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So, what's gonna happen to sites like this in coming year...
Posted 9 months agoI know, blah, blah, resistance, fight the good fight, blah blah... but realistically speaking, what's going to happen?
Will sites like this have to go silent or purge content that squicks the normies?
Will sites like this have to go silent or purge content that squicks the normies?
It's been a month, and...
Posted 6 years agoThe new medication has helped more than I thought it would.
That said, I still want to only rely on it for the immediate issues like the psychotic break from the medication I am on (and the doctor has also started me tapering down the dosage of the ADHD medication. I think I would like to see if I can still function on an even smaller dose, but I'll have to see if that's possible.)
Because this medication has one hell of a side-effect... the "rebound" effect.
And since it's an anti-psychotic, the rebound effect would effectively cause me to have a full on psychosis if I wasn't naturally inclined to have psychoses (and considering I had one hell of a wake-up call when I had that psychotic break, that's not a prospect that appeals to me because that shit was fucking scary as hell.)
So, the longer I take these, the higher the likelihood that I'll have to keep taking them for the rest of my life... which is why if I don't have a natural psychosis, and what I had was drug-induced (which the doctor was able to confirm considering the symptoms I described) then that means this /should/ be a temporary thing.
Because the dosage I'm on is not mild.
So there's an element of time in all this... and every day I take these is one day closer to the risks of the rebound.
However, let's not pussy-foot around this... the medication I'm on works, and it feels like I've gone back to where I was before the mental breakdown those years ago. I'm still my usual self, though my "extra" is toned down, and the aggression/hostility I feel is much more manageable (though that could be from a variety of sources ranging from the spiritual experiences I've had all the way to the coping strategies I've tried to work on.)
I dunno. This is both scary and relieving. And I guess if I have to take these pills for the rest of my life, then I have to take them for the rest of my life. Daunting, but if they do benefit me, and it seems they are for now, then I have to accept that that is a distinct possibility.
That said, I still want to only rely on it for the immediate issues like the psychotic break from the medication I am on (and the doctor has also started me tapering down the dosage of the ADHD medication. I think I would like to see if I can still function on an even smaller dose, but I'll have to see if that's possible.)
Because this medication has one hell of a side-effect... the "rebound" effect.
And since it's an anti-psychotic, the rebound effect would effectively cause me to have a full on psychosis if I wasn't naturally inclined to have psychoses (and considering I had one hell of a wake-up call when I had that psychotic break, that's not a prospect that appeals to me because that shit was fucking scary as hell.)
So, the longer I take these, the higher the likelihood that I'll have to keep taking them for the rest of my life... which is why if I don't have a natural psychosis, and what I had was drug-induced (which the doctor was able to confirm considering the symptoms I described) then that means this /should/ be a temporary thing.
Because the dosage I'm on is not mild.
So there's an element of time in all this... and every day I take these is one day closer to the risks of the rebound.
However, let's not pussy-foot around this... the medication I'm on works, and it feels like I've gone back to where I was before the mental breakdown those years ago. I'm still my usual self, though my "extra" is toned down, and the aggression/hostility I feel is much more manageable (though that could be from a variety of sources ranging from the spiritual experiences I've had all the way to the coping strategies I've tried to work on.)
I dunno. This is both scary and relieving. And I guess if I have to take these pills for the rest of my life, then I have to take them for the rest of my life. Daunting, but if they do benefit me, and it seems they are for now, then I have to accept that that is a distinct possibility.
Just a life-update... and a bit of a warning.
Posted 6 years agoSo, if you know me well enough you'll know that some really heinous shit has happened.
Protip: If you're on ADHD medication, make sure the dosage isn't too high, and for fuck's sake don't abuse cannabis.
I am a major pot-head, having toked on a regular basis for the last while.
But, see, thing is, there's something called "drug induced psychosis."
I seem to have ended up toking myself psychotic.
Yes, I am getting proper treatment, and my medication has been adjusted. But to be honest the last month has been rather hellish because the delusions that came with it were so very convincing and as much as hindsight is telling me that they were just delusions, it was convincing enough, and preying on my insecurities such that I literally believed that things were happening that just weren't.
Am I ashamed of saying this? No. I'm saying it because I know that there are other pot-heads that follow me, and also to be honest about what I've been dealing with.
Should I say this? Maybe not... because I know there are going to be assholes and pricks out there that will use this as justification to treat me as lesser. I am fully aware of the potential consequences of being open about what's happened (and the people that would use this to dehumanize and ridicule me are nothing more than assholes and pricks... so I really don't give a good god damn about what they think of me anyway.)
There's nothing wrong with admitting you have a problem. And for a time, my use of cannabis /was/ becoming a problem... a problem that my brain just couldn't handle and I ended up losing my mind as a result.
The thing about this is... this can be healed by changing my medication and not being such a pot-head. Though if there's a deeper issue at play, at least we're at the point where tests can uncover it.
I had a wake-up call though... and not everyone has the luck to have that. So if you know of someone that you suspect may be suffering from a drug-induced psychotic break from reality, just be there for them. Chances are they're suffering through some pretty hardcore scary shit and having the support of people that care can do wonders to help them heal.
It won't be easy, I'm sure of that much at least... but once you recognize what's going on, it gets easier to be there for them. And people in this sort of situation do need your help. This shit is terrifying enough as is... doing it alone? That makes it even harder.
