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♪ Dream Journal 2/3/2022 ♪
3 years ago
✧･ﾟ: *✧･ﾟ:*:･ﾟ✧*:･ﾟ✧･ﾟ: *✧･ﾟ:*:･ﾟ✧*:･ﾟ✧･ﾟ: *✧･ﾟ:*:･ﾟ✧*:･ﾟ✧･ﾟ: *✧･ﾟ:*:･ﾟ✧*:･ﾟ✧ So this journal is a bit uorthodox for me. Something people who know me would tell you is that I have VERY vivid and detailed dreams and I've been keeping a dream journal since 7th grade. It's fun to note them down in whatever level of detail I can remember and re-reading old ones is super entertaining. Anyway, I've been wanting to post these for awhile now but I've never gotten around to it. Until now :D
I don't expect anyone to read these, but if you find this and want a glimpse into my mind, well, here ya go. Feel free to ignore it, read it, comment, whatever. I'm just doing this for fun
ok so last night I had a dream about Hans 2.0 and it actually kinda made me cry. To make it clear, I'm not sure if I was Cali in this dream or myself. It could have been both at some places. All I know is that I was living or staying at my aunt's house for a few days with basically everyone in mom's side of the family. Her house was pretty much the same layout as it is IRL aside from her basement where each of the kid's rooms had a hallway leading to it rather than being flush with the wall and her house was in the roundabout I walk by on my walk at dad's house so... Not remotely in the right place. Regardless
We were there for a family reunion and for the mot part the first 1/4 of my dream was the same as back in the summer when grandma broke her back. Everyone was making sure the senile old person didn't get herself killed on accident and everyone was catching up and having a nice time. I decided that I needed to go out on a walk despite it being 20:00 and snowing so I put on my warm pants and jacket and went out. While out on my walk I found Hans 2.0.
So the mechanics had been either damaged or were too cold to function properly but I found him stumbling around in the snow with nothing on. The mind flayer body already looks pale and pathetic with all the scars I drew it with but seeing it in real life like that fucking shattered me. He was so cold and while he was a good head taller than me I was able to lift him up like a baby with ease. He seemed scared of me and asked who I was and I let him know I was a friend and that I was there to help.
Well, in typical D&D fashion I knew that I couldn't bring him inside the house because everyone would freak the fuck out, but he's like 6 foot 7 and 98lbs with no clothes in the fucking snow. I couldn't just leave him outside. Also quick note: when I say "Hans 2.0" I do mean the mind flayer with Hans and the mechanics attached. It wasn't just the mind flayer. Anyway, I didn't want to leave him out in the snow so I put him in my mom's car (which was outside on the driveway so did not help much in terms of warmth) and then said I'd be right back so I could get blankets and whatnot
After getting these blankets and basically swaddling him in them we both sat in the front seat and talked for a very long time and this is where I think I may have been Cali because all of the stuff I talked to him about in this chat was Cali backstory stuff. Or present Cali stuff? Cali stuff in general. I went on and on about how I'd done terrible things and wanted to help him to try doing some good for once. Hans 2.0 really seemed to be happy he had a friend and didn't want me to leave, but I knew if I stayed in the car all night someone would question it. It was 22:00 by this point so I told him I would go back inside the house for a bit and then come back after everyone else had gone to bed.
So this might be a weird comparison and I'd be willing to bet that no one aside from me will understand it but Hans 2.0 acted like Pumpkin from baman and piterman. Very skittish and cowardly and quiet. Like a terrified abused kitten being showed kindness for the first time. I felt so goddamn protective over this boi like I would fucking throw hands with anyone who DARED threaten to hurt him. Maybe a bit of a parental type feeling? This boi is my child and I would kill or die for him. Coming from the perspective I'm Cali in this situation it makes sense because uhhh Cali is very protective over this mind flayer and Hans. DM DON'T TOUCH MY SON
Anyway, when I went inside I mostly just had to make up excuses to my cousins why I'd been in my mom's car for so long and then spent the next two or so hours in the basement tinkering with an invention of some sort. I don't know what I was making but I knew it was going to be for Hans 2.0 so? Probably an upgrade or repair. My cousins have a literal metric ton of legos in a massive table with drawers in it in their basement and I was tinkering on that but had machine parts instead of Legos
At around midnight I deiced I'd go back out and spend the night in the car but my aunt was still awake. This aunt luckily is more open and out there than my other aunts and uncles (cool aunt FTW) and was totally fine with me burritoed in 3 blankets walking outside in the snow at midnight. So I got in the car and me and Hans 2.0 spent the rest of the night talking. Or, maybe not talking. The mind flayer was using his psyonics to tell me his life story. There were no words and no images but I somehow just understood and understood it had lived the shittiest life a creature could possibly live. Test subject for the duregar was the least bad thing I was shown. If anything, him getting killed temporarily was a kindness to him.
