite shows as a child?
79.) Describe how you would survive the zombie apocalypse.
80.)What are some things you shouldnât do or say at work?
81.) If you were told that if you killed someone, you would save 100 people, would you do it?
82.) Howâs the weather right now?
83.) What is the background on your cell phone right now?
84.)Is it better to work at a job that you love or a job that pays well?
85.) What do you have within arms reach of your bed?
86.) Have you ever been fired from a job? If so, why?
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87.) Have you ever won a trophy, prize, or medal? If so, for what?
88.) Do you have any posters, pictures, or art hanging on your walls in your room? If so, what are they?
89.) Are you afraid of the dark? If so, why?
90.)What is something that youâve never done but would like to try?
91.) If you could choose three famous people or characters to be friends with, who would you choose and why?
92.) Do you smile at strangers when you pass by them on the street?
93.) Do you have a favorite TV commercial? If so, what is it?
94.) Do you like your handwriting?
95.) Cable TV or Netflix?
96.) What are your favorite smells?
97.) Do you consider yourself physically strong?
98.) Describe a time where you said something really rude or mean, whether intentional or not.
99.) Do you ask strangers to pet their dogs?
100.)What is your most embarrassing moment?
101.) Has anyone really close to you ever died? If so, who was it and how did you handle it?
102.) Describe your plan of action if you were home alone and you heard someone break into your house.
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103.) If you were to be born again, would you want to be born male or female?
104.) What shampoo do you use?
105.) Guess the meaning of this word: ulotrichous.
106.) Do you let messages (phone, email, text, social media, etcâŚ) build up, or do you have to look at them right away?
107.) Where is the nearest McDonalds to your house?
108.) If you had $1 billion and you had to spend it in exactly one week, what would you spend it on?
109.) What is the best thing youâve ever eaten?
110.) If you could go on a trip around the world with up to three people, who would you bring? (they can be people you know personally or famous people).
111.) What expletive/ explicit phrase do you say most often?
112.) What is your personal definition of success?
113.) How was your day today?
114.) What is the closest Big City you live by?
115.) Have you ever been in a car accident?
116.) Do you hide anything from your parents?
117.) If you could possess one talent, what would you be able to do?
118.) Ugly and smart or beautiful and stupid?
119.) What is the worst thing youâve ever seen in real life?
120.) Use only 3 words to describe how you want your future to go.
121.) QUICK! give me a few things a brick could be useful for
122.) If you could make a dream society, describe it in great detail where it would be, who would be in it, and what rules there would be?
123.) If you could make any animal miniature, what would you make and why?
124.) What are your favorite candle scents?
125.) If you HAD to have one plastic surgery, what would you get and why?
126.) Do you prefer to hang out with the same sex or the opposite sex?
127.) If you could make a charity, what would the profits go towards? How would you raise money for it?
128.) Describe the body you wish you had.
129.) What do you want done with your body after you die?
130.) What three physical features do people compliment you most on? What do they say about them?
131.) What is your favorite alcoholic drink?
132.) Do you have a problematic friend?
133.) Are you more spontaneous or more of a planner?
134.) If you could change your full name, what would your name be?
135.) Name some of your favorite colors.
136.) Have you ever been in legal trouble?
137.) Do you find it easy to drop toxic people from your life that youâve known for a long time?
138.) Do you like children? Why or why not?
139.) What is your zodiac sign?
140.) Do you like to dance? Do you dance often? In front of other people?
141.) If you could speak three additional languages, what would they be?
142.) If you could have your own business, what would you do?
143.) Where would you like to live?
144.) What do you find most attractive about the opposite sex and same sex?
146.) How did your last kiss go down?
147.) Someone you miss.
148.) Someone you love.
149.) Number of kids you want?
150.) Where do you see yourself in 5 years?
Uhmmm..... where's #145? It's missing from this questionnaire! D: Here is the blank form! I'll answer all the questions, in the next Journal. But I thought I would make this easier on everyone, to copy & paste. Have fun, everyone! Can't wait to read your own answers!
