Well, once again another calendar year has ended. I have to admit that 2021 began for me with some axienty and indifference at first. There wasn't anything going on good mostly with the movies, TV or new music as far as I was concerned. But at least my family and I got our vaxxine shots so we were to be OK.

As it has with mot of these past 20 or so years, 2021 on the most part has filled me with the usual blah balah of my real life, as I live with not muh of a real life living still with my mother and my dad, with no real friends outside the family that I could run out and go to bars, games, restarunts, the movies, whatever. I wish there were furries near where I live. It would be cool, but I do not know any.

However, as soon as summer rolled around, I got to thin king about one of my Furaffinity friends,  dargon1 and how he treated me and my fursona, as well as we would talk about problems as close friends tend to do, It inspired me with the idea to draw a picture of his and my fursonas together. So i asked for his permission to dra his fersona, and of course he agreed! So I drew and painted this picture of he and I laying on a grassy field together watching clouds, with a couple of clouds, one shaped like a big dragon and one shaped like a collie dog, of course, up in the sky.

While I was drawing that picture I suddenly awashed with a feeling I didn't have before! usually I tend to draw to express myself and to make myself happy. But the older I got, the less happy I got for myself then the less I was willing to draw any more art. This may have been due to how empty and uneventful my life has been, despite my love for cartoons, my being online, being online and all. Nothing much goes on and be fruitful with my life. It made me depressed and unhappy, which didn't help with my trying to overcome my bipolarness and the bad state of affairs I would see on the news. Sometimes, things are so bad that I could get out of bed, and I hated life and I felt like I wanted to even kill myself very often. (which is bad. Please don't kill yourselves, folks. get help and seek some answers like I am doing.)

However, as I was pushing myself to create and paint this art of Bluecollie and Dargon, I felt how I wasn't doing this picture for myself, but for someone else! ;-o Suddenly it hit me! If I give up now and never get around to finishing the picture, I would fail Dargon! So worked as often and as best as I could and when I was done I downloaded it to my Furaffinity gallery for all to see, including my dear best dragon friend, Dargon1. Suddenly I didn't feel so bleak anymore about my outlook and began to think more about how the Furry Fandom and my online friendship with others has any positive effect on me.

So while I still haven't yet get anyone to go with my to hang out in flesh and blood real time, at least I have many online buddies in the Furry Fandom that I can bond with and share interets with. To all my furry friends, thank you, take care, Happy New Year. See you all in 2022 and Woof Woof.

Your best friend, Bluecolie55