So yeah. Next day came around and I spent most of it getting stuff for Hans 2.0 while also keeping suspicion off my back. At around 19:00 my family said we were going to a 70's themed party and we all needed to get dressed so we could go but Hans was in my mom's car and if they saw him he was dead. Do not touch my fucking son. So I spent a long ass time stalling to prevent anyone from getting in the car but it wasn't working so I stole mom's keys and drove off in a frenzy in her car with Hans. The last part of the dream I remember was me being chased by 4 seperate cars full of different family members while Hans and I drove off into the sunset in an attempt to get away
I don't expect anyone to read these, but if you find this and want a glimpse into my mind, well, here ya go. Feel free to ignore it, read it, comment, whatever. I'm just doing this for fun
ok so last night I had a dream about Hans 2.0 and it actually kinda made me cry. To make it clear, I'm not sure if I was Cali in this dream or myself. It could have been both at some places. All I know is that I was living or staying at my aunt's house for a few days with basically everyone in mom's side of the family. Her house was pretty much the same layout as it is IRL aside from her basement where each of the kid's rooms had a hallway leading to it rather than being flush with the wall and her house was in the roundabout I walk by on my walk at dad's house so... Not remotely in the right place. Regardless
We were there for a family reunion and for the mot part the first 1/4 of my dream was the same as back in the summer when grandma broke her back. Everyone was making sure the senile old person didn't get herself killed on accident and everyone was catching up and having a nice time. I decided that I needed to go out on a walk despite it being 20:00 and snowing so I put on my warm pants and jacket and went out. While out on my walk I found Hans 2.0.
So the mechanics had been either damaged or were too cold to function properly but I found him stumbling around in the snow with nothing on. The mind flayer body already looks pale and pathetic with all the scars I drew it with but seeing it in real life like that fucking shattered me. He was so cold and while he was a good head taller than me I was able to lift him up like a baby with ease. He seemed scared of me and asked who I was and I let him know I was a friend and that I was there to help.
Well, in typical D&D fashion I knew that I couldn't bring him inside the house because everyone would freak the fuck out, but he's like 6 foot 7 and 98lbs with no clothes in the fucking snow. I couldn't just leave him outside. Also quick note: when I say "Hans 2.0" I do mean the mind flayer with Hans and the mechanics attached. It wasn't just the mind flayer. Anyway, I didn't want to leave him out in the snow so I put him in my mom's car (which was outside on the driveway so did not help much in terms of warmth) and then said I'd be right back so I could get blankets and whatnot
After getting these blankets and basically swaddling him in them we both sat in the front seat and talked for a very long time and this is where I think I may have been Cali because all of the stuff I talked to him about in this chat was Cali backstory stuff. Or present Cali stuff? Cali stuff in general. I went on and on about how I'd done terrible things and wanted to help him to try doing some good for once. Hans 2.0 really seemed to be happy he had a friend and didn't want me to leave, but I knew if I stayed in the car all night someone would question it. It was 22:00 by this point so I told him I would go back inside the house for a bit and then come back after everyone else had gone to bed.
So this might be a weird comparison and I'd be willing to bet that no one aside from me will understand it but Hans 2.0 acted like Pumpkin from baman and piterman. Very skittish and cowardly and quiet. Like a terrified abused kitten being showed kindness for the first time. I felt so goddamn protective over this boi like I would fucking throw hands with anyone who DARED threaten to hurt him. Maybe a bit of a parental type feeling? This boi is my child and I would kill or die for him. Coming from the perspective I'm Cali in this situation it makes sense because uhhh Cali is very protective over this mind flayer and Hans. DM DON'T TOUCH MY SON
Anyway, when I went inside I mostly just had to make up excuses to my cousins why I'd been in my mom's car for so long and then spent the next two or so hours in the basement tinkering with an invention of some sort. I don't know what I was making but I knew it was going to be for Hans 2.0 so? Probably an upgrade or repair. My cousins have a literal metric ton of legos in a massive table with drawers in it in their basement and I was tinkering on that but had machine parts instead of Legos
At around midnight I deiced I'd go back out and spend the night in the car but my aunt was still awake. This aunt luckily is more open and out there than my other aunts and uncles (cool aunt FTW) and was totally fine with me burritoed in 3 blankets walking outside in the snow at midnight. So I got in the car and me and Hans 2.0 spent the rest of the night talking. Or, maybe not talking. The mind flayer was using his psyonics to tell me his life story. There were no words and no images but I somehow just understood and understood it had lived the shittiest life a creature could possibly live. Test subject for the duregar was the least bad thing I was shown. If anything, him getting killed temporarily was a kindness to him.
So yeah. Next day came around and I spent most of it getting stuff for Hans 2.0 while also keeping suspicion off my back. At around 19:00 my family said we were going to a 70's themed party and we all needed to get dressed so we could go but Hans was in my mom's car and if they saw him he was dead. Do not touch my fucking son. So I spent a long ass time stalling to prevent anyone from getting in the car but it wasn't working so I stole mom's keys and drove off in a frenzy in her car with Hans. The last part of the dream I remember was me being chased by 4 seperate cars full of different family members while Hans and I drove off into the sunset in an attempt to get away
