I hate to say i got depression problems again..
but i know that commissioners waiting for me so i should tell about this
I got depressions disorder seriously again since August and i always struggled about the desire..to suicide..
I tried 3 times alone. and i tried very recently
again. ...
cops and ambulance came into my house just in case i'm dead.
and.. everyone got surprised a lot
maybe more than just a lot
it will be a panic for them.

but i was just empty at that time
i donno. just..
it was very bad. and.. i feel sorry to everyone, like family, friends and my fiance too..
i'm still trying to get better now
it will be okay

but i'm still unstable as heck somtimes so.. idonno about the commissions works sometimes
but its not i'm just left behind and doing nothing
i'm always trying to do it the best as i can
i hope you guys understand me
so if you are asking me about the commission progress i cant tell you the answer right now

i even dont know about my life going on right now..
but i swear
i will try my best
Thank you everyone