First of all, I know the whole "Life is shitty" routine is getting old... But that's just the truth of what I am going through right now. I don't understand why, but I seem to have a Fallout SPECIAL Luck rating of 3 to 1 at times. It sucks.

Also, I am doing everything I can to work through it. I'm in therapy, I'm trying to keep mellow and in control, and I am doing my best to make the most of my situation in a positive way. The main reason why I write these journals in such a negative, pessimistic, and at times "bitchy" manner is just so I can get it out, and not randomly snap at anyone due to built-up pressure.

I don't want to snap at anyone. I just want to, at the least, appear normal IRL.