I made it!
caught covid, it sucked.
moved to outside of Boston. It's neat.
I'm so, so, so exhausted from the covids and the antivaxxxers and the constant dread of climate change and the utter lack of any major forward progress.
I'm also trying to not be so lonely. it is very slow going, between work, holidays, covid spikes, and everything else, it feels like a constant uphill struggle to become part of the group. My brain has been very very mean to me during this time. I do not like it.
I just wanna have that one person in my corner, that I know is right there within arms reach, and not multiple states/countries away. I feel like a big dummy for trying to in any way force a friendship, and I feel like a bigger dummy for posting this here, but I also have nobody to really talk to about this.
2022 is gonna be more of me tryign to be less lonely, and to just...survive I guess. all my hopes n dreams are actively burning, so I kinda just wanna survive at this point.