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Posted 7 months agoThis isn't leading up to anything, I just wanted to share some good news for once. :3
I had a mini-stroke yesterday. C:
Posted a year agoNo immediate complications, so I left urgent care with instructions that my PCP should see me first thing Monday morning. I developed a severe headache that eventually went away; they said to seek emergency care if it comes back.
Sharp needle-like pain between my left eye and temple, took about 30 seconds to go away. Followed by a sensation of extreme cold on one side of my face and a headache that started out mild but rapidly intensified over the course of about 10 minutes, lasting about an hour before slowly improving.
No paralysis, no dizziness. Overall a mild episode. Diagnosis was by a nurse.
Concern comes mostly from the presence of my tumor. Pituitary adenomas, even when benign, are notorious for causing these episodes due to the pressure they exert on the brain and skull. Akira Toriyama died from an acute subdural hematoma that was caused by the pressure from exactly such a tumor as this.
Will I be okay? I don't really know. I'm already barely surviving.
Sharp needle-like pain between my left eye and temple, took about 30 seconds to go away. Followed by a sensation of extreme cold on one side of my face and a headache that started out mild but rapidly intensified over the course of about 10 minutes, lasting about an hour before slowly improving.
No paralysis, no dizziness. Overall a mild episode. Diagnosis was by a nurse.
Concern comes mostly from the presence of my tumor. Pituitary adenomas, even when benign, are notorious for causing these episodes due to the pressure they exert on the brain and skull. Akira Toriyama died from an acute subdural hematoma that was caused by the pressure from exactly such a tumor as this.
Will I be okay? I don't really know. I'm already barely surviving.
This is the only time in my life I can make this joke
Posted 2 years agoHey. Guys.
I thought of something funnier than 24.
Snrk.
Twenty-fiiiive.~
I thought of something funnier than 24.
Snrk.
Twenty-fiiiive.~
Quick but serious update on my health
Posted 2 years agoTW: The Big C-word.
Oh boy. Let's see where to begin.
So. I've been suffering from a major hormone imbalance for about the last year. In recent months it has intensified to the point that my doctor has taken regular blood tests to examine what is going on. About two months ago, he told me that my prolactin and TSH were so out of balance that there was a real concern something may be pushing on my pituitary gland and causing it to overproduce.
I really, really grudge repeating his words, because these sorts of things are frequently faked on the internet for attention. But here goes: He explicitly used the words 'brain tumor' in front of me. There was approximately a 0% chance in his mind that any such tumor would be malignant, but there it is.
I went for a CT scan on Monday. They drew the most blood they've ever taken up to that point, and ran the scan at the same time as they tested my hormones.
The scan showed no obvious aberrations. Which is the best possible news. My doctor still wants me to follow up with an MRI, but the chance of a tumor has basically graduated from 'minor' to 'rounding error'.
That does not change the fact that my hormones, in addition to my thyroid, are so severely out of balance as to be dangerous for my health. We do not know what's causing it, but it has been the cause for a serious shift in my demeanor. I've become incredibly irritable, snappy, and just overall a less pleasant person. And it's worrying to watch myself deteriorate like this.
I don't have cancer, but something is wrong with me. And I hope my doctor can figure it out soon.
(Notes and paperwork from my doctor are available on request if there is doubt about the veracity of this story.)
Oh boy. Let's see where to begin.
So. I've been suffering from a major hormone imbalance for about the last year. In recent months it has intensified to the point that my doctor has taken regular blood tests to examine what is going on. About two months ago, he told me that my prolactin and TSH were so out of balance that there was a real concern something may be pushing on my pituitary gland and causing it to overproduce.
I really, really grudge repeating his words, because these sorts of things are frequently faked on the internet for attention. But here goes: He explicitly used the words 'brain tumor' in front of me. There was approximately a 0% chance in his mind that any such tumor would be malignant, but there it is.
I went for a CT scan on Monday. They drew the most blood they've ever taken up to that point, and ran the scan at the same time as they tested my hormones.
The scan showed no obvious aberrations. Which is the best possible news. My doctor still wants me to follow up with an MRI, but the chance of a tumor has basically graduated from 'minor' to 'rounding error'.
