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4 years ago
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Another year down I guess?
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I forgot I didn't post a journal after I returned for my trip, lol.
I stayed at
Moonski's place for about a month and a half before coming back home. What can I say, it was a blast. Getting to travel for the first time in a decade, seeing other places and cultures, meeting fellow dragon-loving people with whom I could be open with, and getting to meet the love of my life. The trip was everything I could've hoped for, and everything I needed to feel like I could move forward with my life. I had never been more comfortable.
I don't live in a great environment. Toxic parent, little to no privacy, unreliable utilities (our tap water has been unclean for the past 2 months), and a bunch of other things... I grew up here, and I love the beach and my family. But I really do think like it's time for me to go.
So I'm planning to move in with Moonski NET April. I thought I wouldn't be ready for any kind of move until late in the year at the earliest (and frankly, I don't feel ready. The sheer amount of logistical, legal and financial responsibilities I need to undertake are overwhelming) but I don't think I can stand to live here for that long. Not after having experienced life outside.
I'm saving up money for the move and will be purchasing a ticket within the next month or so, hopefully... But work has been stagnant, and motivation low.
My only income is through art, and I've been comfortably paying off my part of the bills with leftovers from my trip, as well as some very generous donations. But if I want to live in the US, my cadence really needs to pick up and persist.. And that's one of the things that stresses me the most. I can't keep relying on donations forever. Hell, one of my biggest insecurities is being unable to become self-sufficient, which goes hand-in-hand with my art insecurity which often drags me down for days or weeks at a time. So I procrastinate to avoid the potential pitfall.
Spending hours or days on an unsuccessful sketch leads to me heavily doubting my skills which in turn means freelancing art might not be viable. And... That scares me. Because I often feel like art is or can be that safety net that will spare me from slaving my life away at a full-time job whilst barely getting by.
Granted, there are other options that I often need to be reminded of for reassurance... I could always work part-time, and do less art while having a steady income. I also toyed around with phone repair last year and found it to be quite fulfilling, so there's an opportunity there too.
I'm just scared, really. Of being an adult, and dealing with all the things that entails. Taxes in particular are a nightmare for a freelancer/small business owner. Don't even get me started on health care.
I've only ever had 3 jobs in my life, and spent less than a week at each. Two of them were a miserable experience. The rest of my time since then has been spent both depressed, and slowly recovering to where I've been able to make decent money through art.
Maybe a change in environment is all I need to clear my mind and kickstart a noteworthy art career. Maybe art just isn't for me... But I'm kinda counting on it to be a viable source of income in the short term.
I want to draw. I wish so badly I was good at it. I often get ideas I want to try out, I just.. don't.
Then there's the whole prospect of it quickly becoming a chore due to it being a job, and having little to no time for personal projects or ideas. A whole other can of worms.
Adulting fucking sucks.
But... here's to hoping I guess?
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So in light of all this, I'll be opening commissions as soon as I'm done with the last one in my queue. I'll be moving away from slots and instead of switching to forms. I'll review requests submitted and choose the ones I feel like doing.
If you've commissioned Moonski, basically that xD
There might be a slight increase in pricing as well. Stay tuned.
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My Ko-Fi. Any and every amount is appreciated.
Another year down I guess?
---
I forgot I didn't post a journal after I returned for my trip, lol.
I stayed at
Moonski's place for about a month and a half before coming back home. What can I say, it was a blast. Getting to travel for the first time in a decade, seeing other places and cultures, meeting fellow dragon-loving people with whom I could be open with, and getting to meet the love of my life. The trip was everything I could've hoped for, and everything I needed to feel like I could move forward with my life. I had never been more comfortable. I don't live in a great environment. Toxic parent, little to no privacy, unreliable utilities (our tap water has been unclean for the past 2 months), and a bunch of other things... I grew up here, and I love the beach and my family. But I really do think like it's time for me to go.
