I'll also put up a submission for those who don't catch this journal.

Decided to definitively make the switch to  Jestre. So, be sure to jump over and give me a watch so I can do the same in knowing you're reliable in order to keep tabs on one another. XD

IMPORTANT INFO:
-New account will only have the more recent submissions.
-I'll leave the already posted pics/journals on here for memories. <3
-[Comic Related]-The opening flopped so, I'm gonna redo it with my artistic improvements among rewriting it. It of course will be posted on the new account.

Remember, THIS IS A SWITCH TO  JESTRE!! XP

(I'll revisit to remind if need be. :P )

You know, a hot dog without the contained meat.

Oh wait, this isn't a food site, Happy Halloween! Hope yours was good. Trick or treating ends at 7 PM in the town I live. x.x

So after another psychiatrist visit today, I had the curiosity of if I have Bipolar II disorder and I do. As a random fun thing, I'm a pyromaniac I made mention of to her, but I have control over my urges. It's still technically diagnosable though. :P My psychiatrist and I get along quite well. She's always nice and personable. :)

Now to list off my diagnoses. Of course I've always had this technically, but you're friends/watchers and I'm sure you don't think negative of me. These diagnoses, for the most part, explain why I am the way I am. Mind you the 200 mg of Zoloft helps deter these symptoms. :]

(Copypasta'd from an old journal other than the last two.)
-Clinical Depression
--I obsess over things I feel guilty of, making me feel bad for an extended period of time.
--I will also feel guilty about things I shouldn't feel guilty of.
--I'm often in a state of detachment.
--I don't enjoy things as much as I used to.
--Some off thing which shouldn't do it could cause me to go into a rage.
--I will stay in a down mood for a long while of course.
-Panic Disorder
--Though I've been able to concentrate with self control, there are occasional times I'd feel I'd lose control, freaking out, perhaps in a scream.
--Following that, the panic attacks make me feel detached from the world.
-Social Anxiety Disorder
--I often feel distressed in social situations. Mainly dreading how I put myself off to others.
--I will often likely humiliate myself in some way or try to act differently to fit in so to get the hoped positive outcome.
--I tend to speak anxiously because of the disorder. Often it's me talking too fast and stammering.
--Here's more detail regarding symptoms I looked to for reference for SAD: http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Social.....order#Symptoms
Bipolar II Disorder
--I will have major depressive episodes more intense and frequent than hypomanic (less than manic meaning I'm in control, but can be more productive with a burst of energy and ideas) episodes. This would be the reason why I act the way I do sometimes whether in my journals or through chatting.
Mild Pyromania
--I have control over an urge to burn something as logic kicks in. I only burn what is small, perishable and holds no value of any kind.

The commission info page is still kaput.

Seriously, guise, serreyushlee. :I Gotta love capitalism after the movie comes out. It was better on it's own. Have fun editing your sprites, you art thief haters. <:3c (Haters gonna hate, gators gonna gate, waiters gonna wait, debaters gonna debate, elevators gonna elevate, baiters gonna bait, craters gonna crate, platers gonna plate, inflaters gonna inflate, creators gonna create, raters gonna rate, congregaters gonna congregate, alleviators gonna alleviate, traitors gonna trait, rebaters gonna rebate, cremators gonna cremate, taters gonna tate, daters gonna date, maters gonna mate, I know the process. :U ) Honestly, to each their own and you can show what you like. Just making my observations.

For those of you who did read my last journal, I did make a new account and though I haven't started transferring over yet, the new account is at http://furaffinity.net/user/jestre/ if you want to watch now and I'll let you know when I fully transfer over. When you're looking for a Jestre, you'll know I was the first...who got an account on FA. :3

If you thought that was a sex joke, you should get some help. :U Although I did intend you to think such. :3

Anyway, I've been thinking of possibly making a new account to reboot and I was wondering about your thoughts out of those who choose to read this from the 80+ accounts who watch me. :P

Don't want my title to come off rude, but I wrote it that way so you know I wasn't making the suggestions at the moment. Anyway, I've been getting tired of the old T-shirt and pants look for indoors for my characters (mainly Shadow and Jestre), so I was wondering what you would suggest for a wardrobe change? It doesn't have to just be a shirt change.

