I'm not the type that posts journals on here with any significant meaning but this one will explain the absence of me in the coming year or so...

I have difficulties explaining what's going on with me so I will keep it short.

I have issues that have been haunting me for to long and it's taking it's tole on me in a very negative way.
I am incapable of having real fun (like last EF, I really didn't have a great time there), I'm always down, during my weekends I sleep longer then I should (+12 hrs) but when I wake up I feel like I've only slept 1 or 2 hours. Plus other things that for me are still unknown but which also take it's tole on me.

Some people already warned me this will happen and they're right. I've should have listened to you sooner.

Therefore the following things are going to happen:

- Quit working (reason being is that I work in shifts and it's hindering me)
- No furcons/meeting/gatherings (no work = no cash)
- Cutting down on my online/computer-time and instead take care of the house and pests (3 cats)
- Getting professional help
- Probably taking drugs/medicines to help me with it even though I'm against using drugs/medicines.

As for other things I have no clue what's going to happen. Just pray and hope for the best.

Cheers,

- Nikoshi

(Cross posted from my Midas-account)