I feel very depressed because my family treats me like garbage and I feel like nobody likes me. I have barely any incentive to use FurAffinity as the only good friend I have here isn't even talking to me and doesn't even try to help me anymore so I feel like quitting. I feel like I've been a jerk to everybody but then again people are very sensitive and some are even so easily manipulated that they were manipulated to turn against me, it's even gotten to the point where people are throwing allegations against me and saying that I'm the one who's manipulative.

I wish my friends could see the good in me and not see me as some "fetish jerk". The only thing I know now is I look forward to a day I have a strong feeling might never happen...