It has been quite a while since i last posted here...

Now i found a way to tell what i have experienced. I had a great awakening and now i understand a lot of things about this world around me. It is so complex that it is hard to explain. Nearly impossible.
But the complexity is so brilliant that I am happy to know its beauty.
There were a lot of things in my life that lead me to this. I don't know how anyone would live their own awakening but i decided to tell you how it all happened to me.
I realized that everything around me is sending messages to my subconscious. And thinking back all the 33 years of my life i now understand that everything that happened to me, the movies and series' i watched, the music i listened to were designed to lead me to finally wake up and do what i want. It is exciting and scary at the same time.
I will try to explain the world i see.
forgive me if it will sound weird.

Remember the movie Matrix? The Matrix itself doesn't sound so stupid. The world around us is almost like the same. This world what we see with our eyes is a nursery for souls. And this is the point when Reincarnation itself comes in the picture: Each life you live in this world are the lessons to become fully aware of yourself and be who you want to be. When you gain enough self knowledge you will realize your own existence and you won't need to reincarnate anymore, or only for the fun. But that next life you will live would be forever. You will become god of your own universe and create one for your own liking.
Everyone is connected to the main whole but everyone has an own part of it. If you awake enough you can extend your own reality to merge with others or connect to others with the people you know during your life. If all of your purpose and intentions are almost in the same way your life keeps moving together. We all travel though time and can only move to a certain direction. Time is relative. Everyone noticed that there are occasions when time moves slowly or fast. We all complained about it at least once that time moves slowly when things are shitty and time can move too fast if you have fun. If you're awake you can control which moments to live though and which moments to pass by.

As for myself i started rewatching Doctor Who from Eccleston and now i am at Matt Smith. The series itself is what we will become in the end when we will reach that level. I know i sound crazy but i can only say to this: get a better know of yourselves and you will see what i mean.

I will continue later
I can't tell everything in just one go. There are always more informations and things to know and things to tell just popping up randomly. I write things down so i can read back as well and wil try not to miss out anything.