Protip: If you're on ADHD medication, make sure the dosage isn't too high, and for fuck's sake don't abuse cannabis.
I am a major pot-head, having toked on a regular basis for the last while.
But, see, thing is, there's something called "drug induced psychosis."
I seem to have ended up toking myself psychotic.
Yes, I am getting proper treatment, and my medication has been adjusted. But to be honest the last month has been rather hellish because the delusions that came with it were so very convincing and as much as hindsight is telling me that they were just delusions, it was convincing enough, and preying on my insecurities such that I literally believed that things were happening that just weren't.
Am I ashamed of saying this? No. I'm saying it because I know that there are other pot-heads that follow me, and also to be honest about what I've been dealing with.
Should I say this? Maybe not... because I know there are going to be assholes and pricks out there that will use this as justification to treat me as lesser. I am fully aware of the potential consequences of being open about what's happened (and the people that would use this to dehumanize and ridicule me are nothing more than assholes and pricks... so I really don't give a good god damn about what they think of me anyway.)
There's nothing wrong with admitting you have a problem. And for a time, my use of cannabis /was/ becoming a problem... a problem that my brain just couldn't handle and I ended up losing my mind as a result.
The thing about this is... this can be healed by changing my medication and not being such a pot-head. Though if there's a deeper issue at play, at least we're at the point where tests can uncover it.
I had a wake-up call though... and not everyone has the luck to have that. So if you know of someone that you suspect may be suffering from a drug-induced psychotic break from reality, just be there for them. Chances are they're suffering through some pretty hardcore scary shit and having the support of people that care can do wonders to help them heal.
It won't be easy, I'm sure of that much at least... but once you recognize what's going on, it gets easier to be there for them. And people in this sort of situation do need your help. This shit is terrifying enough as is... doing it alone? That makes it even harder.
"You're saying something I don't like. It's problematic."
Posted 6 years ago... Maybe you should be focusing on controlling your own emotions first before you try to control other people's emotions.
Do people sometimes say incredibly hostile things? Yeah... They do. And I'm not suggesting you should be okay with that.
But your emotional reaction to those things is what I'm getting at here. It's okay to get upset and be mad... But learn from it, and learn how to keep your emotions centered and in balance.
If someone saying something unpleasant sends you into a fit of rage, then that should tell you something's not right with you. And why are you letting other people control your emotions like that? Why? What purpose does it solve to let yourself fall into a pit of despair every time you hear something unpleasant?
You can't make the world a better place if you're constantly teetering on the edge of the abyss.
Do people sometimes say incredibly hostile things? Yeah... They do. And I'm not suggesting you should be okay with that.
But your emotional reaction to those things is what I'm getting at here. It's okay to get upset and be mad... But learn from it, and learn how to keep your emotions centered and in balance.
If someone saying something unpleasant sends you into a fit of rage, then that should tell you something's not right with you. And why are you letting other people control your emotions like that? Why? What purpose does it solve to let yourself fall into a pit of despair every time you hear something unpleasant?
You can't make the world a better place if you're constantly teetering on the edge of the abyss.
Not every artist can justify the price.
Posted 6 years ago... Pretty much the title.
Though before the "but, entry level is $15/hr USD." defense comes up.
Yes, that is generally correct... But, the question that seems to be missed in this is "but are you good enough as an artist to land an entry-level position?"
... There are a lot of artists that, as much as I hate to sound like a salty bitch, simply cannot justify that kind of pricing (and if their level of skill does, their work-ethic pulls it right back down.)
Though before the "but, entry level is $15/hr USD." defense comes up.
Yes, that is generally correct... But, the question that seems to be missed in this is "but are you good enough as an artist to land an entry-level position?"
... There are a lot of artists that, as much as I hate to sound like a salty bitch, simply cannot justify that kind of pricing (and if their level of skill does, their work-ethic pulls it right back down.)
An un-fun video... that I think needs to be watched
Posted 7 years agohttps://youtu.be/UE5fZaAzXws
Just... watch this, please. This would explain a lot of behaviour I've seen.
Fair warning, it's likely not going to be an easy watch.
Just... watch this, please. This would explain a lot of behaviour I've seen.
Fair warning, it's likely not going to be an easy watch.
Tumbl-splosion.
Posted 7 years agoYeah, I'm sure you've heard murmurs around; about how tumblr is saying no-no to the naughty-naughties.
Honestly, I'm surprised it took this long.
As for myself, since I've only really used my tumblr account to post stuff that doesn't fit elsewhere, and also focused on the writing journey I've been on, it's not that much of a slap. I'm too small on that site to really make much of a splash and I guess since what I've been writing is naughty-naughty stuff (dragons boinking) it's not like I'd really get much traction there as is.
But what about you? Have you been negatively impacted by this bullshit move?
Honestly, I'm surprised it took this long.
As for myself, since I've only really used my tumblr account to post stuff that doesn't fit elsewhere, and also focused on the writing journey I've been on, it's not that much of a slap. I'm too small on that site to really make much of a splash and I guess since what I've been writing is naughty-naughty stuff (dragons boinking) it's not like I'd really get much traction there as is.
But what about you? Have you been negatively impacted by this bullshit move?
