Hi everyone,

It's been one hell of a year.

For those who may not have heard but back in March of this year I was hospitalized with COVID-19 after visiting my family. Come to find i was not the only one to get it but my whole family, I was just the worst case.

So while in the hospital I had no idea how bad it was until I woke up, which was a miracle in itself since I didn't take well to them taking out the tubes that where helping me live.

I can tell you that to me I was dreaming and it was not fun dreams it was...just emotional to say the least.

So once I woke up I found out that not only was I lucky to wake up but my kidney's had failed. Not just one but both.
To say the least I had my very first panic attacks while in the hospital. The Isolation and such does not help your mental state when you've nearly died and no one you care about can be there to help comfort you.

So all in all i was in the hospital for 38 days, I had lost 58 pounds and I could not really walk on my own for more then 3 steps and my hands shook out of my control.
Once out I had to get dialysis for my kidneys, which again to everyones surprise started working well again after just 2 months or so of treatment and diet i was doing.

Since then I have been recovering still and still feel the effects of not walking for so long and such even know with working again and so forth. Bills and such will be a struggle but that hasnt changed.

I just want everyone to know that I am still here and getting better so I can continue doing what I like and thats drawing, playing games and talking with friends and family.

The road ahead of me and my fiancee is a bit tough right now since well he also injured himself on the day I got back and we have been worrying about that and he soon will have a surgery to get it fixed and hopefully it heals.

So keep as much positivity you can out there, I know life is getting hard for everyone but we shouldnt make it harder with filling it with negativity more then is already there.