Still here, been 3 weeks now.

The psychiatrist took me off the new pills because "no proof they help bpd"

And im not willing to live if the best they can do for me is saying to continue going to therapy, and hoping one day it works.

Im going to kill myself the moment im out of here if that's truly it, and I have exhausted all options.

I cant get new medicine, can't get hope therapy will work, and just... I feel like I lost

There is no more help to be had, nothing

They won't help me, and im too tired to help myself

I think this is a goodbye