Well ... these are the feelings I experienced while hearing to the music ... but it's also a part of myself who dropped like a tear in the poem transformed in ink ... and then into words ...

While other families would scare their sons with myths to keep them safe my parents always told me that there are bad guys , thieves and murderers awaiting in the dark and told me never to trust anyone but the family ...

Maybe it's for this reason that I'm suffering this much ...
I thought of some of my acquaintances as a friend and then I was betrayed and stabbed in the back ... they left me alone while I needed their help and they never cared about my feelings , my worries , my thoughts , my fears , my poems and definetly about my tears ... but even if I once trusted my family I feel that I will never get accepted and this is making me feel distressed and lonely ...

Sorry ... Thank you for your comment I really apreciated it ...

I feel that you have suffered a lot and it's clear that you are still suffering ... I was clueless of your situation ... I never thought even once that you was troubled since till now you are the one who helped me ...
Bite the bullet ( I don't know any other way to tell you to endure this suffering and to keep living ) ...
I wish that in the near future the fate will bring you happiness and love

P.S. I'm very sorry if it took me so long to reply to your comment ... but your story is very sad and I didn't wanted to say something that could hurt you ...
By the way ... I'm ashamed of myself ... you were taking care about me , hearing about my problems and I never asked you about your own worries ...
Thank you for helping and supporting me ... and ... please forgive me ...

I'm relieved to hear this
Even if a grieved and wounded soul doesn't heal on its own ... ( or at least this is what I always thought ... but maybe it's something that is true only for those who have a weak willpower like me ... )
I hope I haven't hurted or bothered you ...

Thank you for praising this poem of mine