That does not change the fact that my hormones, in addition to my thyroid, are so severely out of balance as to be dangerous for my health. We do not know what's causing it, but it has been the cause for a serious shift in my demeanor. I've become incredibly irritable, snappy, and just overall a less pleasant person. And it's worrying to watch myself deteriorate like this.
I don't have cancer, but something is wrong with me. And I hope my doctor can figure it out soon.
(Notes and paperwork from my doctor are available on request if there is doubt about the veracity of this story.)
Small gripe about sexuality.
Posted 2 years agoSome people in the general community make a big deal of being hypersexual in everything they do - as in, sex-positive to the exclusion of all other activities. I've previously been harassed in a server because, after I was in an IRL car accident, someone tried to turn that into a kinky NSFW RP scene with me, and multiple server members personally attacked me as a 'bad friend' when I vehemently turned it down.
I feel like there's a point to be made that being slutty is not the same as making that one's entire personality. If you flat-out don't engage in conversations that aren't about sex, or if you must direct every statement back to sex in order to remain interested, or if your only response to anything not sex-related is some variation of "uwu"...that's not being sex-positive, and that's not even really being 'slutty'. That's you substituting your lack of personality with cock jokes.
"You don't like me because you're sex-negative!" No mate, I don't like you because you have the personality of a slab of granite and it's boring.
Edit to add: You should absolutely do what makes you happy — if that's sex, power to you! To clarify, my gripe is not with people living their lives, it's with people who shame and belittle me for not matching their libido, as in the example above. 'Let people do their own thing' goes both ways, as long as no one's getting hurt.
I feel like there's a point to be made that being slutty is not the same as making that one's entire personality. If you flat-out don't engage in conversations that aren't about sex, or if you must direct every statement back to sex in order to remain interested, or if your only response to anything not sex-related is some variation of "uwu"...that's not being sex-positive, and that's not even really being 'slutty'. That's you substituting your lack of personality with cock jokes.
"You don't like me because you're sex-negative!" No mate, I don't like you because you have the personality of a slab of granite and it's boring.
Edit to add: You should absolutely do what makes you happy — if that's sex, power to you! To clarify, my gripe is not with people living their lives, it's with people who shame and belittle me for not matching their libido, as in the example above. 'Let people do their own thing' goes both ways, as long as no one's getting hurt.
Tails & Tornadoes (TTFC): Places to check out in Tulsa
Posted 2 years agoListen. Listen. Okay. I'm a native of Tulsa, the city where Tails & Tornadoes is gonna be taking place! I can't go myself, but I am extremely excited that my city is getting some attention as a result of this con. So I thought I'd put together some fun places to hang around at if any of you guys are gonna be heading down there!
These include some of the more common tourist traps as well as a few places that are more out of the way and may pique your interest! I may come back and edit this journal to add some more places later as I think of them. Be sure and say 'hello' to everyone for me!
Philbrook Museum of Art
Most beautiful museum in Tulsa, and contrary to its name it is not just an art museum. The gardens are bigger than the museum itself, and there's lots of fun activities to do (though they tend to be seasonal, so your mileage may vary). Beautiful vistas, restaurant, lots of amenities, super fancy. $17 to get in, definitely worth it if just for one visit. Highly recommend, even if you're not a museum buff.
The Gathering Place
Largest single city park in Tulsa, occupying 66.5 acres of space. It was built within the last decade at the auspices of a multibillionaire who calls Tulsa home. It is not just a park. It's got restaurants, playgrounds, adult entertainment (not that kind), tennis, jazz music, skate park, all kinds of stuff. You could walk around it for hours. No admission fee. Highly recommend.
Cherry Street
Less one specific place, this is the name given to a certain stretch of 15th Street just outside of Downtown. Cherry Street is known for its locally owned venues including restaurants and bars, and a surprising number of bookstores many of which cater to a uniquely natural, almost occult-like atmosphere. Even if that's not your thing, it's really cool to check out.
The Vault
Really nice bar and restaurant at the intersection of 6th and Cincinnati. I've never been, but it's supposed to be about as upscale as you can get while still being casual and friendly. Place is women-owned and self-describes as LGBT-friendly, so you can't go wrong! Reservations recommended, but not required from what I can tell. If you go, be sure and let me know what it's like!
