And another year passes for me. Its my birthday again and Its time to journal my life. Things are pretty "meh" right now but it is what it is. Maybe at some point in the near future Ill have an opportunity to increase my happiness again as it has not been really that great these days.

More emotionally stable? Maybe... but with COVID still raging (and i think its "endemic" now and we will never be rid of it) my life remains stagnant while political forces here in Ontario and Canada threaten what little security I have. I have no idea what to even do with myself these days but loaf around and help my aging parents until they go into long-term care.

Thankfully Online censorship has been delayed due to the change in government, and a more "socially aware" minister has been put in at Heritage Canada. So the chances of a "balkanized" Canadian internet with authoritarian principles is lower now then before.

Though as long as Doug Ford remains in Charge of Ontario I still have the risk of being forced to martyr myself to work (when I am permanently unemployable as no one locally wants to hire me) -- less I lose my ODSP pension. This may also be worsened by the fact huge inflation has halved my grocery buying power to the point 250 dollars isn't enough for food anymore. Thanks to Covid I have no money for anything, not even socks, clothes, or computer components its all going to grocheries and horrendously priced internet. I don't need assistance beyond what I get, nor would i really qualify with how much I have left after bills, but I haven't been to a restaurant in over a year for example. I haven't seen or purchased a movie in over 5 and last time I bought something that wasn't "bare essential" was this past Easter as well. I wont even be able to buy Christmas presents for anyone as it looks now less I cut my groceries in half for December...

Oh and yes. My new landlord cut us off from free internet to the building. We have to pay our own--In a country that has some of the most expensive net in the G8.

There is a spring election though so we may change to a provincial government that supports a 2000 a month Universal Basic income (from 1169 on ODSP currently). Not likely with Ford's population rankings but its fun to dream.

Ive lost 6 inches off my waist and am down to a 46" waist (was 52" inch last year at this time) Though my doctor wants to put me back on the med that made me gain so much weight (70 pounds in 2 years) because "I'm too stressed". Someday I hope to be able to drop below 40" so I don't have to order all my clothes off of someone else's' credit card online. Only one store in my city carries my size and they are beyond what I can afford. And forget about clothing banks as they only go up to size 38... maybe...

I need to measure my weight though as my fat is either going to my hips or Its disappearing. My working out has built alot of muscle too--nothing burns fat like a weekly pounding of stationary biking for 30min @ 9.3 m/s speed & 6.1 resistance lol.

Ive ran into a few conflicts too. But so far so good I guess. Ive gained more happiness socially then I have lost really.

Here is to another 12 levels I guess....