Due to the nightmare rollercoaster of my physical and emotional and psychological health and the horrendous issues it's caused me, the stupid things its caused me to do, and for the sake of trying to salvage what's left of my 'sanity', I'm doing another Clean Sweep and cancelling every free gift art I have taken on to the date of this journal, 1-15-2022.

There is nothing personal in any of this, and I apologize with all I've got for letting everyone down. I got myself overwhelmed again, and in my current state, it's vitally important that I take any and all pressure off of myself.

This time, at least, I'm learning from my mistakes and from the way things always go. From now on, I won't take anything on until I've finished the last gift I was doing. One at a time, whether I -- or anyone else-- likes it or not.
And I'll force myself to do less gifts, though that sucks because it's fun to.

I've got to make changes in myself now. I can't keep falling into the same cycle again and again, so it's time to do what I have to do, no matter how much I hate to.

Sorry for all the dismal crap. Sorry for letting people down. I don't think I realized just how bad of condition I'm actually in, until it crashed into my face like a tidal wave.

I'm going to do better, no matter what it takes....

Be safe out there, and put your health first; don't end up like me.