Went for a test this week to see if I still had ADHD like I did when I was a kid. It never fully goes away of course but we wanted to see if it was better or the same or worse.

Turns out I have Generalized Anxiety Disorder (GAD) and Low-mid grade depression issues. This explains a lot about me and how I have been acting of late. But these are what give me most of my symptoms of ADHD and my cognitive issues. So in some ways, my anxiety issues mess with the front part of my brain a lot and the two other issues combined have big effects on my personality issues/learning disabilities/depression.

At least I know now. The problem is not sure yet what avenue to pursue whether it be therapy or medication (some of the side effects of the meds are really out there). So fun times.

Then on top of that found out last month that I have a permanent 35lbs weight restriction for well general lifting. Cannot do more than it for any length of time due to my hand going numb or extreme pain in my arm. They decided the nerve issues had not progressed enough to warrant another surgery and shots will only do a little as the pain/numbness only happen with lifting pretty much.

So much fun....but at least we know what we know now and maybe DVR (Department of Vocational Rehabilitation) will be better able to find me a job. So sick of sitting home and feeling useless and like a disappointment to others/myself. So hopefully maybe will be working again soon....maybe.

This also explains my relationship issues (have not been in a relationship or on a date in 22+ years now).

Thanks just venting...no worries and have a nice day....HUGS