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I'm probably very weird for this but... people have been commenting on it lately, so I feel the need to explain.
I'm constantly called sweet and cute, online and offline - and not JUST because I happen to look adorable.
It's the facade.
I have that bubbly, happy facade. I'm like your favorite pet - when I see you my first words are almost always some variation on "Hi!! It's nice to see you again!! I missed you!! How have you been??"
I'm not saying that that's not how I feel - on the contrary, I'm usually that damn happy to see someone who actually talks to me. [But this is NOT an emo whiney feel-sorry-for-me journal!]
No, the facade is that... to all but the inner circle... I'm always like that. I'm ALWAYS bubbly, happy to see you, ready to thrust aside everything I'm doing to help you.
I'm the safe person. That person you go to when the shit hit the fan and talking to your bestest buddy in the whole wide world zomg didn't help. I'm that person who listens. then tells you with no sugar-coating what you need to do, when you need to do it, and why you need to do it.
That's something I value a lot. It's stressful as hell sometimes, but you know what? It tells me that I'm doing something important: I'm helping people. It tells me that I'm trustworthy, that I know more than I give myself credit for.
But that facade can be hard to maintain. Again, don't get me wrong - I like being that person you can tell anything to, because it won't go any farther. I like being that person who, if she doesn't know the solution, she can figure it out or at least point you in the right direction. It's just hard to always act so HAPPY.
Because I'm not always happy. Oh hell, I'm delighted to have someone give me the time of day. A "Hi! How are you?" is literally the best way you can possibly show me that you appreciate me in any way. I try not to bitch and moan about this, but I'm very lonely. Due to a mix of circumstances, me talking to friends offline is almost impossible. Hell, most of my interaction is with less than ten people TOTAL.
I'm not asking for a hugbox or pity. Just a "hi" every once in a while. I like to talk. I like to listen. I like to make friends. Hell, if you look through my gallery, almost any picture that isn't just my character/s involves someone who's made the effort to be friendly with me. I appreciate the time and how difficult it is to approach people even enough to say "Oh hi there! Nice to meet you!" I really do - just recently I did something out of character for me enough to make someone who knows me just enough to know it's a cold day in hell when I reach out to someone new to say 'hi!', to make said person temporarily speechless.
So yeah. Take the time to say Hi. I'm a good listener - if you've got a problem I try to help, or if you just want to shoot the breeze for a bit.
[Edit]I'm tired. I'm rambling. I know. XD If I didn't make any sense go "huh?" and I'll explain when I'm actually AWAKE.[/Edit]
I'm constantly called sweet and cute, online and offline - and not JUST because I happen to look adorable.
It's the facade.
I have that bubbly, happy facade. I'm like your favorite pet - when I see you my first words are almost always some variation on "Hi!! It's nice to see you again!! I missed you!! How have you been??"
I'm not saying that that's not how I feel - on the contrary, I'm usually that damn happy to see someone who actually talks to me. [But this is NOT an emo whiney feel-sorry-for-me journal!]
No, the facade is that... to all but the inner circle... I'm always like that. I'm ALWAYS bubbly, happy to see you, ready to thrust aside everything I'm doing to help you.
I'm the safe person. That person you go to when the shit hit the fan and talking to your bestest buddy in the whole wide world zomg didn't help. I'm that person who listens. then tells you with no sugar-coating what you need to do, when you need to do it, and why you need to do it.
That's something I value a lot. It's stressful as hell sometimes, but you know what? It tells me that I'm doing something important: I'm helping people. It tells me that I'm trustworthy, that I know more than I give myself credit for.
But that facade can be hard to maintain. Again, don't get me wrong - I like being that person you can tell anything to, because it won't go any farther. I like being that person who, if she doesn't know the solution, she can figure it out or at least point you in the right direction. It's just hard to always act so HAPPY.
Because I'm not always happy. Oh hell, I'm delighted to have someone give me the time of day. A "Hi! How are you?" is literally the best way you can possibly show me that you appreciate me in any way. I try not to bitch and moan about this, but I'm very lonely. Due to a mix of circumstances, me talking to friends offline is almost impossible. Hell, most of my interaction is with less than ten people TOTAL.
I'm not asking for a hugbox or pity. Just a "hi" every once in a while. I like to talk. I like to listen. I like to make friends. Hell, if you look through my gallery, almost any picture that isn't just my character/s involves someone who's made the effort to be friendly with me. I appreciate the time and how difficult it is to approach people even enough to say "Oh hi there! Nice to meet you!" I really do - just recently I did something out of character for me enough to make someone who knows me just enough to know it's a cold day in hell when I reach out to someone new to say 'hi!', to make said person temporarily speechless.
So yeah. Take the time to say Hi. I'm a good listener - if you've got a problem I try to help, or if you just want to shoot the breeze for a bit.
[Edit]I'm tired. I'm rambling. I know. XD If I didn't make any sense go "huh?" and I'll explain when I'm actually AWAKE.[/Edit]
I get what you mean. Sometimes a little interaction or acknowledgment would be nice to have and isn't really asking for much. And you definitely deserve it. :)
http://www.f-list.net/c/ladynoreen
But seriously, it is very admirable of you to listen to people like that, even if it does seem like a facade at times. I'd be happy to talk to you if you'd like. :)