2.) Would you rather go without junk food for a year or go without TV for a year?
3.) Describe your perfect man/woman.
4.)Thoughts on school dress codes?
5.)Any phobias?
6.)At what job do you see Donald Trump best fitting?
7.) Who was your first crush?
8.) Who was your first best friend?
9.)What is one weird thing about you?
10.) Top 5 TV shows you like to watch?
11.) What are your favorite boys names?
12.) What are your favorite girls names?
13.) Do you have any tattoos? If so, what are they?
14.) Do you plan on getting (more) tattoos? If so, what do you want to get as of the moment?
15.) Do you have any piercings? Do you plan on getting more?
16.) Do you like hugging people?
17.) Think of ANY person on earth right now. Who did you think of?
18.) Do you have an iPhone?
19.) What is the worst thing that could happen in your life right now?
20.) Do you watch anime?
21.) What brings true happiness?
22.) What is the most expensive thing youâve ever paid for?
23.) If you could have any job in the world and get paid millions of dollars a year for it, what would you be and why?
24.) Do you want children? If so, how many?
25.) Name and describe someone who you feel most comfortable around.
26.)If you could invent a holiday, what would it be?
27.)Would you rather have summer weather or winter weather all year round?
28.) If you could make an alien race, describe what they would look like.
29.) What was the first thing you learned to cook?
30.) Describe your sense of humor.
31.) What is the key to happiness?
32.) How many phone numbers do you have committed to memory? Whose numbers are they?
33.) Name three songs that make you want to dance.
34.) What job did you want to have as a child?
35.) Do you have any talents or skills?
36.) What was the worst punishment youâve ever had?
37.) Did you ever do anything weird as a child?
38.) What is your dream car?
39.) Describe something that made you laugh
40.) Did you have a dream last night? If so, describe it.
41.) Do you ever have repetitive dreams? Describe it/them.
42.) Describe the worst/ scariest dream youâve ever had.
43.) Describe the best dream youâve ever had.
44.) If God theirself gave you a choice of either having unlimited money for the rest of your life or finding your one true gift, what would it be?
45.) If you could do anything (and I mean ANYTHING) right now without consequences, what would you do and why?
46.) Do you have any recipes that you know off the top of your head? What is it/ what are they?
47.) Do you have your license? If so, do you have a car?
48.) Have you ever had a near death experience?
49.) Do you personally know anyone that has been to prison?
50.) Have you ever been in a physical fight?
51.) When you get out of the shower, do you towel dry, blow dry, or air dry your hair?
52.) When you go to the movies, what snacks and drinks do you take with you?
53.) Do you like going to the beach? If so, do you like to stay dry or go in the water? If not, why?
54.) Do you untie your shoes when you take them off?
55.) If you could have a superpower ASIDE from being invisible or being able to fly, what would you have?
56.) If you were able to live for however long you wanted to (iâm talking thousands of years without aging), when would you choose to die?
57.) What do you think happens after you die?
58.) Do you believe in aliens?
59.) Do you believe in ghosts?
60.) Do you believe in spiritual things like ouija boards, tarot cards, and crystals? Do you believe they are portals for evil entities to enter the mortal world?
61.) If you could make one mythical being real, who/what would you make?
62.) Do you get tan, or do you burn?
63.) Describe your shower routine.
64.) Do you enjoy school? Why or why not?
65.) In your opinion, what is the worst way to die?
66.) Do you get carsick, sea sick, or airplane sickness?
67.) Whatâs one memory that you wish you could live again and again?
68.) What were some of your stuffed animals' names from when you were a kid?
69.)Do you have any pets?
70.) Describe your daily wardrobe.
71.) Describe what your daily wardrobe would be if you were rich.
72.) Have you ever had surgery?
73.)What was the last thing you bought?
74.) Have you ever bought a CD? What band was it for?
75.) Describe your perfect ice cream sundae.
76.) If you could make ANYTHING happen right now with no cost, trouble, or obstacles, what would you do?
77.) What are some of your favorite physical activities to do?