So I'm planning to move in with Moonski NET April. I thought I wouldn't be ready for any kind of move until late in the year at the earliest (and frankly, I don't feel ready. The sheer amount of logistical, legal and financial responsibilities I need to undertake are overwhelming) but I don't think I can stand to live here for that long. Not after having experienced life outside.
I'm saving up money for the move and will be purchasing a ticket within the next month or so, hopefully... But work has been stagnant, and motivation low.
My only income is through art, and I've been comfortably paying off my part of the bills with leftovers from my trip, as well as some very generous donations. But if I want to live in the US, my cadence really needs to pick up and persist.. And that's one of the things that stresses me the most. I can't keep relying on donations forever. Hell, one of my biggest insecurities is being unable to become self-sufficient, which goes hand-in-hand with my art insecurity which often drags me down for days or weeks at a time. So I procrastinate to avoid the potential pitfall.
Spending hours or days on an unsuccessful sketch leads to me heavily doubting my skills which in turn means freelancing art might not be viable. And... That scares me. Because I often feel like art is or can be that safety net that will spare me from slaving my life away at a full-time job whilst barely getting by.
Granted, there are other options that I often need to be reminded of for reassurance... I could always work part-time, and do less art while having a steady income. I also toyed around with phone repair last year and found it to be quite fulfilling, so there's an opportunity there too.
I'm just scared, really. Of being an adult, and dealing with all the things that entails. Taxes in particular are a nightmare for a freelancer/small business owner. Don't even get me started on health care.
I've only ever had 3 jobs in my life, and spent less than a week at each. Two of them were a miserable experience. The rest of my time since then has been spent both depressed, and slowly recovering to where I've been able to make decent money through art.
Maybe a change in environment is all I need to clear my mind and kickstart a noteworthy art career. Maybe art just isn't for me... But I'm kinda counting on it to be a viable source of income in the short term.
I want to draw. I wish so badly I was good at it. I often get ideas I want to try out, I just.. don't.
Then there's the whole prospect of it quickly becoming a chore due to it being a job, and having little to no time for personal projects or ideas. A whole other can of worms.
Adulting fucking sucks.
But... here's to hoping I guess?
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So in light of all this, I'll be opening commissions as soon as I'm done with the last one in my queue. I'll be moving away from slots and instead of switching to forms. I'll review requests submitted and choose the ones I feel like doing.
If you've commissioned Moonski, basically that xD
There might be a slight increase in pricing as well. Stay tuned.
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My Ko-Fi. Any and every amount is appreciated.
Moving out the house, taking risks, making major changes to you life can be a scary experience. But stay strong! I have no doubts things will get much better for you this year. Look at the future with a positive, exciting light.
Your art is amazing and there is know doubt you could make a career out of it. That doesn't go without saying it doesn't require work, as all good things in life have work attached to it. But it makes it all the more satisfying when you go through the work and succeed.
In terms of jobs, try to find something your interested in, you mentioned you found phone repair fulfilling. Once moved in with Moonski perhaps you could find something to do with phone or computer repair. Having a job you enjoy doing makes all the difference. (I know this because i enjoy my job greatly, and because of that i'm much happier day to day then I was in previous jobs I worked at)
If I were you my friend, use the prospect of a great future. The happiness, freedom and love you felt during your trip as motivation for your art and work.
I personally would love to see you with moonski, it makes me happy to see others happy and doing well. I know others that follow you and moon would love to see it as well. Have a great birthday weekend!
And yeah, I fear I wont be able to handle the demand with art along, so I might have to have an alternative source of income just in case..
It’s always good to have multiple sources of income, then if one drops you still have the other providing income.
Hey, it isn’t bad you have your art in demand! Just take up only what you can handle, either it be one, two pieces at a time. Who knows, maybe after moving in with Moonski it could become easier for you to make art and complete commissions!
Really looking forward to being out of here... I really could use the change. And more importantly, a healthier environment.