Roppongi
A ramen bar set up for an authentic experience, it even looks fresh out of Japan just from the corner façade. At the intersection of 6th and Boston, literally right next door to the Vault. I have been here before, but it was like four years ago. I remember it being a really great experience. They do *genuine* ramen, not just that stupid imitation stuff.
Tulsa Central Library
Okay, okay, I know the library setting isn't for everyone, but hey, if it *is* your thing, can't go wrong with the largest one in Tulsa. It's a four-story building, so that should give you some idea of the scale. They've got nice balconies overlooking the city, casual spaces, and a really cool "Maker's Lab" where they have 3D printers and CNC machines open to public use. You probably won't be able to use them because you have to take a class at the library first, but you can still check out the space. This one's a more niche interest; your mileage may vary. ^^;
Center of the Universe
You probably won't spend more than a few minutes here, but it's still worth checking out. This is a concrete square with a metal circle inlaid in the ground, where if you stand on the circle and speak, your voice will loudly echo as if a bunch of people are repeating back what you say. But the weird thing is, only you can hear it; people standing nearby can't. It's really freaky, and I've never figured out how it works. It's in a public plaza, so you need to walk to it; nearest parking is at 1st and Main.
Tulsa Zoo
If you're going to Tulsa for a furry convention, it might just make sense to check out the next-best thing while you're there. The Tulsa Zoo occupies 84 acres as part of the larger Mohawk Park complex. It gets much of the funding for its newer exhibits from the same billionaire who built the Gathering Place, so you know it's gotta be good. I won't say it's particularly different from any other zoo, but for the region they've got some really interesting animals. If you go, be sure and say 'hi' to the red pandas for me!
River Spirit Casino Resort
...look, if you go gambling, just be sure and tip your security guard on the way out, okay? xD In all seriousness, River Spirit is the most popular casino in Tulsa, and its reputation is well-earned. I've been inside before, but it was just to eat food and I never spent any money, so I couldn't say what the games are like. Still, if casinos are your thing, you can't go wrong!
These include some of the more common tourist traps as well as a few places that are more out of the way and may pique your interest! I may come back and edit this journal to add some more places later as I think of them. Be sure and say 'hello' to everyone for me!
Philbrook Museum of Art
Most beautiful museum in Tulsa, and contrary to its name it is not just an art museum. The gardens are bigger than the museum itself, and there's lots of fun activities to do (though they tend to be seasonal, so your mileage may vary). Beautiful vistas, restaurant, lots of amenities, super fancy. $17 to get in, definitely worth it if just for one visit. Highly recommend, even if you're not a museum buff.
The Gathering Place
Largest single city park in Tulsa, occupying 66.5 acres of space. It was built within the last decade at the auspices of a multibillionaire who calls Tulsa home. It is not just a park. It's got restaurants, playgrounds, adult entertainment (not that kind), tennis, jazz music, skate park, all kinds of stuff. You could walk around it for hours. No admission fee. Highly recommend.
Cherry Street
Less one specific place, this is the name given to a certain stretch of 15th Street just outside of Downtown. Cherry Street is known for its locally owned venues including restaurants and bars, and a surprising number of bookstores many of which cater to a uniquely natural, almost occult-like atmosphere. Even if that's not your thing, it's really cool to check out.
The Vault
Really nice bar and restaurant at the intersection of 6th and Cincinnati. I've never been, but it's supposed to be about as upscale as you can get while still being casual and friendly. Place is women-owned and self-describes as LGBT-friendly, so you can't go wrong! Reservations recommended, but not required from what I can tell. If you go, be sure and let me know what it's like!
Roppongi
A ramen bar set up for an authentic experience, it even looks fresh out of Japan just from the corner façade. At the intersection of 6th and Boston, literally right next door to the Vault. I have been here before, but it was like four years ago. I remember it being a really great experience. They do *genuine* ramen, not just that stupid imitation stuff.
