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Ever feel like you don't belong?
3 years ago
I get this feeling all the time, and in several different areas.
I've never felt like I belong, not in life or among the fandom.
I rarely get excited or look forward to things like others do and seeing people do so makes me feel that much more on the outside.
The furry fandom is like that, there will be a show or movie that comes out and every artist on the block will be drawing fanart of it and I don't have any inclination,
I get this feeling like I don't get it why is this new thing so important?
How can people get so hyped over something good at best but probably mediocre.
As an artist I'm just a Amateur who dabbles in commissions when I am granted one, I still feel like I don't belong here as well.
I"m not a self promoter, I don't believe in telling everyone how cool I am or repeating myself over and over. I take rejection very strongly, so I don't try it destroys me too much.
Gaming is the same, I don't feel a need to follow a company that doesn't care about it's customers or actively bleeds them for microtransactions.
So I stay in my older games that are from a different time.
Eating is a chore, i hate the foods I get to have being a borderline diabetic, food loses all luster when you have read every label or count every sugar gram.
I don't belong here, is what I feel over and over in waves that come and go but come back a little higher every time.
I've never felt like I belong, not in life or among the fandom.
I rarely get excited or look forward to things like others do and seeing people do so makes me feel that much more on the outside.
The furry fandom is like that, there will be a show or movie that comes out and every artist on the block will be drawing fanart of it and I don't have any inclination,
I get this feeling like I don't get it why is this new thing so important?
How can people get so hyped over something good at best but probably mediocre.
As an artist I'm just a Amateur who dabbles in commissions when I am granted one, I still feel like I don't belong here as well.
I"m not a self promoter, I don't believe in telling everyone how cool I am or repeating myself over and over. I take rejection very strongly, so I don't try it destroys me too much.
Gaming is the same, I don't feel a need to follow a company that doesn't care about it's customers or actively bleeds them for microtransactions.
So I stay in my older games that are from a different time.
Eating is a chore, i hate the foods I get to have being a borderline diabetic, food loses all luster when you have read every label or count every sugar gram.
I don't belong here, is what I feel over and over in waves that come and go but come back a little higher every time.
I feel similar with many points here, i don't really feel i fit in ether.
I watched you cause i though your art was really cool.
To me, you fit in quite well with all the awesome artist i watch, But i don't know everyone personally.
Ether way, i really like what you got going, and i hope you stay on FA for a while, so i can see what fun artz you make.
I don't like lying and the idea of being OK with it doesn't sit well and I can't do that.
This has always been a problem, I can't lie about it to myself so it wont work, I detest lying to people if I can help it.
I used to be a great liar as a teen but grew out of that long ago.
I'm terrible at self love or acceptance.
I've done that too, tried to be part of a furry group that is local, but everyone around me was 20ish if that and I was the old man who no one talked to.
Also you sound like you may be vaguely depressed, everything stops meaning anything when you're in that state.
Trying to hide in a game like skyrim and doodle when able.