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Thank you all for your outstanding patience with commissions, really! I am working on them and day by day I'm getting more motivated.
A few close friends know this and I posted my story on my twitter, but from November 2019 to basically August 2020 I was held "hostage" by my narcissistic ex friend. I would have to talk to her from the time I woke up till the time I went to bed and if I was AFK for too long she would sulk and be passive aggressive then give me the cold shoulder.
And I have rejection issues so I didn't want one of my only friends to be mad at me. So commissions slowed down a lot cause I was too exhausted from entertaining her. I got burnt out.
Anyway long story short. (If you can find the one I posted on twittlonger, you're welcome to read it)
I've had BAD ptsd and depression cause of this child and I've been dealing with the anxiety part and the residue that nasty narcissist's leave behind, which has taken a toll on my commission work, but I'm slowly working past it.
She still stalks my twitters and FA, (Note I have NOT checked her pages since the recent fight as she and her shit are not worth my time.) I've left the twitter rp community for now and she holds no power here so I'm safe. XD FA is my stronghold with you amazing babs!
ANYWAY, I've had amazing people by my side, an amazing supportive husband and I'm even chatting with previous friends of hers that she's hurt too so we have a nice lil community going. It won't be long till we add more to our list given she goes through friends like crazy as soon as they stand up to her or they become not useful.
Commissions are coming! You bet your ass they are!! I'm working so hard on themmm!
I also apologize for talking about this a few times here. This is my way of coping and finally letting out years of trauma I endured because I won't be silenced as a victim anymore, and I thank you all for being so patient and understanding with my ass.
You're all amazing!
A few close friends know this and I posted my story on my twitter, but from November 2019 to basically August 2020 I was held "hostage" by my narcissistic ex friend. I would have to talk to her from the time I woke up till the time I went to bed and if I was AFK for too long she would sulk and be passive aggressive then give me the cold shoulder.
And I have rejection issues so I didn't want one of my only friends to be mad at me. So commissions slowed down a lot cause I was too exhausted from entertaining her. I got burnt out.
Anyway long story short. (If you can find the one I posted on twittlonger, you're welcome to read it)
I've had BAD ptsd and depression cause of this child and I've been dealing with the anxiety part and the residue that nasty narcissist's leave behind, which has taken a toll on my commission work, but I'm slowly working past it.
She still stalks my twitters and FA, (Note I have NOT checked her pages since the recent fight as she and her shit are not worth my time.) I've left the twitter rp community for now and she holds no power here so I'm safe. XD FA is my stronghold with you amazing babs!
ANYWAY, I've had amazing people by my side, an amazing supportive husband and I'm even chatting with previous friends of hers that she's hurt too so we have a nice lil community going. It won't be long till we add more to our list given she goes through friends like crazy as soon as they stand up to her or they become not useful.
Commissions are coming! You bet your ass they are!! I'm working so hard on themmm!
I also apologize for talking about this a few times here. This is my way of coping and finally letting out years of trauma I endured because I won't be silenced as a victim anymore, and I thank you all for being so patient and understanding with my ass.
You're all amazing!
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One time hitting, throwing her to the ground and pulling her sisters hair while screaming at her, I wanted to do more then say "honestly that not ok, because you really did hurt her." Her response is it wasn't my family or I didn't get just how annoying her sister was, meanwhile I never got to know my sister growing up and was an only child so I got lonely. I was to scared after that to cross my ex friend and there after watched what I said and did.
Unfortunately they were only one of 3 friends I had then and even seeing this and knowing it was wrong I was also scared to end our friendship incase they took it out on me like they did her sister.
It's not until I meet my partner and they had a high hate for them, we had a small fight over it, told them they didn't need to like them to still be friends with me etc, but they just couldn't get over my partner's talking back, which my partner had all rights to do.
They left and I haven't heard anything about them since, and I honestly feel free because of it. Toxic friendship isn't worth it, and I think honestly you've made the right choice here, they don't sound worth fixing when they refuse to try better for you too, because real friendship means each friend tries for each other, meaning if they do make mistakes they try and fix it, or try better for that friend.
Wishing you the best. 🥰
Given how violent she is online, I can only imagine how violent and abusive she is IRL. Fuckin psychopaths need to go to a mental hospital or something. I'm glad you're in a much better place now and it's always freeing to let go of toxic people.
Like the breath of fresh air I got when I finally cut ties was so nice, I haven't been that anxious in awhile. Like when we started talking again, she was "fine" we had a few spats but at that point I wasn't attached, so I wasn't too bothered. I held her at arms length so it didn't bother me but the closure was nice cause I realized it wasn't MY fault that the friendship tanked. It's all on her.
And seeing how she treated her other friends that I'm now friends with, our stories are all the same.
She stopped talking to me cause I met a new friend and she got jealous, so she started bullying my new friend online and blocked them and stuff, so I had enough and removed her and her squad from my shit and blocked her, but BOY she didn't like that. LOL
And my new friend and I? Not ONE fight. in the 6 months we've been friends. Not one, no disagreements, nothing. Where with the "scab" and I she was fighting with me every month if I stepped out of line.
Im just glad that chapter is over with, I don't need dumb bitches in my life XD
Let her rant, let her cry, let her whine, in the end its just a fart in the wind! And its as you said, FA is your stronghold, she can't do anything but stare meanly at the screen here to herself :3
And the wounded band together, who'd of thunk if you keep hurting people they'll eventually leave you right? Good you can all come together and talk ^^ Hope everythings going good or better for you all!
Yanno, she is an idiot. And sooner or later karma is going to bite her in the ass. She may have twitter fooled but those are all sheep listening to another dumbass sheep cry wolf. And I'm tired of rolling over and being a doormat for twats.
LOL Yeah there's like 4 of us but 7 total who all chat with each other. And lo and behold, all our stories are the exact same. Narc kidnaps introvert, turns them into one of her flying monkeys with her narcissist powers and once we're not useful she shows her true cunty colors and whines and crys fake crocodile tears.
But we're all just like Meh, you do you. LOL
Things are getting there! Depression comes and goes, still looking over my shoulder but that's PTSD. ksjdhfsd
I know you've been away for a while, and it'll take some time, but you'll find what works best for you, I'm sure. Until then, keep focused on your goals. Tackle what you can do right now, and work on the bigger stuff when you feel in the right position to do so. :)
I may not be one of your commissioners at this time but if I was I’d totally understand. I didn’t know about the extra stress from your ex friend and m extremely sorry you had to deal with that at all. True friends wouldn’t do that.
I’m glad to be in your stronghold and this wolf and all of my characters would be an Army, Navy, Air Force, Marines and all the special forces in them to protect you and also provide you with lots of hugs, snuggles and cuddles anytime you need them.
I’m extremely happy you’ve got such awesome people and a wonderful husband by your side.
Always looking forward to seeing your art whenever you post it.
No need to apologize. We all need to vent at times, even this wolf. Just do your best and take as long as you need. Your art is always well worth the wait.
Always wishing you all the best.