Tulsa Central Library
Okay, okay, I know the library setting isn't for everyone, but hey, if it *is* your thing, can't go wrong with the largest one in Tulsa. It's a four-story building, so that should give you some idea of the scale. They've got nice balconies overlooking the city, casual spaces, and a really cool "Maker's Lab" where they have 3D printers and CNC machines open to public use. You probably won't be able to use them because you have to take a class at the library first, but you can still check out the space. This one's a more niche interest; your mileage may vary. ^^;
Center of the Universe
You probably won't spend more than a few minutes here, but it's still worth checking out. This is a concrete square with a metal circle inlaid in the ground, where if you stand on the circle and speak, your voice will loudly echo as if a bunch of people are repeating back what you say. But the weird thing is, only you can hear it; people standing nearby can't. It's really freaky, and I've never figured out how it works. It's in a public plaza, so you need to walk to it; nearest parking is at 1st and Main.
Tulsa Zoo
If you're going to Tulsa for a furry convention, it might just make sense to check out the next-best thing while you're there. The Tulsa Zoo occupies 84 acres as part of the larger Mohawk Park complex. It gets much of the funding for its newer exhibits from the same billionaire who built the Gathering Place, so you know it's gotta be good. I won't say it's particularly different from any other zoo, but for the region they've got some really interesting animals. If you go, be sure and say 'hi' to the red pandas for me!
River Spirit Casino Resort
...look, if you go gambling, just be sure and tip your security guard on the way out, okay? xD In all seriousness, River Spirit is the most popular casino in Tulsa, and its reputation is well-earned. I've been inside before, but it was just to eat food and I never spent any money, so I couldn't say what the games are like. Still, if casinos are your thing, you can't go wrong!
Intense psychological beans
Posted 2 years agoI think that's what I'm gonna start calling these types of journals now. :3
I've drank like 12 cans of Strawberry and Cream Dr. Pepper in the last day, and I'm so hopped up on sugar that I'm gonna plug
cheefurraacc's beautiful adopt designs. I don't usually do adopts for multiple reasons, but their drafting and design work is some of the best I have legitimately ever seen in my life. For your sake as much as mine, go check 'em out!
Do it before I come down from my sugar high and realize that you stole my sandwich. >:I
I've drank like 12 cans of Strawberry and Cream Dr. Pepper in the last day, and I'm so hopped up on sugar that I'm gonna plug
cheefurraacc's beautiful adopt designs. I don't usually do adopts for multiple reasons, but their drafting and design work is some of the best I have legitimately ever seen in my life. For your sake as much as mine, go check 'em out!Do it before I come down from my sugar high and realize that you stole my sandwich. >:I
Too much gift art, aaaa
Posted 2 years agoThere's just too many people I wanna draw, send help
Worst Christmas of my life.
Posted 3 years agoAlright, so yep, it's officially the worst Christmas of my life. It is 7 PM and all I've done today is eat a hot dog and hear from my own mother that she never wants to see me again.
Birthday thoughts
Posted 3 years agoSo! It's officially 12:08 in the morning as of writing this, which means it's no longer my 24th birthday.
Heh...I'm getting so old. I can feel it. I wonder what I'm going to do now that I'm such a greymuzzle.
On the bright side, my mother gifted me a 3D printer!
Heh...I'm getting so old. I can feel it. I wonder what I'm going to do now that I'm such a greymuzzle.
On the bright side, my mother gifted me a 3D printer!
Rant.
Posted 3 years ago<rant>
It really sucks wanting to hang out and be friends with someone who wants nothing to do with you.
Doubly so if by their own admission it's not that they dislike you, they just literally can't be bothered to remember you exist, because they're too busy devoting 100% of their energy to two or three people without whom they wouldn't even bother logging on.
I get friends don't come in black and white, and everyone's gonna have people that are more important to them than others. But if you say that I am important to you, act like it. Don't string me along like you care when you can't bother to message me once in a blue moon.
You may say that you care about me, but if we're in a scenario where, if I don't talk, then no talking happens, you don't care, and I don't give a shit if you say otherwise.
"I just have nothing to talk about." Bullshit. You've got a lot to say to other people. What you mean is that you have nothing to talk about with me.
It's fine if we aren't friends. Not everyone is gonna be friends with every other person.
Stop telling me we are and then acting like I don't exist.
</rant>
It really sucks wanting to hang out and be friends with someone who wants nothing to do with you.
Doubly so if by their own admission it's not that they dislike you, they just literally can't be bothered to remember you exist, because they're too busy devoting 100% of their energy to two or three people without whom they wouldn't even bother logging on.
