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Monthly Update #2: So Close, but Feels So Far
4 years ago
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Hello! Toldja this was gonna be a thing :P
...Though I do wish it was under better circumstances. I was very confident that I'd have my latest character done by the end of September, and I'm still confident that I could have, if it weren't for... what I'll describe as a series of unfortunate events, with more sadness and less... uhh, Jim Carrey, I dunno I never read it. There's a bunch of prattle and possibly tmi touchy-feely stuff here, so if you just want to know about my next character, it'll all be reiterated in the final paragraph.
I'm currently writing this following a somewhat failed writing session, where I assumed, perhaps a little too propitiously, that I'd be able to write 24 stages, an opening, and an epilogue, and proofread an over 90 stage character in a single night, and everyone will be so proud and give me bouquets and I'll be the CHAMPION of niche stories run on eight year old software. That obviously wasn't realistic, and so I come to you this month with no new character... again.
But I'm trying to spin this positively, because hoo boy is it easy for me to spin this the other way. So I'll say this: I just read my last update, where I wasn't talking about not getting the character finished, but instead talking about not getting much of anything finished. And I didn't have much back then... but I do now. What I said there about me "blowing past stages at the end" turned out to be true: I have hit a stride in writing this character, and have written... I'm gonna lowball it and say fifty stages last month. I now have every confidence that you will see this new character relatively soon; the problem is, I also had confidence you'd see it much sooner.
Deadlines have never been my friend: as a kid, I had to take tests and exams in a separate room with no time limit because I'd spend the hour staring at the paper and crying (again, positive vibes only in this update). So I shouldn't have self-imposed a deadline onto myself. No, that's not fair: I shouldn't have self-imposed a strict deadline on myself. Maybe this is hindsight bias or sour grapes or sweaty sock fallacy or some other term, but I still believe that I would have this character done and posted if it weren't for several very bad things happening at once, which prevented me from getting any writing done for more than a week. That sort of thing happens, and we need to adapt when it does. I should have realised that my deadline wasn't feasible under the new circumstances, but it's hard to do in the moment. That, and I have some trauma around having to miss things, but I won't get into that here; I gotta save some talking points for my therapist, lol
And on that note, sorry for dumping all this on you all: I've always strived to be transparent, but I sometimes go over the line. To everyone who just wants to know the plan going forward (which is, of course, everyone in general, myself included), you will get a new character in October. You'll probably get one a little sooner than that, but again, trying not to self-impose strict deadlines. Even if I ludicrously get zero writing done this month, you will see some content from me; I know that sounds weird, but... trust me, I have contingency plans. But that won't happen, because I anticipate that finishing this will be much easier without a strict deadline. And this character is... let's say, a heavy amount of content~
Seeya in November for our next therapy session:
- yoshielder
...Though I do wish it was under better circumstances. I was very confident that I'd have my latest character done by the end of September, and I'm still confident that I could have, if it weren't for... what I'll describe as a series of unfortunate events, with more sadness and less... uhh, Jim Carrey, I dunno I never read it. There's a bunch of prattle and possibly tmi touchy-feely stuff here, so if you just want to know about my next character, it'll all be reiterated in the final paragraph.
I'm currently writing this following a somewhat failed writing session, where I assumed, perhaps a little too propitiously, that I'd be able to write 24 stages, an opening, and an epilogue, and proofread an over 90 stage character in a single night, and everyone will be so proud and give me bouquets and I'll be the CHAMPION of niche stories run on eight year old software. That obviously wasn't realistic, and so I come to you this month with no new character... again.
But I'm trying to spin this positively, because hoo boy is it easy for me to spin this the other way. So I'll say this: I just read my last update, where I wasn't talking about not getting the character finished, but instead talking about not getting much of anything finished. And I didn't have much back then... but I do now. What I said there about me "blowing past stages at the end" turned out to be true: I have hit a stride in writing this character, and have written... I'm gonna lowball it and say fifty stages last month. I now have every confidence that you will see this new character relatively soon; the problem is, I also had confidence you'd see it much sooner.
Deadlines have never been my friend: as a kid, I had to take tests and exams in a separate room with no time limit because I'd spend the hour staring at the paper and crying (again, positive vibes only in this update). So I shouldn't have self-imposed a deadline onto myself. No, that's not fair: I shouldn't have self-imposed a strict deadline on myself. Maybe this is hindsight bias or sour grapes or sweaty sock fallacy or some other term, but I still believe that I would have this character done and posted if it weren't for several very bad things happening at once, which prevented me from getting any writing done for more than a week. That sort of thing happens, and we need to adapt when it does. I should have realised that my deadline wasn't feasible under the new circumstances, but it's hard to do in the moment. That, and I have some trauma around having to miss things, but I won't get into that here; I gotta save some talking points for my therapist, lol
And on that note, sorry for dumping all this on you all: I've always strived to be transparent, but I sometimes go over the line. To everyone who just wants to know the plan going forward (which is, of course, everyone in general, myself included), you will get a new character in October. You'll probably get one a little sooner than that, but again, trying not to self-impose strict deadlines. Even if I ludicrously get zero writing done this month, you will see some content from me; I know that sounds weird, but... trust me, I have contingency plans. But that won't happen, because I anticipate that finishing this will be much easier without a strict deadline. And this character is... let's say, a heavy amount of content~
Seeya in November for our next therapy session:
- yoshielder
