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Early retirement?
4 years ago
Sigh...where do i start?
first of all i want to thank everyone that´s been following me here, DA or fb the last years it means a lot to me, also is not that i just hate drawing now or anything like that...that´s not it.
It´s just that i reached a point in my life when i feel nothing i do is enough, when i was younger people used to like my stuff and i thought to myself "maybe im a bit good" and i love drawing but lately i came to realize that no matter what i do i dont seem to improve anymore and i dont seem to catch the interest of a bigger audience, the current me is not the person i thought i would be 5 years ago and to be honest...its frustrating, when i do compare myself with the artists i admire and look up to i realize more and more that i´ll never be at their level and i wont be as good or well known as they are, i wanted to use my "skills" for work and earn a bit to live but im not even close to that and it makes me feel like a failure and in a way...i am, all the goals i wanted to achieve seem more far away no matter how much i try and to be honest...im tired of it.
So...i think it will be the best to retire and seek something else to do with my life, drawing and even playing games is getting so frustrating lately that i dont feel like finishing any of my personal projects because...what´s the point? just a few people care and i wont be getting close to my goals no matter how hard i try...its been years and the situation hasnt changed a bit, and im worn out and sick of trying.
first of all i want to thank everyone that´s been following me here, DA or fb the last years it means a lot to me, also is not that i just hate drawing now or anything like that...that´s not it.
It´s just that i reached a point in my life when i feel nothing i do is enough, when i was younger people used to like my stuff and i thought to myself "maybe im a bit good" and i love drawing but lately i came to realize that no matter what i do i dont seem to improve anymore and i dont seem to catch the interest of a bigger audience, the current me is not the person i thought i would be 5 years ago and to be honest...its frustrating, when i do compare myself with the artists i admire and look up to i realize more and more that i´ll never be at their level and i wont be as good or well known as they are, i wanted to use my "skills" for work and earn a bit to live but im not even close to that and it makes me feel like a failure and in a way...i am, all the goals i wanted to achieve seem more far away no matter how much i try and to be honest...im tired of it.
So...i think it will be the best to retire and seek something else to do with my life, drawing and even playing games is getting so frustrating lately that i dont feel like finishing any of my personal projects because...what´s the point? just a few people care and i wont be getting close to my goals no matter how hard i try...its been years and the situation hasnt changed a bit, and im worn out and sick of trying.
I know I never told you this but you are one of many artists that helped me inspire to keep making sexy arts. I don't know if that'll do much but I just want you to know. And I thank you for being one of those artists.
i glad that my art inspired you, it means a lot to me but i want/need to grow up in skill and audience because this is the only
"real skill" i have and if i cant make anything of it maybe i should just quit.
i understand, and respect whatever decision you make
i always appreciate your art
thank you soi much
im so gonna miss them to be honest
but i'll respect whatever decisions you make
and i believe you will improve
The thing is that I myself don’t have a large audience nor that I feel like my own style changed much, but as long as I still enjoy what am I doing and not caring to gain popularity, that’s where it matters to me. I know what I said may not change your mind right now, but just know that we still care for you and your lovely drawings, same or not.