I get friends don't come in black and white, and everyone's gonna have people that are more important to them than others. But if you say that I am important to you, act like it. Don't string me along like you care when you can't bother to message me once in a blue moon.
You may say that you care about me, but if we're in a scenario where, if I don't talk, then no talking happens, you don't care, and I don't give a shit if you say otherwise.
"I just have nothing to talk about." Bullshit. You've got a lot to say to other people. What you mean is that you have nothing to talk about with me.
It's fine if we aren't friends. Not everyone is gonna be friends with every other person.
Stop telling me we are and then acting like I don't exist.
</rant>
There is a guy hanging out in Sharlayan...
Posted 3 years ago...whose character name is Hnngh Nnf, and I just felt that I needed to share that.
Meme intensifies
Posted 4 years agoWhat do you do with a drunken sailor?
What shall you do with a drunken sailor?
What should we do with a drunken sailor
early in the morning?
Don't let him steer that cargo freighter,
don't let him near that cargo freighter,
don't let him bring her starboard lighter
early in the morning.
Ho, ho, and then she's sideways;
ho, ho, and now she's sideways;
ho, ho, he's rammed her sideways
early in the morning!
Sober him up with lots of coffee,
sugar him up with chewy toffee,
steady him up with milk so frothy
early in the morning.
Tell him his shipment's gone til' next week;
tell him the seller's canceled, they're meek;
tell him she's got the mightiest leak
early in the morning.
Ho, ho, now watch her sideways;
ho, ho, now look, she's sideways;
ho, ho, she's jammed it sideways
early in the morning!
What shall you do with a drunken sailor?
What should we do with a drunken sailor
early in the morning?
Don't let him steer that cargo freighter,
don't let him near that cargo freighter,
don't let him bring her starboard lighter
early in the morning.
Ho, ho, and then she's sideways;
ho, ho, and now she's sideways;
ho, ho, he's rammed her sideways
early in the morning!
Sober him up with lots of coffee,
sugar him up with chewy toffee,
steady him up with milk so frothy
early in the morning.
Tell him his shipment's gone til' next week;
tell him the seller's canceled, they're meek;
tell him she's got the mightiest leak
early in the morning.
Ho, ho, now watch her sideways;
ho, ho, now look, she's sideways;
ho, ho, she's jammed it sideways
early in the morning!
No Subject
Posted 4 years agoGaming server: "We're totally not furries!"
Also gaming server: https://cdn.discordapp.com/attachme.....58/unknown.png
I'm having fun here. xD
Also gaming server: https://cdn.discordapp.com/attachme.....58/unknown.png
I'm having fun here. xD
No title.
Posted 4 years agoI've just obtained a copy of my grandmother's death certificate.
I'd been having a really hard time getting information on her remains and where she was transported, because my aunt and uncle (who had been taking care of her when she died) hadn't and still won't take my calls. But now that I have the certificate, I can find out for sure.
They donated her body. She was neither stored (best case scenario), buried, nor cremated; they donated her body to a hospital for medical research.
She had a burial plot reserved next to my father and grandfather, that she bought over forty years ago in advance.
Now it's going to sit empty.
I'm rather upset.
I'd been having a really hard time getting information on her remains and where she was transported, because my aunt and uncle (who had been taking care of her when she died) hadn't and still won't take my calls. But now that I have the certificate, I can find out for sure.
They donated her body. She was neither stored (best case scenario), buried, nor cremated; they donated her body to a hospital for medical research.
She had a burial plot reserved next to my father and grandfather, that she bought over forty years ago in advance.
Now it's going to sit empty.
I'm rather upset.
My grandmother is dead.
Posted 5 years agoI just found out my grandmother passed away yesterday morning, at the age of 92.
I hadn't spoken to her in seven months because she didn't have her own phone, and my aunt and uncle (with whom she was living, in another state) wouldn't take my calls.
She practically raised me where both of my parents failed to.
To say I'm heartbroken would be an understatement so monumental as to be insulting.
I'm sorry if I don't have much in the way of activity going on for a while.
I hadn't spoken to her in seven months because she didn't have her own phone, and my aunt and uncle (with whom she was living, in another state) wouldn't take my calls.
She practically raised me where both of my parents failed to.
