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Medical Update; What's Next; How You Can Help
3 years ago
I finally got to update the medical post with what's been going on. I will summarize/shorten it below, but you can read it in full here: https://www.patreon.com/posts/62042189
The Update:
First, I am calling this event "Brain Ablaze". Because alliteration and shorthand is nice.
More importantly, I haven't really turned a corner, and am now in a treatment program. I thought it would be very short-term, but the path to normalcy the outlined is going to take around 2-3 MONTHS, partially because of my previous doctor ("Doctor Dumbass") fucking up my care. I am ready to commit to that, but it means I have to prioritize getting better of course.
Everything is hard, including life essentials I took for granted--things like eating are now SO difficult. My brain is completely shattered, and I have to pick up the pieces, then repair the damage, bit by bit. I'm an optimist/glass-half-full kind of guy, but this whole thing has seriously tested my ability to find the positives in such a negative situation. I don't wanna unload too much about it right now--I literally don't have the energy and I've also been writing a vent fic that I hope to eventually share; it will be the space for that and explain more to those wanting to understand.
Oh, and I almost passed out while on the toilet on Monday! I went to my new doctor ("Doctor Goodperson") about that yesterday, and it turns out feeling like razors are coming out of your ass isn't a normal part of the human experience! I thought otherwise because of people (including a health professional) in my life I trusted, who dismissed & blamed me for the problem when I tried to bring it to light. Doctor Goodperson did what she could to dig deeper into what's going on, and referred me to other health professionals who can assist further.
In short, I am improving a little, but am DEFINIELY not much better yet. If I had to put a number to it, I'd say that I was 15% better last week, thanks to my psychiatrist tinkering with my meds to help me improve. This week, I am 18% better (so far). Yes, that's a 3% increase, which is good, but there's also a large 82% to go. That's gonna take a while.
What's Next:
I'm going to keep working with my health professionals to further my recovery.
I am not posting public stories again until further notice; I will resume them when I can eat 3 meals a day again.
Patreon-exclusives and monthly games are still on b/c those I can do at least. I'm thinking that Feb's game will come out the end of this week. As previously discussed ( https://www.patreon.com/posts/62784780 ) , the demo I released on Saturday will be March's monthly project.
I'm going to try to do small commission work for current clients.
How You Can Help:
I know that some of y'all want to do what you can for me--which I super appreciate btw! Your kindness during this period has been a real blessing to me during this hard-as-hell time.
So if you want to help, here's a few things you can do for me, in no particular ranking/order:
1. Leave a comment on this post! I like knowing that I'm not just shouting into the void when I make these updates. Even if it's just a heart emoji or "Get well soon," it tells me that I am being heard right now and that is Good.
2. Send me cute birds! Little cockatiel videos are my tiny ray of sunshine for me right now, but I'm a lifetime bird nerd (probably obvious lol) and not picky! Show me the adorable little floofy dinosaurs! I love seeing them! >u< And if there's other cute/funny stuff you want to share that's non-bird related, feel free to send it my way too!
3. Show my characters some love! I mostly mean thoughts/comments on my fellas but you can do other stuff too if you'd wanna; no pressure though! My new 7 Devourly Sins ( https://toyhou.se/TastyAce/characte.....folder:2807069 ) are ones I'd love to hear words on most, but if there's a Main OC ( https://toyhou.se/TastyAce/characte.....folder:1715877 ) you think is cool, tell me! Hearing peoples' appreciation of the characters I have is rad! Even if it's something as simple as, "I like their design," those things make my whole day a little bit better!
I know those aren't big/grand ways to help my situation, but the little stuff truly goes a long way, especially right now. Plus, I don't feel 100% comfortable asking for anything bigger than things like that at this time.
Also, if you want to reach out privately, PLEASE do it! Even if you've never messaged me before, I'm totally cool with random DMs! It's 100% fine as long as you're not a douchebag.
Alright, that's all for now. Stay safe out there, and until next time, I'll be fighting the good food fight to keep myself sustained. <3
The Update:
First, I am calling this event "Brain Ablaze". Because alliteration and shorthand is nice.
