When you're hurt, you're hurt. Right now, I'm hurting.

The pain never really goes away for me, and I've been holding onto a lot of it for a long time in my life.

I don't care what anyone says, and I've already heard the whole speech about "how holding onto it only hurts the one holding onto the pain in the end." I just don't care. I hold onto it because it's all I know how to do. It's my problem, not yours. So, save your sermons for someone who really needs it.

I don't even know why I write these. It's not like anyone reads, them anyway. Maybe it's my way of dealing with it, maybe I just need to get it out. I don't know, I've never really known, and I really don't care anyway.