For those of you not too knowledgeable of my characters, but want to suggest apparel based on personality, I'll tell you their few personality traits which can mostly pertain to appearance:
Shadow: Laid back and easy going overall while still willing to make a joke here and there though dry. (Pretty much me.)
Jestre: More of the crazy type, but lucid in his actions and thoughts, also has a dry sense of humor and can carry a conversation normally, and while liking to scare/creep out people with a smile on his face, when it comes to it, he has an insatiable blood lust.

((Ater typing that, I realized how simple I was when I described Shadow. XD))

My ideas (this will be updated as more ideas are thought up):
Shadow
-Rather than a T-shirt, have some stylized long-sleeved shirt.
-Wearing a blazer style vest, unbuttoned, over his T-shirt. (Inspired by  yasmina_chan's Lawrence character after looking through her gallery.)
Jestre
-White unbuttoned and untucked button-down collar T-shirt.

Your ideas (this will be updated as more suggestions are added):
Shadow
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Jestre
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What did one twin tower say to the other? "I'm falling for you. <:) " Those people who died are in a better place and at least those people died doing what they loved, skydiving! :D Too bad they ended up like tomatoes before the urban dustbowl covered them up. :/








Yes, I know this isn't a happy day for most and my condolences to those who lost loved ones or know someone who did, but I think we need a little dry wit to soak up those tears now and then.

http://jestingcachinnation.blogspot.....at-i-hate.html

Since we can't post some stuff on here. :3

Due to the difference in rules and whatnot around places, I decided to have a place that allows me to have my mind unshackled. :> It will have my real opinion with hardly anything being held back, but like the description says, what I say will be based off of facts and rules/laws and not mere assumptions/falsifications which means I will make my statements on what can be done with things in relation to the facts I know and rules/laws. One could say I'm attempting to go head to head with  silverautomatic's "Watch Your Step" blog, but everyone is allowed to have their opinions of course.

My blog is named "Jesting with Cachinnation" or JC for short. (Yes, it's intended to be a jab at Christianity without intended offense. XD ) (Some of you may be wondering what "cachinnation" is. http://www.google.com/search?hl=en&.....fai=&pbx=1 )

Here's the link: http://jestingcachinnation.blogspot.com/

The reason is that my job has "black out days" around the holidays and the one surrounding Thanksgiving goes over MFF which would leave me unable to make a request off unless I change my availability. I will have worked as a gopher for 10 hours in 2009 in order to get free admission for nothing. T.T

I may have to try and save for AC or something...

I await No-Con-Depression for being unable to go to my favorite con. D>

</emo journal>

I've been better otherwise.

I feel like I want to take a break from it all. I've finally grown too tired of drama and all of the masks I put on. I love to be a jester (ha ha), but there are times it feels forced. On top of that, I don't like being blamed for things I never did, to only feel betrayed. Do you want to know the raw, creepy truth, I've contemplated how to do suicide for many years, but have never had the will to do so due to those who would miss me and that I have a life ahead of me. I'm not perfect, but that doesn't mean I'm not a broken person either with growing cracks. At this point, I'm near breaking...

EDIT: Regarding sympathy, it may not hit too close from hearing it too much. Sorry ahead of time if I snap at you.

though I do I like the sketch, I think I may not do such a large overhaul of Jestre, but make some changes in different parts. I'm still wondering what you guys think on what I should do. Thanks for the faves by the way, but I didn't get any comments like I asked. :P I'M OPEN TO ANY CRITIQUE EXCEPT NEGATIVE CRITICISM (i.e. "this looks crappy.")! I love critique. <3

So I can burn their carcasses in a forest fire. </uber malice> While I do have my few *ahem* fetishes (inflation and a bit of stuffing/fattening of the belly, but no disgusting slobs (don't ask why I'm interested in them because I wouldn't know why I'm into it and how to explain it)), the banner doesn't apply to them and I find the banner kinda tasteless for it being some random meme group only to be capitalized for a week which also includes the more popular artists that are also well known in the fatfur section. Mind you, I've at least met Alkora, who's a cool guy, and idly chatted with Dragoneer so know I hold no negative feelings towards any of those portrayed. (Kinda sucks to try and be politically correct.) Other than the Krystal sandwich meme and old Thanksgiving escapade among other random capitalization on things, why bother? Now I will give the artist credit for the detail put in and I know this may be for fun, but I just feel like flipping it off. It's not those involved, just the principle. It may also be due to me having a bad cold with a sore throat I'll be taking medication for for 10 days, but I wanted to put in my opinion which everyone is entitled to.

