I'd really hate to end up abandoning you guys like this and I hope I don't quit but I feel like I'm gonna quit art dude
I'm so sick of my style, it sucks. it's not going to get me any sort of clout or attention at all
the only reason you guys like it so much is because it's fetish art. it appeals to your interests
and my young age prevents me from doing things like drawing more mature art that might appeal to an older crowd
I also hate talking about art. I can't stand it.
literally every time I talk about art with people, they say "oh, my art sucks" then they show it and it's a fucking masterpiece
like what the fuck do you mean you're bad at art
if there's anyone who's generally bad at art it's me
also I hate this laptop, its horrible specs are preventing me from expanding my art to other areas
I WANT to do SFM art and animations but this thing's shitty graphics card isn't strong enough to run the fucking software
and before you guys tell me "just keep drawing, you'll improve" YEAH THAT'S WHAT I THOUGHT
I'VE BARELY IMPROVED AT ALL AND I'VE BEEN DRAWING MY WHOLE LIFE
Also I hate realism
I want realism to burn to the fucking ground for making me feel this way about something I once loved
people only look at realistic shit anymore and I can't stand it
I'm not saying I'm doing this just for the followers
I started because I enjoyed it
and I'm gonna end up quitting because I realized that I suck

well now you guys know why I barely uploaded last year and this year. there's your answer.
you're welcome and goodbye

oh yeah about those two requests I'm gonna turn them down and close my requests because I literally have no motivation to do them. sorry