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4 years ago
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Hello to everyone who ended up on my profile, but this message is more for subscribers who have been watching me for a long time and waiting for art.
I'm here to say that...I've been feeling bad for the past few months. It seems to me that my psychological problems have begun to worsen. But I am not observed by any doctors or psychotherapists - alas, I do not have the opportunity for this. And money. Besides, now I have moved very far, to the south. I don’t have a normal job here yet, only the financial cushion that I have left saves. What I was saving for eye surgery. Alas, I was denied the operation after the examination, and this also crippled me emotionally. My hands drop, sometimes I don't want to get out of bed at all. Sometimes I have a burst of energy that I can't control. But for the most part, I'm depressed, whiny, and detached. I gave up self-harm at 16, but its echoes still remain (what I considered a common bad habit, it turns out, is also considered a form of self-harm, wow). I get distracted by video games, I replay fallout and this thing really makes me smile. I feel like a helpless child who cannot help himself.
What I want to say all this? In no way am I pushing for pity or anything like that! No. I want, probably, to warn in advance that I can disappear, do not publish anything for a long time. And that you don't need to lose me. Sometimes I don’t have enough energy for full-fledged pictures, but - I have a tumblr where I post some sketches and fanarts; I have a patreon that I replenish with exclusive sketches and art. There is a group in the Russian-language site, where I conduct my main activity. There are art and live profiles on instagram where you can see my activity. As long as I'm active somewhere, don't worry about me, at least I'll still be alive.
Also, I do not accept commissions for full-fledged art for an indefinite period of time (the exception is portraits). I just don't have the strength for it. Everything else - as usual. I need money, so I can’t completely close the slots (although nothing has been ordered from me for a long time).
I think that's it. Also, take care of your loved ones. You, and sometimes even them, may not be aware that they have serious problems. Please don't ignore those you care about. Perhaps this will seem to you staging, laziness or need of attention. But what if that's not the case at all? And then it might be too late.
Thank you.Краткий пересказ для рускоязычных подписчиков.
В жизни пиздец, в голове пиздец, я рисую, но весьма хуево, так что не теряйте.
