.:WARNING:. The following may contain ramblings of the artist that may or may not make any sense. Reader discretion is advised.

Ooh boy...okay I'm going to try the best I can to explain this piece, really I am. Lately, I've been completely devoid of any inspiration to produce any personal art for myself. I've just found myself unable to focus long enough to come up with an idea. No matter what I was doing, I couldn't think of anything but, "You'd better get those commissions done before you piss someone off." Then, inspiration struck in the most unexpected way.

Okay, you even have one of those head colds or something that seems to get its worst at night? I mean, through the day, you feel decent, and then as night falls, it royally whoops your butt? Well, if so, then you'll understand where I'm going with this. I found that later in the evenings, I was getting hit by this wave of loneliness, or hurt, or something and I really didn't know where it came from. I may have had a great day, then when things wound down, I would be on the verge of tears. I couldn't rightly talk to anyone about it, mainly because if anyone was around online at all, they were busy doing other things. I don't fault any of them in the least. Life happens, and that's all there is to it.

It was in that hurtful feeling that my mind began to finally find the inspiration it was so desperately wanting. This picture is basically a depiction of how my mind was perceiving what I was going through, of course not using myself, but Reoku to depict it. Now, I know there's a lot wrong with it, artistically, and what have you, and I don't even know that I'm perfectly happy with the outcome. However, I've tinkered with it all I can, trying a few new things with inking and shading, and I really can't to anything else with it to make me satisfied with the direction it's going. This was the best I could come up with, and I figured I'd share it with you, as it's the only personal art I've come out with for a while.

I really shouldn't have stopped my commissions for this, so I guess I'll get back to it, though I won't be able to work on them for a few days thanks to my RL job. Okay, my rambling is over with now. Enjoy the piece, or don't, it's really up to the individual. As always, comments are welcome...very welcome. I love hearing from you guys. Please, don't be afraid.