Being an Introvert sucks at times.
4 years ago
As some of you know, I am quite the Introvert and do my bests when left alone.
However tho, I do get lonely and it sucks being so cautious and nervous making new friends is almost impossible.
I have no clue how to introduce myself or not be intimidated by crowds or certain people. I think this is why I hide in my imagination most of my time, even tho I may not be in complete control at times.
I feel stuck, I want companionship but I dread the idea of meeting new people or joining a crowd. I don't use any chat programs due to intimidation and fear of Someone Censoring what I speak. Sometimes the Fear of people is overshadowed by my ache for friends and sharing life and I make a effort to make a connection which usually shows me why to fear people.
Bleh just feeling mixed up today.
However tho, I do get lonely and it sucks being so cautious and nervous making new friends is almost impossible.
I have no clue how to introduce myself or not be intimidated by crowds or certain people. I think this is why I hide in my imagination most of my time, even tho I may not be in complete control at times.
I feel stuck, I want companionship but I dread the idea of meeting new people or joining a crowd. I don't use any chat programs due to intimidation and fear of Someone Censoring what I speak. Sometimes the Fear of people is overshadowed by my ache for friends and sharing life and I make a effort to make a connection which usually shows me why to fear people.
Bleh just feeling mixed up today.
As far as I have found on the making friends front oh, the only real way is to just start talking. One of those spitballing sort of things where you throw as many things to the walls as you can and see what sticks. When people start responding back then you can open up a bit and get a feel for them and decide if you want to continue talking to them. And if a group starts to get overwhelming don't be afraid to leave.
Introvert are, by Nature, Outsiders to many things. Distance to make us lonelier, but we can also cover a whole lot more ground both intellectually and socially by not getting stuck in one place.
I do not like being monitored or controlled even by Mods or Censorship, i won't bother then. Why so someone can approve my thinking and if they disapprove they will censor or ban me.
Still, there's always journals and notes.
I'm the solitary type myself, though I don't mind crowds and enjoy meeting new people as well... :)
My best advice is just brace yourself a bit and go out in crowds. Don't try to meet anyone, just get the energy and enjoy the scenery. Eventually, you'll strike up a conversation, and just go from there...
Although I don't drink, its not good for my tummy at all.