To say I'm heartbroken would be an understatement so monumental as to be insulting.
I'm sorry if I don't have much in the way of activity going on for a while.
Oh man.
Posted 5 years agoOh gosh, the big triple-digit.
Thank you all so much for your support! I'll...keep posting my commissions, I guess! ^^
Thank you all so much for your support! I'll...keep posting my commissions, I guess! ^^
My Health
Posted 5 years agoOh boy, let's see where to begin. Hah.
I was hoping to finally post something regarding this yesterday, since it was my first real day off in a while. But then, well, gigantic DDoS decided this was better left postponed.
So! I guess let's just start from the very beginning: I've spent the last six months becoming progressively more depressed, anxious, withdrawn, self-doubting, negative, and pessimistic in general. I have spent the better part of six years with some form of depression, but until last year was taking medication for it that was tremendously helping.
Well. After being off that medication, thinking I could finally start to care for my emotions on my own, I have spectacularly failed. From February 7th until the 9th I was hospitalized after I finally admitted to myself (and a doctor) that I was suicidal.
I've gotten help. I'm no longer suicidal. I did not attempt suicide. I have resumed my long-stopped anti-depressants.
They've made me...different. Definitely better, but also a bit more 'hyper'. Not physically. It's difficult to describe, I suppose the best way I could explain it would be that I have been given both the happiness and the maturity of someone five years my junior.
This has happened before when I've changed medications like this. I'd like to ask for the patience of my friends and loved ones, because it's just a matter of me needing to figure myself out now that I've gotten a leg up again.
I'm likely to be quite bipolar for some time. Please just, be as patient as you can. I don't mean any of it. I just can't help how I feel some days. I am getting better. I will continue to get better.
This is temporary.
I was hoping to finally post something regarding this yesterday, since it was my first real day off in a while. But then, well, gigantic DDoS decided this was better left postponed.
So! I guess let's just start from the very beginning: I've spent the last six months becoming progressively more depressed, anxious, withdrawn, self-doubting, negative, and pessimistic in general. I have spent the better part of six years with some form of depression, but until last year was taking medication for it that was tremendously helping.
Well. After being off that medication, thinking I could finally start to care for my emotions on my own, I have spectacularly failed. From February 7th until the 9th I was hospitalized after I finally admitted to myself (and a doctor) that I was suicidal.
I've gotten help. I'm no longer suicidal. I did not attempt suicide. I have resumed my long-stopped anti-depressants.
They've made me...different. Definitely better, but also a bit more 'hyper'. Not physically. It's difficult to describe, I suppose the best way I could explain it would be that I have been given both the happiness and the maturity of someone five years my junior.
This has happened before when I've changed medications like this. I'd like to ask for the patience of my friends and loved ones, because it's just a matter of me needing to figure myself out now that I've gotten a leg up again.
I'm likely to be quite bipolar for some time. Please just, be as patient as you can. I don't mean any of it. I just can't help how I feel some days. I am getting better. I will continue to get better.
This is temporary.
Questioning
Posted 5 years agoLevel with me here...does my character suck? Or is it just me that's annoying and insufferable? Because I feel like it might be a combination of both. ._.
Site Update!
Posted 6 years agoFA users: Complain for literal years about the site never getting updated
Site: Updates
FA users: Complain about the site getting updated
Guys. Grow the f*ck up. Okay?
Site: Updates
FA users: Complain about the site getting updated
Guys. Grow the f*ck up. Okay?
I'm now 21!
Posted 6 years agoOr, I will be in two and a half hours, anyways. Hah.
Hooray, I can finally not get totally wasted drunk because I'm a good boy!
Hooray, I can finally not get totally wasted drunk because I'm a good boy!
Experimental thinking in French
Posted 6 years agoA friend of mine is French-Canadian, and grew up speaking both English and French. We had a discussion a while ago about whether English is more difficult to learn for a French speaker, or vice versa.
I've been considering this for some time, and so, while this isn't relevant to that specific question -- j'ai décidé écrire le reste de ce journal en français, et mettre en gras les choses que je devais traduire. J'ai pris deux classes en français, dans la lycée, mais j'ai échoué la deuxième classe.
La plupart des choses que je devais traduire, elles sont mots faciles du vocabulaire dont je ne me souviens pas.
