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Feather Head - Part 2: The Psychology
4 years ago
hOI!!!!!!
PIP WHILE USING UTILITY BELT In SONG:
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=xQr.....;amp;index=346
This is the second part of two journals to best explain what has been making me into a ‘ghost’ for nearly the past two months…
*** PART 1 – LEFTOVERS FROM FEATHER HEAD 1 ***
1: Employer that released my team and I 20 days prematurely provided ‘some’ of us surprise severance pay. I was one of these ‘fortunate’ ones. However not knowing this was going to be paid meant that I, technically, lied on my UC Claim while having exceeded the amount of gross income I am allowed to make on SSDI.
2: Local Social Security Office is still closed due to COVID-19. (They also do not take, or return, phone calls.)
3: Contacted the nearby SSA office to ensure I had a ‘Case Note Update’ to explain how I did not expect this severance and how, if possible, I would like to avoid a penalty of nearly $325 as a result of the unexpected pay. (The CSR was less than helpful and, although I had already left a message for my Case Manager to contact me , sent another request to said Case Manager to get back to me. UPDATE: I still have not gotten a call back.)
*** HIDING UNDER THE BLANKET ***
1: Falling behind on comments, posts, notes, etc. has made it feel super-duper scary to try and catch up on all that I have not been able to make time for. (I worry about how there are lots of friends who, for just reason, would wonder why I may get back to some folks more sooner than I would respond to them. I do not want to seem like I pick ‘favorites’. *Sighs*)
2: There’s so much work in preparing for the move that I do not know how to best fit in responding to everyone. Especially considering I still have to perform my ‘Parental Duties’ for Peep.
3: Due to preparing for the move, I’ve had to pull all my support for those I have tried to help out through Patreon. (It is certainly nothing personal. I just hope that I can return to helping out again in the near future.)
4: I’m horrendously behind on ‘FiM Fiction’. I still owe someone Part 2 of a commission and have not responded to folks I’ve been talking to and, by now, appear like I do not value their time by all my inconsistence in responding.
5: When I get on twitter, it will only let me see back a short bit in my Notifications before it just won’t let me extend the scroll slider. (Even if I get time to do stuff on my phone for Twitter, I can only view, on average, 12 hours of posts before accessibility just keeps it from sharing more.)
6: The stress and anxiety has ‘Dark Yosh’ coming out. (Dark Yosh is the undesired alter-ego who comes out when I feel overwhelmed and takes my desire to be a diapered dino-duckling into unhealthy escapism.)
*** CONCLUSION – FEATHER HAD 2 ***
I want to be a ‘good friend’ and do now that, just like everyone else, I can only do so much. I just feel very sad and extremely guilty for not being able to spend much time, if any, with so many good friends.
It is my hope that, with ‘Peep House’ ready to just move into over the course of the next month, I will be able to catch up more on all you have to share. I truly do care about everyone and all you do. Please know that, really and truly, I am going to get to where I can do less ‘adulting’ and giving into ‘Dark Yosh’ so I can spend more time with all of you. (I tremendously miss being able to write stories and have so many ideas I want to write that go beyond my super-duper overdue commission.)
May you be well and know that this quacker is going to keep doing all he can to show how much you all mean to me as my friends.
Your Pal,
---Yosh E. O’Ducky ;)
PIP WHILE USING UTILITY BELT In SONG:
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=xQr.....;amp;index=346
This is the second part of two journals to best explain what has been making me into a ‘ghost’ for nearly the past two months…
*** PART 1 – LEFTOVERS FROM FEATHER HEAD 1 ***
1: Employer that released my team and I 20 days prematurely provided ‘some’ of us surprise severance pay. I was one of these ‘fortunate’ ones. However not knowing this was going to be paid meant that I, technically, lied on my UC Claim while having exceeded the amount of gross income I am allowed to make on SSDI.
2: Local Social Security Office is still closed due to COVID-19. (They also do not take, or return, phone calls.)
