Once again life just seems to kick me in the balls and wont leave me alone.. I cant be happy for one year let alone a few months. I try and try and try and try and what keeps happening? Another chain is added to the cement holding my feet down and I am fucking drowning. I don't know how much longer i can take this I don't know if I can make it to tomorrow. I am sick and tired of things just finding ways to make me depressed or upset. Lost job today that I worked so hard to get a management position in and once again the bitch that's holding the strings of my life decided to just shake the thread again. I am so tired of this why cant i be happy for once why cant i just wake up and it be a good fucking day. No everyday im just wondering what the fuck else can go wrong what the fuck else is going to fuck with me what the fuck else is going to come through and fucking wreck my life. I don't know what i did to deserve to have all this happen to me but apparently I just cant be happy anymore.