Indépendamment, le vrai but de ce journal est pour exprimer ma tristesse, car je regrette toutes les choses que remplir ma vie ces jours-ci. J'espère pour mieux jours à l'avenir.
Je suis vraiment épuisé. J'aurais dû dormir il y a deux heures. Bonne nuit.
I've been considering this for some time, and so, while this isn't relevant to that specific question -- j'ai décidé écrire le reste de ce journal en français, et mettre en gras les choses que je devais traduire. J'ai pris deux classes en français, dans la lycée, mais j'ai échoué la deuxième classe.
La plupart des choses que je devais traduire, elles sont mots faciles du vocabulaire dont je ne me souviens pas.
Indépendamment, le vrai but de ce journal est pour exprimer ma tristesse, car je regrette toutes les choses que remplir ma vie ces jours-ci. J'espère pour mieux jours à l'avenir.
Je suis vraiment épuisé. J'aurais dû dormir il y a deux heures. Bonne nuit.
I have an entire paychecc and no bills. .w.
Posted 6 years agoOr at least I will this Friday.
I have no bills that I need to pay out of my next paycheck...okay, maybe I'll put $100 towards my student debt, but. Still. That's around $700 that I can just...leave sitting. Save. Use on fun stuff here and there, maybe.
I don't really think I'm in a state of mind to express how incredible this really is, though. My family has lived paycheck to paycheck, money always and forever being tight. My entire life, it's been that way, before and after my parents separated. My mother grew up in near-poverty, and my father, while better off than her, still always knew the value of a dollar ifyaknowhatimean.
But now, here I am, with my own job that I love to do, and that I do really well...and I've always told myself that I would be the one to break the cycle. I would be the one who would stay prudent even when I come into money, so that I don't blow it and have to start over. I promised myself since I was a little kid that I'd go to college, that I'd make it into Harvard or Yale and come out ready to blow the world out of the water. I'd be the one to change my family's way of keeping themselves down.
And now, while that second part hasn't panned out just yet (I have $2,400 in student debt before I can even go back to school), here I am now with practically an entire paycheck. To myself. With no bills, nothing to pay off. I've even already made the usual monthly payment on my student debt, although again I pay a little extra here and there.
This feeling is...I'm not sure how to explain it. Relieving? Calming, in a way?
I just know I haven't felt this great in a long time. ^w^
I have no bills that I need to pay out of my next paycheck...okay, maybe I'll put $100 towards my student debt, but. Still. That's around $700 that I can just...leave sitting. Save. Use on fun stuff here and there, maybe.
I don't really think I'm in a state of mind to express how incredible this really is, though. My family has lived paycheck to paycheck, money always and forever being tight. My entire life, it's been that way, before and after my parents separated. My mother grew up in near-poverty, and my father, while better off than her, still always knew the value of a dollar ifyaknowhatimean.
But now, here I am, with my own job that I love to do, and that I do really well...and I've always told myself that I would be the one to break the cycle. I would be the one who would stay prudent even when I come into money, so that I don't blow it and have to start over. I promised myself since I was a little kid that I'd go to college, that I'd make it into Harvard or Yale and come out ready to blow the world out of the water. I'd be the one to change my family's way of keeping themselves down.
And now, while that second part hasn't panned out just yet (I have $2,400 in student debt before I can even go back to school), here I am now with practically an entire paycheck. To myself. With no bills, nothing to pay off. I've even already made the usual monthly payment on my student debt, although again I pay a little extra here and there.
This feeling is...I'm not sure how to explain it. Relieving? Calming, in a way?
I just know I haven't felt this great in a long time. ^w^
Truth
Posted 6 years ago
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Discord Server!
Posted 6 years agoHi there! A really great friend of mine, 
starany156, has created a personal Discord server for those who follow his art. I'm an admin there, and I highly recommend you join us! We'd love to have you! >w<
We're open to all, but keep in mind the server is SFW-only. ^^
https://discord.gg/UEFewNn
starany156, has created a personal Discord server for those who follow his art. I'm an admin there, and I highly recommend you join us! We'd love to have you! >w<We're open to all, but keep in mind the server is SFW-only. ^^
https://discord.gg/UEFewNn
