$20 for whoever gets the reference in my journal title.

So my mother is sick and my father is even sicker and after getting to spend the weekend with  rimme I have spent my time balancing working for my license and taking care of two sick parents. Well that and hearing my brother tell me he can't do anything because he's too busy, so it's all on me. And my parents keep telling me how much they appreciate what I've been doing for them and I keep reminding myself when all is said and done I'll get a pat on the head and they'll go back to caring more about my brother than me. On reflection, this seems to be how I've lived my life.

I try to do what I can for others without complaint. If someone needs an ear, I try to listen. If someone writes or draws, I'll look at their product and give them feedback. If someone needs a plane ticket, I'll pay for it. And they...will tell me they won't watch my FA page, or watch my gaming stream or read my story if I read theirs because they don't want to.

I don't have a particularly long journal for once, mostly just venting frustration. I want to make people happy, I'll help them as needed. Just I'd like to know sometimes people care. When one friend lost a pet, I roleplayed with him for twelve hours. He promised to do a rat rp with me. Two years later that still hasn't happened.

I just...I dunno. I shouldn't complain, but every so often I need to blow off steam. If you read this, please comment. I don't care if you don't have much to say, I don't care if you want to say something on telegram, post here so I can look at it when I need it.