Farewell to an old friend
4 years ago
"No matter what you say, we won't obey.
Gonna hold a revolution now, King ...
Gonna hold a revolution now, King ...
Figure I may as well elaborate on the bad news. I received a message about
silvertail from his boyfriend, that he had taken his own life over Thanksgiving week. This came as a bit of a shock, as had talked to him a little not that long ago.
We had been long term mates for over a decade before he had left, so it definitely... feels kinda sad. but he also was the one to leave me, so... not as hit as hard as it could have been. It's still, such a weird sad situation, and kind of hard to process. The worst part is just kinda, expecting to see that green light on telegram light up once more.
Writing this mostly to try and get a little more closure, and to ensure if anyone else who knew him but didn't get the news can find out. Not sure if my watchers really interacted with him, as we had pretty differing themes and subjects.
I can only hope he finds true peace and happiness, as that was always my hope and dream for him when he left.

We had been long term mates for over a decade before he had left, so it definitely... feels kinda sad. but he also was the one to leave me, so... not as hit as hard as it could have been. It's still, such a weird sad situation, and kind of hard to process. The worst part is just kinda, expecting to see that green light on telegram light up once more.
Writing this mostly to try and get a little more closure, and to ensure if anyone else who knew him but didn't get the news can find out. Not sure if my watchers really interacted with him, as we had pretty differing themes and subjects.
I can only hope he finds true peace and happiness, as that was always my hope and dream for him when he left.

Lolit346
~lolit346
oh fuck man...

thelastgasp
~thelastgasp
OP
yeah, it's weird, I wasn't super close anymore, but, still a big hole in it's own way

Lolit346
~lolit346
Went ahead and linked this to his mains and other accounts so people will know

thelastgasp
~thelastgasp
OP
Thank you

Racoonhero
~racoonhero
I've known him for 12 years....and we talked almost every day and this hit me hard. I honestly havent had a day where I didn't cry since hearing this. I care for him deeply and part of me thinks this is a bad dream..i lose myself when I don't see him messaging me as well

thelastgasp
~thelastgasp
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Got all my condolences. Yeah. Its been. Almost surreal. I didnt talk as much, but man did i want him happy with all my wishes

Racoonhero
~racoonhero
I always tried to help whenever I could. We rped a bunch but mostly hugs and such. But I never hid or was shy with being open with him, always offered my help and an ear to bend. If I'm correct, I might remember you if your the same person I think. Did you use to work for rainfurrest? About 2010-2011?

thelastgasp
~thelastgasp
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Yup. I worked gaming that year. Really niss doing that. It was fun

Racoonhero
~racoonhero
I do remember you, we didn't talk much but he introduced us once. He was just chilling outside the employee area on his phone, my first actual time meeting him

thelastgasp
~thelastgasp
OP
Yeah. I'm a pretty shy recluse myself a lot. Got all my wishes. Thank you for your kindness

Racoonhero
~racoonhero
Thank you for taking the time to talk to me and for what your doing, I know he cared for you as well.

StabbityDeath
~stabbitydeath
Did not know them. However you get *hugs!*. Sorry to hear about this. Yes, I think he tended towards watersports as that is not something I like. Not going to kinkshame though, as to each their own.

thelastgasp
~thelastgasp
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Starting to feel a lil more normal, but it takes a while.