It sounds like you might be suffering from depression... Hope you manage to get through it and feel better soon.

Oh it's definitely depression, but it's not just that. there are a lot of substantive, external factors that I'm going to want to touch on, mostly involving my future on this site and elsewhere, and some other things. Thanks, though. *huuuuugs*

I know this feeling. I been going though the same thing lately. Like I'll spend weeks on a picture but at the end unhappy with the results. Sometimes I feel like no matter how much I try I can't get any better. Every year I feel like playing this game of catch up with others. It just seems harder and harder to do. It just like the older I just the more questions I have and just getting harder find answers. Take all the time you need to find to fine yourself and your peace. Even if don't post of a full mont, do it your own paste. Hope you feel better soon.

Thanks buddy, though it's been like over 3 years now since I've been able to regularly draw stuff x3 considering a lot of changes, still trying to find things that work for me, and we'll, that's just the beginning of it.

The more you force things to happen, the harder it'll be for them to make them .

You have to get back to a headspace where things can flow easily and without thought: what would you draw if you didn't have to worry about anything? About time flowing or other's opinions? Grab that idea and run with it.

Look for what comes easy and develop it through an easy and quick process to keep the machine going

Thanks Dosan, I always appreciate your encouragement. You're absolutely right on that first point, I've been there more times than I care to admit x3

I guess what I would work on... if I didn't have any constraints... I'm not sure, but a big contender would be what I did with Riley Advanced. Started out as a little pet project, something I could bang out quickly and watch them pile up. As it got bigger and bolder I somehow found myself feeling it less and less... I also really wanna make some kind of adventure game... but as I've spent the last 20 years thinking about making games instead of really playing existing games, I find myself not knowing what a videogame is supposed to be like x3

Suffice it to say, what I want to make more than anything else, is to make worlds, if that makes sense. but the context, and as you mentioned, the workflow, those are another story.

It got hard to work on it because you put too much material into it, and now instead of doing random silly strips, they feel like actual comic pages: An adage that we have in architecture school, is that making a project complex is easy, but it's hard to make it simple. Consider simplifying some things of it so that it's easy to tackle again: easier bgs, smaller strips, etc.

And adventure games can be fun! Don't worry much about how games are nowadays, doing what you find fun, and give it your own trademark taste, it's more valuable. Or at least that's what I want to believe since I'm the dude drawing porn with plot haha. Consider checking itch.io to see if there are any engines close for what you may want to make.

you might be onto something there

there's more to it than that, but I think you have a good impression of what's going on, here. I would like to simplify. But then, it kinda begs the question as to whether or not I want to do anything at all, and that's where the question of lifestyle comes in.

Will write more about it later~

Sure, man! In my experience, anything that comes the easiest is the best!

the sole fact that you think this, means only you are a very deep, smart, and sensitive person, you shall do what you like as long as you like it and it makes you happy 😊

Awwwww Hef... you know me so well and this means so much to me to hear this from you ^^ *huuuugs* It's just that nothing seems to work for me for very long... I always feel like I'm just dabbling with things like a kid with a short attention span x3

that's life hun. and modern society...

yeah...... *sigh*

which are both crap, we are the ones that must try and think it's chocolate

awwww.... I would never say you're crap...

but i m

nuuuuuuu... ;_;

a shish a...

Feel better soon

thanks ^////^