Oh yeah, so far so good on the UI transfer for FA.

May be a little soon to explain, but I will ahead of time just in case. It's a split reason actually. The first half is that I do have a small light scar on the right side of my face, smaller, but similar to Jestre's, which I have no idea where it came from, but it's there. The second half is because of a certain dramatic, online event that cut deep. And that's the jist of it. The rest of the markings are still the same as ever.

STOP BITING ME AND GIVING ME THE URGE TO ITCH FOR YOU SUCK ALMOST AS BAD AS THE TWILIGHT SERIES! DX

So the other day I finally caved and decided to get Pokemon Soul Silver, the first Pokemon game I've gotten since Yellow for the Game Boy Color. It's actually kinda fun, but a little easy depending. The Pokewalker helps too. :] May as well tell you my current party. :P

-Level 11 male Hoothoot
-Level 11 female Cyndaquil
-Level 9 male Mareep
-Level 8 female Gastly
-Level 7 Jirachi
-Level 7 female Rattata

(Got the Jirachi via the wireless mystery gift option.)

So now I'm finally out of my teen years and now 20. :] As far as what I'll be getting for my birthday, I'll be ordering a straitjacket. It's true! :3

Until my birthday on the 29th. I just wanted to do a Majora's Mask reference because I could. XD I'll be 20. :o

Just a heads up that I'll be 20 when that day comes. :3

While thinking of different characters for a side comic or something I thought of one thing to do with Jestre's name in having a similarity with the thought up character. For a full name, how does Jestre Dee Raama sound?

(I'm betting this will have been beaten down in your message area by "I'M GOING TO AC!" journals. :P )

It may not be a continuation of the series, BUT A PORTABLE REMAKE OF A FAVORITE FOR THE UPCOMING 3DS?!! SQUEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE!!!!!!! I'll HAVE to get the 3DS solely for that reason! Four years since the last game and it's worth the wait. 8D FINALLY SOME LIGHT TO THE CLASSIC SERIES! 8D (Yes, I'm a large fan of the series.)

I'm curious how the characters themselves will appear in the game. Updated versions of their 64 selves or still going off the style introduced in Command that continued into Brawl? I hope it's an updated 64 set. I hate Fox's bell-shaped, constant angry eyes Command head.

Oh yeah, the proof!

http://e3.nintendo.com/3ds/ (Look in the games section of the page.)

If you're familiar, I'm in the Chicagoland area and for the first time in 49 years, the Chicago Blackhawks won the Stanley Cup! Whoo! Now for the Chicago Cubs to break their 100+ year record. :P

And now its song created by good ol' Weird Al. Get stomping! :D

(If you haven't heard the actual song: http://listen.grooveshark.com/#/s/W.....ing+Day/1SHVLh )

Faces filled with joy and cheer
What a magical time of year
Howdy Ho! It's Weasel Stomping Day

Put your Viking helmet on
Spread that mayonnaise on the lawn
Don't you know it's Weasel Stomping Day

All the little girls and boys
Love that wonderful crunching noise
You'll know what this day's about
When you stomp a weasel's guts right out

So, come along and have a laugh
Snap their weaselly spines in half
Grab your boots and stomp your cares away
Hip hip hooray, it's Weasel Stomping Day

(Sounds of weasels getting stomped on, with bone-crunching and rodent-screeching effects)

People up and down the street
Crushing weasels beneath their feet
Why we do it, who can say?
But it's such a festive holiday

So let the stomping fun begin
Bash their weaselly skulls right in
It's tradition, that makes it okay

Hey everyone, it's Weasel Stomping
We'll have some fun on Weasel Stomping
Put down your gun, it's Weasel Stomping Day
Hip Hip Hooray, it's Weasel Stomping Day

Weasel Stomping Day
Hey!

Though the original template is by another artist, my girlfriend, PopRockSkittles made a duo of nose nuzzle icons for us to nuzzle with. <3 (See header.)