More importantly, I haven't really turned a corner, and am now in a treatment program. I thought it would be very short-term, but the path to normalcy the outlined is going to take around 2-3 MONTHS, partially because of my previous doctor ("Doctor Dumbass") fucking up my care. I am ready to commit to that, but it means I have to prioritize getting better of course.
Everything is hard, including life essentials I took for granted--things like eating are now SO difficult. My brain is completely shattered, and I have to pick up the pieces, then repair the damage, bit by bit. I'm an optimist/glass-half-full kind of guy, but this whole thing has seriously tested my ability to find the positives in such a negative situation. I don't wanna unload too much about it right now--I literally don't have the energy and I've also been writing a vent fic that I hope to eventually share; it will be the space for that and explain more to those wanting to understand.
Oh, and I almost passed out while on the toilet on Monday! I went to my new doctor ("Doctor Goodperson") about that yesterday, and it turns out feeling like razors are coming out of your ass isn't a normal part of the human experience! I thought otherwise because of people (including a health professional) in my life I trusted, who dismissed & blamed me for the problem when I tried to bring it to light. Doctor Goodperson did what she could to dig deeper into what's going on, and referred me to other health professionals who can assist further.
In short, I am improving a little, but am DEFINIELY not much better yet. If I had to put a number to it, I'd say that I was 15% better last week, thanks to my psychiatrist tinkering with my meds to help me improve. This week, I am 18% better (so far). Yes, that's a 3% increase, which is good, but there's also a large 82% to go. That's gonna take a while.
What's Next:
I'm going to keep working with my health professionals to further my recovery.
I am not posting public stories again until further notice; I will resume them when I can eat 3 meals a day again.
Patreon-exclusives and monthly games are still on b/c those I can do at least. I'm thinking that Feb's game will come out the end of this week. As previously discussed ( https://www.patreon.com/posts/62784780 ) , the demo I released on Saturday will be March's monthly project.
I'm going to try to do small commission work for current clients.
How You Can Help:
I know that some of y'all want to do what you can for me--which I super appreciate btw! Your kindness during this period has been a real blessing to me during this hard-as-hell time.
So if you want to help, here's a few things you can do for me, in no particular ranking/order:
1. Leave a comment on this post! I like knowing that I'm not just shouting into the void when I make these updates. Even if it's just a heart emoji or "Get well soon," it tells me that I am being heard right now and that is Good.
2. Send me cute birds! Little cockatiel videos are my tiny ray of sunshine for me right now, but I'm a lifetime bird nerd (probably obvious lol) and not picky! Show me the adorable little floofy dinosaurs! I love seeing them! >u< And if there's other cute/funny stuff you want to share that's non-bird related, feel free to send it my way too!
3. Show my characters some love! I mostly mean thoughts/comments on my fellas but you can do other stuff too if you'd wanna; no pressure though! My new 7 Devourly Sins ( https://toyhou.se/TastyAce/characte.....folder:2807069 ) are ones I'd love to hear words on most, but if there's a Main OC ( https://toyhou.se/TastyAce/characte.....folder:1715877 ) you think is cool, tell me! Hearing peoples' appreciation of the characters I have is rad! Even if it's something as simple as, "I like their design," those things make my whole day a little bit better!
I know those aren't big/grand ways to help my situation, but the little stuff truly goes a long way, especially right now. Plus, I don't feel 100% comfortable asking for anything bigger than things like that at this time.
Also, if you want to reach out privately, PLEASE do it! Even if you've never messaged me before, I'm totally cool with random DMs! It's 100% fine as long as you're not a douchebag.
Alright, that's all for now. Stay safe out there, and until next time, I'll be fighting the good food fight to keep myself sustained. <3
realdrasticmeasures
~realdrasticmeasures
Thank you for writing this update. You are loved and we are hoping for your recovery. Hang in there hun.
Brighten
~brighten
I like the color scheme of the 7 devourly sins.
