I feel it's a little obvious at this point lol
The journals say a year ago, but it feels like 20


I left the fandom. Idk if I still refer to myself as a furry outside of memeing
but I do not identify with the fandom anymore.

To be blunt
The fandom is just gross

It's an unhealthy balance of degenerates doing what they want (most of which run this site, and why I left to FLO before full out dipping)
And the other side is just cancel culture nuts that will cancel you for color

Then when you're lucky you find that handful that was supposed to make being in the fandom "worth it"
or you find that hobby that made it "worth it"

but honestly
nothing did

I actually ended up hating drawing because I tried my very best to be a professional artist in the community, because I was disabled, and struggling harshly with poverty.
I sat there and ate a spoonful of peanut butter for 15 mins any time my blood sugar was low, and that was my meal for the day for a while. All the while, trying to draw and post daily, and give freebies to make a following that will maybe help me out by paying for my services.

Instead I got sexually harassed by people commissioning nsfw, exposed to creepy ass people to help branch out my art market, and fucked over by people that claim to be my friends

It was never worth it

and it's why I'd be like "oh, sorry I'm MIA, I'm doing xyz"
I was branching to new fandoms to get away and heal myself



But this wasn't meant to be a rant, just a bit of letting out the feelings this site has brought out for me.
But I could literally write a book on the terrible fandom people, or the staff of sites that need jail time.
But that's not why I'm here


Because this was still apart of my life.
Apart of me.
Some of my first self expressions on such a public platform.
The times I had traumatized me yes, but I also learned a lot.


I learned so much about art and networking, that helped me a lot in my next passions

But now, all that I've learned, has actually come together perfectly to help with the newest one.

I'm a vtuber now lmao

Gone are the days of drawing for people with a character to represent myself to the community

Now I will instead be drawing for myself and playing games a character to represent myself to the community lol


And this is along side my hobby, of making crafts and cosplay, preforming in said cosplays, makeup (Like clown makeup, and over the top alt makeup lol), and being a Drag Artist.


I've done so much
Especially this last year.


I worked on a mountain of trauma from my childhood, just to find the next mountain behind it.
I made and grew a following around my interests in costumes and makeup, and actually reached my first milestone there, of 1k followers on my tiktok lol.
Its more than I made on any single account I had here.

I even reached my first milestone on my Twitch as a vtuber
I'm just a few numbers away from being affiliate there, and I am only doing my 5th stream today.
Before long, I'll make money off being an anime character on the webs lol.



This wasn't supposed to be suck a long ramble and lil vent but...



The furry fandom changed me
for better or for worse

It was a stepping stone to get to the points in my life where I feel at my best.

On the 17th of this month (February) I will be turning 27
and it feels like my life has finally just began.

I'm happy to the friends I made here
I even wish the best to the people that wronged me, I hope to see you in a better light in the next one



Thank you all for the time here.
I'll probably disabled this and any of my other accounts I find at some point.

But I'll leave this up for a bit, for those couple friends that are still here that never got the chance to message me or such.
Feel free to message me and I'll let you know my discord. <3



Bye everyone. It really has been a time lol. ♥