A Gift, THE Gift- Goodnight, Goodbye, A Lullabye
I am very sorry to those persons whom my leaving this space blank the other day gave the wrong impression to. It seems either this comic was misinterpreted or my lack of being online caused much undue hurt and panic and I am very sorry for that.
I've written a journal explaining the reasons for both but I'll explain it here as well.
This scene, such as it is, is of a life I was never supposed to have. I've explained this a few times but being a "herm", intersexed, we are prone to issues of organ failure. On the average we die young. It's just the fact of it. We're also typically sterile, one set of reproductive structures being incomplete or the other.
Then someone came into my life,
Sanita_Squirrel and everything changed. I've written stories about us, drawn dozens of comics about us, but none of it can really convey what our relationship means to me. She is a love and I life was literally told I couldn't have- and she wanted it, for us. She shared this with me and I am so grateful to have her, my partner and my love.
Still- the lullaby in question is from the animated feature "Charlotte's Web". For those unfamiliar, it's a tale of a friendly young farm pig, Wilbur, who learns that he is destined to be slaughtered. Naturally, he is terrified of dying. A barn spider, Charlotte, befriends him and orchestrates a plan to save his life by making messages in her web to the farmer. In becoming his saviour, she also becomes a surrogate mother of sorts, soothing his worries and caring for him as best she can. A spider's life is short, however, and eventually she must leave him. When the young pig learns that she is dying she consoles him by singing this very lullaby. It is her last act and it has always been one of the most beautiful moments in any movie to me.
I realize I make it a point of pride that my work is more reality than furry fantasy. Though Sanita and I are a snowy squirrel necromancer and a reformed succubus skunk-demon, "living" in a compound peopled by penguin demons and her armada of Canaanite corpse-fiends, in reality we are a loving couple of relatively fur-less human-things and our family means the world to me. The majority of dialogue in my comics comes straight from our conversations. The majority of what we do, from breaking the bedframe in our hotel to watching her smile when she sleeps, guiding ourselves and others in Satanism and trying to fight to see a better world than the one we have, that is all very real.
So I can understand in hindsight how I might have caused alarm by leaving this blank. I am very sorry, to all those whom I brought undue stress, I am very sorry.
I've written a journal explaining the reasons for both but I'll explain it here as well.
This scene, such as it is, is of a life I was never supposed to have. I've explained this a few times but being a "herm", intersexed, we are prone to issues of organ failure. On the average we die young. It's just the fact of it. We're also typically sterile, one set of reproductive structures being incomplete or the other.
Then someone came into my life,
Sanita_Squirrel and everything changed. I've written stories about us, drawn dozens of comics about us, but none of it can really convey what our relationship means to me. She is a love and I life was literally told I couldn't have- and she wanted it, for us. She shared this with me and I am so grateful to have her, my partner and my love.Still- the lullaby in question is from the animated feature "Charlotte's Web". For those unfamiliar, it's a tale of a friendly young farm pig, Wilbur, who learns that he is destined to be slaughtered. Naturally, he is terrified of dying. A barn spider, Charlotte, befriends him and orchestrates a plan to save his life by making messages in her web to the farmer. In becoming his saviour, she also becomes a surrogate mother of sorts, soothing his worries and caring for him as best she can. A spider's life is short, however, and eventually she must leave him. When the young pig learns that she is dying she consoles him by singing this very lullaby. It is her last act and it has always been one of the most beautiful moments in any movie to me.
I realize I make it a point of pride that my work is more reality than furry fantasy. Though Sanita and I are a snowy squirrel necromancer and a reformed succubus skunk-demon, "living" in a compound peopled by penguin demons and her armada of Canaanite corpse-fiends, in reality we are a loving couple of relatively fur-less human-things and our family means the world to me. The majority of dialogue in my comics comes straight from our conversations. The majority of what we do, from breaking the bedframe in our hotel to watching her smile when she sleeps, guiding ourselves and others in Satanism and trying to fight to see a better world than the one we have, that is all very real.
So I can understand in hindsight how I might have caused alarm by leaving this blank. I am very sorry, to all those whom I brought undue stress, I am very sorry.
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That's very sweet of you to say, love. Thank you for your kindness.
I wrote a journal explaining things in more detail as it seems I gave several people a very undue scare yesterday- either by not explaining things well enough or just circumstances. I am sorry for that.
I wrote a journal explaining things in more detail as it seems I gave several people a very undue scare yesterday- either by not explaining things well enough or just circumstances. I am sorry for that.
Honey, no! I'm so sorry.
I was asleep all afternoon, or lying there trying to be. You know I've been hurting lately. Ahriman had my phone playing the MLP game so it may have looked like I was up but I promise I wasn't. I could never ignore you, baby- never like that. No.
I was asleep all afternoon, or lying there trying to be. You know I've been hurting lately. Ahriman had my phone playing the MLP game so it may have looked like I was up but I promise I wasn't. I could never ignore you, baby- never like that. No.
I have read the journal and now I understand, and I apologize for jumping to conclusions hon. You too are a treasure, not only to your family, but to us, your fans and friends too. You are an inspiration to me personally in several ways, and I have learned how to live more for the moment and for the ones I hold dear from you than I think I ever would have learned on my own, and for that, I shall always hold you dear in my own way. Yes, I can honestly say, I love you, dear friend. Because, you are you, and you are one of the Bravest I have the privilege to have known in this life, my dear Ashley.
It's getting really hard to read anything you write with dry eyes.
I know the score.
I had my freak-out moment long before this.
https://www.furaffinity.net/view/32673463/
That was when you confirmed everything I didn't want to believe.
If I could fix what was broken, I would.
I know the score.
I had my freak-out moment long before this.
https://www.furaffinity.net/view/32673463/
That was when you confirmed everything I didn't want to believe.
If I could fix what was broken, I would.
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