3: Contacted the nearby SSA office to ensure I had a ‘Case Note Update’ to explain how I did not expect this severance and how, if possible, I would like to avoid a penalty of nearly $325 as a result of the unexpected pay. (The CSR was less than helpful and, although I had already left a message for my Case Manager to contact me , sent another request to said Case Manager to get back to me. UPDATE: I still have not gotten a call back.)
*** HIDING UNDER THE BLANKET ***
1: Falling behind on comments, posts, notes, etc. has made it feel super-duper scary to try and catch up on all that I have not been able to make time for. (I worry about how there are lots of friends who, for just reason, would wonder why I may get back to some folks more sooner than I would respond to them. I do not want to seem like I pick ‘favorites’. *Sighs*)
2: There’s so much work in preparing for the move that I do not know how to best fit in responding to everyone. Especially considering I still have to perform my ‘Parental Duties’ for Peep.
3: Due to preparing for the move, I’ve had to pull all my support for those I have tried to help out through Patreon. (It is certainly nothing personal. I just hope that I can return to helping out again in the near future.)
4: I’m horrendously behind on ‘FiM Fiction’. I still owe someone Part 2 of a commission and have not responded to folks I’ve been talking to and, by now, appear like I do not value their time by all my inconsistence in responding.
5: When I get on twitter, it will only let me see back a short bit in my Notifications before it just won’t let me extend the scroll slider. (Even if I get time to do stuff on my phone for Twitter, I can only view, on average, 12 hours of posts before accessibility just keeps it from sharing more.)
6: The stress and anxiety has ‘Dark Yosh’ coming out. (Dark Yosh is the undesired alter-ego who comes out when I feel overwhelmed and takes my desire to be a diapered dino-duckling into unhealthy escapism.)
*** CONCLUSION – FEATHER HAD 2 ***
I want to be a ‘good friend’ and do now that, just like everyone else, I can only do so much. I just feel very sad and extremely guilty for not being able to spend much time, if any, with so many good friends.
It is my hope that, with ‘Peep House’ ready to just move into over the course of the next month, I will be able to catch up more on all you have to share. I truly do care about everyone and all you do. Please know that, really and truly, I am going to get to where I can do less ‘adulting’ and giving into ‘Dark Yosh’ so I can spend more time with all of you. (I tremendously miss being able to write stories and have so many ideas I want to write that go beyond my super-duper overdue commission.)
May you be well and know that this quacker is going to keep doing all he can to show how much you all mean to me as my friends.
Your Pal,
---Yosh E. O’Ducky ;)
I wouldn't mind throwing some money your way to help alleviate some things if you'd like Yosh. You've been going through a lot and I am definitely in a position where I can help. PM me, if you'd like, about that.
As for catching up on what people have been up to here. If you're stressed, I'd advise nuking all that stuff. If you need, make a journal where people can link you to some things they'd like to share. Nobody here expects you to check out and comment on every little thing they've done in the past couple months. I don't expect you to check out ANY of my stuff that you missed, unless that's what you have the time and inclination to do.
Take care Yosh, and use those tools in your toolbox to keep those scary Yoshes placated.
...However I may have to nuke some things in order to not feel so overwhelmed. Well 'overwhelmed' is not the correct word. It's actually guilt for knowing how I really like to show everyone I care for the support and that I care. So, in my head, everything I have fallen behind on is making me worry that I am falling short as a pal. (I know this is not true. However it is still a struggle as I never want to seem like I 'play favorites' nor intentionally neglect people. I think this goes back to what my first employer said about me and how I, to her, came off as 'selfish', 'lacking character', 'bringing people down', and 'never showing reciprocity'.)
*Snugs* Thank you for being such a great and supportive pal, Tacki. I look forward to enjoying all I can as I continue to widdle away at all the 'fun' of moving to 'Peep House'. :)
I'm so sorry to hear about this, and sorry for being out of contact so long. I responded to your email! I'm so sorry that this happened to you, I wish only for good things coming your way *Hugs*
You're a great friend no matter what. I'm young, I can patiently wait for the right moment when you can leave me more amazingly cute messages n.n