78.) What were some of your favorite shows as a child?
79.) Describe how you would survive the zombie apocalypse.
80.)What are some things you shouldnât do or say at work?
81.) If you were told that if you killed someone, you would save 100 people, would you do it?
82.) Howâs the weather right now?
83.) What is the background on your cell phone right now?
84.)Is it better to work at a job that you love or a job that pays well?
85.) What do you have within arms reach of your bed?
86.) Have you ever been fired from a job? If so, why?
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87.) Have you ever won a trophy, prize, or medal? If so, for what?
88.) Do you have any posters, pictures, or art hanging on your walls in your room? If so, what are they?
89.) Are you afraid of the dark? If so, why?
90.)What is something that youâve never done but would like to try?
91.) If you could choose three famous people or characters to be friends with, who would you choose and why?
92.) Do you smile at strangers when you pass by them on the street?
93.) Do you have a favorite TV commercial? If so, what is it?
94.) Do you like your handwriting?
95.) Cable TV or Netflix?
96.) What are your favorite smells?
97.) Do you consider yourself physically strong?
98.) Describe a time where you said something really rude or mean, whether intentional or not.
99.) Do you ask strangers to pet their dogs?
100.)What is your most embarrassing moment?
101.) Has anyone really close to you ever died? If so, who was it and how did you handle it?
102.) Describe your plan of action if you were home alone and you heard someone break into your house.
.
103.) If you were to be born again, would you want to be born male or female?
104.) What shampoo do you use?
105.) Guess the meaning of this word: ulotrichous.
106.) Do you let messages (phone, email, text, social media, etcâŚ) build up, or do you have to look at them right away?
107.) Where is the nearest McDonalds to your house?
108.) If you had $1 billion and you had to spend it in exactly one week, what would you spend it on?
109.) What is the best thing youâve ever eaten?
110.) If you could go on a trip around the world with up to three people, who would you bring? (they can be people you know personally or famous people).
111.) What expletive/ explicit phrase do you say most often?
112.) What is your personal definition of success?
113.) How was your day today?
114.) What is the closest Big City you live by?
115.) Have you ever been in a car accident?
116.) Do you hide anything from your parents?
117.) If you could possess one talent, what would you be able to do?
118.) Ugly and smart or beautiful and stupid?
119.) What is the worst thing youâve ever seen in real life?
120.) Use only 3 words to describe how you want your future to go.
121.) QUICK! give me a few things a brick could be useful for
122.) If you could make a dream society, describe it in great detail where it would be, who would be in it, and what rules there would be?
123.) If you could make any animal miniature, what would you make and why?
124.) What are your favorite candle scents?
125.) If you HAD to have one plastic surgery, what would you get and why?
126.) Do you prefer to hang out with the same sex or the opposite sex?
127.) If you could make a charity, what would the profits go towards? How would you raise money for it?
128.) Describe the body you wish you had.
129.) What do you want done with your body after you die?
130.) What three physical features do people compliment you most on? What do they say about them?
131.) What is your favorite alcoholic drink?
132.) Do you have a problematic friend?
133.) Are you more spontaneous or more of a planner?
134.) If you could change your full name, what would your name be?
135.) Name some of your favorite colors.
136.) Have you ever been in legal trouble?
137.) Do you find it easy to drop toxic people from your life that youâve known for a long time?
138.) Do you like children? Why or why not?
139.) What is your zodiac sign?
140.) Do you like to dance? Do you dance often? In front of other people?
141.) If you could speak three additional languages, what would they be?
142.) If you could have your own business, what would you do?
143.) Where would you like to live?
144.) What do you find most attractive about the opposite sex and same sex?
146.) How did your last kiss go down?
147.) Someone you miss.
148.) Someone you love.
149.) Number of kids you want?
150.) Where do you see yourself in 5 years?
Uhmmm..... where's #145? It's missing from this questionnaire! D: Here is the blank form! I'll answer all the questions, in the next Journal. But I thought I would make this easier on everyone, to copy & paste. Have fun, everyone! Can't wait to read your own answers!
